On the first anniversary, instead of writing a book, we will talk about life
Instead of writing a book today, let’s talk about life.
Unknowingly, it has been a year. The book was published on September 3, 2020, and it was exactly one year ago as of yesterday.
Logically speaking, the one-year anniversary has passed and today is the beginning of a new year, so we shouldn’t interrupt updates, and we shouldn’t talk nonsense to everyone here.
Instead of just publishing ten or eight chapters, I should write another ten thousand words for everyone’s enjoyment. After all, everyone can see that this book is already in its middle and final stages, and the finale is expected to be only three months away.
But I still want to say that readers who are familiar with me in the group know that I work during the day and code at night after work. I don’t save manuscripts, I don’t have exaggerated hand speed, and I don’t even have an outline, so I want to achieve daily updates after get off work every day. Ten thousand words is basically a life-and-death struggle.
Yes, I don’t have an outline. I basically just rely on a main story line, and then start to fill in the details, and this story line is all in my head.
This also led to a big mistake in the middle, that is, Liu Bei's attack on Chang'an was not written well, and a lot of readers were lost. Before that, I had five or six hundred readers, but now I only have one.
There were more than a hundred people, which was very bleak.
It’s not that the sales are miserable. I have a collection of more than 40,000 and have never purchased data. However, the average subscription is less than 2,000, and the subscription ratio is 21 to 1. This proves that a large number of readers will choose to watch pirated copies.
I have a high tolerance for this group of readers, because when I was in school I had no money, so I had no choice but to watch pirated versions. Comparing my feelings, I hope that if I have the ability, I would try my best to support the genuine version. But the student party does not have much money, so everyone follows
Let me say this, you can just read the pirated version and it doesn’t matter.
I'm going too far, but let's go back to the topic I just wanted to talk about. That is, I work during the day and code at night. The time is very tight. I usually post new chapters from 9 to 11 o'clock every day, and then code the number of words to be written the next day.
, probably between a few hundred to two thousand words.
If you write more, you can update earlier the next day. If you write less, you can update later. So most of the time, if a new chapter is posted at 10 o'clock, I might not go to bed until 12-1 o'clock, and then get up around 8 o'clock the next morning.
Washed up and went to work.
This is probably my daily life, and I live like this day after day for a whole year. I only have one day of rest every month, leaving little time to go out for entertainment, socialize, and meet new friends. I
I almost forget that I am not yet 30 years old.
Today is the first anniversary of a new beginning. Someone asked me before. I used to write games, but now I suddenly write about the Three Kingdoms. Is it a big leap?
I want to tell you that the leap is not big at all.
Because I am not writing about games or history, but I am writing about life and some things I want to write.
I was born in 1994 in a village in a certain town in a certain city in a certain county in southern Hunan. I am a true rural person in the mountains. My parents went to the city to work when I was very young. I became a left-behind child. My grandparents took care of me for two years.
My grandma took care of me for two years. At the most, I remember that my grandma’s family had almost nine children from three uncles and two aunts.
Then naturally, I went to primary school in the town, boarded all the way to junior high school and high school in the county, was admitted to university, and then graduated in 2016 and found a job. I went to Shenzhen, Guangdong, and finally returned to Changsha. To put it very embarrassingly, I worked
Regardless of ability or professional level, my two years in Shenzhen were really miserable.
I felt like a disaster star. There were at least ten companies there, and all ten of them went bankrupt. There was even a very big company with a boss worth hundreds of millions, but suddenly a big disaster broke out and the company declared bankruptcy...
...It sounds funny to say it, but when you actually encounter it, you will feel too sad.
So I didn't make any money, so I went back in despair.
The place in Shenzhen was really not suitable for me. After returning to Changsha, it became normal. With a second degree, it was easy to find a place to work. It cost several thousand yuan a month and it was just daily life from 9 to 5.
So why do you want to write a book?
Winning the ig championship in 2018 is the biggest motivation for me to write a book.
Some people say that since your family is in trouble, you have to study hard. I admit that I am a person who can’t stand up to the wall. Although I passed the second degree, I am not a top student. I don’t have that destiny. The most important thing about going to college is to study hard.
lol.
Therefore, IG's championship gave me more passion and emotion. The feeling of depression that the championship has been monopolized by Koreans all year round and has not been crowned for many years was instantly released and gave me great enthusiasm.
So just like that, I embarked on the road of writing books and started League of Legends, just to continue this passion into my books and continue this myth.
It’s a pity that this book has not been finished. It’s not that I didn’t want to write it, but that I encountered too many things. My grandma and grandma passed away in 19 and 20 years respectively, which gave me a big blow. In addition, I didn’t have enough work.
Well, that period of time was so confusing that I really couldn’t pick up a pen.
It took several months for me to recover. I found a new job, and when I wanted to write about League of Legends, I could no longer find the same feeling I had at the beginning.
Vitality has replaced vitality. A twenty-seven-year-old man lives as if he is seventy-two years old.
So I was thinking that maybe I should write a new book.
What to write?
During that time, I was reading online articles and couldn't find any inspiration, but for some reason, I suddenly remembered a regret I had many years ago.
I once watched Romance of the Three Kingdoms, and I envied the brotherly love in Taoyuan.
It would be great if there was a book that could share this friendship with Liu, Guan, and Zhang, and allow me as a reader to experience this feeling.
Unfortunately, I searched for it for a long time and never found it.
Then I thought, I might as well write it myself.
This became my original intention in writing the Three Kingdoms.
Writing history is far more difficult than I imagined. It is commonplace to consult a large amount of information, analyze characters, and find map resources.
But as I learned more about it and started writing this book, I unconsciously immersed myself in it and gained a better understanding of the character. On the contrary, I gained a lot of empathy for Liu Bei.
This chapter is not over, please click on the next page to continue reading! Looking at his life is like looking at the first half of my own life, and the first half of most people's lives.
When I was young, I was full of vigor. Even though my family was poor, I relied on my uncle to support me when I was studying. I didn't study well, and I liked dogs, horses, music, and clothes. Just like me, who came from a poor family, went to college, didn't study well, but liked to play League of Legends.
When I first entered the officialdom and faced injustice, I angrily whipped the postal supervisor and resigned and took the title. Just like when I first entered the workplace and faced many things in the workplace that I didn’t like, I resigned when I disagreed.
After many years of wandering, I have not changed my original intention, but I also know how to be diplomatic. I have gone to various princes and learned many principles and understood many things. Just as I went to one company after another, from a young person who just entered the workplace to a
Now he smiles when he meets everyone, nods and bows, just like the old fritters who are used to it.
So I was like a piece of white cloth entering a dye vat. I understood that in this society, if you are too sharp, you will not hurt others. Most of the time, you will only hurt yourself. Then I learned to hide,
I learned how to be human and have my own way of survival.
Huaqiang said, if young people are not energetic, are they still called young people?
I can tell him now.
Young people may be energetic, but they must be smart and not too stupid.
After all, you were so young and vigorous, wouldn’t you have been killed in the end?
The world is like this. Having drive and passion does not mean you will succeed.
It's just that as a loser, I'm actually not qualified to teach you how to do it here. I'm just sharing and complaining about my own life here.
You don’t need to get much resonance from me, and you don’t need to think that you can learn many lessons from me, it’s meaningless.
I digress again and come back to the Book of the Three Kingdoms.
As I said just now, the original intention of writing the Book of the Three Kingdoms was just a regret from the past.
But as I wrote more deeply, it gave me more of a sense of immersion.
Because what I see in Liu Bei is my own shadow.
The only difference between us ordinary people and Liu Bei is that he succeeded in the end, so he could not change his original intention. Because of Guan Yu's death, he became angry and took revenge with the whole country. Even after he died, he still had no regrets.
And we may be like this in this life, and then slowly sink and sink, like walking zombies, and live out this life.
certainly.
I mean most people.
There may be outstanding people and heroes who can adapt to the current situation. Even if their families are poor, they can still get ahead.
But how many such people can there be?
Most of them are just ordinary people who are as ordinary as weeds.
Ordinary people can no longer be ordinary, ordinary people can no longer be ordinary, and life will be without any troubles.
After saying so much, I actually just want to say that what Liu Bei brought to me is a kind of inspiration for ordinary people to work hard and eventually achieve glory.
Maybe we will never be like Liu Bei who lived half of his life with difficulty and finally became a late bloomer in his later years, but at least we are still a part of this world and we are still working hard towards success.
So just like that, I regained the passion and emotion I had before, and worked hard to write the book "Three Kingdoms" without leaving any regrets for myself.
In life, it’s normal to have ups and downs.
I'm not a great person, I'm not smart, I don't have talent, but I have a carrying heart.
I hope that after three months, this book will have a perfect ending.
I hope that every ordinary person can find this motivation to strive upward from my book and eventually achieve success.
Then I will write a new book that continues to bring me passion and excitement, and then I will order more than 10,000 yuan, and then I will earn tens of thousands a month. Not to mention becoming a great master, at least it will allow me to quit my current job, return to my hometown, and bring others with me.
I'll be fine with my dog and cat until I get old.
This is my biggest goal and long-term vision now.
It's very small, but for me and more than 90% of the people in China, earning tens of thousands a month is a luxury.
So this has become my ultimate goal and I am working hard for this goal!
Work hard!
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My dog's name is Pipi, she is one and a half years old, female, and she is a 3-month-old golden retriever that I picked up next to the trash can near the company last year.
My cat's name is Dandan, a three-month-old female. I picked up a 2-month-old calico cat at the downstairs door of the rented house on July 26.
The reason why I picked them up was that other stray cats and dogs were very wary of people and would run away as soon as people came near. But when I walked over, they would rub their faces against my trousers.
They are living a good life now, except for the occasional quarrels every day, and Pippi wants to kiss her balls, but is always beaten by her balls.
I hope that in a few years, while I can support myself by writing books, I can take them back to my hometown, build a house in the mountains, and live with my parents. In my free time, I can go fishing with a few friends or go for a run in the mountains.
Exercise and exercise.
Then many years later, Dandan no longer beats Pippi, and Pippi will no longer be so energetic and causing trouble all day long.
They would lie down in the yard and cuddle together, like a pair of old sisters who have been together for many years, lazily basking in the sun on this quiet evening, slowly closing their eyes and enjoying the warm afternoon.
The wind is blowing, ashes are falling, and the sun is slowly setting.
I lay in the yard, shaking my fan, looking at the stars in the sky, just like many years ago, my grandma and grandma held me in their arms, and on this same summer night, they softly hummed songs and sent me to sleep.