He can hardly be knocked down by anything. He bleeds and sweats. He can grit his teeth. He has not been loved by his relatives since he was a child. He can force himself to divert his thoughts. When he was a child, he would watch other children in the base happily go home for the New Year. He would remain silent. Hiding in the corner, he comforted himself with an envious face: "It's good to have parents. If you are naughty, you will be beaten by your parents. Look at me, you will not be beaten and scolded by your parents."
He has no home or family, but he regards the people who love him as his family, and the people he loves as his relatives.
However, relatives are relatives, how can you pretend to be this?
He wants to have a home, a place that does not require wealth or luxury, but can bring him warmth.
He didn't, so he longed for it more and more, longed for a home, longed for someone to care for him, someone to love him,
Why should he help Han Zhenbei and the Han family?
He is really that mean, he will risk his life to protect the Han family and protect Han Xiaoyi.
He is too easy to be bribed. He will love whoever loves him and loves him, and will not hesitate to give everything.
When he was an undercover agent in Huaxin City, he didn't need to be like other undercover agents who were afraid to contact his family for fear of exposing his identity and being troubled by his enemies. He had no family, and he didn't even have friends. He could do things wholeheartedly, and he didn't even need to What to hide,
Does he have anything to hide?
Wearing a leather jacket and jeans, deliberately poking a few holes in his pants, and wandering around on the road with a cigarette in his mouth, isn't he just a second-rate person?
He doesn’t know why he wants to live, and he doesn’t know who to live for, who gives him hope, who gives him the motivation to fight, who...
Orphans are pitiful,
Orphans living in a cold-blooded and cold world are even more pitiful,
He still remembered those years in England. Was it bitter and lonely?
Bitter, lonely,
But he felt that it was really not that painful and lonely. He had a companion, Xiao Hei,
He can cook a hot pot with Xiao Hei on the night of New Year's Eve, drink wine and watch the Spring Festival Gala, and just listen to the host wishing overseas compatriots in foreign countries a happy New Year, and he can grin.
The host is congratulating himself,
No matter what, someone finally said Happy New Year to me, even if it was through the TV.
His life was not happy, but he always lived bravely,
He once imagined that his parents were doctors, lawyers, teachers, or workers. Maybe they had an accident, so they abandoned him, or they accidentally lost him. Even now, they are still working hard. Looking for myself, hoping to find the child I lost back then and give myself the warmest embrace.
He even thought that his parents were dead and had left this world.
Even if it is such a result, he feels that he can accept it, even if it will be painful and difficult to accept,
But why,
Why is this so,
mother is dead,
Father, is a traitor,
Why,,
He can endure the miserable life for more than twenty years. He does not blame his parents.
He can also accept his parents deliberately abandoning him. He will be resentful, but only resentful.
He can even accept the fact that his parents are dead,
But why, why is it like this?
My mother passed away and my father was a traitor,
God, have I really offended you? Why are you doing this to me...
Lin Ze covered his equally rough face with his rough hands, his shoulders shaking violently. Even though he tried his best to hold it back, tears still poured out from between his fingers.
He hates corrupt officials and those powerful people who don't treat people as human beings, but he loves this land. He is a Chinese citizen and he loves the country deeply. In his life, while enduring a miserable life experience, he has been working for This land is dedicated silently. If one day, the country needs him, he will shed blood and sacrifice without hesitation.
But why, why is my father a traitor?
Uncle Li looked at Lin Ze sadly. In terms of seniority, he wanted to call his son "nephew".
His life is really too hard,
If Lin Ze cried and made a fuss, Uncle Li would think that although the child was unacceptable, he was still normal.
But he didn't cry loudly, he just cried silently and helplessly,
Maybe, over the years, he has gotten used to it, used to bearing it alone, used to swallowing all the bitterness and tears in his stomach,
The corners of Uncle Li's eyes were a little sour. After a long time, he picked up the cigarette case that Lin Ze put on the coffee table, lit it, sat next to Lin Ze, gently hugged his not generous shoulders, and said softly: "My child, he is someone He may be a traitor in the eyes of some people, but in my heart, he will always be a hero."
"Treason is treason."
Lin Ze suddenly went crazy, pushed Uncle Li away, stood up and yelled: "What a bullshit hero, treason is treason."
"Tell me where he is, I'll kill him with one shot." Lin Ze roared,
"Presumptuous." Uncle Li stood up suddenly and shouted, "What qualifications do you have to kill him?"
"Just because I didn't commit treason or do anything to disgrace the country." Lin Ze argued,
"He did it." Uncle Li was also furious and said angrily, "You don't even know who your father is, and you want to kill him. Yes, he is sorry for you. Not only did he not give you care, but he also indirectly made you His mother died of depression, but everything he did was also for the country."
"Treason," Uncle Li sneered loudly, "Nonsense, without him as a traitor, those guys who only know how to fight for power and profit would be able to live a stable life today."
Hearing this, Lin Ze suddenly felt like a deflated rubber ball, completely stunned.
Sitting softly on the sofa, in addition to despair, there was a life-saving hope in his heart, and he murmured: "You are saying that my father's identity as a traitor was imposed on me by others."
"In terms of behavior, he is indeed suspected of treason, but in terms of purpose and motivation, he is a hero who sacrificed his ego and a national hero." Uncle Li said in a low voice. Obviously, he was not too dissatisfied with Lin Ze's behavior of slandering his comrades. satisfy,
"Then..." Lin Ze's throat felt dry and he said hoarsely, "What kind of person is he?"
"He is an outstanding soldier who, even though he lives in peacetime, is no less good than his predecessors in wartime."
Lin Ze was stunned, waiting for Uncle Li's next words.
Seeing that Lin Ze's mood had calmed down, Uncle Li sighed softly, sat down again, and asked softly: "Do you know what your mother said when she passed away?"
"What, what." Lin Ze asked hesitantly,
"She said, I don't blame him, I really don't blame him. I just hope that our children will not learn from him or be like him. He is too suffering and wronged." Uncle Li said, but his eyes were complicated. Looking at Lin Ze, she thought to herself, "Hua Qian, did you know that your child is just like your husband? They are so similar. Maybe this means that the father has no son."
"What about his people?" Lin Ze's heart felt like lead had been poured into it, heavy and depressed.
What will happen to a soldier who is defined as treason?
Lin Ze knows better than anyone else, but judging from Uncle Li's words, maybe some people think he is treason, while others think he is still an excellent soldier.
So, where is he now, alive or dead?
"I don't know." Uncle Li shook his head slightly and murmured, "For some special reasons, he refused to return to the country because he knew too many national secrets. His disobedience not only alarmed the military, but also the country. , issued three orders in a row, but he still disobeyed. At that time, even me and his closest comrades-in-arms thought that he might have really betrayed. But later, he came back, alone. I didn't explain anything, I just accepted the punishment and was dismissed from all positions. At that time, I had no ability to intercede for him or speak for him. I thought he would definitely die, but I didn't expect that he didn't die. At least, Before I knew the reasons why he did not return to China and why he stayed abroad, I was certain that he would go to a military court and be executed."
"But no. Later I learned that there was a dispute among the top brass over the sentencing of your father. Some people wanted him to die, while others tried to protect him. Therefore, he was not executed for the punishment that was a state secret. But Therefore, he has also lost his whereabouts. No one knows where he is, and it is impossible for me to find out the whereabouts of your father from the few remaining people who know." Uncle Li sighed,
"You mean, maybe he just disappeared and was not executed." Lin Ze's heart almost jumped into his throat,
"That's right." Uncle Li said forcefully, "If he dies, then the sky will be blind."
