When he came back to his senses, he felt a coldness on his back, and he clenched the hem of his clothes so tightly with both hands that he didn't even notice that his nails were digging into the flesh of his palms.

Lu Chuxia's seemingly surprised voice came to my ears:

"Brother-in-law? Brother Lie? You... how come you two are together?"

It seemed that Mu Qingwan was not the only one who was surprised.

Xia Houlie and Helian Moxiao jumped off the horse neatly, and they walked towards the three people opposite. Mu Qingwan subconsciously took a step back and quickly lowered her head. Fortunately, she was standing relatively far back.

Now Showa and Lu Chuxia are blocking her.

Helian Moxiao touched Chu Xia's head and said with a smile: "This is a matter for us adults. You are still a child, so you don't understand."

After hearing this, Chu Xia immediately blushed and retorted:

"I got my haircut last year, so I'm an adult already..." Her voice gradually became softer, she looked at Showa with a somewhat lonely look, and murmured:

"Otherwise, why would my grandmother and parents be planning to find my in-laws every day..."

After Xia Houlie heard this, he glanced at Zhaohe calmly. Zhaohe's face was also a little stiff, and the atmosphere suddenly became stiff.

Fortunately, Lu Chuxia had a cheerful temperament, and the loneliness on his face disappeared in an instant, and he changed the subject with a smile:

"By the way, brother Lie, why did you tell me in advance that you were coming over? I just heard the report from the black armored cavalry, and now the house is in chaos."

Xia Houlie glanced at Helian Moxiao meaningfully, and pursed his lips into a smile, "I heard that my grandmother was unwell. Since the death of my mother-in-law, I, as a nephew, have never fulfilled my filial piety in her home for a day. Now,

I just happened to come over for a visit during my free time from government affairs, I'm afraid you won't welcome me."

"How could it be? Although grandma doesn't say it, I can see that she actually misses her aunt and you. She doesn't know how happy she should be that you can come visit her this time." As she said this, she seemed to remember something.

As if, he quickly pulled Mu Qingwan to him and said with a smile:

"My grandmother's illness was also cured by this man, and she is in great spirits now."

Only then did Xia Houlie notice Mu Qingwan and asked with a smile: "Oh? Who is this?"

Just as Lu Chuxia was about to answer, Mu Qingwan had already answered first:

"The villain is now a servant of the Lu Mansion, his name is Lu Qi."

Xia Houlie may not know about Qiu Xin, but Helian Moxiao next to him may know that she must not expose her flaws.

Lu Chuxia was a little surprised, but she seemed to think that Lu Qi was a more suitable name for a grown man, and it was much more pleasant to the ears than Qiuxin's sissy name. In addition, he took the initiative to say that he was a servant of the Lu family, so she thought that he had changed his mind.

, he smiled with satisfaction and did not refute.

She turned to Helian Moxiao and said:

"You may not think that he is ugly, but he is very good at serving others. I heard that my sister was pregnant, so I specially chose him to serve her..."

She wanted to say something else, but at this time, a person in the carriage behind opened the curtain and called in a low voice. Lu Chuxia immediately happily ran straight to that person.

Helian Moxiao smiled and nodded at Mu Qingwan and said, "That's it, you'll have some work." Then he got on the horse.

Xia Houlie glanced at Mu Qingwan and then looked away. Gu Zi said a few words to Zhaohe and then got on the horse.

Seeing that they didn't recognize her at all, Mu Qingwan couldn't help but breathed a sigh of relief.

But what followed was a strong sense of loss, and she herself felt a little conflicted.

She clearly didn't want Xia Houlie to recognize her, but when he really didn't recognize her, she couldn't help but feel sad.

Following the group of people absentmindedly, she couldn't help but look up at the tall figure riding on the black horse, caressed her belly in confusion, and whispered softly:

"Baby, did you see that? That is your father, do you like him?"

The baby seemed to understand her words, and suddenly jumped up and bumped into Mu Qingwan's palm, seeming to express her joy.

Mu Qingwan closed her eyes and felt the intimate interaction between mother and son, but the sense of loss in her heart began to expand without limit. It would be great if...if only he was by your side at this moment!

But... once he recognized her, could he still let her leave based on his temperament? She would have to follow him into the palace, and then face his three palaces and six courtyards again, and face the strife and struggle in the palace.

Perhaps, he would love her and pamper her at first, and when faced with the criticism and scheming among the concubines, he would speak for her and stand on her side, but what if after a long time? Will he always stand on her side?

When love and country conflict, and when he has to favor a woman to win the support of the family behind her, what should she do?

Love is selfish. Can she watch her husband rolling on the same bed with another woman?

Even if she knew that he loved her in his heart, even if she knew that he couldn't help it, could she really not care about his physical betrayal?

No, she is not that great. She admits that she is very selfish and she feels sick just thinking about him doing those intimate things with other women.

She is not a saint, she can also be jealous, she can also be jealous, this is what every woman will have, not to mention, she is a modern person, the concept of monogamy has been deeply rooted in her blood, there is no way to

Be like the women of this era who can willingly tolerate their husbands, three wives and four concubines.

But what about in his eyes?

Maybe he would be happy at first because she would be jealous and care about him, but what if it happens too often?

Will he gradually think that she is ignorant of the general situation? Will he gradually think that she is not as perfect as he thinks?

She worked hard every day to go to court, approve memorials, and handle national affairs. But when she returned to the harem, she had to deal with her fights with other women. Slowly, their relationship would be undermined bit by bit because of these trivial matters.

Grind it away until it dries up.

Over time, in the end, they will hate each other and cannot escape the fate of becoming a pair of resentful couples.

The scene of loving each other is indeed beautiful, but when the water finally comes up, the two fishes will finally return to their own world, living happily in their most suitable place, forgetting each other and the years of loving each other.

.

There is nothing better than forgetting each other in the rivers and lakes.

Perhaps, this is the best way.

She would rather leave in style with these beautiful memories than end up with the two of them hating each other and even complaining and quarreling.

But why does her heart hurt so much when she thinks about leaving him completely?

She thought and cried all the time. When she returned to the Lu Mansion, the whole place was full of lights and colorful decorations. Taking advantage of the chaos, she quickly slipped in and didn't dare to look at Xia Houlie again.

At this moment, she could obviously take advantage of the chaos and escape, since she was insignificant anyway, but for some reason, she couldn't take a step out.

She told herself in her heart that she wanted the baby in her belly to look at her father more often.

However, only the dull pain in her heart reminded her of how much she couldn't let go.

The entire Lu Mansion was so busy welcoming these distinguished guests that no one paid any attention to Mu Qingwan. She wandered around the yard every day, sometimes hearing their conversations from a distance, and listening to the

The familiar cold voice rang in her ears over and over again, and this sentence would flash through her mind:

The farthest distance in the world is not between life and death, but when I stand in front of you, you have never looked at me.

Several days passed, and she became accustomed to staying under the crabapple tree every day, listening to the familiar voice in the air from a distance, then closing her eyes and thinking quietly,

However, there is always no answer in the end.

She once remembered that her master once evaluated her character when she was a child, saying that she was more stable than courageous.

Before doing anything, she would think of the worst result, but after weighing it and realizing that she might not be able to bear the worst result, she would start to hesitate whether she should do it or not, and in most cases it was

Choose to give up.

Master said that people with such a temperament are often prone to self-suffering and miss out on a lot of things they should get.

But this time, she knew that she had committed this problem again, so she hesitated, so she secretly felt sad, knowing that the person she loved in her heart was close at hand, but she didn't dare to get close, burying herself like an ostrich.

, unwilling to face reality.

On this day, she came under the crabapple tree again, and the voices of several people talking were still heard in the house, but this time, she could no longer hear the familiar cold voice. Her heart jumped wildly when she saw someone next to her.

A maid walked by carrying a plate and hurriedly stopped her before she opened her mouth to speak. However, she suddenly realized that she didn't know how to ask. After all, in the eyes of others, this was not something that a down-and-out ugly guy like him should care about at all.

She tugged on the maid's sleeve and opened her mouth but no words came out. The maid was a little impatient, so she opened his hand, cursed him as crazy, and left.

She stood blankly under the crabapple tree. She didn't know how long she stood before she saw the people in the room coming out. Zhaohe, Lu Chuxia, Lu Zhonghuai, Helian Mo Xiao, Lu Qinxia and others were all there. Sure enough, she was alone.

The only person missing is Xia Houlie.

A feeling of loss suddenly arose in my heart, and all the strength in my body seemed to have been drained away.

My mind suddenly went blank, leaving only one thought, has he left?!

She just stood there, thinking, and didn't even notice it was getting dark.

In a daze, she seemed to hear someone calling her. She turned around blankly and looked at the person with dull eyes, but it was Lu Chuxia.

After staring blankly at her getting closer and closer, she seemed to suddenly remember something and ran over. Without any thought of evasion, she grabbed her sleeve and spoke eagerly:
Chapter completed!