Evolution Beyond the Stars Volume 1 The Beginning of Eden o11o3 I will die for you 2o11
A seemingly ordinary year, but it changed Yougege's life.
There were many memorable days this year, such as the 100th anniversary of the Revolution of 1911 and the successful test flight of the J-2O...
There are also many major events that the world is paying attention to, such as Prince William's wedding, the withdrawal of US troops from Afghanistan...
There are also many keywords born in the online media and scientific circles, such as Tencent's withdrawal from the new chat software "WeChat", after "Endeavour" completed its last flight mission, the US space shuttle announced the retirement of all, etc...
These are all major events recorded in 2o11.
But for many ordinary people, in that era when self-media had not yet become popular and the Internet of Everything was still a front-end concept, their 2o11 years revolved more around many little things about themselves.
This year, Yougege's mother was diagnosed with terminal cancer when she was applying for a health certificate.
Only a few months later... her mother left You Gege, leaving this little girl who had just grown up alone in this world.
this day……
It's raining heavily.
Yougege held a bottle of sleeping pills in his pocket and walked forward along the deep path.
She didn't hold an umbrella, and she was soaked all over.
After returning home, Yougege took off his clothes, then entered the shower room and kept rinsing his body, especially his lower body.
Repeated and vigorous rubbing made her originally fair skin turn bright red.
It wasn't until she was so tired that she came out wrapped in a bath towel.
Lying on the bed, looking at the dim lights on the roof.
This small home of only ten square meters, converted from a basement, is filled with the smell of dampness and mold.
In the few months since her mother was hospitalized, Yougege has hardly been at home.
After lying there for a while, the lights suddenly went out and the dripping sound in the bathroom stopped.
Yougege glanced at the door, then closed his eyes.
After a while, footsteps came, followed by a knock on the door!
"Bang bang bang! Hey! Is anyone home?"
It was a man's voice, and it sounded very childish.
Yougege didn't want to respond, but the man kept knocking on the door, and his voice became louder and louder.
"Hey! Don't pretend to be dead! I heard the noise! You owe several months of rent and water and electricity bills! I didn't kick you out because I thought you were pitiful, but you have to be more conscious! Ah?!
"
"Bang bang bang!"
There was another violent knock on the door.
The sound is getting louder and louder.
Compared to the heartbeat that Youge heard while lying on his mother's heart... this sound was really too strong...
"Hey!!! Don't hang around like me! If you pretend to be dead like me tonight, I'll find someone to unlock the door tomorrow, and you'll be the one to watch!"
The man got a little angry, kicked the door several times, and then left.
In the darkness, Yougege looked coldly in the direction of the door.
"Why is it the same everywhere..." Yougege said to himself: "Parasite..."
Smiling to himself, Yougege got up, got out of bed, touched his wet clothes, and took out the bottle of sleeping pills.
This thing was stolen by You Gege while the hospital pharmacy was ignoring it.
She noticed the location of the sleeping pills more than ten days ago, but she didn't expect that she would be so calm when stealing the sleeping pills... Obviously this was her first time stealing...
Unscrew the bottle cap and pour out all the medicine in the bottle.
There are more than a dozen pills.
It's white and can be seen clearly in the dark.
Yougege sat down next to the bed. The water stopped now, so she could only force herself to swallow it.
But when he took the medicine, Yougege calmed down again.
Although it was an agreement proposed by myself.
"I will die for you, and you will live for me..."
But can she really do this?
I vaguely remember seeing many uncertain endings in that light... some good and some bad...
So sitting here now, choosing to end my life in this way, what does this choice mean?
When you get old and look back on your life, you will realize that: when you went to study abroad, when you decided to make your first career, when you chose a partner and fell in love, and when you got married, they were actually all huge changes in your destiny. It was just that you stood on the third floor at that time.
The fork in the road, the storm before your eyes, the day you made the choice, in the diary, it was quite boring and ordinary. At that time, I thought it was an ordinary day in life...
This sentence comes from Tao Jie's "The Girl Who Killed the Quail".
It's one of Yougege's favorite books...
This passage in the book had the most profound impact on her.
It is also the only belief that inspires her and allows her to dig out the beautiful moments of life in ordinary and even slightly miserable days.
It’s just that Yougege never thought of it.
Some choices are really painful to make.
She knew that she was just an example in the haze behind thousands of happiness.
So she didn't do a more "exciting" ending.
I just felt that the meaning of life suddenly disappeared. In panic, I decided to accept the mercy of this fate.
But when the sleeping pill was in his hand, Yugege realized again...
Fate may never interfere with anyone.
It still stays peacefully and obediently in your and my hands.
Eat it or not eat it.
It's obviously all up to you to decide.
After this epiphany appeared... Yougege calmed down.
But at this moment, the person in the darkness is not entirely Yougege.
Her various disappointments in the world have polluted the purest area deep in her heart... She desperately hopes that her life can burn. Even if she cannot become a light that illuminates the way forward for others, she must turn into a fire that burns the world, trying her best to
Prove it once.
So she didn't hesitate any more. She swallowed a dozen sleeping pills and chewed them hard!
The bitterness made it difficult for her to swallow, but she covered her mouth to prevent herself from spitting it out.
A few minutes later, Yougege leaned on the bed, looking at the ceiling with blank eyes.
The taste in my mouth is disappearing.
Consciousness is also blurring...
In fact, the power of the medicine is not that terrible.
It will take a certain amount of time to take effect...by then, it won't be as easy as leaving in a dream like in the TV series.
The pain will still torture Yougege.
But at the same time the pain emerged.
light is on.
The sound of water in the bathroom reappeared.
There were footsteps outside the door again, this time...very softly and carefully.
Yougege stared blankly at the dim light, just like the light she saw...
Many possibilities appeared before her eyes again.
"Dong dong dong".
There was a cautious knock on the door, followed by a very gentle female voice.
"Gege, are you asleep? I am your Aunt Li?"
Aunt Li?
It's the neighbor upstairs...
"Xiao Zheng was drunk just now, don't blame him! Don't take it seriously! You will still live here during this period. When you find a job, you can just make up the money! Huh?"
When Yougege heard this, the tears that he had not shed before because he was insulted and enveloped in darkness suddenly burst out.
But she still stubbornly leaned against the bed, clutching the sheets with both hands, enduring waves of pain.
"Auntie made some food for you and put it outside the door. If you are hungry, just bring it into the house to eat, eh? Child? You have to live well! eh?"
"Dong dong dong!"
This time the knock on the door was a little more urgent, but Yugege cried even harder.
The person outside the door stood for a while and then put down his things.
The footsteps slowly left.
But she stopped at the entrance of the corridor, sighed, and was about to go back to the house.
Suddenly the door down the corridor opened.
Things outside the door were knocked down and broken.
Aunt Li turned around quickly when she heard the sound.
Then I heard a weak voice: "Auntie...save me...I don't want to die...save me...auntie..."
…
In the silent night, only a few stars flickered.
Yougege felt like he was floating on the sea for a moment... ups and downs...
She drifted along the ocean current to the unknown shore, and the song of whales came to her ears.
Melodious...soothing...
…
A few days later, Yougege woke up.
The room was still dark, but the damp, musty smell was gone.
Turning her head slightly, she saw the sun squeezing in through the cracks in the curtains... falling on her pale and bloodless face...
Consciousness is reviving.
Yougege felt his hand being held.
When I looked down, I saw a man lying asleep beside the bed.
Gently withdrawing her hand, Yougege sat up. After taking a sip of water, she quietly got out of bed.
…
The wind on the rooftop is very cold, but it feels so real when it blows on my body.
Yougege stood there looking at the sunrise wearing only thin clothes.
The rising blush dispelled the darkness, and the outline of the city became clearer... The sounds on the streets gradually became denser...
"What's wrong... you called me so early in the morning." Wang Yi was awakened by the phone call. After looking at the number unhappily, he tried to suppress his anger.
"What? Lost me?! Damn it!!! What's wrong with you!" But the next words still made Wang Yi's anger explode.
Liu Panyang on the other end of the phone was going crazy.
The whole hospital is now woken up by him.
"Stop talking nonsense! Hurry up and ask your brother to send someone over to adjust the surveillance!"
Wang Yi put on his pants, hung up the phone and dialed another number.
"Hello? Brother! Well, is there anyone in the duty room over there? Ang... Yes! Yes! My classmate, I don't know where she went after she woke up! Hey? Hey! OK, OK! I'll contact him right now
!”
Wang Yi, who ran out of the house barefoot, suddenly felt a chill on his body, and then he noticed that he was only wearing pants.
…
By the time Wang Yi arrived at the hospital, the person had been found.
However, Yougege, who had just woken up, was too weak, and the cold wind blew on the rooftop, and now he is unconscious again.
Liu Panyang stayed by the bed, and this time he did not dare to close his eyes again.
Seeing that the person had been found, Wang Yi didn't say anything else. He walked over and patted Liu Panyang on the shoulder and said, "Hey, what do you want to eat?"
How can Liu Panyang be in the mood to eat now?
He shook his head: "I'm not hungry."
Wang Yi rolled his eyes and said, "It's useless if you just starve to death with me! Stop being pretentious and tell me, I'll go buy it."
Liu Panyang was really not in the mood to eat.
Especially when he knew that he was the last one to learn about the death of Yougege's mother...his heart was filled with guilt.
"Whatever...I'll eat whatever you eat."
Wang Yi took a deep breath: "Okay, I'll be right back."