He is with me every day. If I go to work, he stays at home and never goes anywhere.
There is no human interaction.
I haven't seen her do anything personal.
She didn't want me to come back to work at the company, so she called the company.
"What happened to your girlfriend?"
My boss called me to the office.
He showed me the call history on his cell phone, including countless missed calls and intercepted harassing calls.
"I always call her during working hours, but now she comes to harass me and even other employees are receiving calls."
"What do you want me to do?"
Facing that ashen face, I could only lower my head and say sorry.
"You can figure it out yourself."
After saying this, my boss didn't want to talk to me anymore.
I went back disheartened and said nothing to my girlfriend who was tender and gentle to me.
Want to question?
Or what should I do?
I don't know what went wrong.
"Did I...do something bad?"
"Tell me if you can."
Before going to bed, I asked her.
"No, there's nothing wrong with Ah Yao."
"I like Ah Yao the most."
The answer I got didn't make any sense.
Of course, I'm not stupid.
I don't want to do what Lin Xiaowan said, because I love my girlfriend, I just want her to be happy. This is what she deserves.
For this reason I have to ask clearly what should I do now.
Who can I turn to?
Recalling what the accountant said that day, I think she is probably a methodical person.
"Your past is really... hard to describe."
After listening to what I said, the accounting lady rubbed her temples.
"I said you -"
"Is he really an idiot with 0 emotional intelligence?"
"What she obviously lacks now is a sense of security, the sense of security she needs most!"
"You just want to take it out so that she can examine it, but who are you to make the decision for her?"
"She doesn't want to do this at all, does she? It's you who insists on having your own way."
"You are hurting such a girl who treats you wholeheartedly. You are truly a scumbag."
"Don't tell me when it comes to this, you don't know what to do yet."
“···”
I almost ran out of the cafe.
I know what to do.
Something only I can do.
"Just wait for me at home. I have something important to say to you."
Leaving these words behind, I will try my best to go back.
——
Important words?
Ahhh.
Got it, that time has finally arrived.
You would only say this to me seriously after breaking up, right?
My tears fell uncontrollably and I was trembling all over.
As expected, she still took advantage of the loophole.
"Look at what kind of life you are living."
"I've long said that people like that can't be trusted."
"Come back with me. It's not too late to start over."
"Stop clinging to that scumbag."
“···”
Why don’t people around me understand?
If it’s not Ah Yao’s words or his words, it won’t work.
Why don't you understand?
"You are a little sick now. Be obedient and go home with your mother."
So annoying.
So annoying.
So annoying.
I really want to die.
I really want to die.
I really want to die.
Since when did you stop loving me?
What did you do wrong?
ah.
Sure enough, it was because I was worried that it would affect my quality of life at that time, so I didn't give Ah Yao money on credit?
In front of me, there were two people, namely my best friend and my mother who prevented me and Ah Yao from being together. In front of them was a table with a pair of small scissors that were used to make paper cuts.
If you insert that into your throat, it will stop time before breaking up.
——
I'm a step late.
I was no longer greeted by my girlfriend’s gentle smile.
Only blood remains.
Blood all over the ground.
When I saw them here, I finally understood the source of the pressure my girlfriends usually face.
"Why?"
"Obviously... I'm already trying to get better."
"Only a little bit, just the last bit."
I knelt in a pool of blood, looking at them who were pale and speechless, and took out the ring box from my pocket.
The box was stained with bright red blood and became dirty.
——
She's not dead.
But this time I was really sick.
No one was stopping me from being with her, and I put the ring on her finger.
"Now, we can be together forever."
There is nothing false in my words.
"Yes, we can be together forever."
"But--"
"I'm already dead."
"Then it would be fine if I died too."
"Really? Then I'm going to find Ah Yao?"
"No, just wait for me where you are. I'll be right away."
I won't let Ah Yao leave again.
I won't let Ah Yao leave again.
I won't let Ah Yao leave again.
Ah Yao will never leave again!! Ah Yao wants to be with me forever? Will he live with me forever?
Please don't - "go out" again?
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I peeked into the last words Xia Xianyue wanted to send to me and ended my life.
Sure enough, garbage is garbage in the end. It is hopeless.
He can't even protect his only precious thing.
It would be nice if it could be faster.
If only it could be earlier.
if--
It would be nice if I could do it again.
If we were to start over, this would never happen again.
"Want to do it again?"
It was as if someone heard my voice.
"If you want to do it all over again, go ahead."
"After paying the appropriate price... I will give you the medium to come back."
"Although I say that, you have made good use of the media and got what you wanted."
The previously remembered images disappeared, leaving a vast expanse of white space.
and shadow.
"Do you care who I am?"
It can make sounds.
But I don’t know if it’s a man or a woman, a human being or something else.
"You have talents, and I...are good at responding to human requests. That's what equivalent exchange is."
"Did you create the core of the love game?"
"Is it a love game? I only provide the medium. However, it is the user's responsibility to change the medium to any name or form."
"So...are you talking about the kid who stayed with me, the longer...god?"
"No, just boring things that occasionally respond to strange human requests."
The shadow seemed to be smiling, "I've been observing you."
"The memories you can share are just my bad tastes."
"Bad taste?"
"Well, I wonder how humans would feel if they could share the perspective of others. As far as the results are concerned, you gave me a good experience."
"What's the price?"
"The price is already on your side. I told you that you have talent. So, use your great talent to raise her as a human being."
"Is that all?"
"I rarely can establish equivalent exchange projects with humans. Are you satisfied with your current life?"
"...I think there's nothing to be dissatisfied about."
"Then, the transaction is over. The media will also be taken back from you. At the same time, all the time you have experienced will disappear, leaving only the one you recognize now."
"As an additional bonus, you can choose to keep all the memories, or just keep this one. The same goes for them."
"Of course... we'll keep it all, that's our foundation."
"I understand. Then, you can no longer interfere with time through the medium. Please live well. We will meet again at the end of your life."
“···”
Su Yao looked at the shadow for a long time and said, "Thank you."
I'm afraid only the parties involved know how much content is included.
I didn't even wait for a rude response.
It's over.
It's just time that has passed.
But my heart is still throbbing.
It’s really hard to feel like losing important things, your heart, your brain, everything is empty.
"Ah Yao?"
"Ah Yao..."
“···”
Being pushed, Su Yao opened his eyes and saw Xia Xianyue's face.
"Did...you have a nightmare?"
Her hair hung low on Su Yao's face.
"I had nightmares too."
Then hug yourself tightly.
"Really? It reminds you of those unpleasant things."
"So, it was because of me that the series of things that followed happened."
"I never thought I would become such trash."
“Not trash...”
"It's just complete rubbish."
Su Yao got up, lit a cigarette, and took a puff, "But when you think about it, it's really realistic. I gave up on myself and didn't want to go to school, and you came to your door just at this time. I took advantage of what happened ten years ago to ask for money from you, acting like a parasite.
insect."
“···”
"Why are you hanging on me?"
"I don't know, I just suddenly wanted to do this very, very, very much."
She smiled a sickly smile.
"Excuse me politely, may I go out now?"
"I'll go too."
"I mean you stay here and I go out by myself."
"I might get my wrist cut later——"
"Really?"
"real."
“···”
Su Yao pulled her cheeks apart.
"Ugh, it hurts!"
She patted Su Yao's hand away with tears in her eyes, "Go ahead, go ahead, just don't stop Ah Yao."
"This joke is really not funny."
For a moment, Su Yao really thought that she had inherited the Xia Xianyue that her memory had glimpsed just now.
Although it is indeed her.
"Ah Yao looks down on people too much."
"Compared with the nightmare just now, what I remember more deeply is being hung from a lamp and watched by Ah Yao."
“···”
"However, it is true that I suddenly want to be closer. It is a feeling that is so strong that I cannot control it."
"Yeah?"
Su Yao looked outside, the weather was also very good today.
"Can I give you enough sense of security now?"
"As long as you don't leave me and go out to find the little wild cat, that's fine."
"Isn't that still the same?"
"They are the same people after all! Hehe."
My girlfriend is not dead.
I'm not dead either.
What went wrong?
Suddenly I realized that if everyone said that Xia Xianyue was sick, then I might be the same.
only--
That disease is called love.
——
Youye made something fun.
It is made with reference to the favorability function of the love game.
However, it is still not clear what the favorability level of the love game is based on. The favorability function she created is based on the level of dopamine secretion in the human body to write the value.
Although it relies too much on one-sided data, it is still accurate?
The device is similar to the stick used by traffic inspectors to test for drunk driving. You can blow it to get the 'favorability' value.
She found it very interesting, so she took this thing back to Su Yao's house.
"Big brother and sister secretly have sex behind Youye's back again."
I happened to see them sitting together.
But it's different from the past, this is just a joke.
As You Ye, you no longer have the idea of hanging Xia Xianyue on the lamp. That is an idea only for children with unsound thinking. As You Ye now, she will only think of more reasonable ways.
Just kidding.
"What secret sex..."
"It's obviously fair and aboveboard."
Of course, as the person whom Yu Ye calls her sister, she has now learned to hold her neck back and face Yu Ye's teasing.
"That's just right. Please take this and blow it again after Youye leaves and record the value on it."
"What?"
"Favorability."
Youye thought for a moment and said, "The experimental conditions should be tested without a third party, so that it will be more accurate. But the big brother's test may not be accurate. After all, the lovely Youye has already appeared, even if it is with
It’s not surprising that my sister suddenly misses Yuye during sex. It mainly depends on my sister’s numbers.”
"What are you talking about? It's getting more and more excessive! Youye!"
"Tsk."
"Did you just scream at me?!"
"No, Youye wouldn't do that kind of rude thing."
You Ye left, and only Xia Xianyue and Su Yao were left in the living room.
"What's the favorability of this thing?"
Su Yao put it to Xia Xianyue's mouth, "Blow it and see?"
“···”
As a result, the latter's face turned red, "I don't want to..."
"?"
"What are you thinking about?"
"Thought nothing!"
"Is that so?"
Su Yao put out the cigarette and turned to look at her.
"What, what's wrong?"
She was a little embarrassed to be seen and looked away.
"Looking at it this way, my girlfriend is really awesome."
"It feels like I'm talking about something very obscene..."
She muttered.
"No, look, she's a rich little girl again. She has a beautiful face and a figure to say nothing of. How could there be such a perfect girlfriend in the world? And she happens to be with me."
"Why, suddenly, just say that..."
"In the nightmare just now, didn't I always want you to look at yourself and the people around you? In fact, you ignored a crucial point. I should also look at myself."
"Why do you still feel unsatisfied and go through so much trouble when you have such a perfect girlfriend?"
"Uh-huh——"
"Why are you making a sound like a puppy?"
"Idiot, of course you will be shy..."
"Now, are you still shy?"
"I don't often get called that...perfect or something."
"It seems that I need to praise you more in the future so that you can always feel safe. So, let's have sex."
"Alas?!"
Perhaps, at this moment, her brain was a little confused.
"It's no different from what you said."
"After seeing the nightmare, you will suddenly want to cling to me. I... will have further ideas."
That's not bad either.
For those of me who have experienced enough losses and recoveries, I will often cherish her real existence in my hands more.