Chapter one hundred and ninety-fifth: no spit no fast
"Although it is a pity, there is nothing we can do about it." Liu Shenghan commented, "In that kind of place, the six paths of impermanence cannot sense those lost souls. It can be said that it is a good thing to have the Great Tengu."
"Well - this is what I said, the reason why I fought with the Tengu. After losing the only little prince, it finally attacked me. I can understand that this means taking away people's love - but
It must also know that I didn’t end up like this just to kill them!”
"Are you really that powerful?" Aoyan and Shenghan both raised their eyebrows, obviously questioning.
"You guys are going too far." Qi Huan shook his head and said, "But, it seems that I was very successful in hiding my strength along the way."
"I'm just kidding." Liu Shenghan said with a smile, "I have thought about you a long time ago... I think you are also very special. In the deep sea, when you punched the rock to pieces to save me,
,I was just thinking——"
"If I had known that nothing would happen to you, I wouldn't have exposed it so quickly!" Qi Huan rolled his eyes, "You said I was hiding it from you, but you were hiding it from us too."
Bai Ya in front suddenly said: "Aoyan, help me hammer him."
Like a soldier who had received an order, Jun Aoyan suddenly raised his hand and punched Qi Huan on the head. He was in terrible pain and covered his head, seriously suspecting that this force contained something private.
"So what is your background?"
Before he could complain, Aoyan asked. He rubbed his head and rolled his eyes.
"Perhaps you should remember some of the things I said in the past... I said I was a young master's book boy. But in fact, I am not, I am that young master. I, too, come from a wealthy family."
"So when you put cloth strips on your hands, you don't want to reveal that you have never done any work and that you don't have calluses on your hands, right?"
"Hey, I still have to practice martial arts. There are still a bunch of messy things to learn and practice. I have been exhausted from childhood to adulthood. I only wear this thing to block my family crest - I don't like it.
My family. I was their only son, so they forced me to do everything. I got tired of it, so I ran away."
Aoyan grabbed his wrist, but he suddenly pulled it back and didn't want to show it to her. He seemed to still care about it, so Aoyan didn't make any fuss and insisted on pulling him over to see it.
"So it was you who was wanted to catch that water ghost?"
Bai Ya suddenly asked. The two people didn't know what they were talking about, so they just listened. Qi Huan sighed.
"Well... that's true. But at that time, my Yin Yang skills were not good enough to save myself. The book boy who had been studying with me jumped into the water to replace me - he could have gone directly to report the news to the adults, and then
It's a normal thing, but it's not. Because he knows that when he calls someone here, I'll even look for the bones.
Not here. He has no parents, and everyone in our family bullies him. He said that I am the only one who is good to him. If there are any difficulties in the future, he will sacrifice his life to repay him. I just smiled at the time, thinking he was just... lyrical
That’s all. I didn’t expect that not only did he do it, he did it so suddenly and so quickly.”
"this……"
"I'm good at everything, but I'm not good at anything. Along the way, you should also have discovered the clues. I am the best in onmyoji, because this is our family business, a family of onmyojis. But from the bottom of my heart, I
These are all very contradictory. My parents can no longer have children.
Too old. Only when I grew up did I realize that compared to others, they could almost be my young grandparents. They put all the burden on me and forced me to do everything. In fact, I am not the eldest son, I am just the eldest son.
With good luck, they are born with strong spiritual roots, which is why they look forward to the stars.
The stars and the moon hope for a good child. They don’t care about the inheritance of the eldest son, they just want to revive the family name. In order to speak well to the outside world, my brother and sister are clearly biological flesh and blood, but they say to the outside world that they are adopted. "
"Your brothers and sisters...don't you care?"
"Don't care - because they don't know! They think they really picked it up!"
Everyone else was stunned. Aoyan stuttered a little: "This, this... then how did you -"
"What they told me, they told me since I was a child, in order to let me understand how heavy the meaning is. I believed it deeply at first, and I had doubts when I was a teenager. But based on their expectations of me and...
...pressure, I can more or less judge that this is probably true
That's it. Even if I tell my siblings about this, they won't believe it - they are too superstitious about the authority of their parents. After all, they are 'orphans' who were 'picked up', so how can they have any complaints?
Later, by coincidence, I met the midwife who came back to visit her relatives. I was her
The last child she delivered, she left with a lot of money and stopped doing this. She told me that this was really the case. But the people who followed me secretly found out about it - although nothing happened after I returned home.
, but I heard from my brother that he carried them to
The mother-in-law at home...actually a midwife, died suddenly on the street for unknown reasons. I think this was probably done deliberately by my parents and conveyed this way. It was my fault, I shouldn't have touched her, she should have held it
My family’s money has gone away...why would she come back?"
"Are they crazy?!"
"I'm probably crazy. I've never been normal. I have to be watched wherever I go, and they have to take care of everything I do. I've been like this since I was a child. When I go back, I have to take care of my family. I won't show you how many injuries I have on my body -
—I had a meal out and came home late. They could immediately send someone to take me home.
Are you a prisoner? I'm over twenty!" It seemed like it was the first time they heard Qi Huan say dirty words. "I gradually learned that they actually... don't love me, just because I am the only suitable heir. So.
I can understand Ao Yan very well - not all parents in the world love their children, no."
"..."
"Then I ran away and ran to Jiutian Kingdom. I thought they would never find me again."
"Huan'er is our family's only hope."
My parents always said this. Is hope a precious thing? As a young person, I couldn't understand the meaning of this sentence. I only know that hope is the fire that lights up the future. And this is also the metaphor my private school teacher told me. Fire
It's very important, you can't boil water for cooking without fire; the future is also very important...such as what you will eat tonight.
Food is always good and expensive, just for children. But some food is not delicious, tastes bitter in the mouth, and looks bad. If I don’t eat it, my parents and servants will
Coax me and say it is good for the body. How can a child understand this? Then change the cook to one who can make the supplements delicious. No matter how bad the supplement is, it will be fine. If you just catch the child's mind like this, you can trick it into his mouth.
inside.
The clothes I wear are also good and expensive, but I don’t like them. Firstly, they are too fancy and look like a girl’s clothes. Sometimes I go out on the street to be seen by other children because they want to laugh at me. Secondly, the quality is not good.
Okay, it will be damaged if you pull it. After all, silk and satin fabrics are not very strong. I like it.
These are the clothes of the children of Huanren. I helped with the work when I was a child, so the fabrics are very durable. I have always been naughty, and only by jumping up and down in these clothes will they not get damaged or get scolded. Anyway, I will come back as soon as possible and change them secretly.
It's just that I'm clever and haven't been discovered even once.
It wasn’t until I grew up that I realized the consequences of being discovered. Looking back to this day
Come, I will break into a cold sweat.
But the punishment that I and the people around me received far exceeded the small price that should have been paid. The training was also harsh on weekdays, and I couldn't escape no matter what. But later I slowly discovered that if I took the punishment
After completing the task, if I run out at this time, at least I won't hurt others. However, my parents are always not satisfied with my performance.
When I was young, I was forced to think about the meaning of what I was carrying.
"Xiao Huan is the luckiest."
My brothers and sisters always say this. They are my flesh and blood, but I have to keep this secret in my heart. But everyone's treatment is similar - even much easier than mine, so it is inevitable that I will feel unhappy.
When they complained, my siblings would say things like this, telling me how honored I was to be the only "eldest son" in my family who happened to be so talented.
Just right...is it really just right? Just right, is it really a good thing?
When you are hit by a stone of luck in life, you will feel somewhat panicked, fearing that you will lose it soon or pay some other price. I have never felt that way, I only feel that I have been paying this price.
However, finding joy in hardship has always been a human ability. Although the children in the courtyard can't play with me, I can still play with the ones on the street. The older children avoid me. My parents have taught them that the main family is
You can't offend me. How can ordinary people afford it if something goes wrong? The younger ones are a little afraid of me, after all, I look too light.
They are bright and beautiful, and they are not the same as the gray-faced ones. But I always bring delicious and fun things out, just like attracting small animals. Slowly, they are willing to play with me. At first,
I am the eldest among them. Later, the children of my relatives or servants will come out and join us - including my book boy.
It was a carefree and happy time. Maybe... it wasn't particularly carefree. I still had to worry about things after returning home. So most of the time, I spent time with my parents, siblings, and the gentlemen who taught.
Various masters, as well as guards, competed in battles of wits and courage. I have too many thoughts and a slippery tongue, probably due to this reason.
If you are found out, you will be severely beaten and put in confinement. My mother is reluctant to do it, but my father is the most cruel. I really don’t like my father because he is not at home very much throughout the year. I heard that the old man is always running around, constantly talking to
Various dignitaries interact with the Onmyoji family. I don’t understand why my father did this to me.
The hands were so hard, and the thorns on my thorns were poisonous. My mother or the medicine man had to apply medicine on me for a long time. I would wake up in pain when I turned over at night. My brothers and sisters said that the old man's expectations were too deep and too heavy, and he was eager.
He really hoped that I could take charge of my own business. So when he saw me like this, he just hated iron and could not become steel, so it was also for my own good to hit me.
I really don’t understand - because among the children I play with, some of their parents are working as laborers in Beppu, or they are doing business all year round. When they come back, they always bring all kinds of things to their children.
Weird gadgets. Even if they are empty-handed, at least they are very gentle to them. If they are beaten to a pulp by their mother because they are too naughty, they will cry and call daddy, because their fathers never beat them.
He even helped to break up the fight.
I'm so envious.
I don’t like my mother that much. In my eyes, my mother is also a two-faced person. She looks distressed on the surface and talks about how much she loves me, but the family laws are extremely strict, even more so.
But she always shed tears, her eyes full of heartache, and kept telling her family's difficulties.
