During the meal, Teng Jinsi served her food. When he saw something on her mouth, he lovingly stretched out his hand to wipe it off for her. He gently swiped the pad of his thumb across her lips and looked at her.
With the smile on her face, Teng Jinsi felt that he had never been so satisfied.
A child on the side tilted his head and looked at Teng Jinsi, and then said tenderly to his mother, "Mommy, that handsome uncle over there treats that aunt well. I will also find a boyfriend like this in the future."
When Mu Yuzhen heard this, a sweet smile spread on her lips.
After the meal, he held her hand and walked along the beach, stepping on the soft sand with his feet, leaving traces of their journey along the way...
Seeing that she was tired, he bent down and carried her on his back. Mu Yuzhen lay on his shoulder and listened to him telling many interesting things.
There was always a slight smile on her lips, but there was always a bit of sadness in the smile, and there were always sparkling tears in her eyes...
After thinking about it, I thought about...
She couldn't help but hugged his neck tightly and asked softly and feebly, "Can I ask you a question?"
"Um?"
"If Xia Qingtian and I fell into the sea together, who would you save first?"
She asked softly, but she clearly felt his stunned reaction. Then his silence made her heart feel bitter. Before he could speak, she forced a smile and said, "I'm just asking casually, can you?"
answer."
He still didn't speak, and only his heavy footsteps could be heard in the dark night.
Mu Yuzhen knew that she shouldn't ask. It was the greatest happiness in her life that he could do this for her, but after all, women are petty and selfish when it comes to love.
She would rather he lie to her than silently acquiesce to the answer in her heart.
Lying on his back, she tried her best to keep her voice from sounding unhappy, "Let's go back, okay? I'm a little tired."
He turned his head and looked at her, "Are you tired? Do you feel uncomfortable?"
"No, I'm just a little tired."
She smiles and makes herself look good.
But Teng Jinsi couldn't help but frown, feeling a little uneasy for some reason. He didn't know where this uneasiness came from.
When he carried her back, he found that she had fallen asleep. He put her on the bed and lay next to her, looking at her tired face. Teng Jinsi reached out and gently rubbed her thin face.
Thinking of her question, he fell into deep thought.
He had loved Sunny Day before, and it was undeniable that it was indeed the first time his heart moved...
But not all heartbeats can be perfect.
As for this woman, her feelings for him have not changed after so many years, and his feelings for her are also changing subtly, deepening unknowingly...
Love her?
He thought he just liked it.
I feel sorry for her, I like her, and I want to cherish her.
It took him a long time to fall asleep, maybe because he was a little tired. Teng Jinsi slept very hard. When he woke up the next day, it was already noon. When he touched his hand to the side, it was empty!
He sat up suddenly and looked around, "Yu Zhen?"
"Yu Zhen??"
He lifted the quilt and rushed to the bathroom and balcony, but she was nowhere to be seen!!
Her heart panicked immediately. She couldn't see, where could she go?
Teng Jinsi didn't care about his own image, rushed out the door and grabbed the waiter who passed by to ask, but the other person looked at him in shock and confusion.
Not in the hotel! Not around the resort!!
He called back, but there was no one there. There was no one for her anywhere...
His world seemed to have stopped at that moment. Teng Jinsi looked around at the unfamiliar faces. No matter how far he looked, he could not see her figure...
His chest seemed to be blocked by something, his throat was stuck, and he couldn't make a sound. Every time he took a breath, his heart ached...
When I returned to the hotel, I found a note on the bedside table.
He immediately picked it up and read:
"Don't look for me, never look for me, let me leave quietly. I don't want to see you when I leave this world. Then I will be even more painful and reluctant to leave...
I know that the reason why you said you like me is because of my illness. I already know it. Jinsi, I don’t want your charity love. Please forgive me for leaving without saying goodbye. Please forgive me for not being able to take good care of Niuniu.
You must promise me that no matter what happens in the future, please treat Niuniu well...don't tell her about me for the time being, I'm afraid she won't be able to bear it, she is still so young.
Before I leave, I will still think stupidly, Teng Jinsi, if I die, can I win over Xia Qingtian in your heart? Do you think I can? "
The sun was dazzling and fell on him. Teng Jinsi felt his legs weaken. He sat on the sofa and only remembered this sentence in his mind: If I die, can I win over Xia Qingtian's weight in your heart?
Thinking of these words, his chest hurt so much, the pain was so suppressed that every cell in his body was crying.
she left……
She was already so ill. If she left him at this time, she would choose to die and give up treatment...
Thinking of this result and her last words, Teng Jinsi felt that the whole world had collapsed, and he pinched the piece of paper tightly with his pale and weak fingers.
She was so cruel, and he would remember her with the pain he would endure throughout his life.
Use a lifetime of missing her to prove that she won!
Let him live forever in the regret and pain of loss and miss.
****
"Do you regret it?"
Li Qibin looked at Mu Yuzhen, who was crying like a tearful person next to him, and asked distressedly.
The bus to the expressway will arrive at the airport soon. It takes an hour and a half to walk along the way. She has been crying since she got on the bus...
She cried so quietly that as long as he didn't look at her, he wouldn't feel it at all.
However, the smell of her tears was in the air, which made his heart feel sour.
Mu Yuzhen shook her head, but couldn't stop her tears. Thinking that she would never see him again in this life, her heart really ached.
She didn't have time to say goodbye to Niu Niu. On the day she went to the resort, she wanted to say goodbye to Niu Niu, but Niu Niu went to piano lessons early that day...
What will her baby girl look like in the future?
How sad would she cry if she knew that mommy was no longer alive and would never be able to come back to her again?
And him, after seeing the note she had written a long time ago, will he look for her...
Thinking of this, she felt like she couldn't hold on any longer.
Why did God play such a joke on her?
If it was just an eye problem, she could still stay by his side, but when she heard his conversation with the doctor in the study that morning, Mu Yuzhen was completely stunned.
She never thought that one day, she would no longer be able to breathe...
One day, she will really leave this world.
She finally understood why he was so afraid of her sleeping, and understood that in those days she often felt very tired and lost consciousness as soon as she closed her eyes, which was a symptom of her worsening condition...
Scared, it was the first time that she felt that death was so close to her, so close that she could feel that it was right beside her.
She was even more afraid of staying by their side and letting them watch her die...
She was afraid that she would resent the cruelty of God, and she was reluctant to hold on to her last breath...
She didn't have the courage to hear her daughter's cry. She would rather leave a thought to her and let Niu Niu know that as long as she is happy, mommy will come back one day...
She wanted to go to the snowy mountains and go with him so that she would have no regrets in her life, but in the end she failed.
Tears fell silently, and she said in a hoarse voice, "Do me one last favor. After I die, bring me back here..."