Not to mention how much Ning Qianxia contributed to the club when Qin Jian was not at school, even if Qin Jian came back, the other party did not withdraw his energy from it at all.
Qin Jian often admires Ning Qianxia, regardless of her professionalism or ability.
As we all know, when the university first started, Ning Qianxia showed some enthusiasm for Qin Jian.
It doesn’t matter if you don’t accept such a girl, she is busy working for your club.
In the end, I couldn't have a good look on my face.
Zheng Feng was a little angry.
He didn't know what happened to Qin Jian.
He just waited for Qin Jian to have a good sleep and come back early.
....
The plane entered the bottom of the stratosphere smoothly, and even sounds of breathing came and went in the cabin.
Qin Jian looked out the window at the foggy night sky.
be terribly upset?
He couldn't look straight.
But he must face it directly. The journey tells him that life must move forward. He has already let down too many things.
Although the silence is terrible, at this moment,
...
Starting from the two words "Qin Jian", everything that followed was beyond his expectation.
Ye Yi seemed to have jumped out of a special installation, and then left the world where he existed.
It's like life flashed for a moment and then died quickly.
He had never heard Ye Yi speak, but starting from the word 'Qin Jian', he seemed to hear Ye Yi's voice.
A completely unfamiliar female voice.
It's just that every word in the letter left him no time to care about what the voice sounded like.
He read it word by word to the end.
It's like Ye Yi plucking himself out inch by inch.
Let him see clearly.
In a way that is more chiluo than flesh, more cruel than a whisper.
Ye Yi was as smooth as a mirror. Standing opposite the mirror, he also saw himself naked.
The self that cannot be looked at directly.
But that's him.
He had never looked squarely at himself. Perhaps before deciding to bid an emotional farewell to Ye Yi, he felt that he had looked straight into his heart.
But in fact, Ye Yi was right. Emotionally, he was incredibly weak.
He originally planned to have a farewell like that. May you both be well and wish you happiness.
Qin Jian thought so, and then he used his own way to make up for the other party. He wanted to help Ye Yi sort out his life experience.
If possible, he hopes Ye Yi can have a home of his own.
But in fact, as Ye Yi said, he was too self-righteous.
Qin Jian thought that things could develop according to his vision, but what awaited him in the end was a 2043-word silent cry.
Every word is filled with the most familiar and strange things.
He couldn't face Ye Yi, couldn't face himself, and even couldn't face Duan Ran.
Qin Jian fell into self-doubt and reflection, constantly doubting and reflecting.
He thought that if he took the initiative to meet Ye Yi and personally delivered tickets to Ye Yi, he would not write such a letter.
But the next second he started laughing at himself, and he was escaping again.
No matter where he fled, he could not change the facts that Ye Yi stated in the letter.
Because that is the ‘evidence clue’ he left behind in the time track.
So he reflected and thought, if he had told Ye Yi everything before confirming his relationship with Duan Ran, the situation would no longer be like this today.
It didn't take long for him to deny himself again. People's hearts will ferment over time. He did, Duan Ran did, and Ye Yi was no exception.
So he moved the time clue forward again.
He thought of the last time he saw Ye Yi, when Ye Yi went to the Chinese Academy of Sciences with a group a year ago. That night he wore a teddy bear costume and played the healing Canon.
At that time, he and Duan Ran were already completely entangled, but that night, he was thinking more about Ye Yi, and some shameful desires were at work.
It was also that night that he faced up to his emotional state.
He found the time when the problem began to escalate, in mid-December last year.
Exactly a year ago, he remembered that before sending Ye Yi into the station, he pinned Ye Yi's hair.
At that time, Ye Yi didn't know that Duan Ran was in a foreign country far away.
Qin Jian had the opportunity to make some decisions at that time.
But unfortunately, Ye Yi was right again. Standing on both sides of the balance of love, Qin Jian was indecisive and indulged in himself.
He wasn't complacent, but he didn't try to refuse either.
He didn't know who to turn down.
Or maybe he never thought about rejecting anyone and let time ferment.
Then, everything else was as Ye Yi said, Qin Jian is a person who lives in his own emotional world.
The passionate and bold Duan Ran worked hard and eventually occupied Qin Jian's emotional world.
Ye Yi stuck to the life she had to stick to, fulfilled Qin Jian with her final confession, and taught Qin Jian what rejection means.
As the saying goes, in the world of love, the person who says I love you first will definitely fall into passivity.
Ye Yi broke the common saying, but endured pain and shame that Qin Jian could not imagine.
Qin Jian finally met Ye Yi at that last moment.
Ye Yi was right again, "Don't think you know me well."
At that moment, Qin Jian realized that he had never looked squarely at this woman who was smiling and struggling with life.
In the end, he didn't even confirm the other party's age.
What he enjoyed was always the gentleness in Ye Yi's appearance.
"Forget those past times, the Ye Yi in your heart may never have existed."
He feels distressed.
The strength under gentleness was developed in adversity.
He didn't know anything, he didn't even ask where the other person was from.
But at this moment, he felt that he would never have the chance to make amends.
If it weren't for Duan Ran, he would do everything he could regardless of his own safety.
But there are no ifs in life.
In the distance, there is another person waiting for him.
Yes.
He has already made his choice.
...
Time will never give people the answer, it's just sooner or later.
Time will not forgive any mistakes, only the way.
Sitting on the plane to Berlin, in another silent space.
Qin Jian was suffering a lot.
When he was in a daze, he would wonder if he really understood Duan Ran, and he had to have this hysteria.
He was even thinking about whether to confess all this to Duan Ran.
But with Ye Yi in front of him, he couldn't imagine what Duan Ran would do if he knew all this.
He couldn't predict it.
Having hurt one person deeply, he is afraid of hurting another person again.
He thought of Ye Yi's words again, "You are afraid of hurting everyone, but while you are indecisive and intoxicated with yourself, someone is getting hurt because of you."
At this time, another sentence will also sound at the same time.
"Promise me, Qin Jian, never tell her of my existence."
...
Tangled.
In pain.
It's your own fault.
It's your own fault.
Qin Jian was suffering from insomnia.
...
"call--"
Look at your reflection in the glass.
Qin Jian seemed to be looking at a complete stranger.
He knew that when he got off the plane, he would start preparing for the game. He knew that half of the people in the cabin had been working hard on this matter for a long, long time.
He knew that he had gone too far towards Ning Qianxia today.
He knew he had to get to know himself again.
Bear it and continue living.
This is what Ye Yi taught him.
Then try to proactively solve some problems as much as possible.
This is what Duan Ran taught him.
Looking at Zheng Feng who was asleep and still holding the drumstick, Qin Jian sighed silently.
He closed his eyes gently.
Maybe he didn't deserve this moment of peace.
——
But time also tells people that life always moves forward.
In this big world, Qin Jian made the same mistakes that many men make.
In this small world, everyone will not just stay at this moment, no matter which end of the earth.