"I thought he would stay away from me from then on, but the more he was still like before, as if nothing had happened. I asked him, why. He said, I am my brother. Will my brother hurt my brother? The answer is yes. But he believed that I would save him until the last second, he believed! So, he did not hate me, didn't blame me, everything was like before, but I was different. The first guilt and sadness were what I learned at that time. Countless times, I woke up from my dream. In the dream, I was soaking in the water, and I was constantly struggling in the swimming pool. I felt that in my dream I had experienced the same experience as Gu Fu. So, I knew that Gu Fu did not hate me, but my own heart hated me."

Lu Qingwan suddenly thought of some shadows of the answer from his words, but it was not specific, as if he was just a trace of light and shadow.

"I think this is the legendary trick of fate. When you start setting the first game for yourself and fate arranges the second game for you, but this time the mastermind is fate, not me anymore, time is the time of the kidnapping."

"At that time, when he and I were locked in the warehouse, I knew that if I didn't do anything, we could not live. First, my parents could not have paid enough to empty the wealth of the whole family to save us. Second, even if they were given money, they would silence us. Third, my father had many sons, not just the two of us, we could be discarded. I spent several days observing those people, especially their leaders, who did nothing when they humiliated and tortured us, and finally I

Finally, I found a little hope, that is... torture and watching performances are what they like to see, they also like money, and they prefer small us. I saw desire in their eyes. But they have not tortured us enough, I guess, they will wait until they are sure there is no hope, and then... you know, and then kill us. So in order to seize this hope and to survive, I knelt down and beg them while Gu Fu was asleep, and I said to them, I want to live, I will make money to give them ransoms, and I will satisfy all their wishes."

"The deal began... From that day on, I tormented Gu Fu every day, performed to those people every day, and I tried my best to please them, using all means, and it didn't matter even if I used my body. I felt that I was standing by the swimming pool again, watching him struggle constantly in the water, and also looking at me without saying anything. But in the end, there was no longer the trust and light of the past in his eyes. I knew that he wanted to die, but I couldn't. That time, I couldn't let him die, I wanted to save him, even if it was worse than death, I wanted to save him."

"Later, at my suggestion, those people locked him in the warehouse and let him starve him to death, and they were tired of playing. I followed them away. I knew that his hope of living in it was slim, but I bet... I saw a trace of a warehouse that had a master, and the machines inside would be sold. I had determined the time. As long as he survived that time, he could live. Even if the hope was only one percent."

Lu Qingwan was already shocked. Such a story was too cruel and sad.

If it were her, she would be driven crazy.

Because it's not just Gu Fu, but Arthur.

When Arthur tortured Gu Fu, he tortured his heart again. He said that after the incident of falling into the water, his relationship with Gu Fu changed. Because of guilt, he empathized with him and had nightmares every night.

"Arthur...you...you can tell...you told Gu Fu. You were involuntarily at that time, and you wanted him to survive."

But Arthur smiled, his eyes filled with sadness that Lu Qingwan could not understand.

"Do you think he doesn't know the answer? Do you think... he doesn't know what I'm doing? Do you think he's writing so many whys, is he questioning me? Do you think he's locked me up for so many years but doesn't kill me?"

Lu Qingwan was completely confused.

"For...why?"

"Qingwan, we all know the answer, but we can't face it, and for us, the answer is not the same. The answer I got was that at that time, I was indeed torturing him crazy, and no matter any reason, he crawled out of hell. Just as after he fell into the water that year, I had nightmares every day, I dreamed that I would go back to that time every night, but people became myself. How painful it should be! This kind of pain was brought to him by me. And his answer was... He couldn't forgive himself! We are twin brothers, we are the other half of each other. Many times, we can guess each other's thoughts. Qingwan, I actually made the same choice. I think, at that time we thought about going together. Not only did I think of the only hope, he also thought about it. But thinking about it and being able to do it is different. I did, he didn't."

"I heard that after I left with those, I left him alone in the warehouse. He wrote down why in blood on the ground, words after words... It was not asking why I was treating him like this! It was not asking the reason! It was asking himself why he didn't do that! He saw that I was taken away by someone in the end. In fact, those people had asked him in person if he was willing to torture me and make the situation reverse. But he said nothing and did nothing."

"People are sometimes so strange. People are willing to be the kind side, not to be a demon or a sinner who harms their loved ones. I mean, I can understand this psychologically. So you can imagine that he hates me because I make him hurt, and I was the last to force him crazy, but at the same time, he also feels guilty to me, and he also knows what price I have paid for living. In other words, I can do this for him, but he cannot do what I do to him. He can't do it! He clearly knows that the pain of my life will be deeper than him, and the hope of my life will be slimmer than him, but he still can't do it. At that time, what he wanted to die was that I told him that if he died, I would never live. He knew that I was not kidding."

"This kind of feeling is so complicated that he is unwilling to face this fact. Simple hatred is sometimes much easier than hating himself. He feels that he loves me, believes in me, is his brother, but he cannot protect me, and asks me to protect him. He is actually very painful. It's just that although he feels guilty, the pain I torment him is too deep, so even if he understands my behavior, his heart is still hurt. He is a human, not a god, and he can't treat someone generously with love and hate. In addition, he is not like my personality. I am a bad and cruel person, and he cannot."

"Later, what I said was not the simple answer, it was about what happened after I left the warehouse. After I was taken away by them, the abuse was endless and the torture did not stop. I kept making money in various ways because I was sold... a place where I traded, and that place was not convenient for me to tell you. You know, it was useless. I was locked up there for a long time, for more than ten years, until I climbed up by myself and started to slaughter off all those who had hurt me. But when I came out by myself, I found it was still too late. Sure enough, my bastard father was the beast...sold him. When I could protect him, he had already experienced a lot and became stronger, but I still slaughtered those who had hurt him."

Lu Qingwan didn't know that this would be the case. She wanted to say something, but she felt that she couldn't speak.

"Now, Qingwan, you know all the answers, what can you do? Hum? Tell him? Tell him that I didn't mean it? Or tell him to let go of the past? He can't do it! Otherwise, he wouldn't have to imprison me here, but he would never hurt me. I also know his thoughts, so I voluntarily be locked up here by him."

Lu Qingwan was depressed and sad. Her intuition told herself that there should be hidden things in the past.

She thought that as long as you know the truth, you can resolve the misunderstanding.

But she found that she was not omnipotent.

The two of them know each other and each other's answers, but the question just can't be solved.

Feelings are not supported by simple formulas. As long as you unravel all the steps, your feelings can be restored.

After being hurt, cracks will always exist.

Just as Arthur was also a victim and was protecting Gu Fu in his way. He knew everything but could do nothing.

"You... do you regret it? If you were asked to make a new choice, would you still do that?"

Arthur chuckled and said, "I will. If you ask him this question, he will tell you, and he will. We can't choose. I think he will be alive again. After he was rescued from the water, as I said before, I did kill him myself, and I owe him a life. And you, you should already know, he is still alive, right? He is peeking at us now! Guess, when will he not be able to hold back and suddenly jump out? Otherwise, I'll try again!"

Suddenly, Arthur kissed Lu Qingwan's lips before she could react.

Lu Qingwan's eyes widened in an instant.

Arthur!

Just as she was struggling, she heard a bang, and then the sound of a wheelchair sliding came.

"Arthur! Let her go!"
Chapter completed!