If you know that there will be no results in your relationship, but if you still get stuck in it, no one will sympathize with you.
Haiyao clenched the car keys in her hand, with a bitter self-deprecating smile on her lips, feeling empty-hearted.
Returning to City B is equivalent to returning to their respective lives, no longer intersecting and no longer disturbing each other.
The day she first returned home, she was even a little unaccustomed to it. She always felt that something was missing in her life. Every time she listened to the children talking about Gu Tingchuan, her heart would overflow with sadness.
She could only numb herself with work. On the other hand, she helped Xu Yizhong suppress the company's affairs and contacted well-known local experts. She tried hard to persuade him to receive treatment, but he was unwilling to cooperate no matter what. Every time she wanted to
Whenever he opened his mouth, he would stop in advance, or change the subject with a smile, "Don't talk about this, Haiyao, I don't want to talk about my illness every day."
He smiled bitterly, "Everyone will die. Instead of being afraid all day long, I might as well face and accept it calmly."
After hearing him talk about accepting death, she hurriedly said, "Maybe if you get treatment, everything will be fine."
"Now that medicine is so advanced, everything will turn around and miracles will happen."
"I never believe in miracles."
He reached out and patted her shoulder, and said bitterly, "If you still think of me as a friend, just spend this time with me. I just want to fulfill some wishes in the last few days and don't leave with too many regrets."
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"Haiyao, I know my own body very well. My disease did not develop in a day or two, and it cannot be changed by miracles at this time."
He sounded as if he had seen through everything and was just waiting for death to come.
Haiyao still didn't give up and persisted in persuading, "As long as you can survive, you have more time to do what you want to do!"
Thinking of him leaving and feeling his negative attitude towards death at the moment, she suddenly felt sad, her eyes were hot, she bit her lip tightly and choked out, "I really don't want to see you die, please promise me, next week
Follow me to the hospital to meet a specialist and start treatment."
"Wasn't Xu Yizhong not afraid of anything in the past? Why are you shrinking now?"
"This is not like you at all. Have you ever thought that if you just work harder, you might be able to survive?"
Hai Yao kept persuading her, her clear watery eyes filled with tears, which made Xu Yizhong's heart filled with love. He sighed and hugged her gently, and said helplessly, "I really don't know what happened to this matter.
You know, right or wrong."
"It's the greatest luck for me that you can face me again, but Haiyao, I don't want you to feel sorry for me or worry about me."
"I've done too many things that I'm sorry for you, why do you still care about my life and death?"
He hugged her gently and sighed, "At this moment, having you by my side is the best gift from God to me. I don't want to make you sad or worried."
"Then you promise me!"
She said with tears in her eyes, "Promise me that you will accompany me to the hospital for treatment next week!"
She was too insistent, but he still couldn't bear to refuse, so he could only temporarily agree, and reluctantly agreed. His uncertain answer made her smile, and she saw a smile on her lips and tears in her eyes.
"I will accompany you."
That sentence: I will accompany you...
He knew very well that it was out of sympathy for his old friend...
He also understood very well that she was able to help him by his side these days because they had met before and she could not turn a blind eye.
That feeling is just like a friend you once knew. When you know that he is in trouble and sick, you will feel sad and sigh, and then you will be willing to do everything you can to help him...
Isn't that exactly how she treats him at this moment?
Xu Yizhong knew it in his heart, but he still loved her.
People always understand how good the other person is and how important they have lost only after they lose...
Even if she was pitying him out of sympathy at this moment, he just wanted to have her goodness for a short time at the last moment.
She was so good to him that he didn't want to leave this world...
She would accompany him to visit grandma's grave, and accompany him to the places where they had been to relax...
Life suddenly became richer. She would take the children to watch movies with him, cook for them herself, come to his room from time to time, and help him clean up, making the whole house clean.
With a warm taste...
But even though she did so many things for him, he couldn't see the real smile on her face.
There was always a bit of reluctance in her smile, so reluctant that it made him feel distressed...
He still remembered that day when she asked him what he wanted to eat. He thought there was no need to go to so much trouble. There was only pasta at home, so he said pasta casually. Unexpectedly, her expression suddenly changed. When he asked again, she reluctantly said
Put on a smile and say it's okay...
If she was really fine, she wouldn't have red eyes while making pasta in the kitchen...
Seeing her eyes turn red, his heart felt as if he had been stabbed hard by something sharp.
But she explained with a smile, "I got chili pepper in my hand and accidentally rubbed my eyes, so..."
What a lousy explanation!
And he could only nod in cooperation, "Be careful, it will be very uncomfortable if you get it in your eyes."
Although there is a smile on the face, is the heart still smiling?
There is a kind of laughter that is uglier than crying...
There is a kind of laughter that makes you feel like the air has become sour and you just want to cry.
He wondered if he was too selfish. He wondered if he should do something for her?
But, what can he do for her at this moment?
He was no longer the rich and powerful Xu Yizhong, and he was no longer the person she loved deeply. Nothing he could do could bring her the happiest smile. He sadly found that he could only draw temporary happiness from her.
, but can't do anything for her...
I really want to ask her what she thinks, and what is going on between her and Gu Tingchuan.
However, when he saw the turmoil between Gu Tingchuan and Li Yuner in the newspaper, he did not dare to mention this name in front of Hai Yao for a while!
The night was too late and it was raining again.
He drove her back, and by coincidence, the places she passed along the way were places she and Gu Tingchuan had visited together.
When she was at the lowest point in her life, it was Gu Tingchuan who gave her an affirmative look. He took her to so many places, and many of the things she later learned were taught by him personally...
She used to think that it was difficult to fall in love with others, and she used to think that her feelings for Gu Tingchuan were nothing more than a terrible habit.
She was used to someone hugging her to sleep late at night, she was used to him taking the initiative to admit his mistakes, she was used to having him accompany her in everything she did...
It was he who taught her how to taste wine, who took her to mahjong places, and who taught her how to play golf. When there was a problem with her work, he would come over and pat her head lovingly, and then patiently ask, "What?"
Is this such a big deal worthy of my wife being so worried? Show me."
I still remember that on Valentine's Day that year, he approached her again and again in order to spend the holiday with her, but she scolded her. This was the first time in the long night that she was afraid that he really wouldn't go home, and she was also the first to
The next time I thought about it, what would happen to her if this man never obeyed her again?
After all, she was afraid, afraid that she would lose his kindness in an instant, so she guarded her heart tightly, so she was indifferent to him, hid her thoughts from him, and pretended to be strong towards him...
She admitted that she was a timid woman, someone who expected love extravagantly, but was afraid of losing her original self due to excessive love. She did not dare to give too much and was unable to move forward in reality. In the eyes of Gu Tingchuan, she must think that she
I have never loved him deeply.
He chose someone else, maybe she really shouldn't blame him.
Raindrops snaked down the car window, neon flashed, and the car window reflected her face full of thoughts, and her clear eyes were illuminated by the light.
Her eyes were very tired, so she closed them gently to rest, but fell asleep unconsciously.
The car stopped downstairs, Xu Yizhong turned off the engine, looked sideways at her tired face, and wanted to reach out to touch her face with distress, but the hand he just stretched out froze in the air, and dropped helplessly after a moment...
He leaned against the cushion behind him, sat quietly beside her, and looked sideways.