Lao Tan has thought a lot in the past half month. If he doesn't want to understand some things, he can't rest in peace and recover without giving himself an explanation.
For example, the understanding and attitude towards the illness, the arrangement and explanation of the group's work, how to hide it from family members, etc. The most important thing is how to deal with the matter with Lin Yan.
He decided to divorce Lin Yan.
There are two reasons for divorce. Needless to say, the first one is that there has been no relationship for these years and the divorce should have been long ago.
What prompted him to make up his mind to leave was the second reason: Although he was an early-stage patient, it was cancer after all. So far, humans have not conquered cancer, and even the initial cure rate does not exceed 5%.
Although I have thought about it, have a good attitude, and firmly believe that I can defeat the disease, what if it happens?
He didn't want to drag down Lin Yan and his son, and wanted to leave something to them while he was still alive, such as money and a home.
Having said that, divorce was a relief for him and Lin Yan, a complete relief both physically and mentally. He could imagine what it would be like if he hadn't divorced and he was recuperating at home. Not only would the medicine be in vain, but his condition would be aggravated.
This is not to say that Lin Yan is not good now that Wang Shulan is taking care of her, or that she divorced Lin Yan and married Wang Shulan. Who can Lao Tan marry in this situation?
The answer is no, unless the cancer is cured and you are a healthy person.
It's because I've gotten to know Lin Yan so well over the years, including myself, that it's normal for that kind of situation to occur.
He plans to postpone the divorce matter until after the new year, and now his energy must be focused on medical treatment, which is the most important thing.
As for the work, he has given full authority to Zhou Xiaomei. Although he is worried, he thinks on the other hand that he is not dead yet. It's fine if he is not dead. He will handle what Zhou Xiaomei can't handle. As long as he is still alive, Ah Qiao will be fine.
No one can stir up trouble or make waves, but he still has this confidence.
He made a plan for himself for half a year, but he could only do it for half a year. He couldn't do it after a long time because he didn't know what his body would be like in half a year.
There is still one and a half months until the Chinese New Year.
In the near future, I will go back to Beijing for a review in half a month. If the old Chinese medicine doctor's medicine is in charge and the condition is under control, I will continue to take it and continue to recuperate in Beautiful Valley. If I need chemotherapy, I will be hospitalized for chemotherapy. After the treatment, I will return to the provincial capital, and then
I took my son back to my hometown to celebrate the New Year.
After the Chinese New Year, I returned to the provincial capital to get divorced. Then I went to an old Chinese medicine doctor in Beijing to get three months' worth of medicine. I then went directly to the old lama's retreat place in Daqingshan, Hohhot, and spent three months recuperating on the mountain.
He has always believed that Daqing Mountain is the best place to recuperate. Although Beautiful Valley is also good, it is better there. It is deep in the mountains, inaccessible, closer to nature, and has the taste of returning to the primitive.
If it hadn't been full of pilgrims and no room available last time, he would have stayed there for half a month.
The initial plan for this trip is to stay for three months, and we will be able to tell whether it is good or bad in three months. Good, we will pass the three months safely, and then go down the mountain to Beijing for review. Bad, we may not be able to go down the mountain, and we will have to ask someone to carry it down to the hospital for treatment.
Operation.
His long-term plan is to work. He plans to start assisting Zhou Xiaomei's management in the second half of the year, giving lectures and training in five regions, and helping the company cultivate its internal strength.
Of course, this is something for later, it depends on the physical condition, and it is too early to say now.
Wang Shulan was very touched by what he just said. Wang Shulan did not expect that he could have such a profound understanding.
"It seems you understand now." Wang Shulan said.
"I don't understand it all, maybe half of it." Lao Tan continued: "I am very grateful for getting sick this time. I answered the sentence: No one knows which comes first, surprise or surprise. I met the accident in shock, and in
While feeling the fragility of life, I also feel its power.
As long as the human heart does not die, lives actively, and thinks about the beauty of the future, life will be strong and many things will be let go.
What can be more important than living? Compared with living, complaining, unwillingness, disapproval, and fighting for fame and wealth are irrelevant. Living is better than anything else.
As long as you live, you can do anything in time and you can do anything. This is the meaning of life.
Do you know what I'm thinking about now?
Now I just want to live well every day, take it seriously, be happy, and live happily without any regrets.
I have never felt the beauty, flavor and passion of life as I do now. When I wake up every morning and see the sun, the sky, our small courtyard, and you, I am so moved that I want to cry.
To be honest, life has not been kind to me, but I have never felt it seriously. I always feel that I am very busy and have a lot of things to do, but I ignore my feelings and the family, friendship, and sisters around me.
,Brothers and friends------
If you hadn't realized this without this disease, you would have continued to struggle for life until one day you really couldn't survive it------
I have realized a truth these days. Life is to live well. The ups and downs, joys and sorrows, successes and failures, love and hate, ups and downs------etc., etc., all of these are witnesses of living.
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Only when people respect life, feel it with their heart, and love it sincerely can they understand the value of life and the beauty of life.
Life itself is wealth! Living itself is happiness!”
"Well said, I applaud you." Wang Shulan was moved by Lao Tan's words and applauded.
"I am seriously ill and will be blessed if I don't die."
"Go, don't be so stubborn, it doesn't sound good."
"It's okay, I don't have to pay attention to that."
"That's not good either. You can't say anything to death in the future. Do you listen?"
"Listen."
Wang Shulan looked at the quartz clock on the wall and found that it was already past twelve o'clock. She said, "It's already that time. I'm going to stew the beef. The beef doesn't like to be rotten." After that, she walked to the outhouse.
Lao Tan also stood up and followed him.
He cut the beef, while Wang Shulan put the fire on the big pot to wash the radishes. The two of them cooperated tacitly and quickly stewed the beef into the pot.
Lao Tan saw that there was not much wood left in the stove pit, so he put on his gloves and was about to go out to get it. When he opened the door and saw scattered snowflakes falling outside, he shouted into the house: "It's going to snow -"
Wang Shulan was washing rice. After hearing this, she wiped her hands on her apron, walked out and looked at the sky and said: "The weather forecast said there will be a heavy snowstorm today and tomorrow. It looks like it will happen."
"There is a lot of snow this year, and it snows heavily in Hohhot, which is a disaster," Lao Tan said.
"I'll go to the greenhouse to buy some vegetables before the rain comes," Wang Shulan said.
"We will go together later."
"Farewell, you stay at home and watch the pot. Don't let it burn. Let's simmer the rice by the way. I've finished washing the rice."
After Wang Shulan finished speaking, she walked out of the gate and caught up with Xiaomei's mother entering the courtyard. The two of them bumped into each other.
Xiaomei's mother came to deliver groceries. She also bought groceries from the greenhouse because it was going to snow, and by the way, she brought a portion to Lao Tan.
Xiaomei's mother did not enter the house. She left after saying a few words to Wang Shulan and went back to cook for her husband.
"I think we won't need to fix anything in the future. Someone will deliver it when the time comes." Wang Shulan said cheerfully, holding the wrapped dishes.
"You are very popular, and you are given everything you need." Lao Tan complimented.
"It's not that bad. It's good to be popular. There's nothing you can do about it." Wang Shulan shook her head exaggeratedly and walked towards the house in front of Lao Tan, who was holding a wooden stumbling block. As he walked, he swung his buttocks and swayed his waist in a showy way.
Old Tan was laughing behind him, remembering a nursery rhyme from his childhood, and he opened his mouth and said: "A sow has eighteen breasts. If she takes one step, she will shake her breasts three times. After walking one hundred and eight steps, she will shake her butt how many times."
Wang Shulan was not annoyed after hearing this. She turned around and said something: "There are two pears on one tree. They are white and tender. It is really strange. The adults blushed when they saw it, and the children were anxious when they saw it."