"Let's go" Zhao Tianqin lowered her head to hold back the tears in her eyes, wondering if she would have reached this point if she had not died.
Although she has come out now, she still remembers how desperate she was at that time, how desperate she was as much as she hoped, and how much she hoped someone would pull her out.
The spiritual hint she gave to the woman: Only when you are alive can you have hope!
Lin Zezhong led Zhao Tianqin forward. He felt something was wrong with her for some reason. After she brought the three people to the water, he lowered his head and looked at her. Suddenly a tear fell to the ground. Then a second tear fell to the ground.
Lin Zezhong suddenly stopped. He held Zhao Tianqin's shoulders and lowered his head to look at her. She was in a daze and tears fell down drop by drop. The drops fell into his heart, making him feel pain.
He stretched out his hand to wipe away her tears and asked gently: "What's wrong?"
Zhao Tianqin was immersed in his own world and did not respond to him at all. Lin Zezhong saw an unoccupied stone chair nearby and helped her sit down. He looked into her eyes and said softly, "What's wrong? Talk to me, I'm bored."
I feel very sad. I don’t know what you are thinking even if you don’t tell me. Or do you miss the child?"
Zhao Tianqin woke up when she heard him say "child". She threw herself into his arms, suppressing herself and crying quietly as she did in her previous life. Tears fell down drop by drop, and soon they stained his chest. She felt like she was wronged.
A child who has completely forgotten his identity and abilities.
Lin Zezhong held back the tears and heartache and patted her back gently, "They will come again, we will be fine, we will be happy..." He whispered in her ear.
Zhao Tianqin gradually calmed down, her little hands grabbed Lin Zezhong's clothes, and pulled her over to wipe away her tears. The moment she reacted, red clouds stained her cheeks. His chest was stained with her tears. She buried herself in his chest.
Sorry to come out.
No matter how sad or sad she was in her previous life, she just avoided crying by herself. Never did she cry in his arms like this. It was she who ruined herself. If she could talk to him, or talk to her parents and sisters, it wouldn't be any better.
If you talk about it on Weibo, maybe she won't be so depressed anymore. She always says it's okay, and everyone thinks she's fine. She should let go of the past completely.
Zhao Tianqin suddenly became enlightened and felt that something was leaving her. Her whole soul was like a bright mirror and she no longer felt that something was covering her soul.
She even felt that the entire universe was cheering for her. A black stream of light suddenly appeared in the universe, flew towards her at extremely fast speed, and finally entered her brain directly.
She suddenly felt that she was the universe, and the universe was herself. There was a black bead floating in the center of her spiritual sea, juxtaposed with her white blood lotus.
"Are you feeling better?" Lin Zezhong's gentle voice sounded in her ears.
She wiped away the tears on her face, then came out of his arms, lowering her head with a blush on her face, "I'm fine."
Zhao Tianqin looked up and looked around. The sky had darkened and the street lights were on. Although the weather was hot, the waterside was very humid. Most people didn't like to walk by the river. They walked around them on the embankment road above.
There are very few people.
She leaned into Lin Zezhong's arms and said softly: "Aze, I was once as desperate as she was. I thought about many ways to die, or to take the children with me, but I was gone before I could."
When Lin Zezhong heard what she said, he felt his heart being pulled by something, and the pain was so painful that he couldn't breathe. After calming down, he asked softly: "Why do you have such an idea?"
Is it because of him?
"After I gave birth to my baby, you became busier and busier. When you came back, you cleaned up everything and rarely talked to me. At that time, I thought you were feeling guilty because you had someone you liked outside. Then you became even busier.
, came back very late, and went out early. I was wondering if you liked your son, after all, the village was quite patriarchal at that time.
My body didn’t allow it, and then an accident happened. I was actually very happy because you came back earlier. You would occasionally accompany us on Saturdays and Sundays. It wasn’t until two months after giving birth to my second child that your
My coat was stained with another woman's perfume, and I didn't sleep all night. From that day on, I always suffered from insomnia. If you wanted to touch me, I would feel sick. After I rejected you several times, you never touched me again.
Already.
I was always sick at that time, and you even bought a small bed to sleep alone on, and you hired a part-time worker to come to your house every day to clean and clean your clothes. I didn’t even have the courage to touch your clothes.
You were unhappy when you came home every day, and kept frowning, as if you hated me. Then you suddenly became happy again. At that time, I thought you were going to divorce me. I love you too humblely, so I thought
Just die..."
Zhao Tianqin burst into tears as she spoke. She didn't wake up until she saw him so desperate and sad after her death. She couldn't bear it herself, so she buried her memory deeply and didn't want to touch it.
Lin Zezhong listened quietly to Zhao Tianqin's narration of past events, feeling heartbroken. Closing his eyes could not stop the tears from flowing out, and he couldn't help but hug Zhao Tianqin tightly.
It's really because of him. In her previous life, Zhao Tianqin was in poor health, so her parents pampered her. The family conditions were very good, so she was very simple.
Because his parents treated him badly, he never felt any fatherly or motherly love since he was a child, so he didn't know how to express it. He was very short of money and wanted to make more money so that she could have enough food and clothing.
It's just that the profession of architectural designer makes a lot of money, but it is also very busy. He also takes orders from outside, so he is even busier. He is so tired every day that when he comes home, he finds that she is too busy taking care of the children and sometimes can't even eat.
, the house was very messy, so he rushed to clean it up.
He has always had low self-esteem, so he has never been fond of talking, and because he is always thinking about the design, he talks even less.
At that time, he didn't understand how hard it was to take care of the children at home, and he didn't know how her thin body survived. When he knew that she was gone, she was gone.
After she left, he cleaned her and found that her body was full of bones. She always wore loose clothes, and he hadn't hugged her for a long time, so he never knew.
Lin Zezhong thought of all the things he had ignored little by little, and he felt that he was such a bastard.
No wonder Zhao Guobang and Zheng Meizhi both said that he didn't know how to cherish her after she was gone. If it weren't for the sake of their children, they probably wouldn't want to pay attention to him. After all, he was the culprit who killed her.
"I'm sorry, it's my fault. I didn't communicate with you properly. I ignored you. It's my fault that I didn't take good care of you..."
Lin Zezhong thought of Zhao Guobang's hand in his last life when they got married and said, "My daughter has not been in good health since she was a child. Can you take good care of her?"
At that time, he said, "Yes, I will not let her be wronged. I will take good care of her, love her, and never leave her."