When I returned to the dormitory, it was already past 1 o'clock in the evening, but I couldn't fall asleep. I kept thinking about the sentence that life is not so sad. Since life is not so sad, can I get back what I had before? Find
Get back the love I had, the brothers I had, the beauty I had, the joy I once had, whether it’s family, friendship, or love, what can I get back? If I can’t get it back, is it a sad life?
?
Can I start from scratch, whether it is family, friendship, or love? Yes, what is lost cannot be found again, but what we have now, what we have now, we can cherish, and what we don’t have, we can also get rid of.
Increase, I decided that after tomorrow, I will call my dad. After tomorrow, I will go to Huang Lin Benniu and the others. If I have anything to do, I will tell them. After tomorrow, I will start to restore my "great" dreams.
Whether it's for myself or for others, I will definitely be able to go well in the future. That night, I fell asleep with full confidence.
When I got up the next day, I got up very early, feeling the freshness after the summer. Everything was so beautiful and poetic. I ran two laps on the playground and walked towards the school, but I didn't go
Reading, I don’t think reading can make you successful. I want to prove to these teachers that people who don’t study are not useless. I arrived in the classroom and wrote a few big chalk words on the blackboard: "Starting today, class teacher
If you are late, your money will be deducted." After writing it, I said to the people below: "Whoever dares to tell the truth, I will let him look good." Then I walked back to my seat, sat down, and took out a copy of Xi Murong's
I started reading the collection of poems, and when I saw the song "Young Heart", I read it twice, and then sang it out loud:
"What will never look back is no longer the ancient light, nor is it just the stars and moon of those nights."
"Although I still open the window every morning to visit, there is still the fragrance of jasmine every summer."
"But something has been lost. In front of the crowded street, in the hastily falling twilight, my young heart will have the fragrance of jasmine."
"But something has been lost. In front of the crowded street, in the hastily falling twilight, my young heart will never meet again."
That's not crazy, it's completely uncontrollable. Maybe the feeling in my heart is what this poem expresses. I looked at the strange looks from others, but continued to read indifferently. During class, Liangshan Bandit
Strangely, he didn't say anything. After class, I went to the dormitory with Huang Lin and the others. Because these guys said they wanted to move in with me, some of the people in my dormitory told them to get out and moved into the plane.
Huang Lin, Jing Chen Zhi, **, the driver, and two other friends who are both airplanes. In this way, a dormitory was occupied by the few of us.
After moving into the dormitory, I didn’t expect what Brother Hong and the others would think. Only two days later, Brother Hong and the others moved out, rented a house outside, and no longer stayed in the dormitory. I didn’t expect that they would be like this.
I did it, but I still felt a little uncomfortable in my heart. Huang Lin looked at me and said that I was unhappy and said that if I went to drink some wine to wash it down, it would be diluted. I didn’t drink the wine. No matter how much I drank, I still remembered it. At most, it was just a drink.
That moment, but when I woke up everything was still the same.
Maybe I really thought about it, and I know how to let go and let go, so I can bear the pain that I shouldn't bear at all. But, can I really let go, can I really let go? Every day, every morning
When I get up, I always tell myself that there is a new beginning, and I always believe that I can achieve those dreams in my heart that actually make others smile. However, every day, it is still an unchanging process. Perhaps, from beginning to end, everything
What you can't change is just what you think in your heart.
Qiao Qian said that it was his girlfriend’s birthday and they wanted to get together no matter what. Of course I didn’t refuse. I also wanted to drink at that time. That day, after drinking, I didn’t expect that Gu Fei, who had been silent all this time, suddenly arrived.
He also said that he wanted to join us and that he had to talk to me about something. The two of them walked out of the bar carrying a bottle of wine and stood under a tree by the road. I leaned against the tree and took a sip.
Asked: "If you have anything to say, just say it."
Gu Fei looked at me and said: "Do you know how much Feiyun likes you? Before you came, she was not like this now. Do you know that she didn't drink before? But for you, she changed
A lot..."
Before he finished speaking, I smiled and said, "If you come here just to talk about this, then forget it, I don't want to hear it."
I didn't expect that he just grabbed me by the collar and then punched me. I didn't fight back because I really didn't think it was necessary. He then said angrily: "Asshole, why are you with her if you don't love her?"
Together?"
I looked at him, vomited, and said, "That's none of your business. When will you take care of me and her?"
He said: "Okay, then I will chase her now and leave her alone." After that, he left and I was stunned. Who knows my suffering? Why didn't I become what I am now because of her?
What about this look? Who couldn't be because of her? Ye Meng, Ye Meng, what kind of girl are you? Thinking like this, he smiled bitterly and walked slowly towards the hotel. When he walked in, Shao Feiyun happened to be squatting aside.
cry.
Why was this girl crying? Did she hear our conversation just now? I went up and asked, "What's wrong with you? Why are you feeling uncomfortable? Why are you here alone?"
She looked at me, then stood up, wiped her tears, and said, "It turns out that I have never been in your heart. It turns out that it was just my wishful thinking."
"I, no, it's not what you think, I just, just..." I wanted to say something, but found that I couldn't find it.
She looked at me and said: "Actually, I should have known it a long time ago. I should have known it when you fell in love with Ye Meng. We are simply impossible. How could you let her go? But, I really
I really like you. For you, I left Gu Fei. For you, I even betrayed my best friend. For you, I even lied to you. Don’t you feel anything about these?"
What are these? I have indeed never heard of it. It is a fact that she left Gu Fei, but she betrayed her best friend and lied to me. When did she betray Ye Meng? What does it involve to us?
What's more, why did she lie to me? I asked in confusion: "What do you mean, you betrayed Ye Meng and you lied to me?"
Shao Feiyun looked at me and said: "It seems I should make it clear, but please forgive me and my selfishness, it's all because I love you so much."
I just nodded because I was really confused and just wanted to hear her continue.
Shao Feiyun looked at me and said: "Actually, I know that Ye Meng is not that boy's girlfriend at all, it's just that the boy likes her. When Ye Meng said that that day, I knew about you, but I didn't
I told you, and I didn’t tell her. I think if I had told you, maybe you would be together very well, instead of like this now. But, I really want to be with you, and I don’t want to lose you like this.
you......"
I stared at her, feeling that she had changed a lot, as if I had never understood her this way before. What kind of woman is she? She went on to say: "I hope you can forgive me, I really love her so much."
You are."
How could I blame her? Why should I blame her? A girl who loved me so much, but I did that to her. She didn't blame me, but asked me to forgive her. How could I blame her?
I looked at her tear-stained cheek, and it turned out that it was even more touching. Such a woman shouldn't be like this. She should have her own way of getting along. Why did she meet her at that time?
What about this kind of me?
"I forgive you, of course I forgive you, but it's impossible for us to be together, so I can only say I'm sorry." Although I know that sorry is of no use at all, and these three words cannot make up for my debt to her, but I
I might as well say it, maybe if I say it, I will feel better. Maybe this is the only way I think I can make up for myself. After I finished speaking, I said to her: "It's late. Go in, be careful of catching a cold."
Although it's summer, I don't know what else I can say other than this.
She looked at me and said, "Can you hold me again?"
I shook my head and said, "Gu Fei is good." I understand that sometimes, it is always better to be more cruel. When faced with something like love, if you have to cut it off at the last minute, procrastinating it until the end will only harm you.
People harm themselves.
I don't care what her expression is. I'm really afraid that I won't be able to bear to leave after seeing her expression, so I can only lower my head and walk resolutely. I think I want to talk to Ye Meng, no matter what it looks like.
, it is always good to make it clear. Many things always have to be faced by us personally.
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