If love is just a feeling, then when it is challenged, such as the wear and tear of time, or the obstacles and restrictions of family affection, then this feeling will soon be eliminated.
Not to mention that it is easy for people to get this kind of feeling from different people, so the most common thing people say when they are in love is "I don't have feelings for you anymore."
But true love is not a feeling, it is more of a responsibility, a mutual sacrifice and mutual achievement.
True love must not be a momentary touch, but a long-lasting commitment, so long-lasting that sometimes when you stop and look back, you can directly see where love is from many memories in the past.
Xu Ran didn't give Han Yike any reply. He just held Han Yike tightly in his arms again. He could only tell her his feelings and guilt through actions.
He couldn't reply. Once he did, it would be too irresponsible for Han Yike's feelings and it would be too underestimating Han Yike's feelings.
When there is a girl in front of you, she will touch you with her past, express her love with actions, and hope that you can give her back something she once had.
Why can you reply to her in an understatement? Why.
Xu Ran couldn't reply, because he felt that as long as he replied, he would really be a complete bastard. What he had to do was very simple, just take action and tell Han Yike.
Tell her about your guilt, your mistakes, and...what she said, you will always remember it in your heart.
Her breath was filled with moist tears from Han Yike's body. Her small body was also bearing pressure that many people couldn't feel. She also had something she really wanted.
...
The air-conditioning breeze in the room was blowing slightly, and after a lot of noise, Xu Ran and Han Yike finally calmed down.
Han Yike spoke his mind and made Xu Ran no longer careless and make mistakes. Xu Ran also felt extremely guilty for his initial accusation.
He wiped Han Yike's face with a wet towel. Looking at it calmly now, Han Yike's mental state was obviously not good. He didn't have a good rest last night. After being washed away by tears, his big eyes were covered with red threads and his eyelids were slightly sunken.
See if you don't feel bad.
The weather was hot, and just now Xu Ran curiously asked Han Yike why he stayed in the house without turning on the air conditioner.
After hearing Han Yike's explanation, Xu Ran understood.
It turned out that when I left the rental house, I didn't remove the battery from the air conditioner remote control.
When the air conditioner remote control is not used for a long time, the battery will leak. The battery is placed inside. Although it is not used, the battery is still in the process of discharge.
The outer shell of the battery will gradually be consumed and become thinner and thinner. Over time, the outer shell will crack and the contents inside will leak.
The ammonium chloride and zinc chloride solutions in the leakage are corrosive and will damage the pole pieces of the remote control battery compartment, which may damage the internal circuit board.
To put it simply, the remote control for the air conditioner in the rental house was broken at this time, and Han Yike didn't bring his mobile phone, so the air conditioner couldn't be turned on at all.
So Xu Ran just took out his mobile phone and turned on the remote control to turn on the air conditioner to prevent the smell of dust and the uncomfortable temperature in the house.
At this time, Xu Ran was sitting on the gaming chair, and Han Yike was sitting on his lap, facing him, holding his shoulders with both hands, and pressing his face against his chest, seeming to be smelling Xu Ran.
The smell of Ran's body can gradually relax your mood.
Xu Ran gently held Han Yike's unbearable waist and looked at the head on his chest, his eyes full of softness and gentleness.
The two of them were sitting on the gaming chairs like this. Xu Ran could hear some lively sounds in the world outside the window if he listened carefully.
The inside and outside of the house were now like two worlds, which made Xu Ran feel a little lost.
But no matter what, Xu Ran had to confirm with Han Yike again. If she really didn't want to go back to play professionally, then Xu Ran would work hard to take on everything for Han Yike.
Just like what he said in Han Yike's debut, just be yourself, if something happens and you make a mistake, it will be the fault of both of you.
"Also."
"What's wrong..." Han Yike was like a kitten. Now that the room was no longer hot, and holding Xu Ran in her arms, she rubbed her head on Xu Ran's chest comfortably.
"If you don't want to go back or play games, I will find a solution for you."
Han Yike was obviously stunned, and then he took his head out of his chest, and the two looked at each other.
"Is what you said true?"
Xu Ran smiled softly: "Of course it is true. Without you in the outside world, the world will not be destroyed. You have the right to choose the life you want. I will not force you to do anything you don't want in your heart."
"But if I don't play professionally anymore, what will you do?" Han Yike tweaked, "I know the company you work for values me very much, and the team values me very much too... If I just leave like this, what will they do?
Look at you? You obviously thought of so many ways to let me join the team and play professionally."
"That's not important. Their vision and opinions are not important. Your feelings are the most important."
When Han Yike heard Xu Ran say this, her heart was full of contentment and happiness, but she slowly shook her head.
"no."
"What's not working?"
"If I really leave like this, then your colleagues will look down upon you. They will definitely think that the two of us are terrible. I can't let others think of us so much, so..." Han Yike pursed his lips slightly, very
He said seriously: "So I'd better go back."
Xu Ran was surprised: "Really? You're not afraid..."
"I'm not afraid, and there are conditions for me to do this."
"What conditions?"
"First of all, you have to remember one thing very much. I, Grandma Han, play professionally for you. Even if I go on stage to play in a game, I don't want anyone to look down on you. Although many people don't know it, I know that it is
You tried your best to praise me and praise me in front of those people, so that they could try to believe in me and give me this chance."
"If it's for me, there's no need..." Xu Ran smiled bitterly and shook his head.
"Xu is different. Some people live for their ideals and dreams, such as Xiye and the others. They work hard not only to make money and live, but also hidden in their hearts is the dream of winning the championship and standing on a higher stage." Han
Yi Ke also shook his head, "But I'm different. I can't have ideals like them, and I can't live for my ideals... But I can work hard to live for the people I care about, and try to do better, as long as I
He needs me, he needs me, more than anything else..."
Xu Ran's thin lips parted slightly, surprised but understanding, but he didn't know what to say.
"So Xu Daodun, don't you need me to go back?"
Han Yike's big eyes looked at her face, and it was hard not to respond to her with such firm feelings.
"If after you go back, you still have to listen to them, train for live broadcasts and play games, and live this kind of life, wouldn't it scare you?"
"No, because I have other conditions." Han Yike held Xu Ran's shoulders with his two small hands and pressed slightly: "When you are not busy at work, remember to come and see me... I know, if I
If you go back to work professionally, you will be as busy as before. You also have your own job. I dare not ask us to meet and be together every day, but as long as you no longer avoid me like before, then I can do anything..."
Xu Ran raised his hand to Han Yike's head and rubbed it guiltily: "I won't do it anymore."
"It won't be difficult for you to come to the team base to meet me, right?"
"I used to find it a bit difficult. Living in this humanistic society, I had to care about everything, but it's different now. I don't think their opinions matter at all."
Han Yike smiled very cutely: "That's good!"
Hearing that Han Yike was really willing to go back to playing professionally, Xu Ran felt completely relaxed.
What happened yesterday was ultimately his own problem. He ignored Han Yike's feelings and failed to detect Han Yike's true thoughts.
And I actually cared ridiculously about the opinions of those colleagues... Looking back, I thought, what's the point of caring about this? I'm just an intern, a young guy, there's no need to live longer and go back.
If you live like you are too old-fashioned and care too much, you may lose too much.
"If you don't play professionally, those fans and players who like you will be sad."
Han Yike heard Xu Ran's words and quickly denied it and shook his head.
"This is different."
"What's different?"
"If you really like someone, what you have to show to him should be your sincere heart and feelings, rather than your talent in a certain area. My talent may be able to gain praise and admiration from some people, but they only appreciate me.
Talent, talent cannot represent a person, talent is just a one-sided part of a person. They just like the one-sided me."
Xu Ran smiled and said: "But as you said, your talent belongs to you, and it also represents you. Doesn't liking your talent count as liking you?"
"Why are you so stupid?" Han Yike pouted slightly dissatisfied, and actually taught Xu Ran a lesson: "If someone says he likes me, I will tell him that I am a terrible person and I don't deserve to be liked, but I will do it again
Ask him again why he likes me?"
"If he said he hates me, I would say it doesn't matter, I understand, I understand. But there will always be people who like me in their imagination, and then spurn me after seeing my true colors, and say, ah, it turns out Grandma Han
That's the kind of person you are."
"But I've always been like this. I obviously didn't do anything, so why should I be liked and hated by everyone? And I show the worst side of myself to the people around me, not to make people feel sorry for me, but to make everyone feel sorry for me.
See me clearly."
"And I know I don't have to tell you how bad I am because I know you know how bad I am."
"And I know even more that there is one person who, after seeing how bad I am, how hateful I am, and how disgusting I am, will still unswervingly choose to be by my side. He has me in his heart.
Even if I make a mistake, he always smiles and says it’s okay and takes on everything for me and shields me from the wind and rain.”
Han Yike's eyes were so hot and intense that Xu Ran was a little stunned.
"They just appreciate my talent, but they don't really like me as a person. No normal person would like a strange girl with big problems like me."
Xu Ran smiled bitterly: "Does that mean I'm no longer a normal person?"
"Don't forget Xu Daodun, it was you who led me out of this place. I have been staying here for three years. I use other people's eyes and other people's mouths to understand the world. Some people also told me to go out and take a look.
This world, but I am timid and scared, and you are different from others. Only you will come to me after seeing how bad I am, and you will come to me, hold me, take me outside, and let me see with my own eyes.
this world."
Han Yike smiled helplessly: "Actually, I don't understand whether they are normal people and you are not, or they are abnormal, and only we are the most normal... I can't tell, but I know
I know how I feel in my heart. I know what it is like to live in the outside world. I taste sour, bitter, and painful things outside, but you will put these sour, bitter, and painful things into my heart just by being next to me.
All the pain is transformed into sweetness.”
"I don't know if these sweet feelings are happiness, but I think it is."
"I am a hopeless person. I occasionally dream about..." Han Yike put his face close to hers, and she hugged Xu Ran. Their faces were gently rubbed, feeling each other's tenderness: "
It would be great if I could stay by your side all my life..."
Xu Ran's gentleness without hesitation made Han Yike's heart tremble suddenly.
"Then let's stay together for the rest of our lives, if you don't hate it."
Han Yike broke away from the embrace and looked at Xu Ran in disbelief, his eyes full of surprise.
"Is everything you said true? You didn't lie to me?"
Recalling that Han Yike said before that he would lie to her, Xu Ran just shook his head gently: "I don't want to lie to you."
Han Yike's eyes turned red again, and his words gradually started to sound like crying: "Xu Naudun, I'm talking about a lifetime! A lifetime...!"
"Girl, I know."
"Ugh...it's a lifetime...a year, a month, a day, even a minute or a second...can't be considered a lifetime!"
Han Yike started crying again and couldn't stop his eyes from watering. Xu Ran looked on in a panic and could only wipe them with his hands.
Xu Ran didn't expect that just the words 'together' could make Han Yike cry.
How heavy is the weight of this desire to be 'together' in her heart?
Just when Xu Ran gently wiped Han Yike's tears with a tissue, he didn't expect Han Yike's next words to make him completely stunned.
"It's settled! Even if you marry Yiyi in the future, you can't push me away from you..."
What does it mean that Yiyi and I are married?
Xu Ran's head suddenly felt muddy. Why did Han Yike say that?
"You..." He was at a loss as to what to say, "Why are you saying this?"
"Which one?" Han Yike sniffed.
"Why do you think I will be with Yiyi in the future?"
"Don't you like Yiyi?"
"This is not a question of whether you like me or not. Do you have to be together if you like me?"
"I know, of course I know this. I like you, and I know you like me, but will we be together? Can we?" Han Yike quickly shook his head and wiped away his tears.
Such a question stunned Xu Ran again: "This..."
"Xu Daodun, I know I don't understand the world, but I'm not stupid. No matter how much I like you and no matter how much I don't want others to get you, I know that we will not be together in the future...because I know that I am not the best.
Yes, I am not suitable to walk to the wedding hall with you...even if I dream of it! I can be selfish to anyone, but I cannot have selfish thoughts towards you..."
Xu Ran didn't know what to say: "Then...why did you say it was Yiyi?"
Han Yike's eyes were extremely serious, and when he opened his lips, Xu Ran was shocked and puzzled by what he said...
"Xu Naodun, I dare to tell anyone that I am the person who loves you the most and understands you best in this world... But I also know that Yiyi is the one who knows how to love you and understand you best in the future.