There is an unforgettable feeling of guilt and the pain of breaking bones, and she has this pain every two months to now every two weeks. After each chemotherapy, she is almost dying, but looking at him, she still feels
A smile, a weak and pale smile, but that kind of smile made his heart twitch with uncontrollable pain, as if she would weakly drift away at any time!
This was not what he wanted to see, nor did he want it, but the feeling of powerlessness made him hate himself so much!
"I want to eat sweet-scented osmanthus porridge, can you go out and buy it for me?" She took his hand and put it on her cheek, feeling the warmth and slight trembling in his palm. She closed her eyes and smiled with satisfaction: "Okay.
Warm!" The chemotherapy that was to come was very painful. She didn't want him here because she was afraid of seeing his extremely painful eyes. Since it was painful no matter what, why not let her bear it alone? She would rather
He couldn't see her heartbreaking pain, so he wouldn't feel the pain!
Sometimes he really hated her for being considerate! He knew that she didn't want him to see her doing chemotherapy, so she deliberately pushed him away. "Okay" he agreed without any hesitation, but God knew, his heart was already filled with doubts.
Turn a thousand times.
Du Yuochen left soon after, and Xia Qingge was taken to the medical room by the doctor. She knew all these doctors, so she nodded slightly and smiled with them. However, not long after the chemotherapy started, she couldn't laugh anymore, and she fell into a deep depression.
She was caught in a huge vortex of pain, and her whole body ached. Even though she tried her best to endure it, the heartbreaking pain still made her cry out in pain: "It hurts, it hurts!" She closed her eyes,
With tears hanging from the corners of his eyes, he cried.
Du Yuechen's big hands were shaking when he just entered the door. The fragrant osmanthus porridge was sprinkled on the floor. Without saying a word, he immediately stepped forward. At this moment, the doctor walked out of the medical room and bumped into Du Yuechen.
A positive one.
Everyone could tell that this man, as cold as a ghost, felt sorry for his wife, to the core of his heart.
"How is she?" He just wanted to know her current condition. He heard her painful screams as soon as he entered the door. He even wanted to die. At this time, he really hated himself. Why was he so busy?
Can't help? She's in so much pain but he can't do anything. It's in vain. Du Yuechen thinks he is so proud and omnipotent that he can't even protect the woman he loves. What kind of man is he?
After the doctor finished speaking, he couldn't wait to open the door of the medical room and strode in. He saw Xia Qingge lying on the bed dying of breath. He walked forward and stopped at the head of her bed. He had just finished chemotherapy.
Xia Qingge looked extremely tired, his little face had no color at all, and it was so pale that it made people feel distressed!
The few nurses who were taking care of Xia Qingge retreated knowingly when they saw Du Caochen coming in.
He walked over cautiously and sat gently beside her bed. The room became quiet. He looked at her closed eyes, and his deep eyes flashed with all kinds of love and heartache. He stretched out his big hand and touched her forehead tenderly.
A strand of hair brushed against his ear, but who knew that Xia Qingge slowly opened his eyes because of this gentle move.
"Xia Qingge..." Du Jiaochen called softly, then gently took her little hand and put it to her lips, repeatedly kissing her tenderly. Xia Qingge gently raised her hand towards him.
A slightly weak smile: "You're back, are you driving fast again?" Her slightly coquettish and reproachful tone made Du Jiaochen even more uncomfortable. How could she still think about whether he was driving after how long it had been?
Express train, can't she think about herself? Even if he drives the car like a train, nothing will happen, but she is different!
Du Liaochen sat down behind her: "Lean on me!" In this way, she could rely on his chest with all her strength. Du Liaochen suddenly felt that her world was enriched, and under his
In the past thirty years, he has met the woman he loves most. With her, he feels that he already owns the whole world. His big hand is tighter, Xia Qingge!
Xia Qingge rested her head on his heart, looked at his resolute but tender side face and said affectionately: "Chen, let's go to the house on the beach again, I like it there so much."
Du Qiaochen kissed her forehead passionately, and then kissed her bloodless lips affectionately. During the gap, he said, "Okay, let's go, but we have to wait until your health gets better." Doctor.
He said that she couldn't be too tired now, let alone the fatigue of the journey. It would take at least one and a half to two hours from here to the house on the beach. He didn't have any capital to risk her body, and he didn't want to take any risk.
He couldn't let her make any mistakes!
"Then you can't lie to me. When I get better, you have to take me there. I want to eat more and take good care of myself. How can you refuse to pay?" Her child-like tone made her even more upset.
He was heartbroken. He didn't say anything. He kissed her lips deeply and didn't want to leave her for a long time. He was afraid, really afraid. He had already experienced the pain of losing her in the past two years!
In the dead of night, two bodies were leaning against each other on the bed. It wasn't until he heard the even and gentle breath coming from his arms that Du Jiaochen slowly opened his eyes. His deep eyes opened wide in the darkness, and his deep eyes opened for a moment.
Immediately, he locked onto Xia Qingge's charming face in the darkness. He stood up gently and turned away, the pain deeply crawling on his handsome face.
He sat down on the bedside with a haggard look on his face, with his back to Xiaqingge. He picked up the lighter next to him with a familiarity, and lit it for himself gracefully. In the flickering light of the fire, he smoked the cigarette in his hand blankly, with a look on his face.
All the sorrow of sighing!
Just when he put out his first cigarette and stretched out his hand to get another one, a pair of weak, boneless hands hugged him tightly from behind. His body trembled, as if someone had discovered him.
As if telling someone a secret, his body stiffened for a moment.
Let those little hands hold her, feeling her face against his back, and his back was wet and hot, burning his back, his heart, his limbs, and all the nerves in his body!
"You promised, you said you would take good care of yourself!" There was an uncontrollable cry in her voice, and she choked like a carefree child. He promised her that he would not harm his body because of her.
, even if she is gone, he still has to take good care of himself. But he clearly lied to her. Not only did he not take good care of his body, but he secretly smoked so many cigarettes when she couldn't see him. How could he
Perfunctory her?
She doesn't want him to be like this, she doesn't want him to hurt her body, she wants him to live well, even if one day she is gone!
He didn't speak, didn't speak, didn't even move, he remained in the position of being hugged by her from behind, and didn't move for a long time!
"Du Yuochen, you can't do this, you can't hurt your body. You promised me that you wouldn't smoke so many cigarettes or drink without restraint. Have you forgotten? You promised me
It's mine. I want to see you live well and live well, even if I'm not by your side! Maybe you will fall in love with another beautiful and kind-hearted woman in the future, and you will love me as desperately as you love me now.
Her! And when I see you love someone so seriously and so hard, I am satisfied when I see your happiness! Do you know how reluctant I am to leave you!" She loves him,
But how uncomfortable she felt when she thought that soon, she might lie in the cold darkness and never see him again!
As soon as these words came to the ground, a cold breath began to condense in the air. The tenderness in Du Chaochen's eyes receded and his face turned dark. The next second, Xia Qingge felt a strong masculine breath wrapping around herself, making her heart almost break.
He wanted to jump out of his chest. He turned over and hugged her soft body with his backhand. He touched her face and found that her face was wet with her eyes closed.
"How can I be fine without you? Do you remember that when I found you, you also promised me that you would accompany me for the rest of my life. Have you forgotten? How can I be happy without you, so you
You must get better. Do you know that if you... left... left me that day, I would try my best to hurt my body. I would not eat well, smoke a lot of cigarettes, and drink a bottle.
A bottle of wine, so... can you get better? Are you getting better, okay?"
Xia Qingge's tears suddenly burst out, and big tears fell on the palm of his hand, "Du Jiaochen!" She choked out: "Stop talking, if I knew it would be like this, I would rather
You should never find me, so... you won't be so sad, and I won't watch you being sad for me!" She just held Du Yuochen's hand tighter.
arm.
Why treat her like this? When she is already within reach of happiness, push her into a hell of eternal damnation! You must know that you will never feel the pain of loss if you never get it. The most painful thing is to feel it.
The taste of happiness is felt, but the next second, it is lost again! This is the most painful and unbearable thing.
"If you don't cry, it's my fault. It's my fault. I made you cry. But I have never been like this before. It feels difficult to even breathe, because I don't know that in that second, you will suddenly leave me."
But go, I'm scared, so scared, really scared! Don't leave me, okay? Don't leave, okay?" Like a stubborn child, he begged her to agree over and over again!
His long fingers caressed her cheek tremblingly: "Don't leave, don't!" His tongue lingered with hers, her breathing was disordered, shallow and rapid, and a pair of small hands unconsciously tightened on his neck.
They haven't been this close for a long time. Her body is weak, and usually he is worried about whether her body can bear it. But today, he doesn't want to endure it anymore... He wants her!
After receiving her response, his kiss became closer and more passionate, falling on the tip of her nose, lips, beautiful neck, and delicate collarbone downwards and downwards... His kisses seemed to be magical, and so were his movements.
With unusual caution, Xia Qingge had already melted into a pool of clear water in his arms. When the love was strong, he told her his love for her over and over again in her ears!
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