"Accidental...are we really accidental?" It was difficult for Manny to accept this concept for a while, but when she continued to read the book, she realized how narrow her understanding was.
[This is a world that goes round and round
Is life a miracle born in an accidental moment, or is it an eternity that already exists?]
This is the most emotional sentence for Manny on the first page.
If you just read this sentence, it will make people feel baffled and impossible to understand.
But if you combine this sentence with the memory of life on earth, this sentence becomes quite intriguing.
【From the emergence of life on earth to the extinction of dinosaurs.
The cycle of the world has been repeating "creation" and "destruction".
Every tilt of the balance of order will bring about a subversive disaster.
Among them, oxygen and carbon dioxide are closely related to everyone in the world.
Almost every living thing needs to absorb oxygen to maintain life and produce carbon dioxide while doing so.
According to current human understanding, the oldest life was born in the ocean, and at the beginning of the birth of life, the original ecological system of the ocean created an oxygen-rich environment for the earth.
This is an invisible gold mine.
Through this oxygen-rich environment, life was able to land, multiply, and evolve, and gave birth to a "dinosaur age" that lasted for hundreds of millions of years.
The most famous "Tyrannosaurus rex" and "Brontosaurus" were born during this heyday of the evolution of life.
But what followed was irreversible decline.
Later, the dinosaurs became extinct, and after the earth experienced self-regulation during the Ice Age, humans finally stepped onto the stage of life memory on earth, and completed the first step of self-evolution in the tens of thousands of years that followed, and civilization began.
Now, looking back on all this, we should be filled with emotion and even more alert.
Dinosaurs produced far less carbon dioxide by volume than humans produced through the industrial revolution.
With the arrival of a new round of peaks, what kind of ending will we end with? 】
Seeing this, Manny felt an indescribable feeling of depression. She actually knew better than anyone else the inevitable contradictions in the progress of civilization, but it was just like the dialogue in a movie clip.
"If there is not even a drop of clean water or a breath of clean air in this world, what's the use of making more money?"
"You...understand what you are talking about?"
"You don't understand."
[When it comes to environmental protection, what is our first feeling?
It's disgust.
Powerless disgust.
Dislike of self.
Dislike of society and the world.
Although the strong resistance has been restrained under the constraints of public order and morality, in fact, we are still used to scorning it.
Until those disasters really come.
Confirming the old saying "no tears until you see the coffin", we woke up from a dream and discovered that there are always some people in this world who are squandering resources that belong to everyone. They are the source of greed and corruption, and they are drugs.
The same existence.
The short-lived joy is about to come to an end, because the heartbreak that cannot be satisfied is about to begin!
So I hope everyone can realize that environmental protection is not the world, but ourselves...]
Manny closed the book. She read the author's compassionate feelings and felt a huge sense of crisis.
But people always live in the present. How can we understand disasters if we have never experienced them?
"Accidental appearance...accidental living..." Trying to understand these words again, Manny vaguely seemed to feel something.
But she hasn't been able to see it clearly yet, and she hasn't been able to grasp it yet.
He raised his head and watched the sunset. Most of the people in the camp had returned to their tents, leaving only a few to patrol.
Their main duty is not to guard against humans, but against the wild beasts in this mountain forest.
A beast...?
When Manny first heard that there were wolf activities nearby, she was stunned because it was hard to imagine that these unarmed people would camp within the wolf's sphere of influence.
Later she learned that the main reason why she chose to be with wild wolves was that the founder of the camp, You Gege, hoped that everyone who joined the camp would realize that although he was a fragile human being, he still belonged to a group of people.
Overall, as long as they don't leave the camp or where there are fireworks, the wolves will not disturb humans.
But even so, a tragedy occurred when the camp was first established.
A couple who came here because of the name failed to return to the camp before sunset, and when everyone found them, they had been eaten clean by wolves.
"Then haven't you thought about revenge?" This was Manny's first reaction.
But Yan Haowen replied: "Why take revenge? The wolves belong here, and we are prey in their eyes. If we can't understand this, then maybe we shouldn't bother them in the first place."
Manny still remembers the stunned expression on her face at that time.
What is the logic?
But when she tried to understand this seemingly neurotic answer today, Manny felt that she was the one with hatred.
It is superior, and the anger that arises when the dignity of human beings feels threatened.
Just like a tamed killer whale kills its trainer...just like a circus elephant driven mad kills a human being...
What's bad and cruel is not killer whales, let alone elephants...
But us.
When she realized this, Manny felt that she had too much Virginity, which made her shake her head and smile bitterly. But when she thought about it, she was not actually a "Madonna bitch". A real "Madonna bitch" would have a superior mentality of giving alms to herself.
Overflowing emotions are twisted into a ball. In fact, the essence of this mentality is not the real Virgin. On the contrary, it is just the hypocritical appearance of that bad and cruel emotion. From a deeper level, it is still us who determine the existence or existence of all things.
Destroy them instead of respecting them.
After having this understanding, Manny became much calmer.
She knew that she would not become a Buddha who cut off flesh to feed eagles, but she was definitely not a god who could save all sentient beings.
She is just a mortal who appears in this world by chance and is among all living beings.
…
At night, Manny put down the booklet and secretly hid the other two simulation records in her heart. She wanted to remember them well so that she could let go and release their limitations after returning to Gaia.
Really see them for what they really are.
This was Manny's initial thought, but that night, Manny lay in bed unable to fall asleep for a long time.
It was not because of insomnia, but because of the inexplicable restlessness that made Manny feel uneasy.
After tossing and turning on the bed for half a night, Manny sat up, looked at the fire outside the tent, and thought to herself: 'Did something happen?'
Just as I was thinking about it, a pair of patrolmen passed by.
The voice sounded familiar, so Manny hurriedly got out of bed, put on her clothes and chased after her.
"Brother Xian? Wait for me!"
Yan Yixian, who was in charge of patrolling that night, looked back and saw Manny. He was startled for a moment, then frowned and said, "Why don't you sleep so late?"
Manny scratched her head and smiled bitterly: "I don't want to either, but I can't sleep. I always feel uncomfortable."
Patrolling with Yan Yixian was a Ukrainian girl named Elisa. She was a top student in the Chinese Department of Peking University. Her fluent Chinese pronunciation always made Manny think that she was just a Uyghur girl who grew up in the Central Plains. But in fact
, she has only studied Chinese for less than two years.
"Feeling uncomfortable? Xiaoxu, are you sick?" Elisa said and tried the temperature of Manny's forehead.
But Manny knew that she was in good health, but she was still very grateful to this kind girl.
Then he shook his head: "No, Sister Eliza, I'm feeling very well, but I just can't sleep... That's why I thought of patrolling with you, maybe for a while, I can fall asleep when I'm tired."
Yan Yixian: "Oh, that's okay, just follow me. I happen to have to change my shift. You and Elisa can go to your brother Haowen's place to get a cup of hot milk."
Manny was happy when she heard that. The volunteers in the camp were not very wealthy, so things like milk were not something they could drink whenever they wanted.
As for Yan Yixian, Manny was a little afraid of him at first, but after getting to know him for a long time, Manny realized that Yan Yixian is a very warm man who is cold on the outside and hot on the inside. Although he doesn't talk much, he looks cool.
Yes, but this contrast makes people feel better.
So Manny, who was full of joy, followed Eliza to Yan Haowen's tent.
Elisa and Manny chatted casually for a few words on the way, all about the latest simulation. It was the first time for Manny to join a complete simulation, and she was not too familiar with it. As the "sister", Elisa was much more natural.
A few words of concern.
When they arrived near Yan Haowen's tent, they saw a figure moving in the tent from a distance. It seemed that Yan Haowen was getting dressed.
But……
Just when Eliza and Manny came to the tent, the lights in the tent suddenly went out.
Manny felt a chill in her body for no reason, as if some huge danger was about to happen.
Eliza didn't realize this. She just thought it was Yan Haowen who was about to come out, so she opened a corner of the tent with a smile and said: "Haowen, don't turn off the lights in a hurry, I'll bring Xiao Xu here to get a glass of milk... Oops!
"
Before she could finish her words, Eliza was knocked aside by Manny, and then a cold light flashed through, hitting Manny in the heart.
This knife was impartial and struck right at the heart.
The pain was only short-lived. Before Manny's consciousness completely disappeared, she only saw a figure rushing out of the tent, then turned around and fled into the forest.
After falling to the ground, the cold hit her quickly, and vague shouts echoed in Manny's ears as she couldn't breathe.
"How could this happen...why...why..."
On the verge of death, Manny shed tears of pain, her empty eyes staring straight in the direction where the figure disappeared.