Deep down, I want to get closer, but I restrain myself from getting closer.
This is the case for both Xia An and Ye Jin.
At the moment, Ye Wan has become a high-sounding excuse between them. As they hug each other ambiguously, with their eyes lingering on each other's faces, how can they hide their feelings without leaking? Both of them can't help but feel excited.
Xia An's eyes were almost locked on Ye Jin's face. During this period, many things happened. She was indeed sulky with Ye Jin. She was angry with Ye Jin for being hot and cold to her. Ye Jin would only talk about everything.
Not to mention, Ye Jin pushed her away again and again, and she even felt that Ye Jin didn't like her that much...
So Xia An is deliberately indifferent and keeping a distance. She wants to see Ye Jin take the initiative towards her, and she wants to feel that Ye Jin cares about her as much as he cares about her.
But Ye Jin's reaction was still as usual, lukewarm or not, and occasionally he would send a word or two of concern.
Not long after, Ye Wan fell asleep. After all, children didn't have any worries. They would talk about it and rarely bury it deep in their hearts like adults.
Hugging each other, Xia An stared at Ye Jin's face. She especially wanted to know how Ye Jin felt about her. She could have asked Ye Jin directly at this time, "Do you like me?"
But she was sure that the response she received would be hesitation.
Even so, Xia An still had a glimmer of hope in her heart. Otherwise, she would not still hold Ye Jin after Ye Wan fell asleep. She was looking forward to Ye Jin saying something to her now.
Even if he just calls her name gently, Xia An feels like he won't be able to resist.
But Ye Jin just hugged her, that's all.
Thinking about Ji Shuang's words, Yi Zhen's words, thinking about Xia An's repeated initiatives, and also thinking about Xia An and Qi Muyi being together tonight, all kinds of thoughts came to Ye Jin's mind.
The second before making a choice is always the hardest.
Feeling confused, Ye Jin didn't know how to make a decision at the moment. It was just that his arms were just warm, but he failed again...
After waiting, Xia An let go of Ye Jin's body with his arms, then turned over, hugged Ye Wan beside him, and closed his eyes in despair, leaving only Ye Jin's back.
Ye Jin stared at Xia An's back for a long time. She reached out and turned off the night light on the bedside and closed her eyes.
No one fell asleep.
The moment of ambiguity came to an abrupt end. The way they hugged each other and fell asleep just now was like a scene. After the little one fell asleep, they would be the same as they should be.
Xia An hugged Ye Wan's little body sideways, keeping a distance from Ye Jin, thinking that if she no longer took the initiative, maybe her relationship with Ye Jin would fade away day by day, until only the contract was left.
But Ye Jin likes her so reluctantly, is it necessary for her to be humble and proactive?
Thinking of this, my nose felt a little sour.
Xia An has always thought that she is rational and treats many things the same way. She thinks that if two people are suitable, they will be together, and if they are not suitable, they will separate. But when she faced Ye Jin, she found that this was not the case.
Even though she felt that the relationship between her and Ye Jin was not what she wanted, she still couldn't let go.
When people are simply being reasonable, they are always transparent and free-spirited. In fact, when they really face some things, it is often a different situation. Before falling in love with Ye Jin, Xia An had never discovered that liking someone can be so helpless.
one thing.
There were several empty wine bottles and the cigarette case was empty. Yi Zhen was still leaning on the sofa and puffing away. When she was in a bad mood, she liked to be alone, and smoking and drinking were not a problem.
If this scene was captured by paparazzi, it would not be a problem to make headlines.
Because the contrast between the normal and normal persona is too big.
This circle is all about concave characters, and Yi Zhen's character is very popular. He is a top student from a well-off family, and he has always followed a pure and gentle path, which is different from the coquettish bitches who are popular in the entertainment industry. But what is the reality? Yi Zhen every day
The first time I saw those drafts flying all over the place, I had a slight smile on my face.
Yizhen had very good film resources as soon as she debuted, and they were all masterpieces by famous directors. This was not because of her strong background, but because she started working as an underground lover for others at the age of eighteen. At first, she thought it was nothing, but the power-sex trade is no longer common in the entertainment industry.
It’s normal, but how many truly clean people are there in this circle?
She is an ambitious person, and every step she takes is just to get closer to her own goal. She can endure the hardships that others cannot endure, and can endure the grievances that others cannot.
Because of her willingness to give, she became famous at a young age.
With money and fame gradually gained, and the circle became deeper and deeper, Yi Zhen began to get tired of it. She had had many relationships, but they had never been serious and had always been perfunctory. For her, relationships were just chasing fame.
A useful tool.
Ye Jin was the first person Yi Zhen really wanted to like. When she first met Ye Jin, Yi Zhen was attracted by his arrogant and cold temperament. She was not very old at that time, but she had experienced too many things.
Materialistic desires prevailed, and when she first saw Ye Jin, she felt that Ye Jin had the purity and simplicity she yearned for.
Based on her feelings, Yi Zhen came up with the idea of pursuing Ye Jin. At first, she only accompanied him as a friend. At that time, Ye Jin was still in the entrepreneurial stage and had just started everything. He lacked human resources, so Yi Zhen used all his connections to help him.
she.
After two years of companionship without asking for any response, Yi Zhen was able to confirm their relationship with Ye Jin. At that time, Ye Jin said that even if they confirmed their relationship, they could only fall in love spiritually, and there were some things she couldn't do. Yi Zhen just said
She didn't mind, because Ye Jin was willing to agree to her, and she was already crazy happy.
When Ye Jin agreed to be her girlfriend, Yi Zhen thought it would be the beginning of a new life. She knew that Ye Jin had emotional mysophobia, so during the two years she was with Ye Jin, she basically had zero scandals, and she was still in the interview
She has publicly stated that she will not do kissing scenes or films with kissing scenes above the scale, and she has indeed done so.
For Ye Jin, she almost gave up her career as a star, and even thought about quitting the industry and working behind the scenes. She tried hard to become what Ye Jin liked, and never smoked or drank in front of Ye Jin, because she was afraid that Ye Jin would be disgusted.
Himself. But so what? During the two years she dated Ye Jin, she didn't think they were lovers. She couldn't even get a hug or kiss from Ye Jin.
But Yizhen still never thought of giving up, and was willing to accompany her silently, as long as he was by her side.
What really chilled Yi Zhen was that she had paid so much for Ye Jin, but Ye Jin never trusted her and decisively broke up with her just because of a misunderstanding. At that time, she put down her dignity and begged, but Ye Jin just
Yun Danfeng said softly, "Let's break up, we are not suitable."
After the breakup, Yi Zhen continued his original life. In the past six years, he had been doing well abroad. However, his relationship was still just a sideshow, with no results.
My thoughts return from the past to reality.
Yi Zhen sneered and drank the wine in the glass. Sometimes, she felt that meeting Ye Jin was probably retribution. She used to disdain relationships, but when she was willing to abandon all attachments to love someone, in the end she only got
All in vain.
That day, Qi Muyi told her that Ye Jin was still single, and Yi Zhen couldn't tell how she felt specifically. Now that she thinks about her relationship with Ye Jin, although she still feels unwilling to do so, she probably won't be like she was when she was young.
Are you going to pester me regardless of the consequences?
There is nothing that time cannot fade.
Yi Zhen also thought that he was almost relieved, but when he returned to China and had frequent contact with Ye Jin again, some thoughts were ready to stir again. A few years later, since they are still single, they may be more mature in thinking about the problem now than they were then.
All in all, there are some things that you can't let go of even if you don't say them out loud.
"Mr. Ye, stay." After the dinner, Yi Zhen no longer felt like strangers, but called Ye Jin, "I want to talk to you alone."
Ye Jin thought for a moment and said, "Yeah."
Yi Zhen was more than a little surprised. She thought that Ye Jin would reject her without looking back. She was as cold to the bones as she had been many years ago. But Ye Jin didn't, and Yi Zhen seemed to have a little hope in her heart.
Ye Jin stayed because she felt guilty for Yi Zhen. She also felt that she owed Yi Zhen a reasonable explanation for their breakup. Ye Jin knew that Yi Zhen had given a lot to her, both in career and relationship. Now that she thinks about it
, from the moment she agreed to Yi Zhen, she was destined to hurt him.
The two sat face to face at the dining table. Yizhen drank a glass of wine first. Ye Jin was still the same as before, not taking the initiative to speak too much. After a glass of wine, Yi Zhen pondered for a while and said calmly, "I have some words.
I've always wanted to tell you, thank you for staying today."
"Say." Ye Jin said.
"Although so many years have passed, I still want to say that I have never betrayed you. You also know that during the two years I was with you, I almost never had any scandals. As long as you say a word, I don't care if I withdraw from the circle.
"But why do you distrust me so much and refuse to give me a chance?" Yi Zhen took a breath and continued, "Is it because of those photos that can't explain anything? Sheng Ruqi deliberately took those photos..."
Yi Zhen was sure that Sheng Ruqi had checked her background in private. Although the company's packaging for her was very successful, a woman with a background in the industry like Sheng Ruqi could always find some clues. Sheng Ruqi was always watching her, so Yi Zhen
They were even more careful not to let go of any clues, but it was extremely easy for rumors to spread in their circle.
That night while having dinner with the director of her new film, Yi Zhen was secretly photographed by paparazzi from ambiguous angles. She was afraid that Ye Jin would be angry if she found out, so she spent a lot of money to suppress it. However, she didn't expect that Sheng Ruqi found a way to get the photos.
Yi Zhen never expected that Ye Jin would decide to break up with her after seeing those photos. Yi Zhen admitted that her past was not glorious, but after meeting Ye Jin, she really wanted to change and start a new life.
.
"She gave me the photo, I know it."
"Then she likes you, but she couldn't stand us being together, so that's why she provoked you. Do you know this?"
Ye Jin calmed down and said, "I know."
Even though she knew, Ye Jin still didn't tell Sheng Ruqi. The company was just starting out at that time, and she needed to borrow Sheng Ruqi's shareholder style, so she couldn't possibly make her relationship with Sheng Ruqi embarrassing.
In addition, at that time, Ye Jin did have the idea of breaking up with Yizhen. She knew that Yizhen was persistent and would never agree easily, so those photos became the best reason.
This is why Ye Jin feels guilty about Yi Zhen.
The other person's face was calm, which made Yizhen feel chilled again. She felt like something was stuck in her throat, and she didn't know what to say. So she knew all this in her heart?
"I'm sorry." Ye Jin said this sincerely, "I believe you. But even without those photos, I would still break up. It's not your problem, but my own problem."
Yi Zhen thought of Ye Jin's psychological disorder. She couldn't understand it before and felt that Ye Jin was perfunctory with her. Later, when she went to understand it, she found that the psychological disorder was much more complicated than she thought. She also regretted that on the day of the breakup,
He said many harsh words to Ye Jin, "The words I said to you on the day we broke up were just because I was angry."
"I understand, what you said is not wrong." Ye Jin was about to stand up, "I stayed today just to say sorry to you for what happened back then. I'm sorry."
Yi Zhen bit her lip. After so many years of true devotion, she was really unwilling to accept it. "If you really feel so sorry for me, just give me another chance."
"I'm already married." Ye Jin had already stood up, "It's better not to disturb each other in the future."
"I know you are still alone. You don't have to lie to me anymore." Yi Zhen interrupted Ye Jin, "Otherwise I wouldn't have said so much to you today. Can you listen to what I have to say and then give me the answer?"
"Miss Yi."
"In the past, we were still young and not mature enough. Now, I can tell you seriously and responsibly," Yi Zhen also stood up and stopped in front of Ye Jin, "I am still willing to be with you. No matter what you are like, I will always be with you."
With you."
If Ye Jin wanted to get back together, she would definitely agree without thinking.
"We will have no results. I can only wish you happiness."
"I don't care, I really don't care. You said you can only fall in love spiritually, and I can accept it. We are fine as before. As long as we stay with each other, that's enough, isn't it?"
"I've said everything I need to say, and it's time for me to go." Faced with Yi Zhen's pleading, Ye Jin remained indifferent. She made a mistake once, and she didn't want to make a wrong choice a second time.
"Why would you rather be alone than give us another chance?" Yi Zhen's tone gradually calmed down, and she analyzed, "Ye Jin, I dare say that no one understands you better than me. After understanding you, you can still be like me
I am so willing to wait for you. We are not young anymore. We have passed the impulsive age and we know the meaning of our choices. I just want you to know that I still want to be with you. No matter what, I can be with you.
You face it together. We are the most suitable, don’t you think?"
Hearing these words, Ye Jin lost her mind for a moment. She actually thought that it would be great if Xia An said these words to her. Unfortunately, the person in front of her was not Xia An.
What Yi Zhen said just touched Ye Jin's concerns. Who can be willing to wait for her?
Seeing that Ye Jin was silent and seemed a little shaken, Yi Zhen added, "You don't have to give me the answer right now, but I hope you can think about it carefully. I'll wait for you."
Ye Jin was silent for a long time before saying, "I'm sorry, I have never liked you. So, there will be no result between us."
They had been together for two years, but they said such a sentence. It was very hurtful. Ye Jin didn't want to say it, but this was the truest answer. She should have told Yi Zhen clearly like this when they broke up six years ago.
.
Then there would be no entanglements like now.
Ye Jin spoke decisively and coldly again, just like when they broke up.
Completely disappointed, after Yi Zhen lost consciousness, he sneered and said, "You just love yourself the most. No wonder you have been alone for six years. No one can stand you except me..."