Part Four, Chapter 45: Returning to that Christmas Eve, only changed
Sometimes, people will never understand the pain they feel when you tell the person who loves you that you love someone else...
At this moment, my heart aches so much, not for myself, but for Yun Junche.
But sometimes, I think it's better to face it than to lie.
Maybe, he is just in pain now, but if he doesn't say something, he will be in pain for the rest of his life...
Gradually, Yun Junche loosened his arms tightly around me.
I feel that the heat behind my back is gradually receding, and my heart starts to tremble inexplicably...
I was afraid that he would leave me like this and give up on me completely. It was not until this moment that I felt that my feelings for him had already given birth to the bud of love...
Slowly turning my head, looking at his indifferent expression, I felt as if I was getting further and further away from him...
It seems like I want to catch him, but I can't.
"Mengmeng..." After a long silence, he finally spoke. The lingering look in his eyes made me feel strongly uneasy.
It can be felt that he seems to be struggling fiercely in his heart: "Maybe I shouldn't force you, maybe I shouldn't rush to find the answer, but I still want to know, do you love me now? Or like me?
?Even just a little bit..."
"like."
"No..." He shook his head in pain and grabbed my shoulders with both hands: "I'm talking about love, not friendship!"
"My answer to you is love."
Perhaps, my current expression is a little cold and stiff, which makes him feel unreal or hypocritical.
When I told him for sure, his reaction was different from what I expected.
It seemed that he was dissatisfied and irritable: "No, Mengmeng..." Suddenly, he froze on the spot as if his acupuncture points were tapped.
"Che? Are you okay??" I shook his body in panic.
Gradually, he is gradually relaxing and melting...
The irritated expression suddenly turned into surprise: "What did you just say???"
"Toru, are you okay?"
"It's not this sentence, it's the previous sentence!!!"
"I..." hesitated for a moment, his eyes wandering left and right...
Ah……
Ah……
It turns out that the reason why his reaction was different from what I expected was because he didn't react at the time?!
She smiled helplessly and hugged him excitedly: "When I told you that I still liked Yin, I was so scared and even regretted telling you the truth. So, now I can be sure that I like you! I like you,
thorough……"
He was completely stiff and motionless again, and it seemed that I was the only one who was very excited.
Then, not long after, his drooping hands suddenly hugged me tightly: "Mengmeng, I've been waiting for your words for too long..."
You can't see his expression, let alone guess his heart.
However, just listening to his voice, I could feel that he seemed to be crying, because his voice was very choked!
yes……
He really waited too long, too long...
About a year and a half ago, he said he loved me, but I rejected him.
A year and a half later, I officially fell in love with him.
How did he get here during this period? Perhaps only he himself knows?
Just imagine, looking at the person you like and being intimate with your friends every day, he can still insist on loving me. To be honest, I admire him!
If it were me, I might have left a long time ago, or even chosen someone else.
And he just insists and endures, but...
I want to tell him...
"Che, your suffering for the past one and a half years has not been in vain. I will accompany you for the rest of your life in the future, unless you want it."
Suddenly, he pushed me away and nodded seriously and excitedly: "Yes, of course I want it! Remember to keep your word?!"
My heart tightened and I looked at him in surprise: "Then you..."
"If you don't love me and only love Yin, I will be very jealous, angry, and very painful. If you love both me and Yin, I will be very concerned about it, but..." With a slight smile, he gave it another try
He held me in his arms: "This only proves that I am useless and cannot win against Yin! Of course, I will not force you to let him go. I know this is impossible, because I can't forget him, and the child's
He is also my biological father. In the future, I will work hard to make you love me more than you love Yin, so I will be satisfied!"
"..."
"..."
silence……
silence……
"Wow..." I burst into tears.
"Mengmeng, what's wrong with you??" He looked at me nervously. I didn't say anything, I just cried and kept crying, like a child.
It’s not easy to have a close friend in life, and it’s even more difficult to have such a good man!
Now, what touches me about Yun Junche is not because Yin is no longer there, nor is it because I am empty and lonely, but because he himself!
I really don't know now whether I should be glad that Yin is gone or scold myself for being so carefree.
I'm afraid that if Yin were alive, sooner or later I would fall in love with these two men at the same time...
I feel that I am really happy now, so happy...
"Thank you... you... Che..." The sound of sobbing prevented me from saying a complete sentence, and the sound came out intermittently. I forced a smile, but tears had already wet my cheeks.
He shook his head and showed a faint smile: "Don't thank me, I just want you to love me!" After that, he hugged me tightly, and his passionate lips were attached to mine.
This kiss seemed to suffocate me, and my mind went blank.
Although this was not my first kiss, let alone my second or third kiss, I still felt that this kiss was something I had never experienced in my life.
Even Han Luoyin never gave it to me...
It was too intense, too sweet, and the whole person seemed to fly into the sky, and his mind went blank.
I feel like I'm about to melt into this kiss...
Why is this?
Why do you feel this way?
It's obviously not the first time we kissed, let alone the first time I kissed Yun Junche, so why can't my mind and heart express my intoxication with this kiss in words???
* * * *
"Mengmeng, why don't we get married?"
Under the dark night sky, Yun Junche and I walked hand in hand on the quiet street.
Just now, the sky was filled with snowflakes, and within a short time, the entire earth was covered with a layer of white gauze.
Looking at the way the passers-by were shivering with cold, I felt so warm and hot.
Haha, I didn’t expect that a year ago I was holding another man’s hand, and a year later it was another man.
But……
what else can we do?
The silver is gone and turned into meteors in the sky, and he will remain in my heart forever.
As for the man next to me?
He turned around, showed a smirk to Yun Junche, shook off his hand, and ran quickly: "I'll think about it and give you an answer after I turn 18!"
"Isn't that in one hour?"
"Uh??? Maybe..." I stuck out my tongue at him, and I quickly ran towards home.
And he followed me closely, with a happy smile...
Haha, the man next to me will always be by my side...