However, she didn't know that not long after she finally began to slowly get used to this kind of life, a person suddenly broke into her world, causing her newly calmed heart to stir again.

The rain was pouring down, and as she watched the carriage carrying her farther and farther away, Xia Houlie's hands gradually clenched into fists behind her and she closed her eyes tiredly.

Li Changan looked at him worriedly, "Your Majesty, you are already wet. Please take care of your dragon body! It's better to go in and hide."

Xia Houlie watched the last shadow of the carriage disappear into the vast curtain of rain. He finally nodded indifferently and turned around to walk towards the palace. He just took a step and staggered up. If Li Changan hadn't been able to help him quickly, he would have fallen.

On the ground.

"Let me help you." Seeing him like this, Li Changan's voice was choked with sobs.

Xia Houlie was silent and let him help him walk forward. After a while, he remembered that every time Mu Qingwan lost her temper with him, she liked to have a cold war with him like this, without crying or making trouble, just so stubborn.

My heart, which I thought wouldn't hurt anymore, twitched violently again. I can't count how many times this happened today.

He gritted his teeth fiercely, allowing himself to withstand the pain that was like stabbing his heart. After a while, he spoke calmly:

"Li Chang'an, pass on my decree and leave the court for three days. Yun Lanshan's case will be handed over to Zhou Changlong. After it is settled, you can report to me."

This was the first time since Xia Houlie ascended the throne that he had dismissed the imperial court.

Li Changan was startled, then nodded and said: "I obey the order, long live my lord, please take care of yourself."

He walked drowsily in the rain until he reached a palace before he finally stopped as if out of strength. When he looked up, he saw three familiar words: "Changxin Palace."

Now the place is deserted.

After shooing away Li Changan, he slowly walked up the steps alone.

He heard his own footsteps, one after another, as if they were stepping on his heart.

When he opened the door and walked in, a white shadow suddenly rushed up. He subconsciously caught it. A pair of warm and bright black eyes were looking at him pitifully. In a daze, he seemed to see her squatting again.

Train this naughty dog ​​next to the kennel, pretending to be angry and intimidating it when it disobeys.

His body was wet from the rain, and his warm fur was soaked by him. Without him noticing, he broke away from his hand and jumped to the ground, running towards the inner hall.

He subconsciously chased after him, but when he heard footsteps coming from inside, he suddenly felt ecstatic. But soon, a young palace maid came out with a fly whisk. When she saw Xia Houlie, she felt as if she had seen a ghost.

He stayed where he was and forgot to even say hello.

A strong sense of loss made Xia Houlie rarely lose his composure in front of a palace maid, so he stood there in a daze, staring at her in a daze.

The palace maid was so frightened by his eyes that she knelt down and kowtowed:

"Your Majesty, good luck!"

After a long while, Xia Houlie came back to his senses. The confusion in his eyes dissipated a little. He cleared his throat and asked, "Why are you here?"

Since Mu Qingwan was abolished by decree, the Changxin Palace has almost become a forbidden area, and he has dismissed all the maids and eunuchs.

"Back... back to the emperor, slave... I am grateful for the Queen's kindness, so I begged Aunt Chu to allow the slave to come over and clean every day. I am thinking that I can't say... I can't say that the queen will come back in the future...

"

"Will you come back?" Xia Houlie murmured and repeated these four words, and suddenly burst into laughter, with sarcasm, anger, helplessness, and seemingly infinite expectations.

His weird laughter made the little palace maid's hair stand on end. She thought she had said something she shouldn't have said, so she panicked and immediately knelt down to apologize: "My slave said the wrong thing, please punish me."

Xia Houlie laughed for a long time, until he lost all his strength and shed tears. Then he stopped, turned his back to the palace maid and said, "What's your name?"

"Slave... my name is Hongdou."

"Red beans?" He chewed on these two words, recalling in his mind a poem that Mu Qingwan once read to him: Red beans are born in the south. When spring comes, a few branches will grow. I hope you will pick more. This is the thing that I miss the most.

Seeing that the emperor was silent again, Hongdou didn't dare to disturb him, so he had to kneel there with his head down. It wasn't until her whole body was sore from kneeling that the skin on her knees was about to be scratched, then Xia Houlie seemed to remember that she was still kneeling there.

, hurriedly said: "Hongdou, I...I don't blame you. From now on, you remember to come here to clean it every day. Go down."

Hongdou was about to leave in a hurry, but when he saw Xia Houlie was wet, he stopped again and said, "Your Majesty, your clothes are all wet. Do you want me to boil some water for you to take a bath?"

Xia Houlie nodded, and not long after, Hongdou prepared hot water. Xia Houlie took a bath quietly, changed into clean clothes, and lay on the bed sleepily. As soon as the quilt was covered, her breath lingered.

, lingering.

He buried his head under the quilt and breathed in her scent vigorously, as if this was the only way to alleviate the heart-wrenching pain deep in his heart.

Suddenly there was a commotion on the quilt. He pulled the quilt away and saw that Nuan Nuan was biting the quilt cover. Seeing him look over, he whined twice, looking very pitiful. Xia Hou

Lie reached out unconsciously, and when Nuannuan saw his actions, she jumped into his arms hastily, staring at him with her bright eyes.

He sat up and leaned against the bed, rubbing his big hands on Nuan Nuan's furry body from time to time, staring blankly at the imperial concubine's couch where she used to sit.

Coquettish, angry, cute, gentle, stubborn, crying...

The vivid faces passed by his eyes, and I thought, he really wanted to knock her out and tie her to his side and never allow her to leave again.

But he knew that he couldn't do this.

As long as he is willing, he can use Xichu's safety as a bargaining chip to force her to submit as he did before. As long as he is willing, she will still be by his side, and she will be gentle and happy under him...

However, he didn't want to do that again, he didn't want to see her cry again.

If you think about it carefully, from the moment she married Bei Yanlai, her happiness and innocence were ruthlessly deprived of her, and he was the executioner.

He had never seen her smile sincerely once, and even if she did, it was just disguised happiness.

He didn't want to do that again, he couldn't bear it.

But what should he do? He missed her so much that he was going crazy. Every part of his body was not hurting, and every part of his body was screaming for her. That thing called missing had filled all his thoughts through his blood and breathing.

, all feelings.

This marriage was a mistake from the beginning. He used a wrong start to tightly bind the two of them together, but he did not know it and went further and further along this wrong path without realizing it.

The further we go, the more we reach this point of no return.

He owns the world, he can make her the most noble woman in the world, he can let her enjoy all the glory and wealth, and he can have three thousand people in the harem who love her. However, she dismisses it. She said, "I don't want fine clothes and fine food."

She doesn't want glory and wealth, she just wants someone she loves and someone who loves her to stay with her for the rest of her life. That's enough.

He didn't think there was anything wrong with a man having three wives and four concubines. Loyalty was only a matter between a woman and a man. What's more, he, Xia Houlie, was still a king. He married those concubines not to satisfy his selfish desires, but to balance all parties in the court.

Strength, let Beiyan Jiangshan be consolidated forever.

How could he give up Sangong and Liuyuan for a woman? Even if it is allowed emotionally, it is not allowed intellectually!

Thinking blankly, he murmured unconsciously: "I will never do such a stupid thing, absolutely not!"

After saying that, he laughed, but his laughter was so weak, like a wandering soul. His distracted and confused eyes gradually became sharper, like a drop of cold water dropped into hot oil. What else did he want her to do?

?

He dotes on her and loves her so much, what is her reward? She threatens her life to force him to let her go.

It turns out that what she said at the beginning, that she must crawl out of his sight even if she crawls, was not a moment of anger, but an idea rooted in her mind. Over the past few days, no matter how loving or intimate the two were, she had never been able to do so.

I gave up this idea.

Such a dishonest woman is simply not worthy of his missing him so much. She will never know, and even if she knows, she will probably sneer and dismiss her.

What good does it do to think about her? It will only make you crazy.

It's just a woman. What kind of woman does Xia Houlie want? Forget her, eliminate her from memory completely.

As soon as such a decision came out of his mind, he felt a pain at the tip of his heart, as if a sharp knife had been inserted into it. The pain was so painful that even breathing began to feel uncomfortable.

However, she has left and will never come back.

This fact did not allow him to escape. He had to calm down, figure it all out, and then completely remove her from his heart. Although this process would be extremely painful, he had to do it.

Because he, Xia Houlie, would not be so cowardly as to let a woman trouble him for the rest of his life.

When did you start taking her into your heart?

Countless fragments flashed through my mind, but when I thought about it at the end, I was at a loss.

He remembered that on the night of the wedding, he deliberately went to Yunyi Palace to accompany her, and left her, the queen of the main palace, in the cold, just to give her a show of strength and let her know that marrying Beiyan was not to make her a superior queen, but to be a queen.

He, Xia Houlie, can abandon a woman like a pair of worn-out shoes at any time.

But then I thought about it, what kind of pain can make a woman collapse?

If you have never gained, you have never lost. If you pamper her well at first, and then abandon her ruthlessly after she falls in love with you and thinks you have gained, the pain will be even more heartbreaking.

Before going to Changxin Palace, he indeed thought so, but when he saw that little face without makeup and sleeping without any thought, his vision was stunning and his heart was agitated.

He never thought that one day he would feel his heart beat faster.

As the king of a country, he owns the world, and has a harem of three thousand beauties. When seeing him, which woman would not rush to him like moths to a flame? But the moment she woke up, there was only one thing in her eyes when she looked at him.

disgust.

Although she quickly covered it up, he already knew in his heart that she hated him.

As soon as he realized this, his heart felt like it was boiling in a frying pan. Why did this woman hate him? The Mu family owed him something, and now it was just up to her to repay it. What right did she have to hate him?

That night, he wanted her unsatisfied for a long time. The next day, even he was frightened by his loss of control. However, after the morning court, he still couldn't help but walk to Changxin Palace. What he saw and heard

, but it was her calling another man's name with nostalgia in her dream.

He admitted that at that moment, he was angry and crazy.

While he tortured her, he reminded her of her identity - just a tool for his revenge.
To be continued...