In the past, whenever I was involved in family issues, I would always feel depressed for several days. ** is worthy of being the closest place to heaven. After this trip, I had a kind of mental awareness of ascension to heaven, and some things gradually became clear.

For example, just now, after I finished smoking a cigarette in the car, my only feeling was that the car was so fucking boring that I couldn't breathe, and I had no time to think about other things.

During lunch, Lin Shao was moved: "The outside world is too popular now, you always do things according to your nature. If you kept doing it back then, I dare say that you have reached a height now, and even I have to look up to you."

I asked: "I heard that the women on the periphery nowadays are spontaneously huddling together, so there is no need to take the lead?"

Lin Shao: "How could you not need to take the lead? It doesn't matter. Many places can't get in at all. But now the name of the leader has changed, and it's not called Jitou or Masan anymore. It has changed its career to become an agent. Now that you think about it, you are really awesome. When the outer world was just sprouting in the early days, you took this path and can be regarded as a guide to carry on the past and open up the future."

Hearing this, I couldn't help but fall into memories.

Sometimes when you look back on the past, you will find that some things are very detailed and seem to have been arranged in a dark way.

Because of the profession of journalism, the story between me and Eve was unfolded.

Later, another story began because of another profession.

Before starting another career, I will talk about how I left the newspaper.

On the day I had dinner with the producer, I finally slammed the door and went out.

Brother Ma accompanied me all day, and we were drunk in a tavern.

"Have you guessed this result a long time ago?" I asked him.

"Yes." Brother Ma was so honest that I hope he was dishonest.

I asked him, "Then why didn't you tell me earlier?"

Brother Xiao Ma: "Is it useful to say something? Can you listen to it? After all, you will gain wisdom after learning from your mistakes. Men always have to have some special experiences. If you don't suffer any losses, you will never grow up."

I don't believe in evil anymore: "Is there such a god? I don't believe that you can guess the finale at a glance."

"Or why do you think I played mahjong every day in those days? I just don't want to see you walking the same old path as me. You don't know that your words and deeds and those hot eyes during that period are exactly the same as I was four years ago!" Little Ma's emotions suddenly became excited. He took out his wallet and smashed it on the table, shouting: "Don't think you have such an experience. I've had it long ago!"

I looked at the photo in my wallet and the beautiful woman who looked familiar in the photo. I suddenly understood why Brother Ma often looked at his wallet in a daze.

After getting emotional, Brother Ma could no longer hide his words and explained his story with her in a simple sentence: "At that time, I often went to take photos of her when I learned broadcasting and hosting, and begged Brother Yun to give her a page and search for contacts everywhere, and finally sent her to the provincial TV station. Later one day, I found out that she and a deputy director..."

That day, I should have been sad, but I didn’t expect that Brother Ma was even sadder than me.

Before I could cry, he was already crying.

Later I realized that Little Ma was already very injured. After witnessing my tragedy again, he seemed to have been stabbed twice in the same wound, and he had no other way except to cry.

"I don't believe it, she is not that realistic..." I was very young at that time, so young that I dared not face reality.

Brother Xiao Ma: "I believe you, the one I knew before was not that realistic. At first, I had a good relationship with her, but later she became different after work. The love in this world is always real at the beginning, but in the end it turns into fake."

When I was thinking about the right or wrong of this passage, he said again: "Do you know what we are? We are the springboards! You have to understand one thing. For those women who are determined to climb up, there are different springboards at different stages. We are their springboards in the first stage, and they have to pass us and jump to the second stage. If possible, they will also jump from the second stage to the third stage until they climb to the top of the pyramid."

I was convinced by Brother Ma, and I felt even more desperate after being convinced.

When I accepted this concept, I really couldn't raise any hope for women and love.

I remembered what Eve said on the day of the Cold War: "I waited for a long time before I could wait for such an opportunity. This time I played the third female lead. In fact, this opportunity also has something to do with you. A crew leader read your report and asked me to audition. You didn't feel happy for me from beginning to end. You kept blocking me and stopping me. Why is this?"

From then on, I understood a truth that for some people, no matter how they block them, it is useless.

What you want to lose will eventually be lost.

That day, because Brother Ma was so sad, he was so stolen that I didn’t have time to be sad.

The next day I woke up, and after a hangover, I had a split headache. I instinctively wanted to ask Eve to pour me a glass of water, and then I found that there was no Eve around me.

At this time, I finally had time to be sad.

I curled up in a corner, facing waves of grief after wave.

I remembered the title of that manuscript for no reason: Self-esteem, self-love, self-reliance, self-reliance...

Thinking of these eight words, I found myself just a joke.

A girl who is self-respecting, self-loving, self-reliant, is finally willing to be unspoken.

For a long time after that, I felt that I was the stupidest fool in China.
Chapter completed!