Ye Nan will be four years old on her next birthday in the new year. Most children go to school at the age of six. In this way, Lin Xiangwan really only has two years left.
Two years and more than 700 days passed by in the blink of an eye, but when she faced her impending death, she was so calm and calm, as if she had been preparing for it for a long time.
"Yeah...two years is too short, isn't it? So I have to work hard to make a lot of money, and then when I die, Ye Nan will not live on the street. When the weather is cold, someone will remember to give
He adds clothes, and when the weather is hot, he opens the refrigerator and there are popsicles to eat..."
She thought very simply, if there was a gap that couldn't be filled with feelings, then she would fill it with money. She knew that such an exchange was not equivalent, but she had no choice. She didn't want Ye Nan's life to be the same as hers.
I was trapped by money at a young age, and for money I was forced to do things that I didn't like at all.
She wanted to give him the greatest freedom, let him become the person he could really be, let him do what he really cared about, and not stop dreaming because of money.
She wants to teach him that as long as money can solve the problem in this world, it is not a problem. Because when he grows up, he will understand that there are too many things that you cannot change the outcome at any cost.
It's like life and death, illness and death, like a child who wants to be taken care of but is not treated as such.
"Aren't you afraid?" The calmer Lin Xiangwan was, the more uncomfortable Xu Yunqi felt.
He would rather she be like the women he saw before, who would scream in fear when encountering an insect, and her beauty would turn pale. She would not be like this, like the night before a storm, so peaceful that it makes people palpitate.
"I was very scared when I first heard the news. I was so scared that I could hardly sleep." Thinking of how she had just heard the doctor talk about her condition from an authoritative hospital, Lin Xiangwan couldn't help laughing at herself, "But then I was busy.
When I make money, I don’t care about being afraid, and I don’t have time to be afraid. In fact, what I fear most is not death, but waiting for Ye Nan to grow up one day and not remember me. I am most afraid of this. Xu Yunqi, you said waiting for him to grow up
Now that you are an adult, can you still remember me as an unqualified mother?"
Xu Yunqi was speechless. Facing the woman in his arms who was approaching death every minute, he didn't know what words to use to express his feelings.
He could only hold her tightly and warm her with his body temperature.
Just like this, it wouldn't work. He knew that his arms could not save her life, and there was nothing he could do about her fate.
Why do I feel like this? It's as if he will lose her if he lets go.
Xu Yunqi never cared too much about people he met by chance, unless that person was his mortal enemy. But she was different... he couldn't let her go, couldn't let her disappear...
He hugged her too tightly, which made Lin Xiangwan feel very uncomfortable. In order to prevent herself from being strangled to death, she struggled away, stretched out her arms, and patted the man's generous back, "Oh, don't be like this.
It’s as if I’m going to die now. Aren’t there still two years left, just in case a miracle happens.”
Although they all know that the reason why a miracle is called a miracle means that it will never happen.
However, after Lin Xiangwan's interruption, Xu Yunqi knew that he had lost his composure. So he loosened his arm and did not really let go of her, but helped her up.
Lin Xiangwan had been lying in his arms for a long time, and her body was sore, so she massaged the major acupuncture points on her body while chatting with Xu Yunqi about how she looked when she first got sick. Suddenly something flashed in Lin's mind.
Xiang Wan asked anxiously, "By the way, when I was sick just now... was there anyone near me?"
"What do you mean?" Thinking of what the man had said to him, Xu Yunqi became more cautious and did not answer the question directly.
Lin Xiangwan lowered his head and thought for a moment, then smiled mockingly, "It's nothing, he can't be here. I'm just overthinking it."
There was a feeling like being burned by fire on her lips, which reminded her of that man involuntarily. Only he would like to kiss, suck and bite in such a bad way, causing her pain and making him happy.
But he would never appear in this place, because if he were here and caught her, he would never let her go easily.
It might kill her, maybe.
He must be very sick. Not only is his heart diseased, but his head is also damaged.
It's just that such a familiar feeling is really upsetting. He pushed away Xu Yunqi's assisting arm, and Lin Xiangwan groped the wall alone, passed through the dark corridor, and walked outside the boxing ring.
At the beginning of the night, the city is like an empty playground. A few people are laughing, but no one is complaining.
The flying snow flakes are like pear petals scattered in the wind. They are white and cold, with a refreshing and refreshing taste. It has snowed for two days and has accumulated a thick layer. All the unbearable and ugly things have been covered by it.
This layer of snow was completely covered, and the ground seemed to be covered with a white quilt, so clean that it gave rise to a desire to destroy.
Lin Xiangwan grabbed a handful of snow from the ground and smeared it on his lips with such force, as if he didn't know it hurt.
"Who is that person?" Xu Yunqi looked at her hand. He thought that even if he died one day, he would definitely remember this scene.
In this silent night, this woman's fingers were red from the snow, and her joints were even more so. Her lips were also red, as red as blood. Her long, ink-colored hair was scattered on both sides of her pale cheeks.
On the side, she stood in the snow, smiling slightly at him. His coat was blown up by the wind, and his long sleeves fluttered behind her like wings. But she was breathtakingly beautiful, with an aura of destruction that made people
Never forget.
"He..." Lin Xiangwan raised her face, her eyes were blurred by snowflakes, and snow water slid down the corners of her eyes, as crystal clear as teardrops, "He is my benefactor and my enemy."
Chu Di is said to be a benefactor because if it weren't for him, she wouldn't be Lin Xiangwan today. Perhaps even now, she is still like a fool, being used to death, and only knows how to cry but not fight back.
At this point, she has him to thank.
"Then you want to see him."
Faced with Xu Yunqi's question, Lin Xiangwan didn't answer at first. She walked deeper and deeper into the snow until her calves were trapped by the thick snow and couldn't take another step, then turned around.
She gave him the brightest smile and said, "It's not that I want to see him, but we will definitely meet. This is what we agreed, and he will be waiting for me there."