The thin face is full of haggardness, thinner and darker, which makes people feel distressed.
The ash and scattered cigarette butts all over the floor made her feel suffocated.
When did he become so haggard, when did he smoke, and when did he learn to torture himself like this.
He seemed to sense that she was back. When she came closer, he opened his eyes, which seemed to be full of surprises.
Surprised by her arrival.
He stared at her, and she stared at him.
The two were speechless for a long time.
"Have you been here for a long time?" Judging from his appearance, he must have been waiting here all night, but she did not dare to ask more questions, for fear that some of the emotions she had been suppressing would break out because she could not control them.
"It's okay." His voice was a little hoarse, and he could not hide his tiredness.
He didn't ask her directly why she didn't answer his call for so long and didn't tell him that she changed her number. Although he could go through Ding Xixi, he still didn't ask aggressively.
"Come in and sit down. You must be tired after standing for a long time." She tried her best to hide her emotions and said politely.
After saying that, he took out the key, inserted it into the door and turned it.
Just at the moment when the door was about to open, my body was hugged tightly by strong arms. It was so tight that half of it seemed to slip away if I relaxed even slightly, so I tried desperately to hold on.
Joni paused there and stopped all movements. The overwhelming warmth swept over her. It was what she had longed for the most, but now.
"Ye Yang, there will be someone here." She called his name softly, not knowing how to deal with such a situation.
"Don't leave me, okay." He ignored her worries and hugged her tightly and said behind her.
Expect, pray, and expect like a child.
"I, we." She became incoherent because of panic.
"Don't leave me." He rubbed his head on her shoulder, as if he wanted to absorb her warmth.
Qiao Ni bit her lip hard to suppress the tears that were about to come out.
That's right, lately, she has been crying all the time, so much that she can't count them all, so much that she almost feels like she's going crazy, and is about to be buried by some kind of emotion.
"Let's go inside first." She frowned and opened the door. The door was never a suitable place to talk.
She held his hand behind her back and entered the house.
As soon as the door closed, she was piled on top of it.
The lips were tightly sealed.
With a long time of expectation, a long time of waiting, a long time of pain, and a long time of suffering.
It contains too many meanings, making this kiss painful from the lips to the heart.
"Ye Yang." At this moment, the tears finally couldn't be stopped and poured out. She shouted the name of the man who loved her and who was also the name of the person she cherished extremely.
"Don't be like this." She sobbed softly. She obviously didn't want to hurt him anymore, and she obviously wanted to make him better before she left. But when she saw him like this, it was all because of her so that she wouldn't feel heartache.
He is so sunny and beautiful, and cannot be desecrated or contaminated. She actually let such a good person suffer for her.
Really damn.
"What do I need to do to keep you from leaving me?" He gradually let go of her and looked at her with pain in his eyes.
"I, we, are not suitable." It was really inappropriate. Since what happened six years ago, she had frozen all her feelings.
Really, I don't deserve anyone.
From body to soul, everything is incompatible.
"Why is it inappropriate? Could it be that you don't like me, or, no."
"No." Before he could say that crucial word, she hurriedly stopped him. She didn't dare to listen, she was afraid, fearing that she would be completely defeated if he said that word.
"Since I like you and you like me, then why?" He asked her as if he wanted to show her the most sincere side of his heart to express his sincerity.
"Me." She really likes him. When she is with him, she feels relaxed and happy like never before. She likes this feeling, his respect, his gentleness, his cuteness, and his tolerance.
Love everything about him.
"You have also seen that I have slept with other men and had children. Don't you mind if I do this?" She gritted her teeth and spoke slowly, as if every word was alive in Ling Chi, and she did not dare to look at it anymore.
His eyes were afraid that such words would blaspheme him.
But she still brutally blasphemed her by throwing herself into her arms when she was pregnant with another man's child.
Why are you so bad?
It hurts just thinking about it.
"If he can love you well, protect you, cherish you, and make you happy, then I have nothing to say and I wish you well. But are you happy now? Are you happy? Are you living well?"
He hit the softest spot in her heart.
She trembled and didn't know how to answer. In the past few months, she had been living in chaos every day. She was confused between day and night. She often woke up in the middle of the night when she dreamed about it. At one point, she felt that she could hardly bear it anymore.
"If he can't, then let me do it, okay." Seeing her face turn pale, he hugged her arm and said, as if he wanted to lose all his warmth to her.
"Why, Ye Yang, why do you have to be so nice to me? You are so good and excellent. There will be a very good girl to love you, and you will also love her very much. Why do you have to follow her?
And me."
"There is no reason, just because I met her, fell in love, and fell in love." He took her into his arms and said.
I met her, my heart moved, I fell in love, so I wanted to wait for her all my life. But could she have such a waiting?
She muttered silently, feeling his fierce heartbeat.
"No matter how you were in the past, no matter what happened, from today on, let me take you on a new journey, a road you have never walked on. How about." He hugged her, lovingly and tenderly,
It seemed like he was rubbing her into his body.
"Ye Yang, me." How could she deserve him to treat her like this?
"I'm sorry, I can't." She bit her lip and said. Although she was so greedy for such an embrace, such warmth, and such love, her reason told her that everything was not as simple and beautiful as they imagined.
The body of the man hugging her stiffened and stood there motionless for a long time, as if frozen.
The two of them, he holding her, were in the room, silent.
"Am I not sincere enough?" He asked softly in her ear, as if every breath hurt.
"No, it's me, I'm not worthy. Time, as long as time passes slowly, you will slowly forget me, and then you will find a very good girl, and you will be happy together." She helped him look forward to the future.
good.
"Time? Since you don't let me be so persistent and forget it, why can't you forget it?" He asked her back.
"This." She was stuck there.
"Because I made an unforgivable mistake, which cannot be erased by time." Her mother's death was the deepest pain in her heart no matter how many years passed, and she could never forgive herself.
"Why are you so harsh on yourself? Why can't you heal it? If you find it difficult, I will work with you to help you heal it." He said slightly excitedly, no longer as calm as before.
Me and you.
He said that he would face and overcome difficulties together with her until all obstacles are lifted. What kind of emotion would make him say such words?
"No, this is a mistake I made. I am the only one who should bear the responsibility. You should not and cannot get involved." That would be unfair to him.
"Girl, you shouldn't keep getting stuck in the past. You've buried yourself so deeply that sometimes you can't even see yourself anymore." He looked at her with distressed eyes.
"That's my mother. She gave birth to me, raised me, and worked hard to bring me up. She is not someone else. You ask me, what can I do? How should I let go? I'm sorry, I'm not a saint.
I am not that detached and detached, and I cannot let go of such a mistake, which has caused the greatest harm to the person I am closest to and dearest to." While choking, he spoke as if he wanted to break out the words that had been buried for many years.
"I am guilty, and I am willing to bear such a crime for the rest of my life."
"You have already carried more, isn't it enough?" Ye Yang grabbed her left wrist and let go of the watch.
On the inner side of the wrist, a sinuous scar is clearly visible from the far left to the far right. Although the wound has been gone for a long time, it is no longer as horrific as it once was, but there are still obvious traces that bear witness to the most intense grief ever.
She was startled, wondering how he could discover this place where she had been hiding.
Over the years, she has always brought various large watches to cover up this place. Even her roommate who has been in the dormitory for several years has never noticed it, but he actually knows it.
"You tried to commit suicide because of guilt, but you think you really succeeded in committing suicide. Will your mother feel at ease in heaven? Is this what she wants? She committed suicide because she was afraid of dragging you down, and she committed suicide because she hoped that you would not
If she hurts herself again like that, she will commit suicide just to fulfill you. If your mother knew that you have been carrying the guilt of that year, she would be so uncomfortable in heaven and how heartbroken she would be. Have you thought about her and considered it?
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He actually knew everything. He actually knew everything about the worst decision she had ever made, killing her mother.
"You know everything." It turned out that she had no secrets in front of him.
"Yes." He nodded and admitted.
He knows her past and how miserable she is, so why is he still willing to be with her? Does he really not care?
Suddenly, she felt ashamed.
It seems to be humbled to the lowest level of dust.
"No matter what, I want to be with you, protect you, stay with you, and stay with you for the rest of your life." That kind of sincerity made her heartache.
"Me." She was at a loss and didn't know what to do.
It was chaotic, everything was chaotic and out of her imagination, out of her control, out of her tolerance.
"Will you marry me?" He suddenly knelt in front of her, took out a small delicate pink velvet box, opened it, and a white gold ring with a rose-shaped ruby surrounded by small diamonds suddenly appeared.
She was completely stunned by what she saw in front of her. She never expected that it would be like this.