Chapter 8 Isn't everything going in a good direction?
Chapter 8 Isn’t everything developing in a good direction?
Already said.
I don’t know who ‘Su Yao’ is, and I don’t intend to be him. The one who is good at acting is an actor, not me.
The moment he was killed, Su Yao had already figured it out.
Precisely because I am an ordinary person who cannot be more ordinary.
Therefore, I hate that I am the only one who has to die, and that I am the only one who bears the pain.
If you ask a question on Zhihu in your past life, "Would you feel painful after you die and go to a new world with the ability to load files but keep getting killed?"
At least most people would say, what’s the point of pain? If you live once and become familiar twice, what are you afraid of after dying so many times? If you can go back to the past after death, wouldn’t the world let you do whatever you want? Anyway, you can go back to whatever you did.
.
Because no one really dies.
No one can truly know the feeling of being pinned down by something and trying desperately to break free before death, just like a drowning person struggling upwards but sinking deeper and deeper.
No one can know what it feels like to have limbs cut off and a big hole opened in the chest.
No one knows what it feels like to watch others die and then die oneself.
Once alive and twice familiar, it is just a matter of typing a few words on the keyboard. The pain will only become more unbearable and hateful as the memories of death increase.
And it is precisely because he is neither purely good nor purely evil that he tries to resist on his own in the first place by killing others.
However, after discovering that he died miserably, he began to panic again. He also began to think that someone more capable should replace him, kill monsters on his behalf, or die on his behalf. These are ordinary people. There is no way to be purely kind.
Or evil.
Ordinary people like me will only be kind when we think good, and evil when we think evil.
So what to do now?
Su Yao thought, maybe he could try to treat people as characters. Treat You Ye as character A and Xia Xianyue as character B.
It is known that A is not a human being and has a full affection for himself. But that is different from B's Xia Xianyue's yandere love. He is just a little close to himself?
The question now is, how to let B survive. Or let her have nothing to do with him.
In other words, Su Yao hates this person.
Whether it's because she doesn't like herself at all, or it's because she gave up her own life.
In the past... let's call it past life.
When Su Yao encounters something that he doesn't want to do but must do, he will instill an idea into himself.
The body is a machine and the body is a role.
It is the body that does the work, and the soul is just a bystander.
The same is true now.
As long as the soul sits on the player's throne and the body is used as a prop, there is no need to feel guilty.
Ahhh.
This is more real than what was imposed in the previous life, because the body does not belong to oneself, only the soul is the real self.
Therefore, Su Yao blocked Xia Xianyue from the door and entered the bedroom instead.
"Youye, I want to introduce someone to you."
Um.
Su Yao decided to start over again, just like at the beginning.
The difference is that at the beginning, I didn't know that Youye really looked like a disgusting monster.
The difference is that now I want to see if I am involved in it, even if I know You Ye's true identity, can I calm down Xia Xianyue and give me a real partner by my side?
As for whether Xia Xianyue will die because of failure, who cares? It's just the yandere character B. She doesn't care about her own life anyway.
"Are you also a human like big brother who is not afraid of Yu Ye?"
Youye showed a little curiosity.
"Maybe, maybe not."
"But whether I'm afraid of you or not, you can't kill her."
"And never show her what you really look like, do you understand?"
"···good."
Although Yuye looked confused, he still nodded.
alright.
That's it.
Su Yao opened the door again, and she was still at the door.
"that···"
She hesitated, as if she wanted to say something but didn't dare to say it.
"You can come in."
In fact, it was only one day since the last time he let her in, but to Su Yao, it seemed like a year had passed.
"ah···"
Xia Xianyue let out a small exclamation.
Um.
Because the room is small, the entire living room is basically in full view once the door is opened. You Ye, wearing Su Yao's large short-sleeved shirt, is sitting on the sofa.
Xia Xianyue looked at her, and Youye also looked at Xia Xianyue. The atmosphere became strange for a short time.
"call--"
Su Yao took a deep breath, walked between the two of them, pointed at You Ye and said to Xia Xianyue, "Let me introduce you, her name is You Ye."
“···”
You Ye didn't say anything, but still stared at Xia Xianyue with an almost vigilant look.
"Then, Youye. This is the person I wanted to introduce to you, Xia Xianyue."
Su Yao pointed to Xia Xianyue again, "An ordinary human being like me."
“···”
"This... Ah Yao, who is she?"
It was a look of intense shake and extreme confusion.
how?
Worried that she is a love rival?
"As you can see, a little child."
Su Yao spread his hands and said, "We met by chance."
"is that so?"
Xia Xianyue put on a bright smile in a very short period of time and faced You Ye, "Is your name You Ye? Is the little tail on your back a cosplay? It looks very cute."
“···”
When Xia Xianyue went to touch Youye's head, Youye staggered away and hid behind Su Yao, grabbing his clothes. He peered at Xia Xianyue like a little leopard whose territory was invaded.
"Youye is a little scared of strangers."
Su Yao touched her head and said, "Youye, you first have a look at the animal world by yourself. I have something to say with this sister. Don't worry, I'll be back soon."
"···good."
Youye glanced at Xia Xianyue and sat down on the sofa obediently.
"When did Ah Yao meet such a cute little loli..."
"Is it cute?"
Su Yao sighed and said, "Let's go outside and continue chatting."
"Ah, okay. Goodbye, Xiao Youye~"
Although Xia Xianyue tried hard to greet Youye, Youye ignored her at all.
"Why are you just ignoring me..."
"Stop yelling, I still have something to tell you."
Although the beginning was not thrilling, what comes next is the highlight.
"Ah Yao, what happened to Youye?"
As soon as she went out, Xia Xianyue put on a serious look.
"She is wearing your clothes, right? It seems to me that she is only wearing underwear on her lower body. She should be over thirteen years old. At this age... Ah Yao, she looks so clingy to you, you
Shouldn’t it be..."
"She has no clothes to change into, so she has to change into mine. Is there a problem?"
"It's a big problem."
“···”
"Ah, Ah Yao, you are indeed... no, no, it's still too late to look back now. If you find You Ye's parents and take the initiative to apologize, no, if you were my daughter, I would do whatever it takes to make them suffer..."
She seemed to be stuck in some kind of thinking. She muttered to herself for a while and said seriously, "Ah Yao, if it doesn't work out, just surrender! I will find a way to win forgiveness from You Ye's parents, and then..."
"Shut up."
Su Yao interrupted her rudely, "Huh, I need you to be mentally prepared. You must make friends with You Ye tomorrow."
"...Must make friends with her?"
Xia Xianyue suddenly paused.
"Well, no matter what you see, whether you are scared or out of control, you must do it."
"Wait, I'm a little confused. Why am I scared and out of control?"
"You will know tomorrow. In order to get the results I want, I will make some efforts before then."
Having already walked down to the apartment, Su Yao glanced upstairs subconsciously. The door was closed tightly, and You Ye was probably still watching the animal world in the living room.
"Although I don't quite understand, if this is what Ah Yao wants, I will try my best. Is this okay to answer?"
"Um."
Su Yao glanced at her and then looked away.
【Girl who likes you】
[Character: Xia Xianyue]
[Favorability: 93]
[Description: I like you very much]
When she accidentally peeked at Su Yao, she discovered that her light blue uniform top was moving. It was really moving.
Her legs are graceful under the aqua pleated skirt, wrapped in silk white stockings. She looks youthful and energetic when wearing white sneakers.
Single ponytail...
In fact, her ear-length short hair should be suitable for today's outfit. But now she is still a high-scoring girl.
And it’s so easy to increase your favorability.
She is such a person, and she should be regarded as character B, whether alive or dead.
Just now... I was hesitating. But it didn't count, because I suddenly felt that Yu Ye could do some more work in order to improve the success rate.
Do everything you can to the limit, and if you still die next, you can only say sorry.
"Okay, that's it for today. I'll call you and ask you to meet You Ye tomorrow."
Su Yao sent Xia Xianyue to the roadside and asked her to take a taxi back.
"That... Ah Yao."
"?"
Su Yao was suddenly called when he was about to leave.
"Would Ah Yao be happy if Xiao Youye and I became friends?"
"···meeting."
"Then I will definitely try my best. Just wait and see, Ah Yao!"
The smile on her face was undoubtedly genuine,
Seeing that expression, seeing her getting into the taxi and waving to him from the window, Su Yao's heart twitched violently. But she immediately suppressed it.
Repeat in my mind, she is just character B who doesn't matter if she dies.
After separating from Xia Xianyue, Su Yao did not go home directly.
He planned to help Youye buy suitable clothes and shoes to prepare for tomorrow's meeting.
I have very complicated feelings about You Ye now.
Especially after figuring out that if I had not been afraid and resisted from the beginning, I would not have died. But is it my own fault?
Can you really forget those memories of being killed countless times?
Not really.
How could a normal person think of getting along peacefully first when faced with a monster killing a person?
I was just fooled. I was treated like a monkey in the love game.
He still remembered that You Ye came to save him after he died. Although it was in vain, there was no doubt that that was the monster's true attitude towards him.
No one is wrong.
If the premise is turned into a love game, then everyone will be a victim.
In short, the next thing to do is to explain some things to You Ye. For example, he emphasizes that he cannot kill her no matter what. I think that as long as Xia Xianyue doesn't go crazy, he will be able to follow his advice and slowly accept it.
As long as she accepts it, everything will be fine.
After sorting out her thoughts, Su Yao went into a small store that was clearing out children's clothing. She spent a few hundred yuan and picked up a few dress styles.
He doesn't have the capital to go to expensive places.
As for the intimate items, they are not sold in the store. There is no need to go to an underwear store to buy those items. It is better to order take-out items from the supermarket.
"...Consider it a gift?"
Holding the shopping bag, Su Yao laughed to himself.
How could I, who wandered around several times yesterday, think that I, as the victim, would buy clothes for the perpetrator today?
Not only that, but you also have to buy ingredients. There shouldn't be much ingredients in the refrigerator for Yu Ye.
Carrying the ingredients and gifts back to the apartment.
"In the animal world there are only interests and no emotions..."
The only sound in the living room was the host of Animal World on the TV.
"Yuye?"
Su Yao put down the bag and walked to the bedroom.
The bedroom door was ajar and no one was inside. There was no kitchen.
There is no bathroom.
There is no balcony.
I have never seen You Ye leave this room without permission.
It seems that I have never left You Ye alone at home. This is the first time.
Su Yao suddenly thought of something and immediately took out his cell phone to call Xia Xianyue.
"beep--"
"The other party didn't answer."
"beep--"
"The other party didn't answer."
"asshole!!!"
Su Yao wanted to go to Xia Xianyue's house right away, but he didn't know where Xia Xianyue's house was.
I feel terrible.
'Do you know where Xia Xianyue lives?'
He pulled out the dozen or so contacts on his phone and asked them one by one.
‘Who is Xia Xianyue? He shouldn’t be in our major, right? Student Su Yao, did you send the wrong person?’
'I don't know. Su Yao, did you pronounce it wrong?'
‘···’
There are many answers like this.
Not to mention knowing where Xia Xianyue lives, no one even knows her.
'By the way, I heard from the assistant teacher that you had an accident a few days ago. Are you okay?'
Some people had no choice but to ask questions, or they had no choice but to take the opportunity to express their concern.
That kind of thing...
"Giggle——"
Su Yao gritted his teeth, ignored those words, and called the inspector instead.
"This is the Dong City Inspectorate Bureau branch. Do you need any help?"
"I...I had a fight with my girlfriend. I feel she might commit suicide, but I don't know where she lives. What I mean is, please help me find where she is now. I'm very worried."
When he spoke, Su Yao realized how awkward his voice was.
"Suicide? Don't worry, please provide your girlfriend's ID number or phone number."
The inspector on the other end of the phone gave calm instructions.
“···”
Su Yao doesn't have that kind of thing.
All we know about her is her name.
He found her WeChat ID, but her WeChat ID was Jianpinxxy223, and there was no phone-related information at all.
But fortunately, the inspector found Xia Xianyue through name selection and narrowing down the area.
"Your girlfriend's address has been sent to you, and our people have already gone there."
"I'll rush over right away."
Su Yao didn't know if he could make it in time.
But he just wanted to know that this was not an accident. Youye just left here for other reasons, and Xia Xianyue just didn't get the call because something happened. All of this must be just a misunderstanding.
Because I told Youye not to kill her.
Isn’t it 100 favorability?
Haven't you already said it?
Everything is obviously developing in a good direction, and it has just begun.