The 249th chapter can also feel inferiority complex (nine)
Xu Ran's heart was full of mixed emotions, and the more Han Yike acted like this, the more uncontrollable guilt he felt in his heart.
Why should I be treated like this by Han Yike? Why?
Why does Han Yike have such low self-esteem about his feelings?
He could be so humble that he gave up his own ideas and went to fulfill him and other people, just to think that we could still be together in the future without separation.
When Xu Ran took Han Yike out of this birdcage, he really tried hard to fill the vacancy in Han Yike's heart. He thought Han Yike was missing something, and he worked hard to fill it in his life.
But he didn't expect that Han Yike would actually say the words 'because I have nothing' in the end...
Xu Ran thought about it, and suddenly felt a little enlightened, and then full of sadness.
Yes, at that time Han Yike just walked out of the rental house.
At that time, she delivered food, made an account, and experienced a lot on her own outside. Because of his relationship, Han Yike had the courage to try life in society.
At that time, Han Yike really had nothing...
At that time, she was not at all like she is now. She was extremely famous online and in the professional circle.
A few months ago, no one recognized her when she was walking on the street. Now, if she doesn't wear a mask, she will be recognized immediately after going out, and even passers-by will block her...
Even now Han Yike still thinks that she has nothing, because she doesn't care at all about the so-called fame, social status, and her own commercial value, and she doesn't regard these things as part of herself.
She is like this now, let alone her in the past?
He likes Han Yike. He likes Han Yike. She has a straightforward temper and speaks directly when standing in front of others. She shows off her power on the stage, just like before, when she clearly had nothing, but seemed to have everything. She was like that.
Such arrogance and arrogance.
She is obviously a girl who doesn't understand anything, but she calmly looks like she would rather me than anyone else.
However, it was only now that Xu Ran realized that the reason why Han Yike was so arrogant and arrogant was entirely because he was by her side, because she said that it was she who gave her the courage.
She is everything to her...
And Han Yike has never been an arrogant and arrogant person in the true sense...
She is just a girl who has low self-esteem, is sensitive, and timid. She does not dare to compete with others. She does not dare to force her feelings on others. She is afraid that her feelings will cause trouble to the people she cares about. She has low self-esteem and only wants to care.
Surrounded by people, find a corner to hide, and occasionally pop up to take a look at the people you care about.
I thought I had neglected Han Yike for a moment, but I actually neglected everything about Han Yike!
Xu Ran couldn't describe his feelings at this time. He was very heartbroken, but he couldn't blame Han Yike...
Because from Han Yike's perspective, she was not wrong.
Yes, she obviously has nothing. Compared to anyone around her, compared to Zhao Yiyi, compared to Liang Da, what can she do to win this battle?
From the beginning, Han Yike never thought about fighting with others. She just wanted to give up everything to achieve her extremely humble goal.
Xu Ran could fully understand how Han Yike felt when he decided to give up.
She likes her but doesn't dare to force it, because she knows there will be no results, but she doesn't want to leave the person she likes, so she wants to be a "guardian" stupidly, watching others love her, and she feels that she can stay with the person she likes forever.
Being around people is the greatest happiness, but deep down... I'm afraid I'm jealous and want to go crazy.
But no matter what, Xu Ran would not allow Han Yike to feel inferior... He could not even imagine that the real Han Yike looked like this...
Every time Xu Ran thought about Han Yike giving up everything to be with him... he felt very different and awkward.
At first, he couldn't think of a reason for this awkward feeling, but in an instant, he knew where this awkward feeling came from.
Zhao Yiyi and Liang Da once said.
What is love? It is freedom! It is competition! It is means! Survival of the fittest is an eternal truth.
These two best friends extremely agree with this sentence and implement it unswervingly.
In anyone's eyes, Han Yike, who is arrogant and extremely fond of Xu Daodun, should be more determined than anyone else, she should be more competitive than anyone else, and she should be more unable to let go than anyone else.
..
But Han Yike is really different. She has never thought about competition. This is why Xu Ran feels awkward.
"That's right, you are really... a stupid girl who can't be more stupid...!"
Xu Ran felt that his emotions were a little out of control, and he didn't know what to say. He wanted to teach Han Yike a lesson, but he didn't know what was wrong with him, and his head couldn't think.
"Yeah, maybe in your eyes, I'm really stupid... But I think I'm very smart. After all, I haven't lost you until now..."
"It's wrong...this is wrong, yes, this is wrong! Feelings can't be like this, you are like this..."
Han Yike looked at Xu Ran's troubled and sad face and asked with a smile: "What should that be like? What should I do?"
"You should...!" Xu Ran suddenly stopped talking.
Yes, what can I say? Should I tell Han Yike that she can't give up and that she has to compete with others for herself?
What kind of joke is this?
But do you want Han Yike to wrong you and give up the love for others and fight for the rights of others that both boys and girls should have?
"Xu Daodun, I know what you want to say." Han Yike looked very sensible, smiled and stretched out his little hand, stroking his face, as if he wanted to soothe the sadness on his face: "Do you still remember,
You come in and start scolding me, saying that I don’t understand life, reality, the future, and cherish myself.”
"Yes, I really don't understand life, I don't understand the future, and I don't understand how to cherish myself. You are right about everything, but you are wrong about one thing. I understand reality, and I understand it better than you... Reality is sour and bitter.
It's painful. Before I walked out of this birdcage, I was ready to accept everything. But compared to you, I don't care about these feelings."
"That's not the case..." Xu Ran couldn't help but shake his head.
"Then Xu Naitun, let me ask you... what kind of girl will you find to marry in the future?"
Xu Ran was completely stunned. He looked stupidly at the girl in front of him who was trying to be understated. She couldn't say a word. Her tone was slow. This was the first time Xu Ran had seen her speak like this.
"Xu Naitun, do you think I am suitable to be your significant other?"
"...Have you ever thought about marrying me?"
"...Have you ever thought about kissing me?"
"...Have you ever...thought about loving me?"
Han Yi was ridiculous, but she was also crying. Unlike before, she was holding back her tears this time and no longer wanted to vent her emotions. Tears were rolling in her eyes, and she could feel every word coming out of her mouth.
They are all holding back and suppressing their emotions.
"What is reality? Isn't this reality? Xu Naitao."
"I know that you must be feeling sour, bitter, and painful right now..."
"It's not that I, Han Yi, am so smart, I can guess what you are feeling in your heart."
"It's because, at this moment, I feel this way in my heart... No one understands this feeling better than me..."
Looking at Xu Ran, he still didn't speak, but his eyes had completely changed. If Zhao Yiyi, Liang Da and the others saw this scene, no one would believe it.
Xu Ran's eyes could actually reveal a sense of helpless sadness. He could deal with everything calmly no matter what he encountered, but he could no longer face problems calmly.
"Don't show that expression...I'm so scared when you're like this." Han Yike rubbed his head against Xu Ran's cheek as usual, like a kitten: "Actually, it doesn't matter Yiyi...it's still the same
Bad woman, they are all more suitable for you than me. I know some of the things I said before have surprised you. You must have never thought that I would support you and Yiyi."
"I know Yiyi is suitable for you, and I also know that a bad woman is suitable for you, but I also have selfish motives... because I like Yiyi more than bad women. Although I don't know what you think of Yiyi, but I want to say
..."
"Like can be upgraded. There have never been two people in the world who fell in love from birth. You can say that I don't understand love. But I do understand that love is the feeling that arises in the process of two people getting along. Opposites attract.
Whether it is friendship, family affection, or even sympathy, it is possible to turn into love."
"Maybe you just think of Yiyi as a younger sister. It doesn't matter. She will grow up one day. In this process, she will slowly tell you through actions in life that she likes you. Yiyi and I are different.
I am already an adult, and adults must learn to be humble...and I just need to make sure that you don't hate me or be afraid of me, that's enough..."
"You may think my idea is ridiculous, but Xu, don't forget, you once promised me."
"When we were sitting on the merry-go-round at the amusement park, I said that there were many things I had never experienced before, and I wanted to experience them once, but no matter what I did, no matter what choices I made, you were not allowed to laugh at me.
I..."
"You promised me then, so no matter how ridiculous I am to others at this time, I don't want you to laugh at me..."
Xu Ran decided to say something, but as soon as he opened his thin lips, Han Yike found him, covering his mouth with his small hand, and smiled slyly with tears in his eyes.
"You must not lie to me and then say that you will love me and transform your feelings for me into love."
"I know what kind of existence I am in your eyes. Even I know that when I tell you that I love you, you will sincerely reply to me without hesitation and say that you love me too."
"I understand everything. I even understand the difference between friendship and love."
"Friendship is two people and the world. You are friendship to me, so in your eyes, I will always be separated from the world. What about love? Two people are the world. In other words, we are
This world, to put it another way, you are my world..."
"As long as I can be by your side, even if you don't love me, it is still love to me."