"sorry……"

After Lin Zheng said these three words, he felt very ironic.

This was not the first time he had said sorry to Chao Ci.

But it wasn't the first time that I hurt him after saying I was sorry.

Chao Ci's eyes did not fall on Lin Zheng, but looked ahead blankly.

He ignored Lin Zheng's apology - just as Lin Zheng thought, his apology was useless and ridiculous to Chao Ci. After a long time, he said softly: "I have no glands now."

"There is no compatibility, and I have turned into a genderless weirdo." He finally looked at Lin Zheng's face, "I have no use to you anymore."

Every word he said seemed to cut into Lin Zheng's heart.

Lin Zheng opened his mouth, but his throat seemed to be blocked.

He wanted to tell Chao Ci that he didn't want to pester him because of compatibility, but just because... he loved him.

This was an answer he had never wanted to admit before, but it had appeared in his mind over and over again in the past few months. There was a voice telling him this in every corner of reality and illusion.

In more than 20 years, Lin Zheng has never done anything he regrets.

Except for the person he loves the most, he has regretted and made mistakes countless times.

He used to despise compatibility the most, but he fell in love with Chao Ci, who was 100% compatible with him. Now that Chao Ci has had his glands removed, and there is no compatibility anymore, he still loves him.

Only then did he understand that compatibility is not the original sin, but arrogance and arrogance are.

"I won't pester you anymore, Chao Ci." Lin Zheng closed his eyes in pain and pretended to be calm and said, "When you are discharged from the hospital, I will never appear in front of you again."

"If you want to go to Germany to find Lin Da... I won't stop you anymore."

It was very difficult for him to say this, as if his heart was being torn out.

Chao Ci's empty eyes did not light up again for these words.

Go back now...can you still go back?

Can't go back.

He no longer looked at Lin Zheng, but focused his gaze on the ceiling.

It was as if there was a fire that burned away all the filth and ugliness in his body, including his flesh and blood, leaving only an empty skin.

…………

Lin Zheng rarely came to Chao Ci's ward because he knew that he was the person Chao Ci least wanted to see.

The people who usually have the most contact with Chao Ci are the two nursing staff, the nurse in charge of his ward, the doctor, and... the psychiatrist invited by Lin Zheng.

Yes, Chao Ci suffered from mental illness, and the doctor recommended Lin Zheng that Chao Ci receive professional psychological treatment.

But even if he hired a psychiatrist, Chao Ci's condition didn't seem to be relieved.

He refused to eat and relied on glucose every day to survive. In a few days, he became so thin that he almost lost his shape.

Lin Zheng was anxious, but he knew that his attempts to persuade him would not have any effect, and would be counterproductive.

He couldn't come, but he was really worried. After thinking about it for a long time, he contacted the school where Chao Ci once worked, and organized some voluntary students among the students Chao Ci taught to come to the hospital to visit Chao Ci.

Chao Ci was a teacher who was very popular with students in school. Who doesn't like a teacher who is easy to talk to, has a good temper, and has real talents?

Let these students come to persuade Chao Ci. Even if Chao Ci knew that Lin Zheng was playing tricks, he did not want to offend the students' good intentions and still ate some liquid food.

Chao Ci will be hospitalized for a month to observe the situation. During this month, except for chatting with students when they come, Chao Ci basically does not talk at other times, and there is no entertainment program.

The nurse felt that this single ward was too cold and cold. She would turn on the TV every day and would not care about her speech.

Most of the time, he was in a daze.

It can't be said to be in a daze, it means that the eyes are focused on a certain place for a whole day.

When Chao Ci was about to be discharged from the hospital, something happened.

That day, the TV broadcast the news in the morning as usual.

A plane flying from Germany to City A in Country Z encountered strong airflow while passing through the northwest region and crashed.

Currently, the whereabouts of all 137 people on board are unknown.

The new article also specifically mentioned that a painter with a particularly international reputation was also on the plane.

Chao Ci's heart tightened, and his limbs instantly became cold.

The news on TV didn't mention much. Chao Ci picked up the cell phone beside the bed that he hadn't touched for a long time and started searching on the Internet.

Until I saw the complete information about the painter.

Lin Dai.

Chao Ci's vision suddenly went dark, and he lost consciousness again.

…………

To be honest, he was unconscious, but Chao Ci's consciousness was still in the system space talking nonsense to the system.

[Why did we encounter strong airflow in the northwest region again? Isn’t this the cause of my death last week?] Chao Ci asked the system while nibbling snacks.

[I don’t know, but if this is just a simple coincidence, it may not be convincing.] The system said, [They were all planes on that route, and they all encountered strong airflow in the northwest region. You died because of it last time.

, after being pulled into this world this time, that node was forcibly modified. You are fine, but now Lin Da is dead... Maybe this is a "compensation". Or, a "cost"?]

[I don’t understand.] Chao Ci scratched his head and continued to eat the dried mango in his hand, [If it is a “price”, how come there is no price in the first two worlds? 】

[Maybe there is, but you didn't notice it. Maybe you don't have to pay a "price" every time, and we still know too little about it. Or maybe, it's just a coincidence.] The system said.

[So is Lin Dai really dead?] Chao Ci bit the last piece of dried mango into his mouth, patted his hand that was stained with some sugar crystals, [That’s a pity, he’s a good person.]

Even though he said this, he didn't feel sad at all.

[Probably.] The system is not sure either.

[Whatever, just adapt to the situation!] Chao Ci said, opening another pack of dried strawberries and praising them as he ate them.

[Tongzi, do you know why I love eating in the main area so much? 】

[...] The system was too lazy to ask why, but after thinking about it, it still gave Chao Ci some face, [Why?]

[Because you won’t get fat even if you eat all these things! It’s so refreshing!] He patted his thigh, and then thought of the hundreds of thousands of meal he had booked before he was pulled back.

Hey, I don’t know when I can eat it.

…………

The doctor said that Chao Ci was not seriously injured this time, but that he suffered a temporary shock due to the heavy blow.

However, Lin Zheng knew that this was not just a matter of shock.

Lin Da was killed, and he couldn't imagine how big a blow this was to Chao Ci.

Chao Ci was in shock for only one day.

He woke up at dusk, and the person beside him was still Lin Zheng.

"He really..." Chao Ci's voice was hoarse and he could hardly say the last word.

"It's just that we lost contact." Lin Zheng held Chao Ci in his arms, "There is still hope for him to survive."

Chao Ci did not take this sentence seriously.

There are many people who can survive a plane crash, but in an air crash like this where the plane suddenly crashes at a high altitude, almost no one can survive.

His eyes were empty, as if no light could shine through.

…

Late at night, Lin Zheng forcefully hugged Chao Ci down from the window.

God knows how he felt when he woke up in the middle of the night and saw Chao Ci standing on the windowsill, looking like he was about to jump off the next moment.

Lin Zheng didn't know that he could still be so scared.

His hands and feet were so cold that he had no warmth at all, his soul was sinking, and his ears were filled with sharp roars.

But his body rushed up immediately and hugged Chao Ci down.

He kept kissing Chao Ci's cheeks and forehead, and hot tears kept falling, some of which hit Chao Ci's face.

"Please..."

He could hardly utter any sentences, he just kept pleading hoarsely and brokenly in Chao Ci's ear.

He heard Chao Ci ask softly: "Tell me, how could he die suddenly?"

It was too sudden.

Lin Da died, and the farewell he left to Lin Da was that ridiculous letter.

To this day, he still feels that this incident is horribly unreal, as if Lin Da will appear in front of him the next second and tell him that he is back.

But reason told him that Lin Da was dead and would never come back again.

This confrontation was almost tearing his soul apart.
To be continued...