But Annan realized the despair of Isaac, who was still young at the time, from Isaac's plain narrative.
When I was most eager for knowledge, the door to seeking knowledge was abruptly closed.
"What after that?"
Annan couldn't help but ask.
"how to say……"
Isaac stopped.
He raised his head and looked at the sky.
The sky over Denisoa is as blue as ever.
It was just like the sky he saw outside the window when he was locked in a small dark room.
"My heart at that time... was even filled with hatred."
Isaac whispered: "I wanted to die at that time - I wanted to crash on the corner of the table so that their family could not use me to get money. My uncle might still avenge me... but I'm afraid
It hurt, so I didn't do it.
"Then I changed my mind...even if I die, I should never let them go. Because in the end, I don't owe them anything, but they owe me.
"——My mother who coaxed me to give out money; my stepfather who took all the money away; my younger brothers and sisters who laughed at me for being a "nerd"; my grandmother who didn't want anything to happen to me and locked me up because I couldn't get the money...
…I even want to light my room on fire and burn myself and all of them to death.
"Perhaps in a certain future, I have indeed done this. After all, the hatred is too strong and realistic, as disgusting as the visceral smell overflowing from the cut abdomen.
"At that time, I even doubted...suspected whether I had killed them and been imprisoned. And because of this, I went crazy and had hallucinations, thinking that I hadn't done it yet...
"But in the end, I calmed down. Because I saw the books in my room.
"——I think, if I burn this room down, they will be burned down too. I still have a chance to read books, and maybe somewhere else, there are children who are as eager for knowledge as me, but they can't even read books.
Neither can afford it.
"So I thought, if I really can't go to school... I'll teach myself."
Isaac's voice was sonorous and firm: "The books I bought contain a lot of knowledge that we haven't learned or been exposed to yet. I bought those books partly because I couldn't wait, and partly because I couldn't wait to
In order to show off my talents to my classmates - look, I can even read such advanced books.
"Of course, I can't actually read those books. Even if I can understand some of them, I only have a partial understanding.
"But I couldn't go out anyway. So I concentrated on studying mathematics, and a month passed like this...my uncle still didn't get any money."
At this point, Isaac's voice gradually became ethereal: "So, they took my books and sold them, and not a single one was left.
"Part of the money sold was used to repay the debt of the orchard. The other part was used to celebrate my sister's birthday - I was given a chicken leg and a bowl of ham soup to encourage my 'contribution'
.But I couldn’t eat it at all, I even felt sick.
"So I put them on my sister's head. And that was the first time in my life that I got spanked - but I watched her cry, but I just wanted to laugh. So I laughed out loud while being spanked.
Voice.
"Maybe the whisper was too unpleasant. My stepfather was afraid of me and didn't dare to beat me again. I was just locked in a small dark room - this time even the food was only half the weight, and even the whale oil lamp was
There is none, let alone scratch paper that can only be used with a light.
"But I had expected it."
Isaac said with a smile on his face: "I had already guessed that sooner or later they would sell my books. In fact, I had almost memorized them in that month.
"Even if there are no books, no pens, and no light, they can't stop me from continuing to learn - at least until I finish digesting the knowledge."
"So, I was in a dark little room, I closed my eyes, and used my imagination to construct formulas. I imagined words made up of light, which emerged in front of me... My imagination is very good, and these numbers
Even if it changes rapidly, it will not collapse.
“Until one day, when I instinctively reached out my hand and wrote ‘numbers’ in the void like a pen as usual.
"——The green light reflected by the 'numbers' illuminated my fingers in the dark night."
This is the talent of a "wizard".
Annan heard it immediately.
Because of his extremely strong desire and extremely clear desire, the young Isaac became a "witch apprentice" without any teacher.
According to Isaac's narration, his stepfather is obviously the type who doesn't let go of the eagle when he sees the rabbit. If he can't be suppressed, he won't care at all that even the last name is different from his own, "the child of his wife's previous husband"
child".
As Isaac's mother's childhood sweetheart, Isaac's mother was originally supposed to marry him. But in the end she married "Flamel" who had better talents, more handsome appearance and nobler blood.
”.
Annan could even imagine that Isaac's stepfather would probably call him an "elven bastard" or something like that.
After all, Isaac's mere existence proves his failure - he is not the winner who won Isaac's mother, but a spare tire.
Even though Isaac's biological father has been dead for many years, he still does not receive all the love from Isaac's mother.
Now, he even needs money from Uncle Isaac to make a living.
His self-esteem has been completely unbalanced, and even if he does something more extreme, it is possible...
"After that, another month passed. My stepfather finally learned the news that my uncle had passed away... I believe he was also desperate at that time."
Because the money he borrowed is destined to be repaid.
Once someone finds out, even if he resells the orchard, the price will be deliberately lowered. In the end, he will be heavily in debt no matter what.
"So, he sent me to a gambling stall. Using the Flamel bloodline as a gimmick, he hoped to use me to pay off his debts. The reason was that 'there is someone who pays a sum of money every month for him.' But I
I believe that he actually just wanted to take the opportunity to get rid of me because I was useless."
The corners of Isaac's mouth raised slightly, with a sneer on his face: "But there is no such thing as a good thing in gambling stalls. Gambling stalls are places that eat people without spitting out their bones, and it is impossible for a real pawn shop to accept such a big deal.
living person.
"So the gambling stall exchanged me for a sum of chips and let him gamble. Needless to say, the result was that not only did he lose everything, but he even risked his own life. The Tower of Black Glory lacks this kind of
It's a 'teaching tool' that you don't have to worry about even if you die.
"And he has always been a deadbeat, so naturally he would not be willing to admit defeat. So he found an opportunity and slipped out... Just like that person.
"The gambling stall owner obviously didn't need a big man like him. So the thugs who caught up with him showed no mercy at all - instead they beat him to death on the street and put a fish hook through his belly.
, hung on the stake. It was used to warn other slaves not to think about escaping.
"But I'm worth much more than him. The stall owner put his hand on my shoulder and asked me to watch him being beaten to death with one beat after another. The stall owner told me that children are worth more than adults. He doesn't know how.
Sell me to the Tower of Black Glory.
"Then he asked me, 'Do you have anything to say? What are you good at? Do you have any special value? If you don't say it, it might be too late.'
"So I calmly told him, 'That man sold me cheaply.' So I showed him the magic I had learned.
"At that time, he was very happy. The stall owner told me that he could sponsor me to study in the Wizard Tower, provided that I signed a contract with him to come back and serve him for sixty years after graduation. He also asked me what I wanted.
Where to go.”
"...You said at that time that you were going to the Jade Pagoda?"
Annan asked.
Isaac chuckled: "Of course not.
"I told him that I wanted to sell myself again. The price was the difference between the value of 'Flamel' and the value of 'Flamel the Magic'.
"——And I took this bargaining chip to win myself back in his gambling stall, and also won a tuition fee. Of course I don't want to go back to Denisaw Theological Seminary... I
Since I can't become the bishop of Javon, I can't gain power. I will still be hurt by others, just like before. And being a mathematician can't change anything at all.
"I wanted to gain real power - I wanted to be a wizard.
"The stall owner lost money, but he didn't make things difficult for me. Instead, he explained the 'Wizard War' that just ended to me seriously, told me the differences between the various schools, and worked with me to choose the appropriate school. He also gave me
I gave me a traveling fee and sent my men to escort me out of the city... until I was in front of the Jade Pagoda.
"He told me: 'You have to make this fucking world a better place. This promise is what you sold me.'"
Isaac's emerald green pupils seemed to be burning with fire: "I always remember this promise, and I also remember his name.
"His name is Damastes Burning Fang. A loser in the 'Scorching Fang' family. He once passionately wanted to work hard to change the world, but in the end he chose to go along with it... a sinner.
"Although he broke many laws, Denisoya's laws could not punish him - because a few years after he sent me out, his enemies came to kill him. He wiped out his entire family.
"
"...What happens next?"
"later……"
Isaac's deep lake-green pupils looked outside: "I may have succeeded, or I may have failed. I did make the world a better place...but maybe it didn't become too good, maybe it was better than what I saw.
It's worse.
"But I have actually done everything I can do - I have tried hard. I have failed. I am not a god. I try my best, but I can only go so far..."
Isaac said, looking at Annan with some hope and some confusion: "But I think you should be different... Your Majesty. Probably different."
Annan remained silent, slightly clenching his cane.
As he thought, the bottom of Annan's pupils ignited slightly with light. Then it was immediately sucked away by his ring.
He was silent for a long time and then suddenly spoke.
"Do you still remember the location of the gambling stall?
"If you remember... take me to see you."
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