Because fundamentally, he is not Su Yao. Moreover, he is saving her. It is just from every aspect.
So, this is a good thing.
"call--"
Su Yao sighed and stopped thinking about her things. Instead, he did what he should do.
For example, prepare some clothes for You Ye.
Find nearby merchants selling raw meat ingredients and order a good meal.
Because I only ordered the ingredients, the takeout seemed to be delivered by the merchant himself. Someone specifically said that it would be fine to just hang it quietly at the door, so there was no need to touch it. This way, there was no need to worry about anything unexpected happening.
"It's ready to eat."
After getting the takeout and putting the ingredients on the table, You Ye happened to put on Su Yao's large short-sleeved shirt and watched the animal world carefully by the bedside.
"Um."
You Ye grabbed the cut sashimi and looked at Su Yao, "Brother, don't you want to eat it?"
"Eat, I'm not a god."
Su Yao smiled hypocritically and finally opened his own simple meal.
At this point, there is no turning back.
"Hehe, let's eat together with big brother."
“···”
Seeing Youye's harmless appearance, Su Yao began to truly feel that from now on, he would really be bound to the monster.
In the end, I followed the script of the love game.
As long as you don't resist and keep your title of 'sole victim', then no one will have to die, right?
What will happen in the future...
Don't know and can't predict.
I don't want to think about anything anymore.
After finishing the rice bowl, Su Yao leaned on the bedside and listened to the sound of Youye chewing and the host's narration on the TV. He began to feel tired.
As soon as I close my eyes, countless images appear in my mind.
Being killed. Seeing others being killed.
Blood, stumps, pieces of flesh, black hair in the skin tissue. Just thinking about it makes me uncontrollably nauseated.
What the only victim.
It's just a lost dog who compromised after suffering enough pain because he couldn't resist.
Is there no choice?···
No matter what, it's a foregone conclusion anyway.
After tomorrow... think about it tomorrow.
Su Yao turned around and fell asleep next to the monster.
the next day.
When Su Yao woke up, he found that You Ye was sleeping on his body, his breathing was steady, and he seemed to be sleeping soundly.
"...Big brother?"
Even though he moved her away gently, she still woke up.
"Just go back to sleep. I'll go out and buy breakfast."
"Woo."
You Ye turned over and went back to sleep.
"Shuashua——"
After Su Yao washed up, she took her cell phone, which had been turned off, put on her coat and went out.
I turned off my phone last night out of fear of trouble. When I turned it back on, it was filled with missed calls as expected.
It was expected that the woman would call and harass her. After all, it was painful enough for her to throw herself to the ground and say those disgusting words from her heart.
"Inspection Bureau?"
What was unexpected was that among the several numbers there was a number marked as the branch number of the Winter City Supervision Bureau.
Why would an inspector call me?
Could that woman...
Su Yao tried to call back the marked phone number.
"Hey, this is the Dong City Inspectorate Bureau branch. Do you need any help?"
"You called me last night, at three o'clock in the morning."
"Are you Su Yao?!"
"yes."
"ha···"
The person on the other end of the phone sighed first, and then said, "There's nothing to say now. I called you yesterday to tell you that your girlfriend committed suicide last night and was sent to the hospital for emergency treatment. Unfortunately, she couldn't be rescued.
According to our investigation, you had contact with her before her death. But now we have ruled out any causal relationship between you and her death, so you have no responsibility. There is no need to say anything more."
"She...is dead?"
"Dead. Didn't you just say that? When we went there, he had already taken sleeping pills and went into shock. He was sent to the hospital but could not be rescued."
The tone on the other end of the phone was calm, as if he was not surprised, "If you want to come back, you'd better be careful not to meet the family members of the deceased. Otherwise, you will be responsible for the consequences."
"Anything else?"
"without···"
"beep--"
The phone call was hung up unilaterally. Perhaps the police felt a little disgusted with themselves after checking the deceased's chat history.
But as a public official, he won't say anything. Other than a cold tone, he will just declare the facts.
She is dead.
Su Yao looked at the phone screen and took out a cigarette.
"Crack."
When I lit the fire, I noticed that my hands were shaking a little.
Why?
Why do things always turn out to be the opposite of what we expect?
Seeing a car passing by on the road, Su Yao began to understand something.
If he wanted to save her, he would die now. Even now it was too late. Every minute and every second now was reducing the chance of saving her.
But he didn't want to take a step.
Who can guarantee that the point of return will be before her death?
There is no way to verify it without dying.
If you die...
So why do I have to die?
Every time, it's the monster, she dies, and he dies. Every time it's so painful.
Even now, in order to save her, he broke off the relationship with Te De. In the end, from a moral point of view, he became the perpetrator?
What a joke!
After all, do people who commit suicide deserve sympathy?
We are all adults, and if we give up our lives so easily, we need to pay the price for our actions.
But why do you feel guilty?
"You night..."
Su Yao gritted his teeth, suddenly feeling inexplicable hatred.
I hate everything. Everyone lives so normally, except myself. I live a difficult life just to survive.
Why?
Why do you always need to die by yourself?
Is it possible that everyone considers themselves a saint?
asshole!
If I were killed now. If I angered Youye now, I would be killed by a monster as usual... I don’t want to die.
"Buzz."
Another call came in.
It was one of the missed calls last night.
"You...are Su Yao, right?"
There was a young woman on the other end of the phone.
"Um."
"I don't know what's going on between you and Xiaoyue, but I always think about it."
"Why would Xiaoyue reject everyone and only focus on such an ordinary person like you? Even if you are ignored, your hot face will be cold but your butt."
"Yes, it's your right to reject her. No one has the right to say anything."
"But why...beast! Why did you give her expectations and then crush her with your own hands!"
"If you can't do it, then don't do anything in the first place and just be a beast like before!!"
"Haha, before leaving, you also defrauded Xiaoyue of her money, right?"
"Ah, I know, a beast like you will just think in your heart, this person is really stupid, and he even takes the initiative to give money."
"Don't worry, no one will blame you. Anyway, as the inspector said, the whole thing is the perpetrator's own responsibility and has nothing to do with you. You can sleep peacefully."
"But be careful, I may not be surprised at all if something happens to you in the future."
“···”
"Are you done?"
"No, there is one last thing. Let me show you the suicide note left by Xiaoyue. I really hope you can live with guilt for the rest of your life. But I think a beast like you will only understand it after reading it.
A whole page was filled with obsessive writing on a torn-out piece of paper.
It's all an apology.
Apologize like someone is possessed.
Why?
What do you want to say?
Want to blame all this on yourself?
Are you kidding? What does it have to do with me that she can't think about it?
Obviously I am also a victim.
Everyone is condemning me, so who will take pity on me after all I have suffered?!
"Bang!"
An off-road vehicle suddenly rushed straight from the road towards Su Yao.
With no time to react, Su Yao was crushed by an off-road vehicle and entered a breakfast shop. After the loud noise, the people inside were frightened and ran out crying.
"Bang!"
At a certain moment, Su Yao was suddenly hit by a car. The out-of-control off-road vehicle hit the stall and entered a breakfast shop. The people inside were frightened and ran out crying.
"Su Yao..."
Who is calling your name?
"You deserve to die...!"
The voice was very hoarse, embarrassed, and filled with unparalleled hatred. He got off the off-road vehicle.
"Puff——"
Before he could see his face clearly, the knife had already penetrated his chest.
"How could she have died if it weren't for you!"
"brute!"
"Puff——"
Su Yao struggled to brush away the blood that blocked his sight, and found that it was a young man with messy hair, wearing a black sweater, blood-red eyes, a ferocious expression, and holding a fruit knife.
He remembered what the inspector said to try not to meet Xia Xianyue's family.
Is this... a family member of Xia Xianyue?
"Ah, he killed someone!"
"Call the police, call the police quickly."
“···”
The survivors who ran out originally wanted to come in to save people, but were frightened when they saw this scene.
Su Yao couldn't move. Her legs were pressed by the wheel, and her spine seemed to have no feeling. Her body was paralyzed in the damaged cashier counter.
"Do you know what she is to me?"
"You deserve death!"
"Ha, Gu."
Blood overflowed from the corner of Su Yao's mouth, and the dull pain gradually began to numb.
Of course Su Yao hated being hit and killed like this.
Why should I be responsible for Xia Xianyue's death?
Why do you have to go through all the painful things yourself, while others can breathe as a matter of course.
Only yourself, only yourself.
But now I suddenly feel relieved again.
That’s enough, right?
All he needs to do is die miserably again, right?
Whether he was killed by a collision or killed by someone else, whether he could go back if he wasn't killed by You Ye, no one knows.
If you really die like this, that's okay. You shouldn't have come to this world in the first place. You should have died long ago.
As for whether I can go back and save that woman, what does that have to do with me?
She gave up her life on her own initiative. Even if she wanted to find him, she would be looking for 'Su Yao', not herself who wanted to push her away from the pit of fire.
Am I the perpetrator?
Laughing to death?
Do you know how many times I have died so far? Who has ever sympathized with me?
asshole.
Come on, kill me.
"What are you laughing at?! Asshole!"
"Puff——"
The man went crazy again when he saw Su Yao's expression. He kept stabbing Su Yao in the chest.
But Su Yao was indifferent and had long since stopped feeling pain.
"Puff——"
Suddenly, something flashed away.
His body was still stabbing into Su Yao's chest, but his head had already rolled several times on the ground, and his face still maintained a hateful and crazy expression.
“···”
Can't hear who is saying what.
I saw people outside showing extremely frightened expressions, or screaming, and running away desperately.
Then.
She saw a blurry petite figure. Something waved behind her and moved the car that was pressing on her legs, breaking it into pieces.
Can't see clearly.
All I knew was that something cold and wet fell on my face. I almost realized that it was the tears of a monster.
Huh?
It turns out that such an ugly and disgusting monster can also feel sad?
Can she really understand what it means to be sad?
Su Yao didn't know. He wanted to stretch out his hand, but where was it?
Then, the consciousness began to become heavy, dim, and gradually disappeared. I could no longer see or hear.
【You are dead】
【Current node:20150303.07.31】
"Dong dong."
Someone is knocking on the door.
"How annoying."
Next to you, Yu Ye got up and rubbed his eyes.
"You Ye, please go back to sleep. I'll go take a look. It should be a courier."
Su Yao pushed her back.
"...What is express delivery?"
Youye asked sleepily.
"Express delivery...it's a little troublesome."
"Do you want Youye to help big brother deal with it?"
Youye said seriously.
"No need, just go back to sleep."
Su Yao got up from the bed and put on his coat with ease.
If you come back here, I can only say that the woman who committed suicide was lucky.
Open the door.
【Girl who likes you】
[Character: Xia Xianyue]
[Favorability: 92]
[Description: I like you very much]
"Well... I'm sorry, I'm probably a little disturbed so early."
She still avoided looking, as if she had done something wrong.
"You have a brother?"
"elder brother?"
Xia Xianyue was obviously stunned.
Isn't it?
"nothing."
Su Yao waved his hand and said expressionlessly, "If you know you're disturbing me so early, why do you still knock?"
"Well."
Xia Xianyue lowered her eyes and pinched the corners of her skirt uneasily with her hands, "I'm just... a little worried."
"Do I need you to worry?"
"sorry···"
"Don't be sorry again, I'm annoying to hear. Just wait for me."
Su Yao turned around and said calmly, "I have something I want to talk to you about."