Please be wise, oh! You should be calmer about my pain. - Baudelaire
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"Are you ready?" Xiaochuan asked casually as he took a small travel bag handed over by Michelle.
"Well, let's go." Michelle naturally took Xiaochuan's other hand, and Xiaochuan turned off the lights in the living room, and the two of them went out and waited for the elevator.
Ruochu was still downstairs. To be precise, her eyes were still fixed on the room that was once filled with the laughter and laughter of her and her daddy and carried a lot of joy. The moment all the lights went out, she felt that an unknown weight was being lifted into her heart.
Hit, caught off guard.
Without hesitation, I turned around and ran to the side of the road with all my strength. I stopped a taxi and told the driver to just go around the city. I sat in the back seat with my eyes closed and kept telling the driver to speed up until someone said
This is already the maximum speed.
Although I still know nothing about this aspect, it should be very clear what a man and a woman are doing in a room with the lights turned off. I have bumped into them once on the phone, but this time I can say that I saw it with my own eyes.
Ruochu felt very confused and felt chest tightness. He wanted to get out of the car to get some air, but when he looked out the window, he saw places he was unfamiliar with, so he obediently told the driver the address of Qin's house.
When she got home, she didn't go into the house. Instead, she walked to the lawn and sat down, hugging her knees and taking a few deep breaths. She needed to sort out her thoughts, and it was long overdue.
When I told my parents that I wanted to go out and live with my dad, the reason was to help my dad and help him find happiness as soon as possible. Maybe I really thought that at the time, but what about now?
Now make a hypothesis, if Daddy really remarries Monica at this time, would you be happy? I don’t know, then now that it’s Michelle, why would I be so repelled, or even - painful?
What happened?
Ruochu lay down weakly on the lawn, not caring about what her mother had told her before about girls being taught to stand and sit and to stand. She put her hands behind her head and looked at her without a trace of pure color.
The night is as dark as satin in a daze.
Logically speaking, I shouldn't hate Michelle, and to be honest, Daddy and Michelle are really well matched, at least better than he is with Monica. Maybe they will really be happy together. This is my purpose
Isn’t it achieved? Then you should be happy, right?
Ruo Chu frowned at the brightest star in the sky that was facing him. The question now is, what would he do if his father and Michelle were together? Is it possible to be as happy and productive as he is now?
Will the days of security be gone?
I was suddenly shocked by my own possessiveness. Is it just because I don’t want to leave my dad that I don’t want him to find his own happiness? That is simply too selfish, but, it seems that when my dad is with me,
He is also very happy. Michelle can make her father happy, why can’t she?
Thinking of this, Ruo Chu sat up in a hurry, and the joke he told his dad before about how he wanted to marry his father flashed through his mind. At the time, he was just talking in a hurry, and no one thought about it deeply, but now he thinks about it.
I want to see, isn’t that what I really think?
Ruochu only felt dizzy for a while. If the shock just now was that she couldn't accept Michelle spending the night with her father, it was not that simple now, because she discovered something that shocked even herself, that is, she could no longer accept it.
After leaving him, as long as she thought about not having him by her side, she couldn't imagine what kind of life she would live. It turned out that she had long been accustomed to connecting her life with his. As long as she could be by his side, she
You can stay unmarried for the rest of your life. Is this what is called falling in love with someone?
However, he happens to be - Daddy.
In the living room of Qin House, Ruo Qi and Qin Bei were arguing in front of the TV. The focus was whether the ball just scored was offside. The slow-motion replay showed that the ball was indeed offside, but it could not be seen with the naked eye.
came out, so the referee did not call the ball at that time, but declared the goal invalid after the ball was scored, and the team that scored the goal happened to be supported by Ruoqi. He had made a bet with Qin Bei before, so he was very angry because of this ball.
, Qin Bei did not give in at all.
As soon as Qin Nan entered the living room carrying the fruit, he caught up with the argument between the two men. She said, "Come and eat the fruit." As a result, neither father nor son paid attention to her. Qin Nan shook his head helplessly, but he was very happy in his heart.
After Qin Bei gave Ruoqi a "complicit" sex education, Ruoqi seemed to have really changed. During his usual breaks, he no longer stayed in his room and surfed the Internet secretly, but was more willing to go downstairs and chat with everyone.
Watching TV and chatting, he also likes to talk about what happened at school. Qin Nan sometimes goes to his room occasionally. He no longer sneaks around and quickly turns off the computer for fear of being seen. It seems that he did make a fuss before. Moreover.
Qin Bei's method seems to be really effective. He should be rewarded someday.
However, the two men, one big and one small, kept talking, and their voices became louder and louder. If they continued this way, it would affect Yuan Jingshu's rest. When Qin Nan was at his wits' end, Ruochu walked in listlessly.
"Ruoruo, just in time, look at your dad and your brother, because one ball hasn't been finished yet." Qin Nan complained to Ruochu, wanting to divert the attention of the other two, but he saw that Ruochu looked wrong and couldn't walk.
Walking as fast as usual.
"Ruoruo, what's wrong with you? Have you eaten?" Qin Nan walked up to her and stretched out his hand to touch Ruochu's forehead out of habit.
"Eat, Mom, I'm just a little tired from moving, so I'll go up and rest first." Ruochu lowered his head and said quickly without looking into Qin Nan's eyes. After that, he didn't even say hello to Qin Bei Ruoqi, but went upstairs. But
From behind, it looks like the pace is quite tiring.
Qin Bei stopped arguing with Ruo Qi and glanced at Qin Nan quickly. Qin Nan looked back at him and turned around to go upstairs to see what happened to Ruo Chu. "Nan..." Qin Bei stopped.
She, Qin Nan turned around, Qin Bei shook his head at her, Qin Nan looked up the stairs again, Ruochu had disappeared around the corner, sighed, walked a few steps and sat on the sofa in the living room, "Let's eat
Fruit."
Qin Bei held one of her hands, and Qin Nan understood what he meant. As her daughter got older, she needed her own space to think about her thoughts.
Xiaochuan did not spend the night with Michelle, nor did he even have sex with her. Michelle was so sad that she did not stay at the hotel and went directly to the airport. However, when she left, she left a message for Xiaochuan: "
Whenever he changes his mind, he will go to the United States to find her. She will wait for him for two years, and after two years she is not sure whether she will change."
Xiaochuan watched innocently as Michelle boarded a plane to Europe. His heart was as calm as water. He knew that she was waiting for her to stay, but at this moment, he was worried about another person.
He called Qin Bei and asked if Ruochu was at home. He got a positive answer and didn't say much. He hung up the phone and didn't want to go home, so he broke the vow again and went to a bar to drink. Anyway, he went back to that house.
Just him.
In fact, he didn't understand what he was thinking. He didn't want to get involved in a marriage easily because he was responsible for the other party. But now that he doesn't want to get married, it's not just for this reason. He feels that living like this is quite good.
He didn't want to change easily, even though he knew it would change sooner or later, so he just took it one day at a time and didn't think about these annoying things until he had to.
If Ruochu didn't get up until noon the next day, Qin Nan had to worry. His appearance when he came back last night was quite puzzling. When he went upstairs, he discovered that the girl had a fever.
In fact, Ruochu didn't fall asleep until very late last night, and then fell asleep in a daze. Then he kept dreaming, but all the dreams were related to his father, including what happened in Boston when he was a child.
There is also what happened when we live together now, and she also dreamed about her father painting the hand-painted wall with her. The dream was as real as if it happened in real life.
When Qin Nan went up, Ruo Chu was still asleep, but his flushed face made Qin Nan suspicious. He used his hand to explore and found out what was going on. He shook Ruo Chu awake and asked Qin Bei to drive Ruo Chu.
After going to the hospital and returning after her fever subsided, the child continued to sleep. Qin Nan simply stayed in Ruochu's room to stay with her.
On Monday, Qin Nan saw that although Ruochu's fever had gone away, she still looked bad and couldn't eat, so he asked her to continue to rest at home. Ruochu didn't refuse, which made Qin Nan wonder. Although the child's physical condition was not good
, but I have to be strong. When I was a child, no matter whether I was sick or not, as long as I could walk, I would insist on going to school and never miss a class.
But this time, it seemed that he no longer cared about work. He just rested when he could. His eyes were dull, as if he didn't care about everything, and his spirit was always sluggish, as if he was tired of the world. Qin Nan
I am not worried about her illness, but I am worried about whether she has been hit by something.
He called Xiaochuan and told him that if he was sick and would not go to work for the time being, he might have to stay at home for a few days. Xiaochuan didn't say anything at the time. He put down the phone and started to worry.
Michelle said that Ruochu left after coming in. Xiaochuan did not see Ruochu's expression at that time and did not know her mental state, but it is certain that she saw Michelle's naked body and thought she had hit her.
Private matters with Michelle, and if Ruochu was still a girl, could her illness have something to do with it? Xiaochuan blamed himself a little, and should have chased him out at that time, so he was restless all morning and couldn't stand the manuscript, so he reviewed it
Several articles were all rejected. I feel sorry for the editor who submitted them to him for review today.
In the afternoon, Xiaochuan couldn't sit still anymore, so he bought a bouquet of flowers and went to Qin's house to visit the doctor.
Qin Nan asked for leave to stay with Ruochu at home. When Xiaochuan came in, he happened to meet Qin Nan who had just come down the stairs from Ruochu's room upstairs.
"I heard that Ruoruo is sick, so I came to see her on behalf of "Mirror Image"." Xiaochuan said and handed the flowers in his hand to Qin Nan.
Qin Nan took it with a smile, "This child's health is not very good. Maybe she was too tired from helping her classmates move yesterday. She is not seriously ill. I just want her to rest at home more to make you worry." Qin Nan said as he spoke.
He made a gesture of asking him to sit down. "If you just fell asleep, Brother Xiaochuan, please sit down first. I'm having dinner here tonight. You haven't been here for a long time."
"Uh, no, I have a social event tonight. I'm here to see if everything is okay. Then I'll leave first." Xiaochuan didn't sit down and found an excuse to leave Qin's house.
It was good to know that she was fine. What could he say when he saw her? He really didn't know what to say to her.