Just like some extremely small details, for example, Baili Jian likes to use his left hand to pinch the vegetables in the bowl when eating, for example, Fang Wuhui is slightly unnatural when walking, and for example, Feiye, on countless occasions when there is no one else,
The way he looked at Shi Yingxue was always playful and scary...
These details were so real that Yingxue even wondered whether they were real in the past or are they real now?
Did I dream about butterflies, or did butterflies dream about me?
At the beginning, Shi Yingxue couldn't think clearly.
Later, she knew whether this was reality, but it was a hundred times more painful than reality.
Just like at this moment, Shi Yingxue couldn't control her behavior and could only watch her hand raised high like frost.
She looked at the person in front of her. It was obviously Yao Linlin with a ferocious face, which made her feel extremely disgusted. But when she raised the sword, the person in front of her suddenly turned into Baili Jian, who was shocked and white-haired.
Just as there is no turning back when a bow is drawn, it is often difficult to take back a sword that has been raised.
Shi Yingxue could only watch her sword slowly fall and fall again, but everything was irreversible.
Even if she screamed and shouted and the master got out of the way, Baili Jian still couldn't dodge the sword.
Baili Jian is no longer the energetic old man in Shi Yingxue's impression. Now Shi Yingxue's realm is not far behind him, and he can barely be considered evenly matched in terms of strength.
However, just as Shi Yingxue was unwilling to take action against Baili Jian no matter what, Baili Jian was also unwilling to take action against the disciple he had carefully raised.
Then the shock in his eyes slowly turned into connivance, then into helplessness. Then the sword suddenly pierced Baili Jian's chest.
The blood kept pouring out, and Shi Yingxue let go of Yi Rushuang in her hand, and knelt down beside Baili Jian as if she had lost her backbone.
She cried with tears all over her face and wanted to press the wound on Bailijian's chest with her hands. However, blood was still gushing out through her fingers. Shi Yingxue could only press in vain, crying more and more.
Loud.
Baili Jian's body became colder and colder. Shi Yingxue screamed and looked at the dying master, crying in surprise and regret: "Master... master... why on earth did it become like this?"
But how could a dying person answer her question?
Shi Yingxue didn't know why she had to suffer such pain.
The only thing she knew was that she couldn't see the end of this pain.
Shi Yingxue could no longer remember how many people around her she had killed with her own hands.
At first it was Xiuxiu.
She was obviously looking for the medicinal herbs she wanted in a corner of the Hidden Front Valley, when someone stabbed at her from behind, mixed with a strong murderous intention.
She subconsciously aimed a sword with her backhand, but she did not expect to hear a familiar voice cry out in pain. When Yingxue looked back, she saw Xiuxiu lying in a pool of blood, with thick eyebrows and big eyes in disbelief.
Shi Yingxue killed Xiu Xiu twenty times, in various ways, in various ways that she wanted to avoid but inexplicably went back to kill her, and witnessed Xiu Xiu's death twenty times.
She knew that if it were real life, all this would not happen. Although she felt collapsed and confused in her heart, she could barely maintain her sanity, telling herself that she should be trapped in some kind of dilemma and illusion, which made her
Don't let yourself collapse.
Then someone was replaced.
Each one was closer than the last, and each one caused Shi Yingxue more pain than the last. All of them were from Zangfeng Valley.
And now, the person who will definitely be killed by her own hands has become Baili Jian.
Maybe it was her young age, maybe it was Baili Jian who was the first person to save her from her past life, or maybe Baili Jian was no longer alive, and he became the cinnabar in Shi Yingxue's heart that hurt when touched.
Moles and Bailijian's status in her mind was much more important than she thought.
Killing Baili Jian with her own hands gave her a far greater impact than killing anyone else. It was so right.
When he killed Baili Jian for the first time, Shi Yingxue almost forgot that she was in an illusion, and collapsed in pain to the point of wanting to commit suicide.
Shi Yingxue thought that the pain would diminish with the increase in frequency, but she did not expect that she would collapse more and more each time.
She couldn't remember exactly how many times she had killed Baili Jian.
Shi Yingxue only felt that her sea of consciousness was collapsing piece by piece.
The state of mind that was still struggling to maintain was only a little bit away from collapse. Shi Yingxue didn't know when her critical point would explode.
She wanted to end it all so much, she wanted to stay far away from it all.
It is true that Shi Yingxue has killed many people and done many things that took human lives in the past twenty years, but she has always felt that she has a clear conscience.
She never thought that she would kill Bailijian.
Even though Shi Yingxue clearly knew that she was in an illusion, she killed Baili Jian again and again with her own hands, which brought Shi Yingxue far more guilt than others.
Is it retribution?
Shi Yingxue didn't think she would get retribution.
But if it wasn't retribution, why was she in so much pain here?
Baili Jian's corpse beside Shi Yingxue gradually turned into light and disappeared.
But a strange laughter appeared in her ears: "Do you regret it?"
She felt pain in her heart, but also felt strangely numb.
She didn't know what she should regret at all.
So the voice said again: "You don't need to think about what you regret. You just need to tell me that you don't regret it. If you say you regret it, then all this can be over."
The sound is full of temptation.
Ending it all? It does seem to be an exciting option.
But she doesn't.
If you want her to admit something, she must know what she is admitting.
Do you regret letting Baili Jian take you away and embark on this path of cultivation?
No, she doesn't regret it.
Do you regret that you went to check Cao'er Ya'er's body and ended up in this situation inexplicably?
No, she won't regret it either.
Shi Yingxue believed that although not everything she had done in her life was right, she could touch her conscience and say that she would never regret it.
no way.
It is absolutely impossible to make her regret something that she does not regret at all. Even if she dies, her soul will still be unyielding.
She is naturally open-minded and free-spirited, and the most valuable thing about her is her perseverance.
So the voice was full of impatience: "If you don't eat the toast, you will be punished with a drink!"