I don’t even know how I was born and how I became like this.
The same goes for opening your eyes.
The pure white ceiling with some discontinuities is divided into square grids. The walls are also white.
"How are you feeling today?"
The nurse I had seen since I woke up came again, writing and drawing in a record book, and kindly changed the infusion bag.
"Thank you. It feels pretty good."
Su Yao stared at the bag that was hung up again. It said 'glucose injection' on it. He said that he had low blood sugar and was too tired, so he fainted.
There are no injuries on the body.
The hospital gown is clean. The mobile phone is also placed next to the bed.
She was so close that her voice was almost within earshot.
"sure."
Is this considered asking for your own opinion?
Not sure.
"Senior is still as serious as before, but even if it is abduction, it is not a one-sided abduction."
“···”
No matter what, today is Su Yao's last day in the hospital.
Ship of Theseus?
"Eating an orange will make you feel energetic."
Finished eating the noodles.
What she claims to be is that she is her girlfriend.
“···”
Even the name was only learned later.
Probably because the mattress was a bit old, Su Yao would make noise whenever he turned over.
With that photo in hand, no matter who looks at her, her expression is a smile, a smile of satisfaction.
Su Yao stared at her.
She suddenly looked away, as if she was embarrassed.
“···”
The result given by the doctor was hypoglycemia.
So close...
For example, I took out a harmonica from the drawer and asked when I bought it and what tunes it can play.
It was obvious that her body was trembling slightly.
To be honest, Su Yao didn't know anyone.
No.
But when did the pillow disappear, and then it directly conflicted with her small baby canteen.
"Wouldn't it be scary to live here alone?"
But she might be right.
"My home?"
I saw her taking it apart, cleaning it and holding it in her hands.
"When this bottle of infusion is finished, you can go out for a walk. The weather is not bad today."
Wait for her to come over.
"I feel like I'm pretty bad."
As far back as childhood, it was about my parents.
"I happened to see a theory recently called Ship of Theseus."
A message was sent from a person named ‘counselor’.
"There is a doll man over there, go take a photo with them!"
"Want to stay at the senior's place for the night?"
Su Yao could only think for a moment and asked, "Have you stayed at my house before?"
“···”
Su Yao tried to retell it several times, but couldn't get a clue at all.
"Open your mouth?"
"As for the cigarettes."
There is a vertical washing machine placed at the door of the cramped bathroom.
I don't understand the specific meaning of cherishing what she said.
She seemed very happy.
"Senior."
My head feels like it's about to explode.
"Senior is worthy of being admitted to Dongshi University."
"that···"
"Yes, it means that part of the wood of Theseus's ship was replaced with new ones due to rot. In the end, as time went by, more and more of the wood rotted and all of them were replaced with other ones. Is this ship still considered a Theseus ship?
A Sri Lankan ship? If not, when did it stop? If so, but it no longer has any of the original wood."
Her love for him is true. Even if she doesn't remember anything, she can realize it more truly now.
There is no point in staying in a hospital where no results can be obtained for a healthy person except increasing expenses.
caressing.
The nurse said something before leaving.
"How is it possible..."
"Are you awake?"
What should I do?
daze.
"Senior has never been there."
"Can you tell me something about me?"
"Where is the star?"
"Ah, I forgot, senior, and I can't remember now. Anyway, I'll clean it up first."
"Senior didn't mind letting me use this before. Can I just use it now?"
"This is too self-righteous!"
"If you don't know what to eat, just do it as usual."
"Um."
Su Yao saw Qiao Qing's anxious look, but didn't want to delay it any longer.
We also had a small dessert after dinner, which was actually just a few small oranges. She said that not only can oranges be eaten, but the peels can also be used to refresh your mind. They are all valuable fruits.
"?"
And how familiar she is with the place where she lives, she looks like someone who has been there for a long time.
Especially when I get home.
Can only guess.
"No, they will all be kicked out when the time comes."
The nurse said she wanted to go out for a walk, but Su Yao got up and went to the window. The scenery outside felt strange and out of place.
"Don't worry, even if the senior loses his memory, I will still treat him as a senior."
She put on a smile and said, "Before, it was because my father was still here and I might be embarrassed if the senior went there. But now my father is no longer here."
It really feels like there is a big empty space in my heart, and I am strongly hoping for something and longing for something.
"But I don't want to just let the seniors work hard on their own. I am also working hard to save money. Plus the little I had before, I have already saved more than 30,000."
"No need to apologize. Anyway, my life will be easier now that my father is gone. If I hadn't met my senior during that time, I don't know what would have happened."
The melodious sound of playing came from the hole. It was very stable and crisp.
"without."
She slept in her father's spare room. The bed was also made.
It means that she is still young, so she maintains a pure relationship.
"···Thanks."
"Then..."
"It's like kidnapping a top student."
"Senior, why don't you...stay here for the night?"
She sat up straight, holding the harmonica handle in her left hand and squeezing the harmonica in her right hand.
At this point, even if you ask to go back, it will be too late.
If you don’t know anything and don’t remember anything, can you still be considered ‘Su Yao’?
"Girls who love their seniors also want to... occasionally get along with each other like lovers."
Her pleated skirt swayed with her movements. She was neither tall nor short. She wore black round-toe shoes and her cuffs were neatly buttoned.
"Ah, I want to say, if I had been there, would I be able to remember anything if I went there again?"
Su Yao wondered if it would be better to hold hands when going out if we were in a relationship?
Su Yao made this request out of wanting to know her better.
"~"
Things went very smoothly after that.
As soon as you see that shy yet happy smile creeping onto your cheeks, revealing a sweet smile, you will instantly understand.
Or, she is still in school, and we cannot let her stay in the home of an older person like herself and spread rumors.
Keep holding hands.
"What Ququ-senpai is best at..."
"Senior!"
He obviously didn't remember anything, but he took possession of her in this extremely poor soundproofing environment. He asked her to lower her voice, and the sound of putting the cup on the mattress was too loud.
"that···"
"Um···"
And I am a college student who is about to graduate. The age difference is not small.
"No, the human body metabolizes, and the components of seniors today are absolutely completely different from those of ten years ago."
Maybe one day I will suddenly recall the forgotten things.
She picked up the harmonica and frowned again, "Senior's harmonica hasn't been taken apart and cleaned for a long time."
The mood in the house was not optimistic either.
Whether it's the unfamiliar environment or the car lights that dangle from time to time through the window, the sound of the car passing over the speed bump, or the whispers.
Who are you?
"Uh, sorry."
Instead, he said that he would help her read the exercise book and answer some questions.
She breathed a sigh of relief, "I accidentally put too much lard just now. Although I added soup, I'm still worried that it will be too greasy."
I was surrounded by little frog dolls and took pictures with her.
"Ah~ Senior, open your mouth."
“···”
"Don't you feel tired?"
"Of course a senior is still a senior."
What kind of work do you do?
She has a small and exquisite figure and is always energetic and shows a soft smile.
I really don’t have any memory. I can only know that this is a hospital and the pillars there are street lights.
"Senior, are you hungry?"
“···”
A brilliant smile broke out on her face, "I'm not driving you away, that's inappropriate, but it's because the senior values me very much."
"Father's room is always empty anyway."
"How does it taste? Senior."
"Is it sweet?"
Su Yao really didn't know anything.
Generally speaking, when it comes to fathers and daughters, the father will always leave a room with good lighting and large space for his daughter, but here it is the opposite. Although Su Yao has not entered her room, she has seen it from the living room and it is better than her father's room where she is sleeping now.
Half the size. Very narrow.
When did it start raining heavily outside again?
"Senior, are you disappointed? Your girlfriend is not a rich young lady."
Su Yao said.
"But you can go now."
It's easy to tell that she is a high school student.
"It's a two-way street. One wants to fight and the other wants to suffer."
It can only be said that it was painted with white paint. There is no furniture, and the leather on the armrests of the large sofa has peeled off.
"That's good."
"Here, senior's slippers."
There were no injuries, but Qiao Qing said that he suddenly fainted while walking with her, and she sent him to the hospital.
think.
"Senior."
You can’t deny it, right?
"Trophy."
The teeth press against the orange, and the orange flesh bursts into juice in the mouth, and the sweet taste overflows.
I thought this way and did this.
"Awake."
"Crunch, crunch -"
Su Yao was silent for a moment, "But my body has not been replaced."
You are not alone, there is no need to be anxious. As long as you inherit your 'own' will, there will be nothing wrong. What's more, this is a happy thing, not painful.
"I found two jobs at once, and I still had to write the manuscript when I got home. It was like I was forcing myself."
"Then...you should?"
Su Yao smiled awkwardly.
[You guys, please pay more attention to your health and don’t work so hard. I’ve seen your credits and yours is almost enough. Don’t worry.]
Su Yao looked away.
She took out a pair of black slippers, probably her father's?
"squeak--"
“···”
Qiao Qing smiled and said, "Senior, do you think so or not?"
"how so···"
Is it really easy?
Looking at her expression, I really can't feel it. It looks like she is forcing a smile.
episode.
"Senior..."
"But, senior, I am an adult. I am no longer a child."
"without."
"Crunch——"
"I haven't given my senior any pocket money, so I can't support him."
“···”
"Sorry, I didn't think about it that much."
See the things placed at home.
"...Ah, that's right."
"Am I a very hard-working person?"
Maybe it's too simple and crude.
A very complicated question.
Where to go to school.
It was because of her that Su Yao knew her name.
"It would be awkward to say thank you."
Although she never said it, when she came to the hospital, she brought her schoolbag and wore a high school uniform.
Su Yao decided to go for a walk, and the final destination was what she said was her mother's cemetery.
"Senior, are you in a daze again?"
Even if he is trembling, he still wants to get some kind of emotion from himself.
But it is indeed something that can be felt.
But when I saw her putting on an apron and working in the kitchen, it gave her a more real sense of life.
In a word, even the lifting rod at the door has been wrapped with tape many times. There are traces of tiles falling off on every building.
I desperately longed for cigarettes, and because of this thought I realized that I was probably really a smoker.
So, if the cute girl who is related to her is not so familiar with this place, the only conclusion that can be drawn is that she is related to him.
Su Yao is always saying thank you.
But she was already at Su Yao's side, and she took an orange and peeled it open.
As soon as she came up, the mattress must have made a sound.
Although I have lost my memory, my brain seems to be pretty good and I can solve most of the problems.
He took out the ingredients from the refrigerator very skillfully.
Although it was a bit weird, Su Yao still opened his mouth.
"It's the same person."
But seeing her movements become stiff and her cheeks getting flushed, Su Yao instantly understood that maybe his relationship with her wasn't to the point where he would naturally do this kind of action.
Qiao Qing wiped the harmonica with a cloth and said, "I forgot to hide it. But the senior is indeed a smoker."
[Don’t be so tired. Even though you are a young person, you should also pay attention to your health.]
Don't know anything.
What matters is not where you stay.
It's not that I don't believe that I have such a girlfriend.
A person named ‘Store Manager’ sent a message.
She opened the door and handed Su Yao slippers.
Even when he saw that person smiling at him, he had no idea that "this person is my mother".
At first, she slept on her side, with a pillow between her and Su Yao. Her warm little hands were placed on Su Yao's chest.
Su Yao watched her take the dishes and chopsticks to clean them. According to her own words, she had eaten before coming to the hospital.
Stayed at home for a little while.
"I know, the senior doesn't have any strange thoughts in his eyes when he looks at me. Just like before, he treats me like a child."
"But, a senior is a senior."
[I already know the details. Just rest peacefully. Things in the store don’t matter.]
My mind went blank, and I couldn't figure out who the name was on the phone as I was scrolling through it.
"Senior, is it hard?"
Of course, if it was just hypoglycemia, Su Yao could be discharged from the hospital on the same day. The problem is that Su Yao can't remember anything. He didn't hurt his head, he just fainted and lost his memory. No matter how they checked, they couldn't find out the reason.
Her name is Qiao Qing.
"How do seniors know that I must be a top student?"
There is no need to finish the sentence, just explain it clearly.
Although it was placed casually on the TV cabinet without a TV and was inconspicuous, Su Yao still saw it.
She shook her head.
Su Yao didn't know why he still stayed here at this point.
Is this also because I have never done anything to 'value' her before?
The sound insulation effect is also quite poor. You can hear someone quarreling upstairs and the toilet being flushed.
A crisp and pleasant voice sounded softly outside the door. Then I heard footsteps approaching.
"Um."
She is about 17 years old, no, she should be over 18 years old.
My heart is also empty.
There is no television.
“···”
Tell the truth.
"This is my senior's favorite song, Where the Stars Are."
The stairs are also covered with various small advertisements.
Watch her go and get a glass of water.
"Ship of Theseus?"
He was also the first person Su Yao saw when he opened his eyes.
Maybe there are various kinds of resistance?
“···”
"Then my goal is..."
"Because I never thought that senior would really want to stay."
And half a carton of cigarettes.
This room faces the sun, and although the windows are old-fashioned sliding windows, everything is very clean. It seems that she cleans it frequently.
no way.
"I always feel that the senior's current state makes me uneasy."
"I'm a girl too."
He was stared at for a moment by her eyes flashing with inexplicable emotions, and then his arms were held affectionately.
"I am also responsible. Although I told senior not to work so hard, I couldn't stop it."
Since the self ten years ago and the self ten years from now are the same person, then how come the self four days ago and the self four days from now are not the same person?
"Senior..."
Turning around, he saw her placing fruits on the bedside table. There were bananas, sugar oranges and the like.
"Yeah?"
Her long black hair was tied into a smart single ponytail at the back, and the snow-white neck exposed from the collar of her JK uniform looked particularly dazzling.
You can squint your eyes and peek at her, and see her holding a pillow and making very light movements.
Out of the corner of his eye, he suddenly noticed that the door slowly opened.
"···Thanks?"
“···”
Just when Su Yao was about to get up and smoke a cigarette.
"Senior, please wear this."
"Feel sorry."
“···”
Because I don’t know anything, I want to know everything.
“It tastes...very good.”
Do you want to inherit your 'own' will and continue to cherish it, or should you say——
Who is he?
Because of this, Su Yao didn't get up again and simply pretended to be asleep.
"Why?"
It is delusional to think that you will have any memories in a place like this. The shadows of the trees, the voices of people, and the gray photos posted on the tombstones.
"Box box box..."
A person named ‘Teacher Zhu’ also posted.
After dinner, she didn't chase her away.
Whenever she came close, the faint clean scent of soap would invade Su Yao's nose.
The scent of shampoo after bathing is very close to Su Yao.
Pairs of mugs, towels, slippers, pillows...cute tableware for a woman eating alone.
“Senior, don’t you think the senior in 2015 and the senior in 2000 are the same person now?”
"It's very late."
Although his mind was still confused, Su Yao became more and more aware of things about her.
"Can I come to your house and see you?"
It's what I think from my heart.
Being desired.
"Then I'll blow it?"
"Although it looks a bit bad, the security is pretty good. I've never heard of anything happening around here."
When we got to the cemetery, we were back to letting her take the lead.
She has been visiting him for the past three days, and there is no one else except her. Everyone praises her for knowing so many ways to take care of people at such a young age, and doing everything in detail and impeccably.
"Drive away?"
Can't sleep.
Su Yao was guided to her apartment by her. She felt that it was already an older apartment. But the place where Qiao Qing lived was obviously even more shabby.
"You're shaking."
"Senior is the kind of character who will go all out when he has a goal. That's why he works so hard."
But when Su Yao was hesitating whether to pull it out, he felt his little hand holding back with a tiny amount of strength.
Am I still me?
"It's confusing."
The steaming noodles were placed in front of Su Yao, with a few vegetable leaves placed on top. The smell was quite appetizing.
No lights on.
"That's good. Even if the current seniors have forgotten many things, they are still seniors."
Being stared at by those serious eyes, the undisguised goodwill in them made Su Yao a little unable to look straight.
It sounded like he was about to cry.
"Target···"
"But I can understand it, after all, seniors are under a lot of pressure."
"Senior is really an adult. His shoulders and body are very broad."
"Then, can I be here?"
Just saying——
"night···"
My name is ‘Su Yao’ and I am really happy. I have such a lovely girlfriend.
Thinking about it this way, it seems that not remembering anything is not a big deal. I now have my goal.
"Senior..."
The temporary vacancy in my heart was once again offset by the warmth of my body.