I have a brocade bag. I embroider an orchid in a light blue color with gold thread, which is elegant and ordinary.
I once asked my aunt what was inside. It was soft and slippery when pinched. My aunt said it was hair and must have been packed away.
It's time to keep it, this bag is my lucky charm.
I am the most favored by my father. I can get whatever I want. No one dares to disrespect me in front of my father.
Yes, in front of the Emperor Father.
My name is Huangfu Mingyue, and I am the eldest princess of the imperial dynasty. I have an extraordinary status. But privately, everyone despises me because I have a crazy mother, Liu Zijin, who was once the queen.
When Grandma Huang was alive, she loved me deeply. Every time I saw her, she would hug me on her knees, cry and sigh.
Grandma Huang, why is Mom so crazy? Can I see her?
This palace is too cold...your mother's heart is cold...
Cold? Isn't there a charcoal fire? My father is so kind to Mingyue, so Mingyue goes to ask for help from my father.
Mingyue, don't do it! Do you think your father really loves you... Sigh... you still don't understand... Your father is in great pain. Someone is piercing his heart like a thorn, and it hurts him so much.
panic.
What thorn? Mingyue doesn’t understand?
She...she...Mingyue, remember Grandma Huang's words, be sure to speak less! Don't ask any questions!
When I grew up, I began to find that this huge palace always tacitly concealed some things, such as Wangshu Palace, Hetang, the former queen... and the Liu family...
I always carry that kit with me. When I was young, my father would sometimes hug me and touch the kit thoughtfully. I would quietly lean in his arms and dare not speak. I always felt a little bit on my head.
The coolness is like raindrops falling on the temples.
Later, I took a look at myself in the mirror and asked Aunt Ya, Auntie, do I look like my mother? Maybe, who do I look like?
Aunt Ya smiled and said that the princess was so beautiful and beautiful that she looked like an emperor.
Am I beautiful? But why does he never look at me?
The first time I saw that man was ten years old. He was tall, thin, with a shiny red jade crown. He had a faint smile on his lips and followed behind the head of the Xie family. His back was straight and his face was as bright as the moon... I was sitting
He accepted their worship at the highest place. From a distance, I could not clearly see his eyes. I only felt that he had a warm light and a gentle breeze...
Every year, I could see him on the first day of junior high school, from when I was ten to eighteen.
The year my father passed away, I was wearing plain clothes and cried so hard that my heart broke and I screamed at the top of my lungs. With the persuasion and help of the ministers, I stood up. I walked step by step, my mind was confused. Over the years, they called me crazy.
Mother, you said that I was only favored by my father because I was protected by the dead. What my father likes is not Huangfu Mingyue’s daughter...
In order to survive in this cold harem, I was cautious. In order to make myself live a better life, I studied music, chess, calligraphy and painting seriously, and tolerated everything.
When I walked past him, he was wearing a white robe. He was obviously a head and a half taller than me, but he bowed his head to me.
You... I opened my mouth, but it was hard to make a sound. My throat was hoarse from crying. I was a little dizzy and almost fainted when I stumbled. I thought he would be moved, but I saw that he just looked at me out of politeness, and then turned around.
He turned his head and followed the ministers in worship.
I smiled miserably, it turned out that I was nothing, but fortunately, I still had the title of eldest princess.
I spent countless nights thinking about why I noticed him, whether it was because of the slight disdain on his respectful lips or his unruly and resolute handsomeness...
One year during the palace celebration, his clothes were stained with firecracker debris, and his face was a little haggard due to travel, but he was having a lively conversation with a prince next to him. After listening carefully, it turned out that they were talking about interesting things about the New Year's Eve. I quietly
Hiding behind the curtain and listening, I am smiling and full of longing.
Maybe, I want to leave here too much and live another life...
In fact, I should have hired a consort a long time ago, but my father has always been dependent on me, so the marriage has been postponed.
Because I told my father that I was just waiting for someone, and when he came, I would get married.
At that time, my father-in-law hurriedly said, "The princess has a distinguished status. How can I, the eldest princess of the dynasty, marry me?"
The father sighed softly, his face was pale, and he was talking to himself like he was dreaming, "Wait, so what if you wait? What if you can't wait? What if you can't wait?" Future generations will grieve and ignore it, which will also make future generations mourn again...
..
The imperial doctor said that the emperor was suffering from depression and overthinking.
On the day when I turn eighteen, I know I can't wait any longer. I want to tell the emperor, please tolerate me once. I want to recruit Xie Yaoying as my consort, and my husband...
On that day, I got dressed up and specially sent an invitation to the Xie family.
The banquet was colorful, and the handsome young men from all over the country were so charming and suave, but he didn't come.
At Xie's house, a handsome young man and a girl came to the Xie family. I couldn't help being disappointed. I drank cup after cup with a smile.
If you are drunk, you can give me a reason to cry. No, no, I can't cry, don't cry. It would be terrible if he comes when I cry.
I returned to the palace in a daze and was about to fall asleep when I heard someone making a noise in the courtyard. I asked the palace maid to come and see. Then I realized that the ninth son of the Xie family had gone the wrong way and had a quarrel with his own girl.
You pig, you’re going the wrong way!
You are a pig! At least I remember to use my brain to memorize it. You are a young master who can’t even remember the route!
Yan Liuli! What a fool! How dare you talk back.
Cow gallbladder? People say eating leopard gallbladder...
Haha, if you, Yan Liuli, had eaten the guts of a leopard, you should have pulled out the emperor’s beard!
I couldn't help laughing, walked to the door of the palace and said, The emperor is young and has no beard.
The expressions of the two of them were very funny at that time. They probably looked at me for a long time harmlessly, and then they put their hearts in their stomachs and stepped forward to talk to me. I was very happy that afternoon, listening to them tell all kinds of interesting things.
, I intentionally or unintentionally inquired about Xie Yaoying, even though I had already become familiar with many things about him through various channels...
When Liuli left, she saw my kit and liked it very much. She said it would be great if there were some incense in it. She said she didn't know why, but she just liked it very much.
I looked at the brocade bag and thought to myself, is this brocade bag a blessing or a misfortune over the years? Inside it are a few strands of green hair worn by Liu Zi, my aunt, the former Concubine Shu.
What was given up and what was carried? I don’t know, after all, those things are in the past.
Seeing the girl staring at me, I suddenly felt that she seemed familiar to me before. I handed her the bag of tips, but she didn't dare to take it.
Xie Yaoyu, on the other hand, took it for her and stuffed it into her hand, saying, This girl is like this, she is always embarrassed to say what she wants, and looks at it helplessly, like a beggar.
When I thought about it later, I really laughed. If this person really had a spirit, it was my aunt who was secretly connecting us to those fates.
In March of that year, the emperor issued an imperial edict to recruit his eldest son, Xie Yaoying, as his consort.
There are many stories about him, including his ruthless and decisive tactics in the shopping mall, his calm mind in dealing with things... The most painful thing for me is his affair with a famous prostitute, which is known to everyone in the entire capital.
On the day of the request, Emperor Huangfu Yubo teased me a few words about this matter. I smiled slightly, but my mouth was bitter, but when I looked at him, his eyes were as hard as stone!
People say that people who are about to get married are anxious and excited, but my heart has always been stabbed by a knife. It's like I knew he would not obey in every possible way, but I reluctantly and stubbornly stuck the knife in my heart.
I couldn't help but push it in little by little, telling myself that it would stop hurting after a long time...
Just like my crazy mother beat me.
After my father's death, I began to restlessly look for opportunities to see my mother. The emperor's brother also turned a blind eye and tolerated me. We all know that the death of our father only took away some secrets that were kept secret, and some taboos were also removed.
No worries.
I knew those stories and saw my mother.
They all said how beautiful my mother used to be. When I looked at her, I couldn't help but sigh that the years and pain were so painful. I was trembling a little and thought, let it go, don't force it...
I’m unwilling to give in... Maybe I can wait and I’ll get it...
My mother would hit me, and sometimes she would whine and bite me like a wounded wolf. It was very painful. I gritted my teeth and I never screamed. In fact, my mother was in more pain than me.
There were times when she was sober, and she would smile at me, with the slightest wrinkles at the corners of her eyes but her temperament was like orchid, elegant and noble.
I said to her, Mom, I have a consort.
It seemed like it took her a long time to react and ask, oh, is it a general or a famous family?
I shook my head and said coquettishly, he is a tacky businessman.
Oh, that's fine. Does he love Mingyue?
Love! The prince-in-law loves Mingyue like a treasure!
That's good, that's good...
My throat tightened and I turned my face away, my eyes red.
I didn’t dare to say it. On my wedding night, he treated me coldly and roughly took away my first night with almost no warmth. I couldn’t cry. I faced the rumors of the world with a graceful smile...
I thought he would be happy to get the business of making armors for the Ministry of War for the Xie family through General Lei, but I didn't expect him to be more cold and reprimanded with a cold face. I don't need to exchange my body for that business. The Xie family and his strength have no need at all.
I pretended to be generous in redeeming my confidante and inviting her into his house, but he ridiculed me for my pretentiousness.
My heart is so cold, Ying, Mingyue really doesn’t know how to love you, is Mingyue wrong?
It turns out that you hate me.
Lei Ben often came to see me, and when he saw that I was getting thinner and thinner, he couldn't bear it and stopped talking.
I laughed. If you really miss our friendship in the past, just keep it in your heart. It would be good for Ming Yue.
Later, when I had Jun'er, he stopped sleeping here, touched me or looked at me again. Am I so abominable?
Win, I'm tired.
So, after giving birth to Jun'er, I moved out of your room and ordered the girl to clean up a secluded courtyard. Having Jun'er is enough for me. I wish you two lovers to share the beauty of the moon...
Over the years, I have been hiding and abusing myself. I often went to the palace and let my mother beat me, leaving me with scars all over.
No one knows, because you never care about me.
Win, this is so tiring, so tiring...
Liuli said, in fact, everyone is so tired of love.
I laughed miserably, for so many years, why was I destined to be such a pitiful character who was pitied and spoken against behind my back? Why was it such a desolate situation where I was in front of the public and shed tears behind the scenes...
The path is chosen by oneself, no matter how hard it is, you have to keep going...
I don’t know where the love started, but it goes deeper and deeper.
The day my mother died, I suddenly lost all my strength... He didn't love me, so why should I force myself, even if I could die for him?
No, I have Jun'er, so I can't...
Finally, I walked into his room again, and he was sleeping there, with a slight frown on his face, as if he was not sleeping peacefully.
I sat there and looked at him for a long time, thinking about the way he smiled while holding Jun'er in his arms, and then looked back at me with a deep look; thinking about that day when he accidentally broke in when I was bathing and saw that I was covered in scars, and there was something in his eyes.
I mistakenly thought of worries and questions; I thought about that year when he held hands with another woman, and when he saw me, the woman staggered and fell into his arms, how anxious he was, and how indifferent he was to me the year my father died.
.....
He has always been indifferent to me, which makes me heartbroken.
He woke up and saw me standing in front of the window. Perhaps he was still awake, and tentatively called me hoarsely, "Princess..."
Taking a deep breath, I looked at him, who was still handsome, my consort, and slowly said to him, Consort, I want to return to the palace, Jun'er will be entrusted to you to take care of me.
He was surprised, and then said in a cold voice, the princess has a heart of stone. The princess is the biggest in the house, who can stop her from doing what she wants to do? Even if she wants to sleep with someone and fly together, there is nothing I can do.
Everyone said that the eldest son of the Xie family was calm and calm, but with his venomous tongue and the anger on his face, he didn't look like a big businessman who was taking things easy.
I am very calm. Over the years, I have been prosperous on the outside, but behind the scenes I have been bruised. Liuli said, I must be strong and happy. However, my heart is dead, and how can I be happy after all the blood has flowed out? I am happy with this pain.
I couldn't get up, so I told myself to be calm and look at these things and those people calmly.
There is no happiness in tranquility, but no unhappiness either.
I didn't say anything and just looked out the window at the plum blossoms blooming and the flowers falling. He thought I acquiesced.
Wow!
He smashed things in the room like crazy, and the pieces fell at my feet, and I watched quietly.
Then he hugged me, bit my lip hard, and tossed me...
After a long time, he let go of me and held my arms tightly with both hands. It hurt. He whispered, "You are not allowed to leave! Huangfu Mingyue, it was you who wanted me to be your consort. Why are you leaving? You messed up everything."
!What a willful eldest princess!
Win, I love you... I closed my eyes and quietly said the words that have been in my heart for a long time. On our wedding night, when you accused me of choosing you, that’s what I wanted to say to you, because you
Here...I point to the heart.
My heart is like the bright moon.
I forced it, I'm sorry. I thought... thought... I was speechless, my heart ached, and I still couldn't calm down. I was such a coward and incompetent.
Mingyue...are you telling the truth? His eyes were shining, he held my hand tightly, and when he saw that I was in pain, he quickly hugged me into his arms, Mingyue, please don't hide from me, okay?
Hiding? Isn’t it good? I smiled bitterly.
Why should I see you having sex with others...
You've been avoiding me! He's blaming me.
It's you who is hiding from me, okay! I'm powerless.
You and General Na Lei...
You and that confidante again...
Unconsciously, the moon rises above the treetops, and the shadows of flowers and trees move.
It’s not ruthless, nor unlucky. My love for you is like the bright moon. My heart is bright, and I hope you will have mercy on me.