Mu Shiqin leaned next to me and hugged me tightly.
He said, "Ruoxi, when you feel better, let's go on a trip."
I was stunned, "Why do you suddenly want to travel?"
Mu Shiqin chuckled, "I want to leave our footprints in every corner of the world and pick them up one by one when we grow old."
I laughed, a little heavy. My dear, do you really think we can grow old together? Maybe you can, but the person who will accompany you will definitely not be me... How can I, who is so dirty, deserve to hold hands with you?
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Mu Shiqin touched my head and kissed the top of my hair, "Tell me, where do you want to go? Venice, or Verna? Or Gadamelin?"
I thought about it. In fact, every woman has dreams, and they all have dreams of traveling around the world. I am no exception. Even a bird in a cage still has the sky that she longs for.
So I said with a smile, "I want to go to Dunhuang to see the lonely smoke in the desert, to Lushan Mountain to see the hanging waterfalls, to Tibet to listen to the clear and distant Buddha's voice, to Xiamen to wait for the blue sea and blue sky. I want to go to Sanya to see the sea and the horizon, and to Lhasa to sigh.
Heaven and earth.”
Mu Shiqin smiled fondly and scolded me for being greedy, but he still kissed my eyes and said, "Okay, when your eyes are healed, we will go where we want to go. Even if it is the end of the world, I will definitely be by your side."
I laughed and said no more.
Leaning against his chest, listening to his strong heartbeat is like the music of my life.
How coveted I am at this moment, coveted for his embrace, coveted for his tenderness, coveted for his thoughtful care, coveted for his endless love.
Honey, why do you have to be so nice to me.
Why do you do this to me just when I'm about to leave you?
Your body temperature makes me feel so warm that it makes me afraid of winter without you.
My dear, tell me, what should I do, how can I completely erase you from my heart, even if it makes me incomplete, I am willing to return your love to you.
I'm sorry, it was my filth that tarnished your holy love, it was my decadence that wasted your sincerity.
And now, I never dare to touch you easily, or even accept your love.
Just like now, you are close to me, but I can no longer respond to your enthusiasm.
I am really too dirty, even my soul is dirty gray.
At night, I kept trying to keep my eyes open, hoping that God would be merciful and be able to take one more look at you before I leave you.
Even if it's just a vague profile, I'm willing to use all my strength to remember it.
"Dear, I love you... I'm sorry. Please forgive me..." My departure!
I kissed his lips one last time, trembling a little because I was afraid of soiling his kiss.
In this emotional game of love and hate, I finally chose to quit. It's not that I don't love anymore, but that I love too deeply...
At this moment, all I can do is not to disturb or tarnish his glorious life.
So, my dear, forgive me.
I groped out of bed in the dark. In order not to disturb Mu Shiqin, I didn't wear shoes. I groped out of the room with my bare feet on the wall.
The icy coldness on the floor penetrated the soles of my feet and spread to the bottom of my heart. The darkness at this moment is no longer scary in my eyes. If you have never seen the light, you won't find the darkness scary, what do you think?
The hospital is deserted and lonely at night. Except for the nurses on duty, the wards are empty. Like a huge morgue, the terrifying anger makes people's hair stand on end.