"Master is overly praised. I can see through the key point because of the master's guidance. And...I just realized now that even if I discovered the problem, I don't have the ability to solve it." Qi Xuan looked at the wine in the glass and said with a low expression.
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Yu'er quietly held his hand to encourage him, but it didn't help.
This kind of depression is the sadness that comes from closely connecting the self with the whole of humanity...
Thousands of years have passed, and human beings have never been able to get out of the vicious circle of conceitedness. In the end, the price they paid was to be destroyed... But this was Qi Xuan's past thoughts. Now he felt that maybe human beings would do nothing and let the center control them.
The replacement of the world of curtains and numbers is also a kind of transcendence.
As soon as this mentality emerged, Qi Xuan was so shocked that he broke into a cold sweat!
He looked at Yu'er in fear, and Yu'er also saw his panic, struggling on the edge of hopelessness.
Luo Shengtian also discovered this at the same time. The mark between his eyebrows flashed slightly, and Qi Xuan's mood suddenly fell into an ice cave, and his whole person became a little dull.
Yu'er was even more frightened when she saw this, and quickly looked at Luo Shengtian for help.
Just listen to Luo Shengtian say: "Yu'er don't worry, I just used some external force to stabilize Qi Xiaoyou's mind. After bringing him to calm down, he will naturally return to normal. But now, as one of the representative masterpieces of mankind, you should also do something for him."
Your husband shares some of the pain and thinks carefully about how to get help from Lin Yan and others."
Yu'er was speechless for a moment after hearing this. Her emotions were not as sensitive as Qi Xuan's. This was mainly related to her body structure. However, as long as Qi Xuan was not in good condition, Yu'er would still feel anxious and sad like ordinary people.
Now after listening to Luo Shengtian's words, Yu'er calmed down and thought, but found that she had no real sense of being a human being, and therefore had no way to explain the advantages and value of being a human being.
Niyunji on the side saw all the changes in Yu'er's expression. When she found that Yu'er was confused, she reminded her: "Yu'er, if you really don't know what to say, you might as well just start from the side.
Look for the good qualities in your lover or friend, maybe that is the answer?"
Yu'er fell into deep thought after hearing this.
Everyone also put down their chopsticks and waited quietly.
After a while, Yu'er looked at Qi Xuan and said softly: "Actually... when it comes to human evaluations of each other, people like my husband, when he was young, except for playing games well, he was basically useless... He has no identity.
, has no status, and does not work as hard as the upper-class residents. Among his friends, he is just an ordinary good guy... But during the days when I met him, as a person who was new to everything in the world, I regarded him as
He became the only one to rely on, and he also proved with practice that he was worthy of being trusted... I also thought for a time that these were enough to support us in living a good life... But later... when Qi Xuan was out competing,
I walked through the streets and alleys of Cerberus alone and saw all kinds of people and things. I began to understand the differences in class, wealth, status, etc... Especially when I was with outstanding and superior people like Sister Yan and Han Kongwen.
After coming into contact with other people, a feeling of disgust actually arose in my heart...and it was directly directed at Qi Xuan, who took care of me and gave me home..."
Speaking of this, Yu'er's face clearly showed guilt, but she soon became calm because she had already walked out of that shadow.
She raised her hands to hold Qi Xuan's face, looked into his eyes that had not yet recovered, and continued: "At first, I thought it was because I was not a human being. I was just a robot with a human thinking simulator. And the complex structural system of human society is caused by insufficient cognitive ability, so... for a long time, all my sensory systems had problems... I began to think that the world I saw was just a sequence of numbers. Due to the simulated code, the food I ate had no taste at all, and even my human-like body temperature disappeared. I turned into a cold machine, an existence that even I hate."
Yu'er's words gradually deviated from her initial statement, but no one interrupted her, because Yu'er reflected the process of "becoming a human being", through which humans can be seen more intuitively.
"This state of disorder has lasted for a long time, and I never dared to say it. I was afraid that Brother Xuan would hate me because he knew that he was turning into an out-of-control robot... But what's even more ridiculous is that I didn't even dare to deceive him like this. I also began to appear unstable... I feel like a terminally ill human being, gradually losing myself in this world. This feeling is very bad... so bad that even if Brother Xuan had an accident, I would not Know what kind of emotions to use to express your inner panic and uneasiness." As she spoke, Yu'er's hand left Qi Xuan's face, and at the same time, her palm slowly spread apart and transformed into a weapon.
"During that time, I was like today, guarding Brother Xuan while constantly changing my form, and I really hated his friends coming to comfort me, because I couldn't control my instability at all. It wasn't until the revolution of Cerberus that I found my position in the battle." Yu'er's hand returned to its original shape, and Qi Xuan's eyes also returned to clear at this time, and he also listened to those words just now. In my heart.
"Master... becoming a human is an extremely painful process. Is this related to the fact that I am not a real human?... Because to this day, I still feel ignorant of the world. Is this feeling... normal?" Yu'er asked Luo Sheng about the way of heaven.
After listening to Yu'er's self-narration that resembled her mental journey, Luo Shengtian said softly: "Good boy, in fact, it's not just you who will feel pain. Any human being will go through a similar process in the process of growing up. The only difference is that it is different from the natural state. Unlike humans who are full of respect for rules, habits, and nature, you have been a complete miracle of freedom from the day you were born. This also leads to your misinterpretation of the rules and the loss of true perception. This situation is known to humans. Call it numbness, but if you have a heart-to-heart talk with your husband, you will find that he must have grown up in a similar situation."
Yu'er heard this and looked at Qi Xuan.
Qi Xuan smiled and held Yu'er's hand: "If you want to hear it, I will tell you all the secrets in my heart, but you have to promise me not to learn everything anymore, especially when you have to endure the pain alone. Things, okay?"
When Yu'er heard this, her face immediately turned red with embarrassment.
Several people on the side who were force-fed dog food also felt uncomfortable.
Especially the junior sister, she rolled her eyes and asked the master: "Master, weren't we talking about business just now? Why did the conversation become an emotional adjustment meeting for the young couple?"
Luo Shengtian smiled and said: "Yue'er, Yu'er's heartfelt words just now are not just describing his own growth, you should see that the most valuable thing about human beings is."