Zhao Tianqin paused and said coldly: "Then do you know that I am dead? Dead, yes, dead. I know very well in my heart that he is the culprit - the father of the child! He only has these five things to me
Words are engraved in my heart and cannot be forgotten.
He was the one who killed me. Do you let me be with him? For the sake of the children? Even for the sake of the children, just wait until I grow up! Don't push me to him again. I will think it through when I grow up.
He wants the children to be with him. Or he doesn’t want the children. We’ll be fine on our own!”
Zhao Tianqin closed her eyes, and tears welled up from her closed eyes. She quickly wiped them clean, and opened her eyes after a few seconds, her eyes full of indifference and alienation.
Zhao Guobang took his little daughter into his arms, held her little daughter and gently stroked her back, with a look of heartache on his face. It was like a dream in which he realized that his little daughter was not there.
After a while, Zhao Guobang committed suicide and said softly: "Dad, I know you are dead, but do you know that your children are also dead? Yes, they are all dead. After the children died, Aze went crazy. He held the bodies of the children
No one can snatch the child's body if it is motionless, neither eating nor drinking.
Aze once said: "You can't take away the child. If there is no child, Qinqin will hate me and not forgive me. She said she would forgive me if I take good care of the child. If I don't cheat, she will be with me."
Nanny, is there really no misunderstanding between you two?...
You cannot blame just one person for everything between a husband and wife. In the dream, you also had the same constitution and could not be treated. You were so fragile and sickly. Can you really blame Aze for your death? Have you told him? Does he know?
All these things...can't you forgive him?"
Zhao Tianqin smiled coldly and said calmly: "Dad, do you know how the child died? I don't know, right! But I know clearly in my heart that all the children died because of him.
The word "forgive" is so easy to say, but I can't do it.
Don't tell me how I know these things after I'm dead. I'm dead. But it doesn't mean that I can't come back. It doesn't mean that I'm a useless ordinary person like in my previous life. It's the greatest forgiveness I've shown him by not squeezing him to death.
You know you're dead too, right? Do you think you died because you couldn't bear this blow? No, no, you should ask him.
Ask who brought me to this world, who coveted me, and who forced me to get me.
I can forgive him in every life in the past, but my child is my enemy. Even if I am still young, I cannot forgive him! I hate him!"
The three words "I hate him" were full of hatred. Zhao Tianqin raised his eyes and stared at the ceiling coldly.
Lin Jiuze in the room on the fourth floor felt his heart beating violently, as if Zhao Tianqin could look at him through the ground.
Can she see that she can tell herself?
Does she hate herself?
What on earth did he do wrong?
Did he kill her, her parents, and the child she valued most?
Bring her into this world, covet her, force her to get her...
This wasn't what he did, right? He couldn't be willing to hurt her. Does she know how much she loves her in her heart?
But there is no such thing as hatred without reason...
"Nanny, what are you talking about? These are all done by Aze. It's impossible. How could he do this if he loves you so much..." Zheng Meizhi said in disbelief, her eyes full of confusion.
Zhao Tianqin calmed down and said calmly: "I don't know the specific process, but I have the answers in my mind and my heart, and these answers are deeply ingrained in my heart. So parents, don't rush to convince me to be with him."
, I will consider it carefully.
I am only ten years old, I have a long life, and I am not in a hurry for anything. I don’t want to grow up quickly, and I don’t want to know about the past. I want to grow up innocently like other children, instead of treating me as one year old.
Young children are forced to grow up quickly.
I don’t want to be affected by the past, I don’t want to become a stranger to myself, and I don’t want to suffer. I also want to be filled with sweetness and happiness in my heart, not pain and bitterness.
I can endure this pain without any treatment, but don't give me hope and give me despair, let alone push me into the abyss."
Zhao Tianqin pulled Zhao Guobang's clothes and closed his eyes, enduring the unspeakable pain and bitterness in his heart.
She knew that those emotions did not come from her, but were unforgettable emotions left over from her previous life or every previous life.
Because she felt that a large number of independent true spirits had appeared, and they were all broken. In order to achieve her, or forget the painful past...
They want her to grow up free and happy, and they don't force anything else, so why should she be too persistent?
"Dad, don't tell me anymore. You will make your own choices in the future of your life. Whether there is a misunderstanding or not, the answer will be revealed one day." Zhao Guobang rubbed the back of his little daughter's head and comforted her.
He suddenly felt that he was going too far. Not everyone wanted to know about the past life, especially for a young child. After knowing the past life, would he still be himself?
Zheng Meizhi raised her hand and touched her little daughter's forehead, her eyes full of tolerance: "Mom doesn't advise you to make any decision. I just think that Aze may not be as bad as you think. Otherwise, how could he have the face to appear here?
In front of you, I treat you so well.
Aze is not a man without temper or self-esteem. He has a very high self-esteem and a pretty good temper. Although we have never seen Aze get angry, he actually doesn't have a good attitude towards outsiders, especially those who offend him.
When a man puts you on the top of his heart and holds you in his hand, how can he be willing to break your heart if he loves you so much?
How could I not know your temperament after being together for a long time? How could I not know what is wrong in your heart and what you can and cannot do?
You always bully Aze. Although we don't know the reason, we can guess that Aze teases you with words. He actually just wants you to be happy, even if you bully him.
Don't think that he is so humble because he has done something wrong. He may be so humble because he loves you. Because he thinks you are important and worthy...
Mom didn’t want you to hurt Aze. In the end, the misunderstanding was resolved and he left."
Zhao Tianqin withdrew from Zhao Guobang's arms. She sighed and said: "It's good that he can leave. I don't care about emotional matters. My heart is empty. I don't understand love. This is also recorded in books.
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So I don’t have any expectations about marriage. I have the answer in my mind about children. You don’t need to ask any more questions. It’s time for you to go to bed. If you don’t sleep so late, you will feel sleepy.”
"Okay, then mom and dad are going to bed. Let me have a good rest. If you need anything, just pull this cord. We'll come right away when the bell rings." Zhao Guobang pointed to the cord at the head of his little daughter's bed.