When I entered, everyone had almost dispersed, and there was only one cake left to be cut. As soon as I entered, I was dragged by several people to drink. After drinking a few drinks, the cake was cut, and then they just left it like this.
Fighting and making trouble in the street without any scruples.
I pulled Ye Meng and ran aside. I ran for who knows how long or how far, until Ye Meng stopped in confusion and said, "What are you doing?"
I stopped and said, "I have something to tell you."
Ye Meng looked at me and asked: "What are you talking about? Just say it."
"I'm sorry, I was wrong in the past. I hope you can forgive me." I looked at her, under the moonlight and in the dark night, at her hair blowing majestically across her almost transparent cheeks, at her eyes full of
With affectionate fluctuations, I just looked at it like that. I wish that that moment would be eternity, and I wish that time would stop at that moment.
"What do you mean, what are you sorry for?" Ye Meng looked at me in confusion.
I said to her: "Actually, I shouldn't have scolded you that day, but I really love you and I did that because I care about you."
Ye Meng looked at me and said, "I have forgotten what happened in the past. I just want us to be together well and be friends in the future." She said it so firmly and calmly.
I looked at her: "Is there no room for saving? Is it really impossible for us? I love you so much, don't you really know?"
Ye Meng looked at me, tears slowly left in his eyes: "It's too late, it's impossible. Why didn't you say these words before? Do you know how weak you were? At that time
, I really look down on you, I don’t want to have a weak boyfriend like you, we are destined to be friends only, you should treat Feiyun well."
"I don't love her, I have always loved you." At that moment, I just wanted to go crazy. Yes, why didn't I have the courage to confess my love before? Why didn't I seize that opportunity before?
Well, now, could it be...
I wanted to go up and hug her, but I felt that she was so far away from me, not in terms of distance, but in spirit. It was so far that I could not catch her. She said to me: "We really can't."
It's possible, you should be good to yourself in the future."
After saying that, he was about to leave. I stood there, looked at her, and shouted, "Can you tell me why?"
She said without looking back: "I already have someone I like." At that time, I clearly saw her feet stop for a moment, and then she started walking, faster and faster, and she seemed to be crying.
Why does a woman cry? Is she expecting something, or is she waiting for something?
I hurriedly walked to the street, walking through the streets I had walked with her, and walking past the places where we had memories together. It seemed that I wanted to find something, but also seemed to want to remember or capture something. I don’t know what.
When I returned to the dormitory, I felt uncomfortable after thinking about it and couldn't sleep no matter what, so I ran downstairs quickly and picked up a few bottles of wine. I had already drank some just now, but now I still want to drink.
After arriving in the dormitory, I took out a cigarette, lit it, opened a bottle of wine, took out my diary, and thought about the days we spent together with her, the streets we walked, and the fragmented memories.
, thinking of the past that could never have happened before, I started writing:
If we say there is a destiny, why is it so far? Staying alone on an empty pillow, unable to sleep all night long! Why? Raising a glass of wine alone, sighing sadly! If it is said there is no destiny, why? In the lonely mortal world, in the vast sea of people, hundreds of thousands of Bodhisattva sentient beings, I meet you alone.
,acquaintance!
I still remember that day, it was raining, bleak and desolate! In the rain, I met you by chance! Autumn eyes, flower-like face! I was stunned for a moment. From that moment on, do you know? In the dream
It's you, I'm in my heart! Slowly, we got to know each other for some reasons. Finally we got to know each other! Who knew? What was my state of mind at that time? Although it was already deep winter, it was like bathing in spring! At that time, I only had
A wish to build a kingdom for you one by one, just for you!
I fell in love with you, deeply in love, and I couldn't help myself! Maybe, I shouldn't have loved you. In that case, there would be no regrets like "the flowers fell with intention, and the water flowed without intention". In that case, there would be no regrets.
The sorrow of "It is better not to meet, and to be affectionate is to be ruthless". I think: If I had not fallen in love with you, today, we can still talk and laugh happily. But once love arises, it goes deeper. Everything is over.
Once brewed, it is irreversible.
※※※※※※Do you know? In the dead of night, who secretly cries because they miss you! Do you know? Who thinks of you while eating! Do you know? Who changes himself for you! Do you know? When you are cruel
How heartbreaking it is to say no! Maybe this love comes too fast and too suddenly, but I really don’t want to miss you like this. I don’t want to miss you in this time! I’m following your traces in the vast sea of people.
, in the lonely mortal world. In the bleak rain, under the dim lights. On the busy streets, at the crossroads where cars and horses are like dragons. Just to see your smile when you look back, just to see your flowery face.
Today, I came to that familiar yet unfamiliar street again, (familiar because I have walked it often, but unfamiliar because you are not there.) Under the dim light, I wandered around in confusion, looking for your footprints.
It started to rain. The rain was exactly the same as that day. It was so heavy, so unrestrained, elegant and hysterical. I was walking in the rain, alone. Suddenly I shed tears in confusion and slipped to the ground. I was washed away by the rain without any trace.
!
Tears have no trace, you have no trace, that flower-like face, the smile looking back. Slowly faded and blurred, with the desolate rain. The rain stopped, I smiled, that was a real smile, relieved
With a smile, he gently took out the lighter, lit a cigarette, smoked hard, flicked the cigarette butt into the night sky after the rain, and let it disappear quietly. He silently recited this sentence in his heart:
"It is better to forget each other in the rivers and lakes than to be in love with each other."
Who is crying secretly in the dead of night? Who is always waking up in nightmares? Who is always unwilling to forget the past? Who is always hoping that time can go back? Who is always unwilling to let go of those who are already there?
Memories that shouldn’t be there? Who is waiting impatiently despite knowing that it is impossible? Who is always waiting like a child who will never grow up?
Do you know, whose heart is broken when you walk away cruelly? Do you know, when you firmly say "no", what kind of heart-breaking feeling is it? Do you know, who is missing you deeply this night?
Looking after you? Do you know how much I wish there was a person who could give you all the happiness?
※※※※※※When I woke up, everything seemed not as unbearable as I imagined. Am I really used to it? I still went to class as always, and read books as always,
When I have fun, I still play as always, but the beautiful image in my heart can never be forgotten no matter what. The emotions hidden in my heart may be slowly buried as time changes.
But it is impossible to forget that that feeling is endless. Maybe, when we meet in a certain place after a certain year and a certain month, we will look at each other and smile? Maybe, on both sides,
Holding hands with the person who can be with you for a lifetime, when you pass each other, you will also reach out and say hello, right?
Or maybe, many years later, when you think of each other, you will smile knowingly? But, who knows? After many years, will you really remember each other? Ye Meng, when you have someone who can accompany you wherever you go.
When you have your own children and relatives, will you still remember a little gangster named Jing Yuxuan who once loved you?
Thinking about this, I feel that I am really ridiculous, so ridiculous that I am a little angry. Maybe many people will be inexplicably angry in that situation. However, after being angry, it is always easy to get into trouble. Who calls us young people?
?Young people always have a lot of patents.
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