Chapter 1794 The past [for the Golden Alliance Orange Fruit 202045/100]
"My son is in trouble! Mother, I don't know who I was in the past!"
Lou Xiaoyi murmured.
"Who do you want me to be? An ordinary young master of the Lou family? A traveler from different time and space? Or a continuation of some great existence?"
Of course, he doesn't expect his mother's answer. What he needs here is the special mood in such an environment!
Human beings are so strange. Different environments can produce different moods. There are some things that you can't understand in the void of the universe, but when you get here, your thinking is extra clear, as if your mother is right next to you!
Asking questions and answering questions, confessing his feelings, he knew what his mother would think, just as her mother knew him.
"Have you felt something different since I came to this body? Don't lie to me. You don't know what kind of character your son has without a mother!
When I later started to practice, you may have fully understood that there must be some reason that changed your son!
But you never asked! But you couldn't have never thought about it! Are you afraid that if you really ask, you will lose your son?
Mother, I was ignorant at the time and thought I could hide the truth. You gradually got used to it, but I know now that no mother can accept the fact that her son has merged with another soul!
Yes, I am your son, but not! There are some things in this world that are difficult to explain, but from the heart of a son, I have always been your son and will always be!"
Lou Xiaoyi indulged his mood, let his emotions control him, and let his tears flow. This was the first time in his two thousand years of practice, which meant that he now truly put aside his identity as a monk to consider issues!
He now has the same identity, his mother's son!
"I know! Such a blow is no less harmful to you than that scorching sun exposure! I am also a murderer, just like every wayward child who always deeply hurts the person who loves him most unconsciously...
I didn’t understand at the time! I thought everything was perfect! In fact, when you asked my father a question, that’s what you really wanted to ask, right? What you actually wanted to ask was who am I!
I'm sorry, mother, I really didn't understand at the time, I didn't understand..."
Lou Xiaoyi couldn't control himself. These things at the time were still vivid in his mind. Looking back now, he understood the deep meaning. But at that time, he was still a fanatic who devoted himself to spiritual practice and aimed at the stars!
He thinks he is very filial to his mother, but he just thinks that in fact, in his heart, he takes his own ideals more seriously, but he ignores the feelings of his relatives around him!
His mother never asked him directly until she died. Thinking about it now makes him heartbroken!
This is not an isolated phenomenon. In fact, many young people are in this state when their relatives are still alive. They only realize it after they have experienced life and have their own families and children, but it is already too late!
Choking up sobs, she said: "A foreign soul does not belong to this time and space. No mother wants her child to experience this, and you are the same. Therefore, my past should not be like that. This is every mother's wish, and change
It doesn’t matter whether it’s good or bad…
My son understands now, I hope it’s not too late!”
Deep in his soul, something deeply hidden is slowly unfolding. This is something he has suppressed consciously or unconsciously for two thousand years, suppressing it to the point that he himself has forgotten that such a thing exists!
The so-called past and future are originally things in the category of spiritual consciousness. If you think it exists, it will exist, and if you think it does not exist, it will exist. This is the most natural expression, rather than some kind of deliberate memory or forgetfulness!
This new thing is his past, the third past! A past that even half-immortals have never discovered!
Mr. Lou’s past!
"Do you hope that your son will be a continuation of a great existence? A continuation of such greatness? Possible extraordinaryness?
I know you definitely don’t want to! You don’t want your son to be contaminated by even the legacy of your father, Lou Sima, let alone a legacy that is so great that it may change the future of mankind in the entire universe!
Your greatest hope is that your son can live a good life, live a long life, have children, and be free from illness and disaster, right?
What is the relationship between Zhaoye Kingdom and the Lou family? What is the relationship between this planet and the Lou family? What is the relationship between the entire human race and the Lou family? In your eyes, your son is your country, your planet, and your universe, right?
OK, let’s ignore them!”
In the process of asking and answering questions, Lou Xiaoyi gradually understood his own thoughts. When the third paragraph of the past appeared, he realized that he had actually never been able to obliterate the consciousness of the real Lou Xiaoyi, but only suppressed him to the level of consciousness.
It’s so deep that I’ve even forgotten it!
Reincarnation is a ridiculous innate way! He doesn’t like it! He even rejects being in the Six Paths involuntarily!
He values this world more! Because he has a mother in this world! No one can force him to forget this!
Looking back, maybe Fairy Sword is a piece of the past, that's all; maybe the previous life is a short and different memory, that's all!
As a soul that integrates many consciousnesses, the most important thing is to have a master and a master! Who are you? Who should prevail?
Once you have determined the present, you will also have a determined past!
"Mother! I am Lou Xiaoyi! Your son! I have never changed! I may be confused sometimes, but in essence, I am what you most want to see, the young master of Lou Mansion, Lou Xiaoyi!"
As soon as Lou Xiaoyi determined his present, the third past in the depths of his soul suddenly spread, overwhelming, and countless pasts of Young Master Lou and every normal mortal came out!
At this point, like all the natives of this world of cultivation, he also has countless pasts and countless reincarnations, but two of them are more special!
A normal life, a normal past! He is no longer the Lou Xiaoyi who is stunned by the fairy sword as soon as he looks at it! But he is the Lou Xiaoyi who also has weaknesses and is also unbearable!
Has it been lost? Maybe, others didn’t dare to kill his past before, but now they dare!
Did he get it? Of course! He truly found his true self!
Even without the special past in his previous life and the mysterious origin of the fairy sword, he is still the feared Lou Xiaoyi in the universe!
He will still go on the road that he should take! He will still not hesitate even if the sky is turned upside down!
Who says that a monk without a glorious reincarnation experience will have no future? Ordinary ants can still change the world!
He has never been so confident in himself at this moment! I am just an ordinary person, a restless young master in the Lou family! I had some luck and encountered some magic, and I helped him on his spiritual path!
But after all, he is Lou Xiaoyi, the young master of Lou Mansion!
