When did she start to realize that her life was different from other people's?
Her childhood was spent among the people.
The first time I realized that I was different from others was probably when I was three years old.
Watching other neighbor children playing outside, she was ordered not to go out.
The wet nurse named Feng said it was because her status was different from theirs.
Identity? What is identity?
Is there any difference between everyone?
She didn't know, at that time she only had one idea, it would be great if someone could rescue her from that little cage.
The second time she realized that she was different from others was when she was also three years old. It was the first time she looked in the mirror.
Looking at the little man with three thousand snow-colored hair in the dim bronze mirror, she wondered why her hair color was different from the others.
The wet nurse said that this is the hair color that only the most noble people in the world can have.
She doesn't know what's so noble about white hair. Doesn't the old housekeeper and grandma in the family also have white hair?
The third time I realized that I was different from others was when I was four years old.
That day, she sat in the yard, listening to the cheers from Chang'an, and was in a daze.
The wet nurse told her that this was the emperor's abdication and that the new emperor had ascended the throne. She should live a good life and never go out.
why?
Everyone is obviously happy, why can't I go out?
She still had the same idea, it would be great if someone could rescue her from this little prison.
The fourth time I realized that I was different from others was when I was seven years old.
That year, when she was taken back to the palace and waved goodbye to the wet nurse, she already knew that this might be the last time she saw the wet nurse.
She already knows her identity.
The former empress of the Han Dynasty and the current daughter of Princess Ding'an.
Her father was an emperor, and her maternal grandfather was also an emperor.
She began to live cautiously.
The princes and daughters in the palace have nothing to do with her, and she has no status. She is just raised as a palace maid in her mother's room.
She learned about the death of her two uncles by her grandfather.
She also witnessed another uncle being forced to commit suicide by her grandfather.
Her only support is her mother.
It would be great if someone could rescue her from Weiyang Palace.
When the Green Forest Army invaded Chang'an, she thought: It would be great if someone could rescue her from Chang'an City.
That day was also the last day she saw the nanny.
The nurse took over her mother's identity and burned herself to death in Weiyang Palace.
She didn't look back, she just wanted to live.
Arriving on the outskirts of Luoyang, she moved into Fenggu Village.
Living conditions are much worse than before, but she is very happy.
People pursue peace of mind in life, and she feels at ease here.
Because I can survive.
But that night, when her originally gentle mother pinched her neck with a ferocious expression, she understood that she still couldn't feel at ease here.
Forget it, she was already very tired just from living.
She gave up the struggle.
Last thought, it would be great if someone could rescue her from Fenggu Village.
When she woke up again, she found that she had become a newborn baby.
Maybe...I can usher in a new life?
But the woman lying next to her, her mother, made her give up the idea.
That white hair, that embrace, and that face were all too familiar to her.
That's my mother's face.
Sixteen years, she was imprisoned here for sixteen years.
Without a name, I can't go out.
Sixteen years later, she was beheaded by her mother on the altar.
When she opened her eyes again, she was still a baby.
Mother... is still the same mother.
The village is still the same Fenggu Village.
She thought about committing suicide.
But it hurts so much...
Moreover, he cannot die.
The mother said that this was both a gift and a curse. Only God could free them, so she had to be sacrificed to please God.
At the age of sixteen, she was burned to death on the altar.
When I opened my eyes again, it was still the same mother, the same Fenggu Village.
The difference is that everyone's clothes have changed a lot, and the people who were originally known in the village are no longer there.
Only then did she realize that a hundred years had passed.
So she thought of running away.
She has been waiting for the opportunity.
This wait is a thousand years.
She died twenty more times.
Struck by lightning, flooded, skinned, pierced through the heart, beheaded, burned...
Her immortality became stronger and stronger, and the method her mother used to kill her during the sacrifice became more and more cruel.
She has always been actively cooperative.
She is patient, she is waiting.
Finally, gradually, her mother relaxed her control over her.
She is free to roam the village.
But no one will approach her. White hair is a bad luck star. This is their legend.
It was a legend that was deliberately passed down in the village by my mother.
No one will help her.
But it doesn't matter, she just wants to escape.
She was very successful in escaping from the village. That day, she changed into men's clothes of coarse cloth, took a few taels of silver, and escaped from the village at night.
Looking back at the gradually smaller village, she felt happy for the second time.
But it soon turned into despair.
Because she returned to the village again.
The starting point of this road is a village, and the end point is also a village.
In the next three hundred years, she died six more times.
She tried countless ways to escape from the village.
But in the end, she discovered that it didn't exist in the first place.
The only people who can leave the village are the priests chosen by God.
So she began to believe in God sincerely, hoping that God could help her escape from the sea of suffering.
That day, she really felt the presence of God.
She felt the power of God.
She let go of everything and allowed the spirit of God to invade her soul.
She prayed to God to save her from suffering.
But God just looked at her lightly.
At that time, she finally understood.
God has no emotions.
In His eyes, there is no difference between himself and the grass on the roadside.
He will neither help nor hinder himself.
She was completely desperate.
She began to live each day numbly, waiting for her death at the age of sixteen.
Then, keep repeating like an emotionless animal.
Until that day, a stranger came into the village by chance.
She quietly found the other party and begged him to take her away.
But the look in the man's eyes told her that he had no such intention and even had bad thoughts towards her.
She was disappointed and used the power of God to kill him.
But that person had books from the outside world with him.
The book tells a story, a story about a hero saving the weak.
She remembered her prayers when she was young.
It would be great if a hero could rescue her from the village.
This became the only pillar of her survival.
Although, she also knew that this was just a small delusion.
Later, she found a new way to get back at her mother.
That means dying before the age of sixteen.
Because of her enhanced immortality, she was in extreme pain every time she committed suicide.
But looking at her mother's twisted and angry face, she felt the long-lost joy.
Even if she will live a worse life after her next resurrection.
I don’t know how much time passed, but everyone’s hair gradually became shorter and their clothes became less complicated.
She becomes more and more indifferent to life.
There is no hope anyway.
The hero who will save her is, in the end, just a matter of the story.
Precisely because there are no heroes, heroes are praised in stories.
That's what she thought.
So, time passed quietly.
This time, she reincarnated again.
After her birth, she found herself at the altar.
The bruised mother held her face and smiled happily.
"Ajiu, our fateful curse is finally over, are you happy?"
she does not know.
But her mother really cared for her in every possible way, uncharacteristically, and even gave her the title of "High Priest" to inherit.
But what's the point?
She already knew why her immortality was getting stronger and stronger.
Because part of God's power and spirit is attached to her soul.
After nearly two thousand years, to her mother, she is now nothing more than a container used to escape the curse.
Just like a disposable tool, after using it, she will be born again decades later.
So when she was three years old, she made a request:
"I want to live freely, even if it's just in the village, even if it's only for more than ten years."
Mother agreed.
So she was able to leave this Fenggu Village, where blood flowers floated every day, and came to...another Fenggu Village.
There is an "aunt" there.
"Aunt" still treats her badly, and the believers in the village also turn a blind eye to her under her mother's orders - in their understanding, they, the "high priest", are just a disposable tool.
Do tools need to be close?
But she no longer cares.
More than ten years later, she was almost sixteen years old.
But she didn't have any idea.
Forget it, that's it.
She is already very tired.
Then, those foreigners came.
At that time, she suddenly had an idea.
My mother said this was the day when I would be freed from the curse.
So what happens if...she breaks the curse?
So, when the old man with a bloody smell wanted to take her out in the middle of the night, she didn't resist.
She knew that the other party wanted to kill her.
She even hoped in her heart that the other party could really kill her.
Just when the other person had raised the butcher knife, she saw that person.
He hummed a song and walked over leisurely.
He even had a relaxed smile on his face.
Watching him kill the old man easily, for some reason, her silent heart began to beat for a long time.
When he asked, "Are you not afraid of me?", she shook her head.
She was not afraid, and even felt a sense of peace that she had not seen for a long time.
She hopes the other party can kill her.
But the other party didn't do this, and even took her back into the house without doing anything to her.
That night, she fell asleep.
I didn’t see my mother in my dream, nor did I see God in my dream.
She wasn't even dreaming.
She slept like this until dawn.
When he opened his eyes, what appeared in his sight was his peaceful sleeping face.
She felt at ease.
She gently put her head on his chest and murmured: "Will you be my hero..."
She knew she couldn't escape, and her mother would always find a way to catch her back.
So, on her sixteenth birthday, she asked him:
"Brother, can you take me out of the village?"
She heard the answer that reassured her.
"Of course, no matter what happens, no matter where you are, I will take you away."
At that moment, the sun shone on his gentle and smiling face, seeming to cast a shimmer on him.
Ajiu's heart was beating fast.
This is her hero...
............
Open your eyes, the wind is howling all around you.
Opposite Ajiu, there is a girl who looks exactly like her.
It's just that the girl's eyes are golden, and there is no emotion in them.
"It's time." The girl's voice was like gold and iron, "I placed my power on you to erode the seal, and now it's almost time. Come on, give me your body."
Feng Ajiu tried hard to resist the pain that felt like his soul was about to leave his body.
But how can man fight against God?
She couldn't hold it anymore.
I came as promised, but I couldn't hold on...
Feng Ajiu, you... are really ridiculous.
"Well~~This is not okay~~"
Suddenly, a gentle voice sounded in Ajiu's ear.
She felt the pain in her soul disappear.
Turning her head, she saw a unique and gentle smile.
Right in front, the golden-eyed "Feng Ajiu" showed emotional fluctuations for the first time, "You interfered with me before... Sure enough, you injected your spirit into her body at that time.
"What the hell are you."
The woman wearing a black cheongsam gently covered the lower half of her face with a folding fan in her hand and thought hard:
"If it were Mr. Wang, what should I say now~~"
Her eyes curled up, and she suddenly realized, "It should be like this~~"
Miss An clasped her palms together with the folding fan in her hand, "An Wanying, just a passing... Rakshasa Bird Ghost Bride~~"