Who am I and why am I who I am? The answer to this kind of question is generally to identify yourself through outsiders, and to distinguish yourself through the differences between yourself and them.
Duran told Shinji Ikari that he was not driving Unit 1, because as long as there is no spiritual barrier, Shinji Ikari can become anyone, even an apostle, because humans and apostles are originally the same thing, emerging from the same source. As long as there is no spiritual barrier
at force field, then everyone is the same.
Shinji Ikari has been thinking about why he is so unlucky, but Dulan says that his troubles are not unique to Shinji Ikari, but belong to everyone.
Shinji Ikari must have been unable to turn around, otherwise he wouldn't have spent so long completing himself in the TV version. After the boy defeated all the monsters, witnessed the sacrifice, and experienced hardships, he finally got over his self-loathing.
The growth was completed amidst everyone’s congratulations.
Recognize your own shortcomings, then be kind to yourself, then try to like others, and be sure that you are who you are.
Now what Dulan said, Shinji Ikari didn't understand at all. If he understood, he would not be a problem boy, but a young Buddha. He would directly reach Nirvana, enlightenment, and be freed from the sea of suffering.
The boy now only feels that some of what Dulan said is right, and some he doesn't understand. The right part is the historical point. From the beginning, human beings have always differentiated between themselves and others, and then harmed others.
What I don’t understand is the harmonious part. The human group continues to expand, and it continues to include others within its own scope, but it also constantly creates circles within the group to maintain the differences between itself and its compatriots. Shinji Ikari feels
Human beings really need to divide more than they can unite.
So Shinji Ikari doesn't think he can be anyone else, and he doesn't think others can bear his pain when he was on Unit-1. He is still hiding behind the AT force field.
"Teacher, I can't understand you, just like I can't understand you." Shinji Ikari said: "If the barriers between ourselves and others can really disappear, then shouldn't we understand each other when we are standing here? Why don't I
Do you understand what you are saying? Or, teacher, are you hiding something from me?"
The young man asked a question very smartly. If he thought about it according to what Dulan said, then the two of them should be able to understand each other. But the problem was that the young man didn't know Dulan's purpose at all.
"You are very smart and a piece of diamond, so I have to teach you well. When you reach your father's age, your achievements will definitely surpass his." Dulan used the encouragement education method and gave Shinji Ikari input with firm conclusions.
vitality.
This was indeed the first time for Shinji Ikari to hear such praise. In the past, someone had praised him for playing the cello well, and it was precisely because of the recognition that he could persevere. After all, the cello was his best skill, and the only one that could make him
Better than others. This is the first time I heard someone say that he can surpass his father. To be honest, the position of Commander Neuron is already a world-class figure. Even when he goes abroad, he can hear the name of Ikari Gendo. The boy never thought
He had never been able to become a big celebrity like his father. Although he is already a celebrity now, a celebrity within Seele, he is mainly famous for the incident of "Ikari Yuantang sent his son to Unit 1". As for the boy serial
Defeating the apostle twice is not something to be proud of.
Defeating the apostles was not the result of Shinji Ikari alone. It can even be said that Shinji Ikari did not gain anything from the process of defeating the apostles.
The first time he went up there, he went on an inexplicable rampage, and Shinji Ikari's memory was all vague. The second time, Shinji Ikari didn't perform well either. In the end, he violated orders and defeated the apostle, but that really can only be regarded as the apostle being too weak and just luck.
rather than strength.
After that, Shinji Ikari will continue to fight, but most of it is done according to orders, mechanically completing other people's requests, rather than using his subjective initiative to defeat the apostles. Even if he fights for Ayanami Rei twice, in the battle between Thunder Angel and Power Angel
In the game, he showed some fighting will, but most of the time he really completed the orders and won, rather than discovering the apostle's weaknesses in the battle and defeating the enemy with his super high driving skills.
In Shinji Ikari's battles, the war room puts forward combat requirements, and then Shinji Ikari completes them. It can be said that there is no sense of accomplishment. Once you leave the war room, or deviate from the expected plan, you can only rely on running away. The role of the driver is to defeat the enemy.
The whole process doesn't seem to be that big of a deal. Anyone can be replaced. It's just that the synchronization rate between Shinji Ikari and Unit-1 is relatively high.
Shinji Ikari's victory never belongs to one person. Without him, someone else could have won just as long as he followed the orders of the war room.
As for the few times he went berserk, although it was definitely Shinji Ikari, the young man was actually confused and didn't know why he won, as if he had a guardian spirit.
In fact, in Seele's plan, humans dominate the fusion, and there is no special existence. Everyone is a part. It's just that Ikari Yuantang sent his son up and gave him the treatment of a protagonist, making Shinji Ikari seem to be a unique first person.
The pilot of Unit No. 1 seems to be unable to survive without Shinji Ikari. In fact, it is not the case. There is no protagonist in Seele's plan, because in the end humans will complete the task and everyone will be the same.
It was Ikari Gendo who made Shinji Ikari a special being and gave the entire completion plan a singularity.
Of course, the boy doesn't feel that he is the protagonist. After all, he just follows the steps during the battle, and another person might be able to execute it better. So even if he wins, the boy doesn't have much sense of accomplishment. It is obviously a great cause to save mankind, but
But the young man only felt empty and meaningless, because he did not subjectively want to save mankind, but just completed the work assigned to him by others, and in fact he did not like this work.
Shinji Ikari doesn’t like piloting Unit 1, just chasing ducks to get on the shelves. As for saving mankind, it can only be regarded as a by-product of completing the mission. For a boy, responding to the expectations of his elder sister, protecting the safety of beautiful girls, and gaining his father’s approval, etc.
Waiting for things is the direct reason why he drives Unit 1, and these goals need to be achieved by completing the driving work.
If the work cannot be completed, then Ikari Shinji has never thought about the destruction of mankind. He is just worried that he will let down his eldest sister, lose the beautiful girl, and disappoint his father.
Therefore, Duran must encourage education and train the young man, connect his fate with the fate of others, take him out of the greenhouse to see the world, and exercise his skills and voice so that he can escape during battles.
In the war room, or without going berserk, he can still complete the battle independently and win, improving his ability and subjective initiative.
The hero's reward is not only the final reward, but also the experience learned during the battle. If you just follow the script and complete the combat missions in the war room, you are just a mediocre pilot. If you just rely on the rampage of Unit 1 to complete the battle,
That's just a lucky pilot. Don't rely on the big sister in the war room, nor the good mother in Unit-1. Shinji Ikari must learn to fight on his own.
"It's okay if you can't understand what I say now. The important thing is that I can guide you to become a real pilot. Although you are sitting on Unit 1 now, you are just a part. You have never achieved the unity of machine and self. The true integration of machine and self."
The driver can defeat the enemy with just his voice."