Late at night, in the hotel room, the dim bedside light was on. Xiaohan turned over on the bed and woke up unconsciously.
Suddenly, she found that the bed next door was empty.
Xue Han rubbed his eyes and blurted out: "Mom!"
At this time, Cheng Tianfang hurriedly walked in and asked in a worried voice: "Mom is here.
Mom is here.
What's wrong?
Xiaohan had a nightmare?"
Xue Han hugged the quilt in front of him and shook his head.
"Mom, why aren't you sleeping yet?
It’s very late.”
Cheng Tianfang gave a bitter smile and whispered: "Mom is still adjusting to the jet lag...are you not used to sleeping with the lights on?
Mom, please turn off the light for you, okay?"
"No."
Xue Han murmured: "It is best to turn on a small light when sleeping in a strange place, otherwise you will not be able to sleep."
Cheng Tianfang's eyes blurred for a moment, then he smiled softly: "When I was a child, I was also afraid of the darkness in the room, and I couldn't sleep without turning on a small light."
"oh?"
Xue Han yawned and lay back lazily, "Then I guess this is particularly like you."
Cheng Tianfang pulled up her silk pajamas and smiled softly: "There are street lamps and lights everywhere now. Even if you turn off the lights, there will still be all kinds of light reflected in. The room is somewhat bright, unless you turn off the lights."
Layer curtains.
When my mother was a child, she lived in the countryside. When it got dark, everything was dark.
I was afraid of the dark, so my uncle could only light an oil lamp to coax me to sleep, while he sat under the lamp doing handicrafts.
When the moonlight is good, my grandparents still have to go out to work in the fields.
If there is no moon, they will go to bed after eating, because they have to start working before dawn and will be very tired at night.
I couldn't sleep, so I stared at the oil lamp in a daze, and then fell asleep."
"Oil lamp...?
What is it?"
Xue Han asked curiously: "What kind of oil is used to burn the lamp?"
Gasoline?”
Cheng Tianfang replied: "Kerosene only produces a small bright spot when it burns, and most of the house cannot light up."
Xue Han felt sad for a while and couldn't help asking: "Is there no power?
When will you have electric lights?"
Cheng Tianfang thought hard and answered: "Later, my uncle stopped studying and went to the city to work for the supply and marketing cooperative to make money.
Half of the money he earned paid off his debts, and the other half helped improve his family's life.
I remember that after he made money for two months, electricity was finally installed in his house. As long as he pulled the cord, the lights would turn on.
Electric lamps are much better than oil lamps, and they illuminate the room brightly.
I like it so much that I have to turn on the light even when I sleep.
Grandma refused and always coaxed me to fall asleep quickly, because the electricity bill at that time was very expensive and the family could not afford it.
I was still young at that time and didn't understand how hard it was to make money, so I had to keep the light on all the time.
Grandpa sighed helplessly, while grandma stood aside and secretly wiped her tears.
Uncle told me to sleep well and not cry. As long as I didn’t cry, he would keep the light on..." As she spoke, she unknowingly burst into tears.
Xue Han felt uncomfortable and asked, "Mom, was your family so poor before?"
"Um."
Cheng Tianfang replied: “I am very poor, very poor, and often too poor to open the pot.
However, at that time, most families were similar and had barely enough food to eat, which was considered pretty good.
It was not until my uncle went to make money that the family gradually got better.
After he made money, he took me to primary school and bought me a small military-colored schoolbag from the city. There was a little red star on it, which was very nice.
I’ve made all the friends in the village envious!”
Xue Han thought for a while and asked: "Then why didn't uncle go make money earlier?"
Cheng Tianfang smiled bitterly: "Uncle, his academic performance is very good, he always ranks first in the exam.
But my family was too poor and had no money to pay tuition.
My uncle had already been admitted to college, but his family couldn't afford a few dollars... He quietly tore up the notice and went to work in the city.
As soon as he made money, he sent me to primary school and advised me to study hard, and he would support me in college in the future.
He couldn't bear to eat or wear anything. He made steamed buns and pickles every day, and only spent a penny of it broken in half.
Sometimes, in order to save travel expenses, I would rather run and walk home than take a donkey cart.
We set out in the middle of the night and walked for several hours on the mountain road to get back. When we got home at dawn, our cloth shoes were covered with mud.
After coming back, he immediately helped me with the farm work and told me to listen carefully in class and not to whisper and play around all the time.
It's a pity that I... had no intention of learning, and I failed to live up to his hard work and hard work."
Xue Han was stunned, and his mind suddenly went blank.
Suddenly, she remembered the scene when her uncle stopped her and ran out in the middle of the night.
Under the bright street light, her uncle's face was gloomy, and he tried to coax her and persuade her while holding back his temper. His eyes were full of anger and helplessness.
At that time, my uncle saw that she had no interest in studying, so she used her class time to sneak out and fall in love. He even used his training class fees to buy mobile phones for boys to recharge, buy junk food to eat, and use the remaining money to play online games.
Game, how disappointed and angry he was! Because he had placed such deep hopes on his mother, and also on her.
My father, who readily paid for his training, was still working overtime in the study room in the middle of the night. He had to go to work and take care of his sick grandpa and grandma, and he couldn't even take care of his sore back.
Thinking of this, the guilt in her heart grew stronger and stronger, and tears fell from the corners of her eyes unconsciously.
Cheng Tianfang lowered his eyes and murmured: "I have disappointed my grandparents, and I have also disappointed my uncle and aunt... I have been disappointed too much, too much.
I regret it. I still regret it and live in regret.
But what if I regret it?
The most unlikely medicine in the world is the medicine of regret."
"Mom..." Xue Han whispered.
Cheng Tianfang suddenly came to his senses, and he suddenly hugged his daughter in his arms with excitement, sobbing uncomfortably.
"Xiaohan, my eldest cousin was here earlier, so I can't tell you too much.
Mom, no matter how good your relationship with that man is, Mom, I beg you to open your eyes and see clearly, never imitate Mom... Mom regrets it to death! Don't be like Mom, living in regrets all your life! Don't do it!
Don’t…don’t make the same mistake as your mother…wuwuwu!”
Xue Han was confused and couldn't help but ask: "Mom, do you know?
What do you regret?"
Cheng Tianfang swallowed even more: "Yes, your dad called me and told me.
He said you had a good relationship with a gangster...and you often went out with him and had no intention of going to school.
During the time I was abroad, your grades got worse and worse, and you even ranked second to last in the class.
Your dad was very helpless and said that he was so angry at first that he even quarreled with you on the street. Fortunately, your aunt stopped you.
He said, I hope I will come back soon and help you find a school for you to transfer to.
He is also secretly worried, fearing that you will go astray in the future and be doomed."
"...I know I was wrong."
Xue Han wiped her tears and whispered: "I...I will never contact him again...he is a bad person."
Cheng Tianfang looked at her daughter suspiciously and asked, "Is he bad?
How come you didn't know this before?
How on earth did you get involved with that kind of gangster?"
Xue Han lowered his head and kept his voice very low.
"He borrowed an online loan...and couldn't pay it back, so he asked me for money."
Cheng Tianfang squinted his eyes and said in a deep voice: "Speak more carefully."