After taking the pajamas that needed to be changed, Ruoxi took off her clothes.
I used to be confused, thinking that as long as I forget that I am a lesbian, I can get rid of my identity. As long as I forget that I was raped, I can be pure and white. But I forgot that dirty is dirty, even if
No matter how you hide it, it's still dirty.
Then dig open these facts bloody and let all the blood from your body flow out.
Just let this filth flow out along with the filthiness I once had. As long as I am clean, I will be worthy of Shiqin.
Ruoxi jumped into the bathroom, felt the cold and biting water, and smiled tremblingly.
She began to rub her body fiercely, wiping her fair skin until it turned bright red. For two hours, Ruoxi kept wiping it.
Shiqin, we can start over again. The tenderness you give warms my heart.
It was you who made me learn to imagine and love, and it was you who gave me a new life.
As long as you are there, as long as there is this trace of warmth, I can accept all the unbearable things.
The insult of youth, the betrayal four years ago, the filthiness of the past, accept it, I want to accept it all.
Tan Yuming said that as long as you accept it, you can face the pain head-on, but why, why is it so tired?
What should I do? What should I do? Ruoxi looked blankly at the white walls, the white bath, the white and almost transparent water, ah!
Why is it all white?
Ruoxi screamed tremblingly, why, why, why is it so painful.
With a bang, the door suddenly opened. Shiqin was wearing a suit and looked at Ruoxi blankly: "What's wrong?"
No matter how painful something is, you can't escape it. Only by facing it bravely, resolving it, and transcending it, will the pain slowly dissolve like salt into water, and finally you will have the taste of happiness.
Ruoxi thought, even if it hurts so much that she can't breathe, she must persevere.
But, it really hurts.
No matter how hard I gritted my teeth and persisted, the pain was so painful that I couldn't breathe.
Ruoxi frowned and screamed tremblingly. She felt as if she was in a rough sea and reached out to grab the wood that could keep her alive. She tried her best and reached out to grab it. The fear of death made her painful.
She screamed, and all her tears seemed to well up at this moment. She struggled so desperately, but the wood she was living on was getting further and further away. No matter how hard she tried, she reached out to scratch desperately, but every time her hand fell
, all splashing with layers of water.
Everything is in vain.
Her voice was completely hoarse and she no longer had the strength to struggle.
She tried so hard, but still couldn't get to the wood. Time passed like this, and fate was so stingy that it didn't even give her the only chance to live.
How could fate be so cruel? When I finally decided to face the pain and walk towards tomorrow with Shiqin, he didn't even give me a chance to breathe.
How cruel do you want to be?
Shi Qin?
Where are you?
I'm so scared. I suddenly can't remember what you look like! Your eyes, nose, lips... Why can't I remember you?
Shiqin! Shiqin!
I'm so scared, really scared!
Didn’t you say that even if the whole world abandoned me, you would not leave me?
Shiqin, where are you?
…
She was really desperate. She used up her last strength and gave out her final cry of despair. Gradually, she finally lost her last trace of strength and was helpless. Everything suddenly dimmed before her eyes.