Tang Shijin took a shower, changed clothes, came out, and stood in front of the door for a while.
He has really lost a lot of weight, his cheeks are slightly sunken, his brows are full of fatigue and vicissitudes of life, his whole person seems to be ten years older, and his body wrapped in black clothes is even more heartbreakingly thin.
Tang Shijin watched quietly for a while.
She said: "Uncle Wei, everyone get out."
Wei Jingzhi responded: "Yes, young master." He waved his hand and led everyone out.
Tang Shijin said: "Ling'er and Lin'er keep an eye on it and don't let anyone in."
Qi Yaoling sheathed her sword and responded, pointing to the back. Hua Shenglin turned over and jumped to the back of the house, and Qi Yaoling stood in front of the door.
Tang Shijin's eyes fell on Yan Baiwei's face, and she said calmly: "Come in."
Yan Baiwei hesitated for a moment.
He spent these days like years, anxious and regretful, and wanted to see her and apologize to her... But when she really wanted to listen to him, he became inexplicably panicked, and his feet felt like lead. At that moment, he just
I want to turn around and leave...
That way at least there is hope and he can comfort himself, but he has not found her yet. If he sees her, she will definitely forgive him...
But looking at the dim candlelight in the room, he still shuffled in, step by step.
Standing in the room, like a criminal waiting for sentencing, he whispered: "Jin'er."
Tang Shijin waved his hand: "Please sit down."
He opened his mouth, wanting to say something, but still didn't say anything, and sat down slowly.
Tang Shijin put down the teacup: "Yan Baiwei, today is the last time I will talk to you as a friend."
Yan Baiwei clenched the armrest fiercely and lowered his eyes, not daring to look at her.
Tang Shijin said calmly: "It was only after I left Maozhou that I found out that the Wei family's Qingqing was originally supposed to be surnamed Wei, and her maiden name was Qingqiu. She was the youngest daughter of Prince Wei... In other words, Tang Shijin is a bloodline of Prince Wei's family. And you,
With your identity, you should understand what kind of turmoil it will cause once it is revealed. You have no right to be willful...because your willfulness will probably destroy me and drag down Prince Wei's palace. This is too selfish."
"Prince Wei is the most powerful family in the world. I can get everything at my fingertips through the name of Prince Wei. Why should I dig my own grave? Moreover, Prince Wei is Tang Shijin's only remaining relative. I will not allow you to hurt him or ruin his life."
So I hope you can stay away from us. We have known each other for more than three years...four years. I don't owe you anything. If you really feel guilty, you should stay away from me."
Yan Baiwei closed his eyes fiercely.
He felt that her words were like a knife, cutting one after another, comparable to Ling Chi.
Then, he heard her footsteps, walking towards him step by step, and then Tang Shijin reached out and pinched his chin, and forcibly raised his face: "Yan Baiwei."
He slowly opened his eyes, with blood and tears in them.
She asked him word by word: "Yan Baiwei, does it hurt you when I say this?"
He pursed his lips and couldn't answer.
She squeezed a little tighter, condescendingly, staring into his eyes: "Tell me, does it hurt?"
He nodded wordlessly.
Tang Shijin laughed suddenly.
Then she said slowly: "It hurts! The pain you feel today, plus ten times the pain, is the pain I feel today!"
He couldn't help but choke: "Jin'er, I..."
Tang Shijin said coldly: "You don't have to speak, just listen to me... You should understand that this Tang Shijin is not that Tang Shijin."
His eyes hardened.
She continued word for word: "I am a foreigner, I don't understand the rules here. You have been surrounded by famous teachers since you were a child, and you have rich clothes and fine food. Do you understand that for some people, even living is a piece of cake?"
Tough stuff?”
"My father was a compulsive gambler. In the middle of the night, people would break down the door and throw paint... When I was a child, I saw my father rummaging through boxes and cabinets more than once to find money. If he couldn't find it, he would beat my mother crazily. Until one day, I saw it with my own eyes.
As he beat her to death, I called the police and sent that scumbag to the cell.
I was five years old at that time.
He went to jail, but the debt still existed. My grandparents, who were in their sixties or seventies, had to work hard to pay off his debt. Finally, after the debt was paid and his body collapsed, my grandfather became seriously ill and committed suicide. My grandmother followed, and I finished it.
After the funeral, there was no time to be sad because I still had to deal with the debt I incurred due to my grandfather’s illness!
I was seven years old at that time.
I was still young and no one dared to use me. I knelt down and cried and begged, fought hard, washed dishes and toilets, was beaten and scolded, and I would do whatever anyone else refused... In the end, it was all just to survive!!"
Her tears fell on his face drop by drop.
He was too shocked to say a word.
She swallowed: "I have been blessed with wealth since I was a child, but do you understand that every penny you earn will be taken away by your creditors, you may be beaten at every corner, and getting rich means a bloody disaster, okay?
A bite of food and a good night's sleep are all gifts of life?"
She took a long breath and laughed softly: "You don't understand. You will never understand... No matter you understand it or not, I just want to tell you that it is absolutely impossible for me to forgive you.
Yours, I will never forgive you... I regard you as my closest relative and closest lover, not to let you stab me with a knife, not to let you dig out these things and tell me, you
The bloody hardships are all written with unworthiness!! Some things have been decided from the moment you were born, and no matter how hard you try, you can't change it!"
"Yan Baiwei, no matter what your thoughts are, from the moment you do this, you do not deserve to be forgiven!"
In anger, she gasped slightly.
Then she gently raised her hand and touched his face: "Yan Baiwei, a person's past will always be written into his life, and he will never be able to get rid of it... In fact, I really like you, and I like having you here.
You may be rough, but you seem to have good upbringing engraved in your bones; I like that you still have a bright and warm heart after all the hardships and setbacks; I like that you can see the big from the small, even if it is a small thing in front of you, you are aware of the subtleties, and you are open to all rivers; I like that you are knowledgeable and knowledgeable.
You know everything, you know everything, and writing articles is as natural as picking fruits from a tree... In fact, even your way of following the rules and being a gentleman makes me like you very much."
She slowly wiped away her tears: "If a person has nothing, he will yearn for something more. I like you very much, especially... But Yan Baiwei, even in my whole life, I will always like you.
, I will never forgive you. Even if I can really let go, I will never look back. I don’t want you, I just don’t want you anymore. Moreover, time will eventually heal me, one year, two years, three years... No matter how profound it is,
Emotions will fade away, and I will keep moving forward. Sooner or later, these useless things will be completely abandoned by me."
She slowly retracted her hand: "When people live in this world, their feet must always hit the ground. I rely on everyone to support me. My ground is myself. Even if everyone thinks I'm not good, I still have to rely on myself."
But I feel pretty good, because I have always relied on this kind of me to survive! I will also rely on this kind of me to live my life as a master! Live to a height that no one who looks down on me can reach!"
She held his face with both hands and looked at it carefully. She still felt that she liked every part of it.
She gently kissed his long eyelashes that were wet with tears: "Brother Wei, I love you... I won't see you again for the rest of my life."