Zhao Xiaofan really didn't know how to answer his words, so she had to pick up the beer on the table and drink it in one gulp. She felt quite depressed. She had originally thought about having dinner with Gao Zijian in a few days, but when she saw him like this, she felt
It's quite unpleasant.
Gao Zijian said self-deprecatingly, "I feel like I'm really useless. Ever since I was a child, I've accomplished nothing. When I was in school, I wandered around. I thought I was cool and awesome. Don't you know I'm just an idiot?"
, after graduating from high school, people are either going to college or joining the army, but what about me? I don’t do any damn shit. I can only fool around on the Internet every day. Now I finally found a job, but it’s just a job.
A good-for-nothing wage earner, I used to think that I was a nobody, but after I entered the society, I realized that let alone a fucking character, it’s good that I can be considered a person now.”
Zhao Xiaofan looked at him and said seriously, "Zijian, tell me if there is any problem between you and her." Zhao Xiaofan was talking about Xia Xinran, but she didn't like to be called by Xia Xinran's name, let alone
He likes to say that she is his girlfriend, so Zhao Xiaofan always calls her "she".
Gao Zijian smiled bitterly, shook his head gently, and said nothing. He was so confused that his heartbeat was unstable.
Zhao Xiaofan put his arms around his shoulders and said, "Zijian, you can't lie to me. I know that it's something between you that makes you so sad. Tell me what happened."
Gao Zijian looked at her. Every time he saw her, his heart was always in chaos, but this time, he was very calm. There was no such turmoil as in the past. He thought about it and finally decided to tell her, hold it in
Feeling really uncomfortable in his heart, he simply told Zhao Xiaofan everything that happened at Jiang University, but he did not mention Wang Hao's name.
After hearing this, Zhao Xiaofan said, "Have you ever thought that maybe that person is right? How long can the relationship between you two last if this continues? Don't you feel that you are both tired?"
Ever since Xia Xinran started studying at Jiang University, Zhao Xiaofan felt that their relationship would have problems sooner or later. However, she did not expect that things would develop so fast and become like this in just one year.
Yes, the distance may be getting farther and farther away little by little.
Gao Zijian took out a cigarette and lit it. After taking a few puffs, he said, "Fuck, why do you all say such things? Do you even look down on me? Am I that pathetic? Do you think that among you rich people?
In the eyes of others, am I not even qualified to love?" Gao Zijian was a little angry, and his tone of voice was a little strong.
Zhao Xiaofan also said loudly, "Gao Zijian, it's not that others look down on you, it's you who looks down on yourself. If you are really a man, then you have to act like a man. What kind of hero are you hiding here and drinking? Do you really think you are?
Are you a love saint? Even if you drink yourself to death, she won’t know, so what’s the point of doing this? Is she the only woman in the world worthy of your love? How can you give yourself and others a chance?
Let me ask you, then who am I in front of you? In the middle of the night, I almost traveled all over Fuyang City to find you, but when you arrived, you actually said such things to me. Have you ever
After thinking about my feelings, you have really disappointed me. I can’t bear even a small setback. It’s a shame that I thought so highly of you in the first place.”
Zhao Xiaofan yelled a lot of words in one breath. Gao Zijian was stunned by her shouting. This was the first time he saw her like this since he knew Zhao Xiaofan. Then he suddenly burst out laughing and said, "Haha, Xiaofan,
It seems like this is the first time you’ve been so angry since I’ve known you?”
Zhao Xiaofan glared at him and said, "You have the nerve to laugh? I really admire you. It was rainy just now, but it turned sunny so quickly. Should I say you are generous, or should I say you are heartless?"
"After saying this, Zhao Xiaofan also laughed out of anger.
Gao Zijian turned his face and said, "I feel quite happy to be hurt by you like this. If you didn't scold me, I would really be a little confused." People are like this sometimes, they are always on their own.
Make yourself unhappy.
Zhao Xiaofan patted him on the shoulder and said, "Zijian, don't think so much, just try your best to be yourself. Who can predict what will happen in the future? Don't you think so?"
Gao Zijian smiled and nodded and said, "That makes sense. Don't worry, I will do it. Xiaofan, thank you very much today."
Zhao Xiaofan pretended to be unhappy and said, "Didn't you say that there is no need to express gratitude between us, so I will not accept your thanks." Zhao Xiaofan is really a very good girl. If Gao Zijian could have met her earlier, maybe
She will be the one who falls in love, maybe it's not too late, but now Gao Zijian has no capital for love at all. What he needs now is a way, a way to success. There are some things he must let go of.
Gao Zijian sent Zhao Xiaofan downstairs. Zhao Xiaofan put his arms around his neck and said softly, "Do you still remember what I told you before?"
Gao Zijian said a little embarrassedly, "You have said a lot, which sentence is it?"
Zhao Xiaofan let go of him, looked at him with a smile and said, "I said, if one day she doesn't love you anymore, I will take you back." What Zhao Xiaofan said was very firm, as if she was sure of it.
Gao Zijian smiled and said, "Well, of course I know, well, it's too late to go back." If this were the past, he would definitely say that this is impossible, but now Gao Zijian, facing this
In a multi-faceted society, he no longer had the confidence he had before.
After Zhao Xiaofan left, his eyes dimmed again. Everything just now was just his disguise. Once upon a time, he also needed to wear a mask to be a human being. Gao Zijian thought that he was ridiculous, just like a clown.
Although he is very sad inside, he still pretends to be strong. He wants to break through this restraint. He doesn't want to be looked down upon by others anymore. Zhao Xiaofan is right, this little setback is nothing.
His high key is not easily defeated...
The annual selection date for the top soldiers competition has arrived. Shi Bing and Ma Hui have put in a lot of sweat and hard work for this day. More importantly, the two of them decided to teach Lu Hai a thorough lesson on this day.
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There are many competition events for the vanguard company, including a 400-meter obstacle course, a 400-meter run, an empty run of 100 meters, and a turn into the obstacle area. The obstacle area turns back and forth for 200 meters, in order: five consecutive piles, wide trench, low board,
High bench, single-plank bridge, high plank, barbed wire, then turn, jump over the barbed wire fence, then high plank, drill the bridge hole, go up the high platform, drill the low plank hole, go down the pit, connect three piles, finally turn again, and run back to the starting point on empty.