Chapter 1239 The scorching sun is in the sky, and the heart is like an abyss
Recalling that battle that made people want to have a nervous breakdown, Lu Xuan's tears fell quietly. The man didn't shed tears easily, but he didn't reach the sad point.
Lu Xuan carries too many things. Sometimes he feels really tired, but he has to bear it because he can't let go of the past pain.
Killing your brother with your own hands, how many people can bear this kind of pain?
Lu Xuan opened the bottle cap of Erguotou, poured a sip of water on the tombstone, and then took a big sip himself, muttering to himself: "Brother, to be honest with you, I have never regretted covering you to death with my own hands, even if I come here
The second time, I will still do it because it is my duty as a soldier, but I really want to know why it must be me who kills you with my own hands!"
The situation at that time did not allow Lu Xuan to hesitate at all, otherwise, the end would be annihilation of the entire army, so Lu Xuan had no second choice. Even if time went back to that moment, Lu Xuan would still do this.
"Do you know how I got here all these years? I can't forget it. I will never forget the look in your eyes when you died in my arms. I know you want to live," Lu Xuan wiped away his tears.
, the voice trembled even more.
When Tang Yun listened to his words, she didn't know why, but the crystal tears were also falling down. Lu Xuan seemed to be living a more nourishing life than anyone else, and everyone was happier. So many beauties liked him, and they were willing to do it.
Being his girlfriend allows him to enjoy treatment like an emperor. With Lu Xuan's ability, it doesn't matter how much money he wants...
But even so, Lu Xuan still lives in the shadow of the past, unable to extricate himself. Lu Xuan lives a very tiring and miserable life. All people see is his carefree appearance, but under that cynical mask,
Hiding a heart that can be broken at any time.
Tang Yun took a step forward, put her hands around Lu Xuan's waist, and hugged her tightly. Her soft and elastic body pressed tightly against his back, trying to warm him and make him tremble.
body of.
But Tang Yun didn't know how to comfort Lu Xuan. She could only hug him tightly and make him feel her existence. Even if the sky falls, I will be with you.
This is the charming side of Lu Xuan. His inner world is full of sadness, fascinating and makes people want to explore. At this moment, Tang Yun's love for Lu Xuan is even more difficult to extricate herself. She hopes that she can
Use your own heart to warm him.
The scorching sun is in the sky, and my heart is like an abyss!
This is the truest portrayal of Lu Xuan. He cannot forget Xiao Kai's death and has never been able to forget it. Even with the forgiveness of Xiao's father and Xiao's mother, he still can't get over the hurdle in his heart.
"God, do you want to kill me?" Lu Xuan said loudly, and then drank all the remaining Erguotou.
"Lu Xuan, don't do this," Tang Yun hugged him tightly and choked with sobs.
However, Lu Xuan did not listen to Tang Yun's words. He shook his head and said: "Brother, you died so young, just 20 years old. I hope that in the next life, you can be an ordinary person instead of being a soldier."
Now, in the next life, I will protect our vast China and fight for you in all directions!"
After Lu Xuan vented his anger, he finally felt better. With the help of alcohol, he sat down in front of Xiao Kai's tombstone and stroked the tombstone as if stroking Xiao Kai's head.
"Brother, I have also left the army. I know that even if you know Izumi Izumi, you will not hate me, but I still can't forget that I killed you with my own hands. I will live well and get rid of those battlefields.
The pain," Lu Xuan murmured.
"I will also help you take care of your parents and take care of your son Xiao Xiaolong. Xiaolong is your bloodline. I am really happy for you..."
Lu Xuan's mood improved a little, as if he and Xiao Kai were brothers he hadn't seen for several years. Lu Xuan and he were whispering and talking, even though Lu Xuan was talking to himself alone.
Tang Yun breathed a long sigh of relief when she saw that even though Lu Xuan was still blaming himself and in pain, he no longer looked crazy as before.
Unknowingly, the sun had set and the sky was getting darker, but Lu Xuan was still sitting next to Xiao Kai's tombstone, talking about the past in the army.
"Lu Xuan, it's getting late, shall we go back?" Tang Yun couldn't help but said softly.
After hearing Tang Yun's words, Lu Xuan realized that it was getting dark soon. He looked at Xiao Kai's tombstone, his brows were still full of depression, and his whole person looked extremely gloomy.
"Brother, I have to leave. I will come to see you next year. I will come to see you every year." Lu Xuan clenched his fists, then turned around with difficulty, and walked down the stairs with Tang Yun in his arms.
to the cemetery steps...
After venting his feelings in front of Xiao Kai's tombstone and chatting with Xiao Kai about daily life, Lu Xuan felt a lot more comfortable.
Xiao Kai carries Lu Xuan's saddest memory. If Lu Xuan wants to get out of this nightmare, he must rely on himself. Tang Yun understands this very well. Lu Xuan really needs to be stronger.
Lu Xuan and Tang Yun walked to the gate of the cemetery. Father Xiao had been waiting for a long time. Seeing the gloom on Lu Xuan's face, Father Xiao knew that he must be in a very low mood.
Father Xiao walked up and patted his shoulder heavily, saying nothing...
Lu Xuan squeezed out a smile and managed to cheer up. Tang Yun quickly said: "Lu Xuan, let me drive."
After all, Lu Xuan had drunk a lot just now and still smelled of alcohol. Tang Yun suggested, and Lu Xuan nodded and agreed.
So, Tang Yun drove Lu Xuan and Xiao's father back to Zixin Community in the car. When Xiao's father was about to get out of the car, he looked at the completely dark sky and said seriously: "Lu Xuan, it's already dark, it's already dark.
Why don’t you stay here for one night and leave tomorrow morning?”
Before Lu Xuan could agree, Tang Yun said, "Uncle Xiao, I'll excuse you."
Lu Xuan was stunned and wanted to refuse, but it was already too late. He smiled helplessly and could only go upstairs with Tang Yun and returned to Xiao's house again.
Seeing that Lu Xuan agreed without rejection, Tang Yun's pretty face immediately turned red, and she was a little embarrassed, because as long as she returned to Northeast City, Lu Xuan would definitely send her back to the hotel, and it would be time to say goodbye again.
So, after staying here for one night, in the Xiao family's room with only two bedrooms and one living room, Tang Yun will of course sleep with Lu Xuan. In the eyes of Xiao's father and Xiao's mother, Lu Xuan and Tang Yun are lovers.
Because of the relationship, Lu Xuan would not go to sleep on the sofa, so Tang Yun's little thoughts made her blush.