Tao Guangming was about to go in and ask Li Wenjun about this, but when he walked to the door and heard Gu Zhanyan crying inside, he stopped at the door.
Gu Zhanyan, whose parents had not been mentioned for twenty years, broke Qin Hongling's record.
Thinking about it, her pain was twice as painful as Qin Hongling's.
Forget it, he'd better not stab him with this knife.
With this thought in mind, he put down his hand to knock on the door, turned around and left.
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Lan Zhi saw that it was almost time for school to end, so she sat on a bench by the river and waited for the two children.
The weather in late winter is already very cold.
Only under the warm sun do I feel that the cold is not so cruel and harsh.
The river flows quietly, rustling, as if whispering.
The setting sun reflected on the fine waves, like countless small golden carps surging.
Although she always felt that Li Wenjun was too smart and cunning, she had to admit that the "Wenjun New City" built by Li Wenjun was more advanced and beautiful than any other place in the country.
The greening along the river seems careless but unique, without any pretense.
For example, a flower tray carved out of a large stone can be placed randomly in the grass, and then colorful petunias and pansies can be planted.
Even this simple pot of flowers can make people stop and look at it for a long time.
The shrubs and trees are obviously matched according to the flowering season, so that there are flowers to enjoy in every season.
Even in the severe winter weather like now, there are fragrant or gorgeous flowers such as wintersweet and camellia by the river, which will never make people feel boring.
In fact, there are rivers near Haicheng's home and near the dormitory at the nuclear energy research base.
She also often takes a break from her busy schedule in the evening to sit by the river and relax herself.
The difference is that when she was in Haicheng, she was a young man full of longing and motivation for the future.
While at the base, she changed from a helpless young person to a middle-aged person. She spent all her free time missing her children, feeling guilty and blaming herself.
Now, she is old and can only remember.
But even those pitiful memories were slowly blurring like her vision.
When she noticed someone sitting down next to her, she thought it was Li Jinyan. She turned around with a smile but met Gu Zhanyan's cold profile.
Lan Zhi clenched her hands on her knees and turned back lightly.
Gu Zhanyan said: "The steamed buns are very delicious, as delicious as the ones I had when I was a child."
Lan Zhi replied softly: "Well. Why are you here?"
Gu Zhanyan said: "The problems between us always need to be resolved. Otherwise, my children will always ask me, and others will find out sooner or later, which is not good for everyone."
Lan Zhi said: "How do you want to solve it?"
Drive them away? Even then, she can understand.
Gu Zhanyan said: "I don't know how to solve it."
Lan Zhi said: "If you hate us, don't bother yourself to get close to us."
Gu Zhanyan nodded: "Yes. I hate you. In the past twenty years, there hasn't been a day when I didn't hate you."
Lan Zhi's hands became more and more clenched until her knuckles turned white.
Gu Zhanyan: "I hate that you left me alone in Haicheng for the sake of career. When the list of devolution was determined, other students had their parents running around, asking for connections to help transfer to places with slightly better conditions. Only I,
No one cared about me, so I was brought to this most remote poverty-stricken county. If it weren’t for my good English, I accidentally married Li Wenjun, and the mining area chose me to be a teacher, I wouldn’t have known which poor mountain village I would end up in.
He was herding cattle and doing farm work, but he was abused by others."
Lan Zhi trembled with her lips: "It's us who are sorry for you. We were young at the time and just wanted to make a career. Thinking that Haicheng is a big city and the conditions are so good, it doesn't matter even if you stay at home alone. No
Thinking that they ignored their promise to us and sent you here. We protested desperately at the time, but the discipline was there and we couldn't get out at all, and we couldn't contact the outside world. Later, the deal was done, and we could only be cruel
If I don’t think about you, I’ll pretend I don’t know.”
Gu Zhanyan turned to stare at her: "What about now? It was because of discipline at that time, but why now?! Why do you still treat me like a stranger? What are you thinking? I don't understand, I can't figure it out.
.What did I do wrong to let you treat me like this?!"
Lan Zhi covered her face and sobbed: "Both of us were diagnosed with physical problems last year, and the superiors approved our retirement. We have been working all our lives and have not taken care of you and your brother. As a result, we are old and useless now.
I have damaged my health and have no shame to harm you. After all, we were not by your side when you were in the most difficult time and needed us most. We just thought it would be nice if we could watch you from a distance. Li Wenjun is a good boy, I asked
I have met a lot of people and they all say good things about him. He has taken care of you for us all these years. The better he is, the less face I have to involve you. We are afraid of affecting your relationship as husband and wife, or of causing you to be disliked by your in-laws."
Gu Zhanyan wiped her tears fiercely: "Yes, you are very hateful. Even if you stay with me for two or three more years and leave when I am eighteen years old, I will not have such a hard life in the future. But what can I do?
No matter how much I hate you, I am now in my thirties and no longer a child. I have always thought that I am the most pitiful one. But after seeing so many people here over the years, I understand that everyone has regrets and pain in their lives.
. Even Li Wenjun, who others think is the most favored by God, in fact has suffered pain and injustice that most people have never experienced and cannot bear."
There are many others, such as Ji Qingyan, Qin Honglin, even Ji Qingtao, Tang Zhaonian, Tao Guangming, Tao Guanghui...
Who hasn’t stumbled along the way, been injured in various ways, and then recovered tenaciously and made it to where he is now?!
Lan Zhi put down her hands, looked at Gu Zhanyan, and said with sobs: "Zhanyan, I am an unqualified mother, and I'm sorry for you. I don't miss you every day, imagining you at eighteen, twenty, or thirty years old...
...My heart hurts when I think about it, but time has passed and it is useless to regret. I almost forgot what you looked like when you were a child. Until I saw Dian Dian. The way she stood on the bridge looked so similar to you. There was a
For a moment, I thought I had gone back in time. Your dad and I planned to hide in the community after just one look, or move away, but I couldn't bear it. I like Zao Zao so much."
"You used to hide in caves and Gobi deserts, but now you are hiding in that courtyard. How long will you hide?" Gu Zhanyan said: "If you really feel sorry for me, then make up for me in your lifetime instead of
Hide."
Lan Zhi said: "How can I compensate you? You lack nothing now, and we have nothing but pain. So we have nothing to give you?"
