He didn't scream again, and carefully took her into his arms, hugged her tightly and gently stroked her hair.
She was held softly by him, her eyes closed.
To this day, this embrace still makes her feel nostalgic. Lying on his shoulder and back, smelling his scent, she feels inexplicably comfortable.
I want to kiss him, hug him, sleep with him, wrap my legs around his waist, and have sex with him...
Even a single hair on his body was as long as she wanted...
But actually, what does it mean to be in agreement?
To put it bluntly, I just like it.
She smiled bitterly.
He hugged her tightly subconsciously: "Jin'er."
She still didn't respond to him.
After a long, long time, Tang Shijin gathered up his scattered emotions and gradually became sober.
For some reason, she suddenly remembered a passage in her confession: All my arrogance comes from my inferiority complex, all my heroic spirit comes from my inner weakness, and all my plausibility comes from my heart full of doubts. I pretended
Being ruthless actually means hating your own deep feelings.①
She took a long breath and tried to get out of his arms, but he held her tight.
Tang Shijin patted his back gently.
He hesitated for a while, then slowly let go of his hand, lowering his eyes and not daring to look into her eyes.
She looked at him: "Yan Baiwei."
He didn't answer, his lips tightened, and she said word by word: "I won't fall in love with anyone easily. I am a very difficult person to tempt, so you don't have to worry that I will like Jiang Hu. I just want to
Just recruiting him."
He stretched out his hand and held her hand tightly. She did not refuse: "But Yan Baiwei, I never let emotions influence my decisions. You made me angry, and it wasn't just Zhuang Zhilan. We have different concepts.
There are many things that are incompatible with each other, or it can be said that I am an alien and cannot be compatible with anyone."
"I am also a human being. I have been afraid of well ropes for ten years. There is no way I will be stupid again. To put it bluntly, I don't believe you at all..."
"So I think it's good now. I've found the path I want to take. When I was designing all this, I have eliminated useless things like emotions from my future."
Yan Baiwei whispered: "Jin'er, I didn't understand before, but I know now. I won't do anything to make you sad again, not even one thing, not even half of it," he begged
Look at her: "Jin'er, do you believe me..."
Tang Shijin said quietly: "But have you ever thought about it, even if Zhuang Zhilan hadn't happened, we would have parted ways sooner or later... I'm not a person who knows how to 'take care of my husband and raise my children', and my path has never been smooth.
In the secular world, my future and your future are inherently in conflict."
"I know." He looked at her quietly in the darkness: "Jin'er, I've thought about it, I've thought about it many times. I don't want any future. I have no desire for the throne. I
If you want to fight, it's just for the world and the people. In the final analysis, what you have done is the same as mine. Let me help you, okay? No matter what, I will never be worse than anyone else."
Tang Shijin said calmly: "Not good."
His hands tightened: "Why?"
She said word by word: "I don't like my territory. There is a person who can influence my emotions and judgment. The people I recruit are all under my control. I don't like your omnipotence and over-smartness."
Yan Baiwei was speechless for a long time.
As the saying goes, as cold as it is, there is warmth.
How ruthless, yet so affectionate.
After a while, he whispered: "So Jin'er, what do you want me to do?"
She said coldly: "What you do has nothing to do with me."
"It's relevant," his voice was gentle, like coaxing a child: "How could my affairs have nothing to do with Jin'er? My survival depends entirely on my Jin'er. Everything about me is related to Jin'er.
.”
He paused for a moment: "Jin'er, no matter how long the road is, it has an end. What's more, for you, you can get what you want in three years at most... What about after three years? Jin'er? The power is overwhelming.
And after that?"
He hugged her gently: "Why not, I will go forward too, and we will go forward together. After staying for three years... I would like to share the world with my Jin'er."
Tang Shijin took a long breath.
I couldn't explain how I felt at the moment.
As long as he was sure that her feelings for him were still there, he seemed to feel at peace, and all his tenderness and wisdom came back.
Tang Shijin was silent for a long time and said coldly: "After you get what you want..."
She paused and sneered: "Forget it, I'm lazy to say it, it's none of my business what you like, don't tell me."
She wanted to push him away, but he hugged her tightly again.
She is always very sharp on important matters, and the fact that she doesn't say anything just shows that she cares.
She actually thought about his future much earlier than he did.
When I think about it, I feel really sad.
Yan Baiwei said softly: "Jin'er, can you look at me? I said, no matter the world or the throne, in my heart, nothing is as good as my Jin'er, can you look at me? If I
If I do anything not to your liking, you kill me, and I will kill you... If I do well, you can pamper me one more time, and come back to me one last time. Then you still want to do it.
You can do whatever you want, whether you want to do business or be an official, I will rely on you, who dares to say more, I will help you with everything, okay?"
She didn't want to admit that she was really tempted by this prospect.
But violating principles because of emotion is the last thing she can tolerate.
She still wanted to push him away, but he wouldn't let go: "Jin'er, you promise me, or I won't let you go. We don't want to do anything in this life, just be husband and wife in this deep mountain and old forest. I
No matter how I think about it, I feel that this is better than the days when I go out. I don’t see you often. I can’t sleep all night long because of my thoughts. The clothes you bought me are too big.”
His voice was deep, and his words were clearly coquettish.
As he spoke, he took her hand and put it gently on his face: "I'm not going to lie to you, look at me...Does Jin'er feel sorry for me?"
She touched his face gently.
She was really distressed, and every time she saw him, she couldn't bear to look at him any longer.
After a long time, she closed her eyes and accepted her fate: "My wish for you will come true. After three years, if you still think what you think today, I will try to forgive you."
He was immediately elated: "Okay."
He held her face with both hands and kissed her hard.
Then he said: "By then, I will be old, will Jin'er dislike me?"
It's enough!!!
She waved her hands and started to leave.
He lingered on her, took her hand and put it around his waist: "Will you? Jin'er?"
She just didn't answer him.
After hugging him for a while, he smiled and said softly: "I know it won't happen. When I met Jin'er, he was already old and ugly. It's a pity that my little Jin'er is good at everything but only has bad eyes. I
The only thing I rely on in this life is Jin'er's eyes that were born for me."