Chapter 160 What are you going to do with the steering wheel?
Chapter 160 What are you going to do with the steering wheel?
Perhaps in order not to wake herself up, all her movements were very gentle.
What he said was close to gibbering.
The current situation is very bad.
Only the underwear is left on the whole body. The petite body clings to the body, as smooth as jade. The dead water fabric like a primary school student's swimsuit has a soft touch that rubs very delicately on the ribs and flanks.
The moment Su Yao saw the entry, he broke into a cold sweat and subconsciously tucked You Ye into the quilt.
But now I think about it, does it mean that it would be better to let Yu Ye leave the window frame in advance? It is not impossible.
Why are you so panicked?
Assuming that he was prepared to confess from the beginning, it should be the right thing to do if it was discovered that he had some kind of relationship with Yu Ye and it was confirmed.
Fear.
She was afraid that Yuye would suddenly disobey and get out of the quilt, because she had not discussed the current situation with her at all.
As for her, even though she couldn't see the entry, how could she not know that Xia Xianyue was coming?
Such a thing——
On purpose?
There was no movement in the quilt, but the warmth exhaled by the petite body swirled inside, making it damp and stuffy.
With his head exposed outside, he had to pretend that nothing happened. It was also a credit to Xia Xianyue that she never thought of turning on the light, otherwise her strange condition could be seen at a glance.
“···”
Xia Xianyue's words were too quiet and intermittent, and Su Yao had no time to discern the information in them.
But he knew that she was sitting very close and watching him from a very close position.
And the terrible thing is——
Yuye?
Why did it start to move around in the quilt at this time? The body didn't move, but it probably moved around the abdomen with its pink tail.
For a moment, all the guilt and fear came over me.
This is complete torture.
But Su Yao couldn't stop it.
The body began to feel more and more unbearable as Youye pushed further. Breathing also began to become subtle. The frequency could not be kept constant.
Is it revenge?
Ahhh.
Youye never said she would accept Xia Xianyue. Even if Xia Xianyue knew the truth, it would still be the same, and she still had conditions.
Xia Xianyue, on the other hand, was completely unaware of the truth. She relied solely on her love for 'Su Yao' and kept watch for a long time.
I really want to ask.
At this moment, what do you want to do by holding back like this?
Now lift the quilt and let her see.
He and You Ye have a real and real relationship.
She was never 'Su Yao' from the beginning. At least it was not the one she knew and liked.
How despicable is this?
Deceiving the person sitting beside the hospital bed.
It hurts the person hiding under the quilt.
It's all because of greed. I want everything, but I don't want to stay in my comfort zone for a while longer.
fed up.
fed up.
Really fed up.
Youye leaned closer to the quilt and did this very straightforwardly and deliberately. He kept the movement small and speeded up the movement slightly. He rubbed his arm with the pudding on the red panda.
"——"
Just when Su Yao wanted to open his eyes, lift the quilt, and confess everything now.
There was a soft touch on the face again.
"Ah Yao..."
"Good night."
Xia Xianyue is gone.
The footsteps clearly went away.
"Wow——"
Su Yao opened the quilt.
"Ha...ha."
Panting heavily. I felt really depressed.
Cold sweat soaked my back, and I had a strong feeling of surviving a disaster.
"Big brother..."
"Yes, it's so hot~"
“···”
"···sorry."
"?"
"I'll end it all."
"Right now. Right now. Right now."
"Big brother?"
"——"
Su Yao didn't say anything, cleaned up a little, put on a hospital gown and chased out.
"Youye don't want your elder brother to do anything?"
"You Ye just thought it was funny."
Youye Nunuo's voice sounded from behind.
"...Fun?"
Su Yao looked back at her and saw those pure and sincere eyes.
"It's best not to do this kind of fun thing again."
chuckle.
Maybe there will never be such an opportunity.
After this time, there are no complicated relationships anymore.
Spit it all out quickly.
So what about self-satisfaction?
You can escape the first day of the lunar month, but you can't escape the fifteenth day.
"How strange."
Only Youye was a little confused as he watched Su Yao speed up and go out.
Could it be that what just happened was really only funny to You Ye?
strangeness.
Obviously, in the resources collected by Big Brother, there are so many human beings who are having fun playing like this. There are also human beings who are hiding under the bed and laughing so much that they start cleaning their eyeballs and pinching them.
——
Su Yao walked quickly to the elevator entrance and saw that the floor had moved from the seventh floor where he was to the first floor. But he still couldn't get up.
There was no other way, so Su Yao simply wore slippers, rolled up her wide hospital pants and walked down the stairs from the emergency exit.
Sixth floor.
Fifth floor.
···
"Ha... Huh."
First floor.
But when he got to the first floor, Su Yao found that the door had been locked.
The door lock has an NFC card unlocking method. I'm afraid Xia Xianyue got the card in some way to be able to come in at such a late hour. Naturally, the door was locked as soon as she went out.
Who can I go out with in the middle of the night?
How about... quitting today?
Anyway, You Ye said it was fun.
What a joke!
Su Yao got into the elevator and pressed the button to go up to the seventh floor.
With the feeling of climbing, I soon returned to the seventh floor, 702,.
The ward was empty.
Youye has long disappeared.
There are still traces and warm breath left in the quilt. But the clothes belonging to You Ye that were tucked into the quilt have disappeared.
that's all?
Being locked by a door and sleeping like this today?
Will you start to feel timid again tomorrow and start to lie quietly in your comfort zone again?
Inexplicable emotions continued to roar, and the heartbeat began to accelerate.
Maybe it's just the remnants of the excitement of running up and down.
But Su Yao can't control that much now.
I have decided that tonight is the night of completion, so I will let this energy settle everything in one go, and I will never struggle with anything again.
calm.
Even if I trust You Ye again, I shouldn't put myself in danger in a meaningless place.
This is not for anything else, I just want to get out.
Su Yao took the elevator to the second floor again.
“···”
I carefully opened the door to a ward without waking anyone.
But the windows are equipped with safety bars.
I remember I saw it when I was discharged from here, but the windows on the third floor were not installed.
Su Yao turned back to the third floor. At this height——
"Crack-"
I heard footsteps again.
Su Yao hid behind the trash can at the corner of the stairs and crouched down at the safety exit.
I watched as a flash of white slipped through the visible gap.
Completely forgot.
Even though it was late at night, although there were few people moving around, there were definitely nurses. It would be better to say that it was strange that I had not been discovered until now.
On the third floor, not counting the safe height, there is still a chance of death on the spot.
Death is not a possibility, but if he makes a scene and Youye has to come back to treat him, then all the efforts he made during this period will be in vain.
Harmful.
What are you doing?
Are you thinking about the end of your life and then not caring about anything else?
He was not found and returned to the ward.
"Is big brother okay now?"
But this time You Ye was here again. Sitting on the bed, his little hands spread out a stack of playing cards on the sheets inexplicably.
"Is everything healed yet?"
"I just suddenly felt that after two months of sleep, my brain had no sleep. I did things completely based on my enthusiasm."
"Hot-headed?"
You Ye stopped playing with the playing cards and asked, "Big Brother, are you saying that you want to continue the unfinished business with You Ye?"
"Nothing."
Until now, Su Yao really finds it funny.
Maybe I was stifled by this hidden contradiction.
He really did something very brainless.
But now I feel relaxed.
Because even if it comes tomorrow, Su Yao will not change his mind. He is sure.
Will end everything rationally.
Not based on impulse, but in the most rational state.
"So what are you doing with the poker?"
Su Yao closed the door softly and sat on the bed.
"Oh, Youye has been trying to find a job that Youye can do in the past two months."
"Work?"
"It's just a live broadcast."
"ha?"
“···”
You Ye took out her mobile phone from her skirt pocket and handed it to Su Yao. A live broadcast account was displayed on it.
The name is just right and fair, Youye.
Okay, now You Ye has no problem doing this.
The live broadcast room is a number that is difficult to remember for newcomers. Youye was sitting in front of him playing with playing cards. Of course, the live broadcast room also had a black screen.
But Su Yao could see the barrage posted by History.
【So cute www~】
【Oops, I suddenly want to raise a daughter.】
【Newcomer?】
[Is this the little angel who attended the court to testify in the Dongda college student murder case that caused a stir on the Internet? 】
[Damn it, why am I not the big brother next door who picked up Xiaoyou (annoyed)! 】
[Hey hey hey, I want to play poker with the anchor~ I’ll go to the captain first out of respect. Do you think about it? Get back to me and I’ll go up to ten more.]
[Damn, that guy upstairs is too disgusting, right? 】
[Little angel, ignore that person! Report it! 】
[With a serious look on his face, he asked me what it is about playing poker that makes me like and feel bad at the same time... Fat nerds are really disgusting.]
[To be honest, it’s cute, so why don’t you keep moving? Even though I’m being looked at, I feel so happy~]
【···】
Popularity cannot be said to be good or bad.
It seems to be because You Ye appeared in court in a public trial involving herself. She was in the hospital due to mental problems, and Xia Xianyue and the others probably found a client to handle the case.
Online public hearing···
So You Ye also left the circle inexplicably?
If you scroll up, you can see people discussing things about themselves. There are also people who claim to be alumni.
Playing poker?
Su Yao first blocked and reported the one who posted many other posts besides that one, and even had private messages from You Ye backstage.
So--
Even if Youye didn't know what it meant at the time, could she not understand it with her IQ?
"Hehehe."
When he raised his face and saw her smiling at him, he knew it was intentional.
"Big brother's possessiveness is so terrifying."
"Obviously, he gave You Ye enough money to buy a lot of dried fish."
Of course it's for free.
Not to mention that Youye ignored him from beginning to end except for asking what poker was in the live broadcast room.
Even if he was an inexplicable pervert, if he really dared to target Youye, not to mention how miserable his death would be. Anyway, the school of swordfish in the sea probably likes to tease people.
"Big brother, do you want to play poker with Youye?"
“···”
He was locked by those pure eyes again.
Su Yao sighed and stroked You Ye's hair.
"Youye, it seems that big brother hasn't let you stand in the corner for a long time in my memory."
"Yuye is about to deal the cards?"
“···”
I didn’t really ask You Ye to stand in the corner.
As she dealt the cards, we actually played two-person stud for a long time.
The penalty for winning or losing is——
If you lose, you have to touch Yu Ye’s head.
You win...
I also want to touch Yu Ye’s head.
I don’t know how long it took, but anyway, there was still no light in the sky. Youye drifted away from the window, and Su Yao could only sleep.
When You Ye completely disappeared from the ward, I felt a sense of emptiness.
I had been living with a visual impairment before and didn't think it was anything. Anyway, it was worth it.
But now, my feelings have begun to change.
You Ye said that you can leave the hospital at any time.
It's not impossible to pretend to be awake now, go find a nurse, and then contact Xia Xianyue.
Why not do this?
I made some excuses, such as saying that a lot of people came over and there was nothing to say, and then I went to sleep with peace of mind.
About eating.
When he first pretended not to accept anything at all, the hospital could only give Su Yao a sedative, then insert a gastric tube and feed him liquid food.
Later, Su Yao slowly 'recovered' and began to accept food. She would also send food regularly.
Of course, Su Yao would still pretend that it was best not to get too close to him except for food.
In order to encourage Xia Xianyue not to come so frequently, Su Yao pretended to be irritable several times. This led to Xia Xianyue basically asking about Su Yao's current situation before coming, and trying his best to choose Su Yao to fall asleep.
, or sit and watch from a distance.
Or he sneaks over at night.
Morning.
Su Yao was woken up by the sound of the inpatient department getting busy. The inpatient department of a psychiatric hospital was not as noisy as usual.
He sat up from the bed and ate under the frightened look of the nurse.
They usually don't want to get too close to Su Yao. After all, he is too irritable, and several trainee nurses have been made to cry by Su Yao.
Because he was sleepy, Su Yao didn't bother to pay attention to them after eating, and turned over and fell asleep. What he wanted to do when he woke up was to think about whether it would be better to slowly 'return' to normal, or to pretend that everything was fine after he woke up.
Anyway, no one can explain mental illness clearly, and my own body cannot detect any problems. Everything is just speculation.
"Is the situation getting worse again?"
"I think it's because the nurse who came for the shift in the morning said that many patients reported that someone was running on the stairs last night and it was very noisy."
"After checking the surveillance camera, I realized that it was Su Yao who came out of the ward."
"It's like I'm afraid...like I'm hiding from some monster."
"I'm afraid he was holding back the increasing calmness during this period, but his heart has not improved at all. The world in his eyes may have become more and more distorted."
"Ms. Xia, you have conditions. My personal suggestion is to increase the dose of psychotropic drugs first."
"Then you can try to contact the psychiatric hospital in California. I studied there, and there is a professor who taught me there, who is very famous in the field of mental illness..."
"I understand. Then please contact me."
"How could this happen..."
"Why are you crying?! If you have difficulties, solve them. You can finish the rest of your studies in the winter market with peace of mind. I will take Su Yao to California for medical treatment."
“···”
"Don't be anxious. Let's increase the dose and observe it first. Maybe there will be improvement. I will also contact the professor and see if he can come here. He is not interested in money, but he is very interested in strange cases.
Interesting. Symptoms like Su Yao’s fantasy and distortion are really rare."
“···”
Su Yao listened to these people gathered in the other bed with the curtains drawn to talk.
What's the meaning?
Increase the dose?
He wanted to just get up, but Su Yao held back.
Not only Xia Xianyue is present now, but also Xia Liangzhen.
How to say?
If I woke up here, I would be normal, and hug Xia Xianyue who was crying with joy under Xia Liangzhen's gaze.
no.
Not really.
I can't imagine that situation now. I don't want to.
Just imagining it makes me feel deeply guilty.
Did Xia Xianyue owe herself ten years ago?
Is that ‘self’?
If you really want to calculate it, from a certain timeline that only exists in your own memory and Xia Xianyue's explicit statement that she is not 'Su Yao', she is simply treating her as a free girl and using her as a tool.
And then later——
Yes, it is true that I have changed because of the extra memories, and also because she has changed my psychology after she died once.
But this did not change the fact that he never told her the truth from beginning to end. Instead, he greedily accepted everything.
For a while, I really felt at ease and lived as 'Su Yao'.
My name is also Su Yao.
Some memories of the other world have really faded a lot. And maybe it’s because there have been too many ups and downs recently, or for some other reason.
I always dream about something.
About another self.
I began to realize again that I was a thief who stole the life of the character with the same name through the "Love Game".
Everything about him in the past was not in line with his personality. His parents were not divorced. They just died when they were very young.
I also started to recall the appearance of my adopted cousin.
Those pictures are as clear as the memory of 'Su Yao' in this world.
To be honest, no one can say that they are not ‘Su Yao’. But they cannot say that they are ‘Su Yao’ without any sense of separation.
It's about accepting a new self with two memories.
It didn’t say that because of this kind of thing, this feeling of contradiction would stay away from Xia Xianyue as it did in the beginning. No.
Whether it is lusting after the body or having real feelings.
My decision now is to confess everything completely. I want to have the best of both worlds.
Can it really be done?
have no idea.
In short, I escaped for the time being. The reason was that someone other than her was present.
I don't know why it didn't work until night.
I have a strange uncomfortable feeling in my throat. It seems like a gastric tube has been inserted.
The doctor felt that his condition looked calm, but in fact it might be dangerous. So he gave himself some medicine, started taking liquid food, observed him, and also ensured the safety of the nurse?
have no idea.
But his hands and feet were tied with restraints for no apparent reason.
"Ta, Ta..."
The sound of footsteps sounded, and Su Yao quickly lay back down and closed his eyes.
“···”
"Ah Yao should feel very uncomfortable, right? This will help."
"They all said Ah Yao was sick. Well, he was indeed sick."
"But this kind of treatment, at least only when I'm around..."
“···”
I could clearly feel hair brushing the tip of my nose and fingers touching my wrist.
The restraints on top were untied.
"Ha...do you feel better now?"
“···”
Xia Xianyue sat back on the stool beside the bed and stared at Su Yao's face.
My eyes started to turn red.
"Suck~"
But he immediately sniffed again and said, "I won't cry. I told you when I went to visit my aunt's grave the day before yesterday that I would be a strong and perfect wife."
"By the way, Ah Yao."
"Guess what I'm wearing today?"
“···”
"Idiot~ During your absence, I secretly found everything hidden in your notebook."
"No, no, I didn't look for it on purpose. I obviously put it in the bookmark on purpose. I went to look at it out of curiosity."
"Do you like JK very much?"
"That's it today."
"But I'm not wearing a short skirt like the one in the video where even the safety pants can be seen. It's a pleated skirt that reaches just above the knees."
"And your favorite black stockings~"
“···”
"Well, don't go to California, okay?"
“···”
"My mother has no objection to me continuing to be with Ah Yao, but the condition is that I can't be as willful as before, and I must complete the rest of my studies at Winter University."
"Well, it's better not to talk about this topic. I feel like I won't be able to help but cry when I talk about it."
“···”
"Na."
"Now Ah Yao is a public figure."
"I don't want to suggest changing the story for now, because after Ah Yao took in and took care of Xiao Youye, people now say that Ah Yao is a kind and gentle person, like some anime protagonist with no abilities."
"Those people are only jealous of what they see on the surface and don't care about anything else."
"Only I know."
"I took in Xiao Youye because Yao couldn't find anyone to rely on at that time. He was gentle because he was able to show kindness to weaker people in desperate situations, which made me jealous."
"Ah, I accidentally said it."
"actually···"
"I met Xiao Youye on Crescent Island. I always felt that time really passed by so fast. The children at that time can now answer fluent questions with the judge in court. Even the famous lawyer hired by her mother felt that Xiao Youye
He is a rare genius.”
"What do you think of Ah Yao?"
“···”
"I mean...emotionally, will you abandon me?"
"Um···"
"Seeing Ah Yao like this, I realized that I was really useless. On the contrary, Xiao Youye did a lot of things, and she was the one who took care of Ah Yao abroad. I was just wandering around like a headless fly."
"Obviously Ah Yao is still in this state, but I'm thinking about those messy things..."
"You said you need to take care of me... I'm sorry."
"Woo..."
"I'm really sorry. I've been causing trouble from beginning to end."
"Why exactly? Even people like me can survive smoothly, but Ah Yao is the only one who has to do this."
"Obviously everything was good at that time...but it turned out like this."
"ha···"
"No, I told you not to cry."
Xia Xianyue wiped her eyes and smiled again, "Go ahead. I will ask my mother to take Ah Yao to California as soon as possible tomorrow. I'm just waiting."
"I just want to stick with her, but I said she is the perfect wife."
"So I won't be as willful as my mother thinks about this kind of thing. Really, she will treat me as something dishonorable."
“···”
"Now, I mean. If it really can't get better, then I'll turn to a psychiatrist."
"Isn't it good to achieve success in that profession and continue being a wife in an alternative way?"
“···”
Su Yao couldn't hear the joke at all.
Be serious.
Xia Xianyue is the result of preparing for the worst.
Because of this kind of words, the words that have long been in my throat are stuck in my throat, and I don’t have the strength to open my eyes and speak.
What's the point of just rising up and accepting good intentions if you don't confess?
On the other hand, if you do nothing and continue to pretend to be dead here, what's the point?
"Good night."
A soft touch pressed against his forehead, and the restraints were tied again.
Only when the footsteps faded away did Su Yao open her eyes and get up from the bed.
What?
Are the restraints tied so loosely because you're afraid that you won't be able to break free?
Sit where you are.
"Big brother."
Youye appeared from the window and landed lightly on the floor.
"I almost bumped into my sister, hehe~"
Put on a pure smile.
How come we almost bumped into each other? And he said that on purpose.
"Brother, You Ye also wants to play poker today."
"There are fun punishments."
"If you lose, big brother, can you do the splits in the air? What about Kawalu! Hu Bi——"
Youye's two little hands were in the shape of claws, like a kitten grinning wildly.
“···”
"Is this another strange comment I learned in the live broadcast room?"
Su Yao used a little force and pulled his hand out of the restraints.
"However, I may not have time to play with you tonight."
"?"
"Big brother is going to be discharged from the hospital tonight."
It’s the same situation as last night again, now—
Su Yao put on her slippers and rushed out the door.
"——"
"babble?!"
"Patient in Room 702, you..."
"I'm sorry for pushing you back. Now I'm back to normal. Please tell the attending physician."
"ah?"
While the patrolling nurse was still in a daze, Su Yao had already ran into the stairs.
"Security security, the patient in room 702 ran away——ah?!"
Before she could finish speaking, the phone in her hand was suddenly taken away.
I saw a cute girl standing in front of me.
"Sister, do you want to play poker with Youye?"
"?"
"What are you doing...you..."
The nurse suddenly felt a little erratic in the middle of her words.
"For now, let's play with Youye."
Youye stared straight at the staircase where Su Yao had disappeared just now, and the expression on his face was no longer the same as he was smiling in the ward just now.
"Playing poker is not fun at all."
——
Xia Xianyue came by car, and the car was parked in the parking lot to the left of the entrance to the hospital.
I felt empty after leaving the ward.
I have the urge to go back and stay for a while.
But there is no value in doing so other than making people around you worry and think.
My mother said that when everyone told her that she could not wake up, Ah Yao was not like her, but lived in another way. Not only did she not give up on herself, but she also used her every move to influence other pessimistic people.
people.
Now it's my turn to let my husband play and my wife follow suit. As a person, I shouldn't stay in such a depressed state for a long time.
Um.
It's time to talk to Xiao Youye. Maybe she has special feelings for Ah Yao, but Ah Yao just looks after her as a child.
Regardless of these, she is indeed one of the important people to Ah Yao.
So, as a wife, I should try to see if I can help the other party no matter what.
"Crack-"
Close the car door.
This car is still the same one I rented originally, but now I have bought it from the car rental agency.
To be honest, it's not a popular car for girls, no matter the color or style. It's not very comfortable to drive.
Just because of memories.
“···”
Xia Xianyue started the car and looked at the scene ahead. The street lights at night made her a little dizzy.
My vision was a little blurry, and I rubbed my eyes hard but it was still the same.
This is not the first time this has happened.
During this period of time, in addition to the required courses, Xia Xianyue has been supplementing her knowledge of psychiatry, working crazily to become a psychiatrist in the future. This is probably the same as what her mother said when Ah Yao used work to prevent excessive mental internal consumption.
.
It's just that I paid a slight price - my eyesight dropped sharply.
Let's try to get a pair of glasses tomorrow.
Thinking like this, Xia Xianyue looked in the rearview mirror, confirmed the situation and was ready to start.
"?"
Suddenly, I saw a blurry figure running towards the rearview mirror.
Wearing a hospital gown.
It looked like he was very tired from running.
I was a little scared at first, but the more I looked at it carefully, the less calm I became.
"Dong, dong dong——"
Even the heart is beating wildly.
"...Ah Yao?"
I couldn't help but want to get out of the car and take a look, but my seat belt was on.
I wanted to unbuckle my seat belt, but I was so busy that I couldn't do anything.
"Boom!"
Instead, the car window was knocked.
“···”
"Ha, hu..."
Heard the sound of breathing close at hand.
Xia Xianyue pressed the button on the side of the car window to lower the window with some numbness, and saw a dream-like scene.
"Haah, hoo——"
"I said, ha..."
"With the seats so close to each other, are you planning on feeding the baby the canteen on the steering wheel?"