Bae Zhuhyun has been having a hard time during this period.
Last month, her results in the trainee's end-of-month assessment were pretty good. Although she wasn't top-notch, she was still at the forefront.
The rankings in the last few month-end assessments have been similar, and her strength has entered a plateauing period.
After announcing the results, the teacher even praised her with a very appreciative expression.
The phrasing is nothing more than 'Performing very well,' 'Making great progress,' and 'Hopeful for debut.' This is basically what happens every once in a while.
Pei Zhuxuan was very grateful for the teacher's praise and encouragement, but that was not what she wanted to hear.
She really hoped that the teacher could tell her that 'the company has recently planned a new girl group' and 'the company has started selecting members for the new girl group'.
Even if she is not sure that she is one of them and needs to work harder to get a debut spot, she will be extremely happy and be so excited that she can't sleep at night.
Because she finally no longer has to practice and wait day by day with no hope like now.
Even if it's not news about the girl group's debut, it's okay to announce other arrangements for her, such as advertising model or solo.
Even if it is a death sentence to tell her directly that you are not strong enough or that the company may not arrange for you to debut because you are too old, that is fine.
Although it will be very sad, at least I don't have to go on aimlessly in the company like this.
In this case, Bae Joo Hyun can think about other directions, such as giving up being an artist and pursuing other paths, or leaving SM and joining another management company to gain the opportunity to debut.
In recent years, due to her appearance, she has often been approached by talent scouts and invited to interview with other agencies. Her attitude is very enthusiastic.
But she rejected them all. She still hopes to debut in SM, not only because this is the company she has been working for, but also because it is one of the largest agencies in the peninsula.
But she never waited for what she wanted to hear. She could only praise and praise her repeatedly, but there was no actual action.
Bae Zhuhyun knows very well that she is different from other young and lively female trainees. She is a rare older trainee and does not have the capital to endure it slowly like others.
She was born in 1991 and joined SM in 2009. By 2012, according to Peninsula’s calculation, she was already 23 years old.
Most of the people practicing with her are several years younger than her. The new trainees recently added to the company are all born in 1989 and 1999, and there are even those born after 2000. When she is with them, Pei Zhuxuan only feels that she is special.
It's conspicuous and out of place.
Peninsula girl groups usually debut around the age of seventeen or eighteen, and later in their early twenties is about right. Any older is not suitable.
Because girl groups also have a flowering period after their debut. It is best to attract fans. The most popular ones are the youngest ones just after their debut. In the past few years, many male fans in Peninsula only like energetic young idols. After many idols get older,
It is easy to lose fans, and if the group wants to develop, it will be half the result with half the effort.
Seo Joo Hyun, who is the same age as her, was born in 1991. She has debuted in Girls' Generation for more than five years, and she is still a trainee.
When those little girls called her senior Unnie, Bae Zhuhyun didn't feel any respect at all. She only felt a kind of anxiety and sadness echoing in her heart.
She still can't forget the feeling of surprise that the other trainees couldn't help but express when they introduced themselves to each other when they found out her age of birth. Even if they could control their expressions and salute and say hello immediately, the words that appeared on the other side just now were still there.
The most genuine surprise struck her heart like a hammer.
In addition, because of her appearance, Bae Zhuhyun is valued very much by the company and she is often praised.
This scene was a bit unpleasant in the eyes of other people who were training together. Many people felt that she was not very good at dancing or singing. She just relied on her face to get around in the company. At such an old age, she refused to leave.
, competing with young people like them for debut opportunities.
"They are already the previous generation, they have wrinkles on their faces, and they are still working as trainees in the company, so they are not ashamed."
"Who can let a parent's good looks be valued by the company? It seems that the company has no plans for a girl group in the past two years. She will not wait until she debuts in her 26s and 77s. She has created the history of the largest debut idol in the peninsula. Think about it.
interesting……"
This was what Bae Zhuhyun heard outside the window when the two female trainee juniors, who usually bowed when they met and seemed very polite, were laughing and chatting.
She didn't want to quarrel with others, and she didn't bother to teach others a lesson as a senior. She didn't know how many people looked at her like this.
She just felt uncomfortable in her heart, and there was a breath that she had been holding in her chest and couldn't let it out. She also tried hard to hold back her tears and not let them stay. She was not a person who showed her emotions wantonly in front of others, and she occasionally cried in private.
I vented my anger right then and there.
Her mood has been getting worse and worse these past few days. She saw the exo connection who was airborne some time ago, which made her feel even more sad compared to herself.
I've been feeling a little unwell lately, and I've gotten very angry.
Coupled with the huge age pressure that has always been there...
It always feels like all the bad things have come together.
Bae Zhuhyun wanted to find someone to talk to, but after the call to her mother was answered, she heard the other party's concerned voice, but she couldn't vent her words.
She wanted to talk to a close friend to relieve her mood, but she found that she couldn't find a suitable person.
She is not a social person, she is usually quiet and takes things seriously, and she has not many relatives or friends in the years since she came to the company.
He was really sad, and Pei Zhuxuan couldn't help but smile bitterly in her heart.
Tonight, her suppressed emotions reached a critical point. She didn't want to go back to the dormitory after practicing in the evening, so she ran to the riverside walkway alone, blowing the cold wind alone and looking at the river view.
It's already November, and the weather has gotten a lot colder. The temperature in Seoul during the day is only around ten degrees, and it's even chillier at night.
Bursts of cold wind kept blowing, and even if he was wearing a warm jacket, he could still feel the bone-chilling chill. The brilliant river view opposite did not make Pei Zhuxuan's mood better. On the contrary, it made Pei Zhuxuan even more depressed because of the bleak surroundings.
She was lying on the railing, her eye circles starting to turn red, and she wanted to cry loudly here.
Just then, a sound of footsteps came and stopped next to her.
Pei Zhuxuan looked over with red eyes.
I found out that it was a person whose name I often heard during this period, but whose name I really disliked.