Shi Yingxue thought that the silent Lianyi acquiesced to her question.
She sighed again and said: "What you don't know is that I never know how to let go of the knot in my heart. I always feel that I should be able to forgive her, but sometimes when I look back, I don't know
After I forgive her this time, will she cheat on me again?"
Gong Tingyu knew that her betrayal and deception had caused harm to Shi Yingxue, but she didn't know that she had caused so much harm to Shi Yingxue.
Shi Yingxue struggled in pain, and she also cried with Shi Yingxue in sadness.
"I'm not a tool without feelings. I once gave her the most sincere trust in my heart, and believed that we could go to Heaven together in the future. But I didn't expect that in the end she wanted to use my spiritual fire to ascend to power.
My whole being is included in it. So, what does my trust back then count?”
Shi Yingxue always thought that the person listening to her was Lianyi, so she told her everything she wanted to say without any scruples, hoping to get some understanding and advice from Lianyi.
"After that, I no longer dared to be so close to others. I always thought that she was so close to me, was it because of my spiritual fire and ability?
Whether it was Mr. Ming whom I met later, Bai Haoyu or Ke Yi, the young master of Lieri Villa, I always felt that these people were not really friends with me. At this time, I would always feel particularly troubled and difficult to resolve."
In fact, after all is said and done, it is just a crisis of trust.
Shi Yingxue left her parents when she was young. She did not get any friendly treatment in the chaotic and absurd sect of Zangfeng Valley. She was forced to instill the idea that the strong are respected when she was very young.
Ah, her willingness to open up her heart and interact with Gong Tingyu was originally very valuable.
But Gong Tingyu finally deceived her, took advantage of her good intentions and worries, and even trampled on the ground the very close and pure friendship between them that supported each other. This pair of people were originally gentle and even a little introverted.
For an autistic girl, it is almost a fatal blow.
Of course, it was not just Gong Tingyu who dealt a blow to Shi Yingxue, but also Shi Yingxue's former senior sister Yuan Ruo, who also dealt a huge blow to Shi Yingxue.
From then on, it was difficult for Shi Yingxue to trust others. Apart from Ye Qingqiu, Master Fang and Senior Sister Yuan Qian, she had no other new close friends, not even Guo Gan, who she had shared secrets with.
, are not real friends to her.
Ye Qingqiu and Master Fang are both masters, and Senior Sister Yuan Qian is the senior sister. To Shi Yingxue, they are more like his relatives than his friends - so Shi Yingxue really doesn't have a friend.
She always felt that there was no real friendship behind the intimacy, and there seemed to be many other hidden purposes. It was a bit like "once bitten by a snake, you will be afraid of well ropes for ten years".
Gong Tingyu, who had been silent all the time, couldn't bear it anymore. She didn't know that her behavior had caused such great harm to Shi Yingxue.
She sat down next to Shi Yingxue and said in her very young voice: "Yingxue, it's me who is sorry for you. I never thought that I would cause such great harm to you. It was me who did this."
wrong."
Shi Yingxue always thought that the people around her were ripples, that's why she said so much. When she heard Gong Tingyu's childish voice, she stood up almost reflexively, looked at her in surprise, and then said so naturally
He reached out and quickly wiped his face.
It turned out that she was also in tears.
Although her tone just now was very calm, in fact, her heart was shattered when she expressed her pain again.
But Shi Yingxue was actually unwilling to say these words to Gong Tingyu even if she was choked to death.
Now these words were completely heard by Gong Tingyu, and Shi Yingxue was almost frightened.
Shi Yingxue was afraid to look directly into Gong Tingyu's eyes. She stood up in a hurry and wanted to leave again.
But Gong Tingyu didn't let Shi Yingxue leave like this this time. She didn't know where the courage came from, and she got up from where she was, hugged Shi Yingxue's arm, and held her tightly.
, refused her to leave.
"Yingxue! Listen to me! As long as you are willing to listen to what I have to say, it doesn't matter if you don't forgive me. It is the greatest fate for me to live my life again and meet you again. I don't ask for anything.
I just ask you to listen to what I have to say."
Gong Tingyu cried hard, but she didn't dare to reach out to wipe the tears on her face, for fear that if she let go of one hand to wipe her eyes, the other hand would be unable to hold Shi Yingxue, so she let it go
Tears fell down his face, but he still held on to Shi Yingxue.
"you......"
Shi Yingxue originally wanted to make up her mind and throw Gong Tingyu's hand away directly, but when she saw Gong Tingyu's face turned red from crying, she felt sad for some reason, so she finally stopped.
He stayed in place, just looking away.
"You heard that I, Yingxue, was really obsessed with what happened back then. I know I was wrong. I will never deceive others' sincere feelings again. I know I was wrong, even if you will never forgive me again.
I also know I was wrong.
When I suffered a hemorrhage, I was actually not dead. I had already avenged the grudges between the Ming family and the Gong family, as well as Si Mingjing. I heard what you said to me in front of my grave.
Originally, my obsession was not deep at first, and I would lose my soul if I could not survive the reincarnation when I was in Liangfu Mountain. But after all, I still feel that the only person I am sorry for in this life is you.
When I went to Liangfu Mountain to die, all those ghosts made things difficult for me. Even Heaven said that I could not die, saying that I had done too much killing in my previous life and that I was destined to fall into the realm of animals and was not worthy of being a human..."
Gong Tingyu was crying so much that she couldn't see Shi Yingxue clearly in front of her, but she still tried to speak.
The Wolf King had taken her soul out of the Ghost King's seal and sent her to Liangfu Mountain to be reincarnated. However, when she was the Ghost King, she killed too many people on Feiye's behalf. She had indeed committed too many sins and could not
Reincarnation.
In fact, if someone had told her those things in her previous life, she would definitely not believe it - she had experienced everything from going up mountains of swords to seas of fire, stepping on braziers and crossing oil pans.
Those ghosts said that if she did not do this, she would not be able to reincarnate, and the rules of heaven would not allow a soul that has not washed away all its sins to enter reincarnation again.