In the silent night, Gu Nansheng and Akasha cuddled together, there were only two of them in the world.
The cool wind stirred up layers of green waves on the grassland, and the naughty grass tips gently kissed their skin.
Gu Nansheng stroked Akasha's smooth back, but felt a pressure in his heart. The haze of the disaster lingered in his heart, making him feel like he couldn't breathe.
"What are you thinking about?" Akasha noticed that Gu Nansheng had something on his mind.
"Responsibility..." Gu Nansheng squeezed Akasha's hand and slowly said these two words.
"Haha, how many responsibilities do you have on your shoulders?" Akasha misunderstood. Her question made Gu Nansheng a little embarrassed. He was silent for a while and confessed: "I'm sorry, actually I am not a good man."
Akasha was stunned for a moment. He thought Gu Nansheng would vow to say that he loves each of you. She tilted her head and looked at Gu Nansheng, "You said you would do everything you can to make every girl around you happy.
, peaceful, isn’t it?”
Gu Nansheng shook his head and said: "Some things cannot be shared, and some things cannot be compensated. I don't want to give myself any excuses."
Although polygamy is normal in Duota Continent, Gu Nansheng comes from China in the 21st century after all. Subconsciously, he still feels that men and women should be equal in relationships. It is okay for rich and powerful people to have three wives and four concubines, because those women marry
I gave it to him for the sake of his money and power, and it was a fair deal, and no one owed it to anyone.
But Gu Nansheng was different. Although he was very strong, the girl around him liked him without any purpose, which made him feel guilty.
He has been subconsciously avoiding the girls who like him from meeting each other, but he also understands that dragging it out is not the answer. Although those girls know the existence of the other party and have adopted a tacit and indulgent attitude towards him, this does not mean that in their hearts
Don't mind.
Feelings are always selfish and cannot be compensated by extra consideration and care.
Akasha said: "Where are you and Lina?"
Gu Nansheng was silent for a while and said truthfully: "I kissed her."
He did not answer Akasha's question directly, not because he didn't want to answer, but because he couldn't explain clearly.
The reason why Gu Nansheng kissed Lina was very complicated. There was no news from him for three months after he left. Lina suffered too much to find him. Coupled with Se Wen's instructions, Gu Nansheng's heart was in great turmoil. Later, he and Lina
We ate cold shrimp together, and Lina blushed and said, "I still don't know what it feels like to kiss."
Gu Nansheng knew that no matter whether Lina was implying something by saying this, she had mustered up a lot of courage. If she turned a blind eye and pretended to be dumbfounded, it would undoubtedly be a blow to Lina.
So, he kissed Lina out of nowhere, which made their already ambiguous relationship even more ambiguous.
Akasha smiled faintly, "Do you like her?"
Gu Nansheng shook his head, "I can't tell."
Akasha frowned slightly. These three words made her feel uncomfortable. She couldn't figure out why you would kiss someone?
In Akasha's view, a man who is merciless but treats every girl around him can be tolerated, but if he plays with women and deceives his feelings, he is worse than a beast.
Gu Nansheng sighed and said: "I am not a lover, nor am I a born hero."
Akasha looked at Gu Nansheng in confusion, wondering why he suddenly said that. It was not about love but he was always merciful. Is this sentence too artificial?
Gu Nansheng said: "You may not know my past. I have been looked down upon a lot since I was a child. My parents died when I was seven years old, and my relatives regarded me as a broom star..."
Akasha has never heard Gu Nansheng talk about what happened when he was young. Although Gu Nansheng did not describe too much, Akasha can also imagine that a seven-year-old child's self-esteem should be affected when he is ignored and looked down upon by relatives.
How much damage….
The younger the child, the more sensitive they are to this aspect. Generally, the lack of father's and mother's love since childhood is likely to lead to unhealthy psychological growth. If they are ignored and ignored again, the impact on their young minds can be imagined.
She didn't know why Gu Nansheng mentioned this, so she could only listen quietly.
Gu Nansheng sighed, as if he was remembering those days. People who have not experienced that kind of life in childhood cannot understand it. He continued: "When I was in school, I was used to being called by the teacher on the day I collected tuition and miscellaneous fees. There were still some left in the class.
Gu Nansheng’s tuition and fees were not paid. When school was over, I was used to carrying the canvas schoolbag spun by my grandma and watching those elementary school students carrying Ultraman, Dragon Ball and other cartoon schoolbags playing excitedly.”
Gu Nansheng smiled when he said this, "Haha... you don't know what Ultraman and Dragon Ball are."
Akasha felt uncomfortable hearing that these things might not seem like much to an adult, but to a child, they were unbearable sorrow.
She hugged Gu Nansheng's waist tightly, wanting to convey her care in this way.
Gu Nansheng squeezed Akasha's hand. Even mentioning these past events now makes her feel sad, "It's funny to say that my biggest wish at that time was to have a beautiful schoolbag, but I never asked grandma for it.
Although I am young, I am sensible. My grandma’s money was given by my aunts and uncles, so I can hardly afford to eat. But I didn’t expect that on my eleventh birthday...my grandma used the money she saved from collecting insoles to buy something for me.
I bought a racing driver's schoolbag, and I cried... The next day, I happily carried my schoolbag to school, but I didn't expect that three months later, my grandma left me..."
Gu Nansheng's lips trembled slightly when he said this. He took a deep breath and looked up at the sky. Akasha clearly saw crystal tears flashing in the corners of his eyes. However, because he raised his head, the tears never rolled down.
.
"Since grandma passed away, I have never carried that schoolbag on my back. Later, I always carried it with me when I traveled all over the country. Grandma is the person I am closest to."
After listening to Gu Nansheng's confession, Akasha hugged him tightly. She didn't expect that this man who stood at the top of the mainland would have such a fragile side.
Gu Nansheng kissed Akasha on the cheek and gently patted her satin-smooth back to indicate that he was fine.
He continued: "At that time, I was dull and introverted, but in my heart I longed for love and care more than anyone else, so whoever was sincere to me, I would sincerely reciprocate. The first girl I met who was truly nice to me was
Geng Fei, she has a good family background, is beautiful, speaks very good English, and is also the secretary of the Youth League Committee of the Student Union. There are countless people pursuing her, but I am just a poor boy. At that time, she was out of reach for me.
I never imagined anything."
"But I didn't expect that she would fall in love with me. She took the initiative to approach me and cared about me. She invited me to have dinner together, and deliberately ordered many good dishes in the canteen, and then poured them all onto my plate with the excuse that she couldn't eat them.
, she would put chicken drumsticks for me, and then tell me sweetly that if I eat too much, I will get fat and I won’t be able to get married."
When Gu Nansheng said this, a warm smile appeared on his face. Geng Fei was the first girl in his life and the girl who was most unforgettable to him.
"At that time, my heart was like a desert, but Geng Fei was like a river of spring water. After we established our relationship, I fell in love with her so much that I was hurt to pieces."
Gu Nansheng looked lonely. His subsequent change in temperament was directly related to Geng Fei. It was not until Gu Nansheng returned to Earth that he realized that it was just a misunderstanding. Unfortunately, things have changed.
In fact, Geng Fei had paid enough for him. What he hated at that time was not Geng Fei, but himself.
He touched his waist subconsciously, and then he remembered that there were no cigarettes in this world. He sighed and said, "I failed her, and I hurt her."...
Gu Nansheng didn't want to think about this past incident again. Geng Fei went abroad because of his own incompetence. If she didn't go abroad, she wouldn't be played by Zhao Lin. Even if she left him in the end, it wouldn't end like that.
Gu Nansheng gritted his teeth and said: "I swore not to let any girl who sincerely treats me get hurt. This is not only because of what happened to me when I was young, but also because of Geng Fei."
"I accepted Jones Incense, I loved her because she was willing to commit herself to me on an isolated island to prevent me from taking Frostmourne, and live in seclusion with me on a desert island forever; I accepted Siren, and I loved her because she was there
When the Emperor of the Sea wanted to kill me, he arrived with his imperial guards. Not only did he confront my father, he even challenged the faith of the Sea Tribe - Queen Azshara for me. I kissed Lina because of the three missing people before me.
During the month, she, a little girl, risked her life and traveled through the hinterland of the natural disaster. In order to wait for me to rush to the front line, she almost died in the city because the black dragon destroyed the city. Later, she retreated with the army and continued to wait in Baghdad."
Gu Nansheng's eyes became blurry when he said this, "I don't want any of them to be hurt. I will not ask for affection from others, but I cannot be indifferent to the affection they have given."
Gu Nansheng said so many words in one breath, Akasha felt uncomfortable hearing it. She hugged Gu Nansheng tightly and conveyed her love silently.
"I'm sorry." This was the second time Gu Nansheng apologized.
Akasha stretched out her slender hand to cover Gu Nansheng's mouth and whispered, "I should be the one to say I'm sorry."
Gu Nansheng shook his head, "No matter what the reason is, it's a fact that I don't use emotions exclusively."
Akasha said: "I volunteered. Just like you, I have always longed for true love. The only difference is that you were ignored, while I endured loneliness. After all, I am a woman, and I want to find a shoulder to lean on.
In this world, apart from you, there is really no one else who can hold up a sky for me."
Akasha herself is a sixth-level powerhouse, and there are only twenty people in the entire continent that she can rely on. Among the twenty people, it is really hard to find a man who is as open and considerate to girls as Gu Nansheng.
Gu Nansheng said: "But what you gave me was a complete love, and I..."
Akasha asked: "Is the love you gave me incomplete?"
