The two of them were lying on the bed quietly. The room was filled with thick silence and depression, and even the air seemed to feel cold to the heart.
Listening to her shallow but irregular breathing on the other side of the bed, Lou Xi knew that she was not asleep, so he became even more confused. He didn't know what was wrong. He knew about the child.
It was a big blow to her, but her willingness to come to the army this time showed that she had the intention to forgive him. So why did she reject him so much after meeting him?
After he came in tonight, she didn't speak much, and her eyes always flickered, as if she didn't want to face him. She was also absent-minded when cooking. Some of the dishes were salty, bland, and even...
I almost cut my finger, and when the dishes were ready, I found that the rice cooker was not plugged in... It was a total mess.
She didn't speak during the meal, and ate intermittently. She didn't even hear Sisi calling her. She had never been like this before. Not only did she ignore him, she also worried about gains and losses, which made people uncontrollably worried.
She didn't even ask anything about the commendation meeting, let alone prepare any gifts for him. In fact, he didn't care about material things, he just wanted her heart.
He had feelings for the woman next to him, his wife, otherwise he wouldn't have wanted to have sex with her in the first place, but some messy things happened one after another, especially the left-hand man who hated him to the core.
Ling Feng always felt like a thorn in his heart. It seemed like he was jealous, like he was competitive, like he was unwilling to let her be taken away, like he was afraid that she would be taken away... Various emotions were intertwined, and he
He didn't even understand what was going on, so he used strong methods to force her to get married.
He is a soldier, and he is accustomed to only looking at the results. Every time he performs a mission, the results are the most important, so he thinks that getting married is the result. Once he gets married, everything will be fine. But no, there is no 100% love as the foundation.
The marriage was in jeopardy as soon as there was any trouble, and the first painful price he paid was that she lost her child.
He knew that this incident was all his fault. He wanted to make up for it, really, really wanted to make up for it, but he didn't know how to do it. He was not a person who was good at words. He seldom talked or talked. It was not that he was pretending.
, but he doesn’t know how to express it. He is used to taking direct action and replacing words with strong actions, but now, he doesn’t know what he can do.
He knew that she was not a hypocritical person, and would rather endure her grievances than blame others, so she had not scolded him in the past few days, and she still cared about him, otherwise she would not have specially served the fish during the meal that day.
Go, I won't give him a quilt in the middle of the night. She even brought Sisi here today, but... she is not happy.
She was lying on her side with her back to him, her shoulders still very straight, as if she was very tired, which made him unable to help but want to comfort her, and he did so, subconsciously reaching out and touching her.
He touched her shoulder and helped her pull up the quilt.
Ye Xingchen felt Lou Xi's movements, and his body stiffened subconsciously. The hot temperature in his palms penetrated the thin pajamas and was clearly and directly transmitted to her skin bit by bit. Her heartbeat also started to beat.
, such as beating a drum, she even doubted that he could hear it clearly.
He gently helped her pull up the quilt. This action made her feel like she was being cared for, but at the same time she felt sad. She couldn't express in words this worry about gain and loss.
After losing her child, she began to reflect on this marriage. She even decided to take back her heart and not try any relationship with him again, because the cost of pain was too high, but people are emotional animals, and some things cannot be taken back.
So she couldn't help but come to this commendation meeting, and even carefully prepared gifts. Unfortunately, she didn't buy the badge she wanted, but she still came.
She was still a little uneasy at first, but what Aunt Luo said to her after she arrived made her feel that she was not wrong. People say that bystanders know better, and Aunt Luo was someone who had been there and cared about her sincerely, so she became even more worried.
I strengthened my belief and felt that I had come to the right place this time. Aunt Luo was right, don't dwell on the past because they still have a lifetime to live.
However, just when she was about to make up her mind, she suddenly discovered that the badge she had been asking for appeared in his drawer. No one else would give such a thoughtful gift except Jing Sa, so she didn't understand.
Yes, he said that he and Jing Sa had nothing to do, and she believed him because she believed in his character. But it was precisely because she believed in his character that she doubted it again. If he didn't want it, she could do whatever Jing Sa thought.
He wouldn't even take it as a gift, but he did. He clearly knew Jing Sa's feelings for him, but he still took it. Isn't that okay for them?
She didn't want to make a fuss, so it would be fine if it was another gift, but she happened to be interested in that badge, and she had been begging her boss for so long but couldn't get it, but Jing Sa didn't know how to get it, and she gave it to him first.
This made her feel unspeakable loss and frustration, and she even began to wonder if her efforts were wrong from beginning to end?
Ye Xingchen closed his eyes and didn't want to think about it anymore. He moved his body and leaned closer to the edge of the bed.
Lou Xi was startled for a moment and took back his hand stiffly, but there was a slight moisture in his palm.
The night is getting darker, the light moon shines on my eyes, and the cold wind fills the west building.
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Neither of them slept well that night, but after dawn, they both had to pretend to be happy.
The commendation meeting was held at 8 a.m., but because they had to enter early, they left at 7:15.
When I got downstairs, I saw a group of smiling soldiers, as if they were waiting for them.
"Batalion Commander, good morning!"
"Sister-in-law, good morning!"
"Battal Commander, don't forget your sister-in-law when you speak later. She has half as many military medals as her!"
"Sister-in-law, don't forget to give the battalion commander a sweet reward!"
"Of course, neither of you can forget us. Treat us to a meal after the commendation ceremony!"
"Battal Commander, sister-in-law, we want to go to your house for dinner, but we didn't have enough last time!"
…
Facing everyone's teasing, Ye Xingchen was a little at a loss. How could she be in the mood to say this now? Lou Xi saw her discomfort, so he put on the air of a battalion commander and glared at a group of monkey-like soldiers.
Go back, hold her hand and walk forward.
"Are you unhappy?"
"……No."
"They just like to make trouble, but they have good intentions."
"I know they sincerely welcome me." Today's commotion made her even more uncomfortable.
After everyone had gone away, Ye Xingchen slightly broke away from his hand. Lou Xi's fingers froze for a moment, and he hugged Sisi to cover up the loss.
The military camp was shrouded in mountains, and the air was filled with the refreshing breath unique to the early morning in the mountains and forests. They walked towards the playground, speechless all the way.
Logically speaking, the Military General Commendation Conference should be held in the auditorium of the Military Region Headquarters, but because the Special Forces Brigade played a great role in the 11th military exercise, coupled with the previous Yunwushan fire, the Special Forces Brigade's outstanding performance, the Military General's
The leader decided to visit the Special Forces Brigade to award the medal in person, making such an exception unprecedentedly.
The soldiers of the special brigade are all excited. The commendation meeting will be held on the playground they are most familiar with. They crawl and roll here, where their sweat has been sprinkled and their blood has been shed. Every inch of land here has left behind
They have left their traces, and now, their glory must be left here. This is something that excites them more than any material reward. A resolute and honest smile appears on the dark faces.
Both pairs of black eyes were bright and sparkling with a moving light.
Lou Xi is the focus of today. He will be promoted to colonel and will have another star on his shoulders.
Ye Xingchen hugged Sisi and sat at the family table. She was supposed to sit in the first row, but when she saw Jing Sa was there, she suddenly stopped and sat in the second row.
There were some military wives beside her. She didn't know any of them, but they were all very enthusiastic. They rushed to say hello, introduce themselves to each other, and then asked each other what gifts you prepared for your husband. Ye Xingchen saw that each of them had a gift on their lap.
A gift box comes in different sizes, but all of them are exquisite. Each one is full of deep feelings.
But she didn't take out the men's handkerchief in her pocket. She wanted to wait and decide based on the situation. If she needed to go on stage, she would take it out. If there was no such link, she would not give it away. It was not very good in the first place.
There is no need to give away suitable things now, especially in front of Jing Sa.
At 7:50, all the leaders took their seats on the rostrum. The host adjusted the microphone. The soldiers who were about to be awarded lined up in a row and waited under the stage. Lou Xi was the last one, which was obviously the finale.
Soon, the time reached eight o'clock, and as the moderator's voice slowly sounded, the commendation ceremony officially began.
The first item was to raise the national flag, everyone stood up, the national anthem was sung, and the March of the Volunteers was sung in the mouths of the soldiers. The feeling was particularly different and even more inspiring.
Ye Xingchen couldn't help but feel excited. His personal depression was slowly replaced by the soldiers' ambition and pride, and the blood in his body began to boil unconsciously.
The second item is the speech of the leader of the military general. Different from those fancy official accents, every word in the speech is sincere and vividly depicts the bloody battles of the soldiers. The military wives in the audience burst into tears.
Proud and sad.
The third item entered the theme. The commended soldiers took the stage one after another. Some captains were promoted to majors, some majors were promoted to lieutenant colonels, and Lou Xi was promoted from lieutenant colonel to colonel.
Under the thunderous applause of the audience, he walked onto the stage unhurriedly. The flashlights in the media area closest to the rostrum suddenly lit up. The reporters from the military newspaper rushed to be the first to kill all the negatives.
Jing Sa's eyes have been following Lou Xi, with obsession in his eyes. Over the years, this man's charm has not diminished at all. On the contrary, with the passage of time, he has become more mature and charming.
Ye Xingchen ignored Jing Sa at this moment and stared straight ahead. Lou Xi's tall figure calmly walked onto the podium and stood in the center, as straight as a pine tree. Facing countless pairs of eyes in the audience,
There were hundreds of cameras. He was calm and composed. After the military leader personally awarded him the rank of colonel, he saluted with a standard and solemn military salute. He was handsome and swept the entire audience.
The host handed him the microphone, and the deep male voice immediately hovered in the huge playground. The audience held their breath and listened. The reporters from the military newspaper rushed to ask questions. One of them asked, "Battlemaster Lou, can I ask you a personal question?"
Problem?"
"Can."
"You were promoted to colonel, and you have an extra star on your shoulder. Everyone is happy for you. I heard that a soldier glued a bullet casing to a rifle for you, and another handmade a five-pointed star for you.
There are many, among these gifts, can you tell me which one is your favorite?"
"Is it okay if I say I like them all?" he replied calmly.
The whole audience burst into laughter, but the reporter was reluctant, "Battlemaster Lou, you really don't want to offend anyone, but we just want to know more about you and hear your true feelings. Can you answer directly?"
As expected, the reporters from the military newspaper were different from the entertainment gossip reporters. They also wanted to get to the bottom of things, but the reasons were so convincing.
Some soldiers below began to boo, "Battalion Commander, just tell me, if you say you like me the most, I will train an additional ten kilometers tonight!"
"Me too!"
"I'll train for another 20 kilometers!"
"I'm fifty!"
The soldiers began to compete, and the atmosphere at the scene changed from solemn to enthusiastic, serious yet tender, and everyone burst into laughter.
Lou Xi also smiled, but looked towards the audience.
Ye Xingchen's breathing suddenly tightened, and she subconsciously hugged Sisi tightly with her hands. Her eyes began to wander. She didn't even dare to raise her head to look at him. Instead, she looked at Jing Sa. As she thought, Jing Sa had the same expression on her face.
nervous.
Sure enough, that badge was given by Jing Sa.
She knew a long time ago that she would not be wrong, it was a woman's intuition.
Ye Xingchen quickly lowered his head and didn't look at anyone.
She thought, his favorite thing must be that badge, right? Even she took a fancy to it, so how could he not like it?
The questions in her ears became more and more intense, and her heart tightened more and more.
"Battal Commander, tell me quickly, don't be so pretentious!"
"That's right, tell me what is the gift that makes you most excited?"
"Who gave it to me? What does it look like? Big or small? Soft or hard?"
…
Lou Xi still didn't answer, there was a smile on his lips, but the smile became shallower and shallower, but everyone was immersed in joy and no one noticed.
"Battlemaster Lou, why are you always looking at the audience? Who are you looking at?"
"No need to ask, it must be to see my sister-in-law!"
"Oh--" the soldiers cheered.
Lou Xi suddenly withdrew his gaze and turned to look at the sky, his eyes deep and distant. The smile on his lips turned into a bitter smile, and he didn't speak for a long time.
Sisi suddenly moved, opened her eyes wide, then looked up at the sky, blinking her eyes, half understanding.
Old people often say that children are spiritual. The younger the child, the more spiritual they can feel. This statement has no scientific basis, but there are many things in this world that cannot be explained by science.
"My favorite gift doesn't have a name because I haven't had time to get it yet..." A deep male voice swirled, with a hint of sadness in his tone.
"That was a gift from God, but then it was taken back..."
"I don't know what it looks like, because it's too small and hasn't taken shape yet..."
"It should be so soft that it can even melt people's hearts..."
"But I don't know when she existed, but I love her..."
Ye Xingchen lowered his head, tears suddenly filling his eyes. She understood, he was talking about... their child.
Not wanting to lose her composure, she quickly raised her hand to wipe away her tears, but she didn't want her tears to flow more and more. She subconsciously took out the handkerchief in her pocket. As soon as she got it in her hand, it was suddenly snatched away.
"Is this for me?" Lou Xi walked off the stage at some point and came to her side.
Ye Xingchen looked up blankly, his hand was held by him, and he pulled her up from the chair. Then Sisi was also taken away from his arms, and he pulled her back to the stage.
Everyone was stunned and didn't understand why the two people who were supposed to be happy suddenly looked sad, and the heroine even burst into tears. But when they thought of what Lou Xi just said, everyone suddenly understood.
Got it, it turns out...
Everyone felt uncomfortable.
Luo Lan secretly shed tears and finally covered her face with her hands.
Lou Xi looked at Ye Xingchen weeping silently. The tears seemed to burn his heart. He couldn't help but stretched out his hand to hug her and kissed her regardless.
"Xingchen, forgive me, okay?"
Ye Xingchen's head buzzed, and suddenly it went blank. The next second, his tongue drove straight in.